I stood there in total disbelief for a few moments. This is really happening. This Spirit Guide is in my room and talking to me. I walked toward her and reached up to touch her face when I realized that this might be rude or it may frighten her. But she did not move like she would be afraid and she did not seem to mind. So I touched her arm and she felt real, then she laughed at me as if I were a curious child. I touched her right wing and it felt like silk, not like feathers at all. There were still several feathers floating all around us. It seemed like a dream but very real, too real to be a dream. I didn’t know what to ask her or where to start. There were so many questions I had. So I decided to start with who Landon was and why my mother was so worried I would see him again. Why we seemed to be linked. Then she suddenly started to answer the question before I even asked it.
“Your mother was very wise and very in touch with your past lives. She was a very good psychic on earth. Should I continue?” She asked me. I nodded. “Landon was your very first husband in 1824. You were married in London and your name then was Claire and his was Henry. He was an heir to a very wealthy estate. You both were upper high class and it was said that you two should marry, even when you were children. He was a gentleman and was a good provider to you and your three children, Annabelle, Anastasia, and Henry Jr. Henry was very in love with you. He treated you like a princess. This was pretty uncommon then. Women were not treated very well, they were meant to stay home and take care of the children and the men would pretty much live separate lives. Would you like to see what you, Henry and your children looked like?”
I answered yes, not knowing what would happen. She put her hands together and started to swirl them in circles. A picture started to appear in front of her, sort of like a very large see through picture. Her hands continued to swirl. The picture grew larger until it was the same height as her.
The woman in the picture was wearing a beautiful Victorian dress that was tight fitting on her small waistline. It had long sleeves that were adorned with lace. Her hair was up in tight curls on her head and she was wearing some sort of hat with lace as well. Her jewelry was gold with, what looked like, rubies and emeralds as the stones. She looked prudish or snobby, but maybe that was because she was not smiling. The man next to her, Henry was tall and handsome. His hair was brown and curly and he had sideburns. He was wearing a black double-breasted coat and gray trousers. The children were very similarly dressed. They were truly adorable and so sweet looking. I only had a few seconds of seeing this picture until it vanished and Ianni sat exhausted on my bed,
“It takes a great deal of effort for me to do that. I may not be able to produce another picture for a while. I’m just going to sit here and let you soak it all in.”
“They were a nice looking family,” I said. “Were we happy in that life?”
“Oh yes. He was very good to you. I knew you and your family well, like I said. You did not know I was there but I was always watching you. You were very lucky to be high class then. They were hard times for many women and men during that time. Cholera is what took your life in 1850. You were forty-nine and he was fifty-two. He died in 1851. He could not live without you. We know about that because you both kept meeting up in your future lives. He was really in love with you, so much that he chose to find you in the afterlife and stay with you until you were ready to move on.”
“Move on? What does that mean?” I asked
“You know, come back here, start a new life. And he did so too. He loved you so much that he forced himself to not forget you in his new life. We call that reviving memories.” I gave her a look, like I was totally confused. “Ok it’s when you have lived your past life and you go home, to Heaven that is, and you choose to do a new life, you reincarnate. Well every time Landon reincarnates he forces himself to revive memories of you and him in your past lives. He could be five or ten years old and he starts to remember his past lives. It’s pretty common to remember some things. You see something that looks familiar and you shrug it off as crazy but really it’s your soul remembering. But Landon had perfected his reviving skills very well. So then he desperately looks for you. No matter what his new life involves. He always finds you and you both fall in love and are together again.”
“And that’s bad?” I asked. It sounded really romantic to me. Not like he was breaking any rules. If I was going to end up with Landon I was not mad about that.
“Yes it’s bad!” She said in a sarcastic tone. The serious side of her was starting to dwindle and I could see a little attitude come alive in her. “You’re not supposed to be with him in this life, he is not your destined mate this time. He was only supposed to be your husband once. And it’s happened now in all three of your lives. And that’s why I’m here. To help you live the life you set out to live when you started it. You see, when you die and come home you have a choice whether to stay or try again, so to speak. You look over your life that you just lived and you can make your choice from there. Well the first time when you came home after living as Claire you chose to reincarnate, you wanted to live a different life. So your soul moved on and you became Emily, then you lived a nice life, you were happy. Henry, or Landon as you know him now, he chose to reincarnate as well. He couldn’t bear to be home without you. It’s strange really because home is a place where there is no sadness or missing anyone, but he did terribly, so he reincarnated as well. He reincarnated as a young man named Cooper Shade. Cooper Shade was poor and penniless. His destiny was to marry a lady named Suzanne Young. You were supposed to marry a man named Garrison Whittaker. He was a writer, and he loved you so. You were his muse. Then Cooper found you. He was a lot younger than you, but you couldn’t resist him and you married him instead. Poor Garrison he was never the same after that. He took his own life. Oh what a shame. And Suzanne died alone and unmarried. Do you see? He messed with people’s lives. What he does affects everything.” She stopped and looked at me as if I committed some sort of crime.
“Well if I’m not supposed to be with him then who am I destined to be with?’ I asked her.
“I told you, I can’t tell you your future, only your past and present. So, like I was saying, I’m here to stop him. It’s really a problem. He is the only one to do this so many times before. Many souls meet up again in future lives. But four times is really strange. And you’re really having a hard time with seeing him again. You can’t sleep, and you really look horrible.”
“Gee thanks some Angel you are. Wait, I just saw him for the first time today, what does that have anything to do with me not sleeping? I mean Lucy told me a guy named Cooper was watching me right before she died and right after that night is when my sleeping stopped. But that was three months ago,” I told her. I was starting to understand what she was saying, still finding it all very dreamlike as the feathers continued to fly around my room. But I was catching on to what she was telling me.
“What! What are you talking about? You don’t remember the dreams?” She asked me.
“I don’t know about dreams Angel girl, all I know is when I do dream I don’t remember much. And I wake up sweaty and feeling sad or I‘m crying after I wake up. I did have a dream I was following a light and it lead to a big oak door.” I was sort of embarrassed to be telling her all of this.
“Ok, first off don’t call me Angel girl. I told you my name. Second, there is a reason you wake up sweaty and sad. It’s because he is visiting you in your dreams, his soul can disconnect while he sleeps and come to you in your dreams. You know when you dream that you are flying or watching something happen from a far? It’s because your soul is traveling around. That is when he comes to you to visit. So you’re dreaming about being with him and that’s what’s making you sad, because you have to leave him. The reason Lucy called him Cooper was because she didn’t hear the full name she only caught the last name. I was there. I followed Landon’s Spirit Guide to Lucy’s apartment. His Spirit Guide was Lucy‘s Guide too. We don’t just guide one soul, we guide several. So when it w
as Lucy’s time to go her Guide, Lillith, was there with her when she passed and while she was guiding her soul to go home she delivered the message that he was here and he loves you and well you know the rest. So anyway the point of all this is that he found you again and he’s trying to weasel his way into your arms again. He is totally going against the rules. Again. So I’m here against my rules to tell you to stay away from him. And once you do you will go back to your normal life. No more dreams of him, no more sleepless nights, worried auntie or weird sightings. Got it?”
She seemed like she was starting to get annoyed. She didn’t even think to ask how I felt. This was the strangest thing to ever happen to me, even weirder than all my sightings. I seemed to understand what was going on with Landon though. He loved me and wanted to be with me again apparently. I didn’t really find that to be a problem. But she said it was not my path and that I was meant to do something else. It still didn’t make sense why I saw my mother in my bathroom or the carving on the tree. Just then the feathers in the room started to slow down and I noticed a few falling onto my bedroom floor instead of floating.
“Ok, listen because time is almost up for me. I don’t know when I’ll be able to talk to you again or let you see me because it’s so not allowed. I will be watching you and I can come to you in your dreams, so stay in tune with them. Oh, and you can talk aloud and I can hear you. Remember two things. Stay away from Landon and try to follow your destined path.”
Suddenly, in a flash, she was gone. My room was empty. With no feathers or crazy red headed Angels in it. I still didn’t see why I had to stay away from him, why couldn’t we be friends? All I knew was I was still going to see my doctor in the morning because I was going nuts. Also, I totally didn’t want to be like my mother, seeing dead people or being a “psychic”. I tried to convince myself that this was just a dream and it didn’t really happen. It almost worked until I finally lay down to try to sleep and I found a feather on my pillow.
Chapter 5
Dr. Charlie
My alarm started buzzing loudly at 6:00 a.m. I was unsure as to how long I had slept because I didn’t even know what time it was when I laid down. I sat up and felt very dizzy and sweaty again. My face was soaking wet and so was my hair. As I started to wake up I remembered the night’s events as they started to flood back to me. No wonder I was dizzy! I had a crazy night and I knew I was definitely hung over.
I reached to the bedside table and shut off my alarm. I couldn’t stand to hear that noise anymore, my head was throbbing. I saw the silver feather from the night before on the table and it confirmed, once again, what had happened. I stumbled to the shower and started the water. I had to hurry and get ready because I didn’t want to be late to my appointment.
As I stood in the shower I started to cry uncontrollably. I sat down on the floor of the shower with the water hitting my back. I couldn’t believe all that had happened. It made me so sad that all this was going on and I had no clue. I just wanted it to go away and to go back to my semi normal life. I wanted to date Dallas and really get to know him. I didn’t want Landon to try to take that away from me. Who did he think he was coming into my life and taking away what was meant to be? He had some nerve to do this to me. He has succeeded three times before and this time I knew about his motive. There would be no way I was going to let him do it again. At first I felt that it was sweet that he loved me so much and I felt bad that he did all this for me, but now I’m mad that he is over taking my life.
I stood up and pulled myself together for the sake of my sanity. I washed my hair and body as fast as I could and then shut off the water. As I stepped out of the shower I heard a knock on my door. I thought I was hearing things so I started drying myself off, but then I heard it again. Who could be at my door at this time? I put on my robe and walked to the door and opened it a crack. It was Dallas holding two cups of coffee.
“Dallas what are you doing here?” I asked while pulling my robe tighter.
“I told you I would bring you your car but you failed to give me your car keys so I have my truck. I can take you to your car, is that ok?”
As he asked me he smiled, which showed off his dimples. I totally forgot about my car. I guess I would have remembered when I went to go to my parking spot and there was no car there. I let him in and told him to have a seat and wait for me to dress. I dressed in my work uniform and pulled my wet hair into a ponytail. I didn’t apply any mascara today, there was no time. My face was pale and sickly looking so mascara would do no good. I walked up behind Dallas, who was now on my couch asleep still holding the coffee in his hands. I coughed quietly to wake him so that I didn’t startle him. I didn’t want him to wake up and spill hot coffee all over himself. He sat up and yawned he looked worse than me, if that was even possible. He didn’t have a red head Spirit Guide with silver wings in his room last night. Well, if he did he didn’t see her. Then it occurred to me Dallas has a Guide as well. I wondered what his was like and if she was here right now.
“You look like you didn’t get any sleep Avery. I mean, you’re beautiful as always, but you look so tired. Can’t you reschedule this appointment and take a nap with me on your couch?”
It sounded so nice to snuggle with him but I did not want to blow off this appointment. I had waited too long to get some advice for my problem, even though I knew this doctor would laugh or think I was a real nut when I told him all that had happened. I didn’t care. I had to tell someone and it sure can’t be my friends.
“Sounds really nice and inviting, trust me, but I can’t cancel. I need to go to this appointment. And then I have work at 10:00, but I have to say I will be daydreaming of cuddling with you all day long. So give me my coffee and let’s hit it.”
He laughed, handed me my liquid awake, and we walked down to the parking lot. I never knew Dallas drove a truck, I only thought he had a motorcycle. He opened the door for me and helped me in. His truck was lifted much higher than the usual trucks I’ve seen. It was very nice and clean, inside and out. I was very impressed with him. It’s always nice to see that a guy who takes care of his things.
He hopped into the driver’s side and started it up. The rumble of the engine was very loud, making my already sore head worse. I knew this truck was pretty fast and it made me even more attracted to him.
The drive to the La Costa was not too long and we were very quiet all the way there. I think it was a good, comfortable silence. We felt good enough around each other to know that words were not needed. We reached my car and I dreaded getting out. I sighed because I didn’t want to say goodbye to him. It was nice to feel that way about someone again, and I didn’t want anyone coming in between that. This was real and not forced attraction. I was very excited about the possibilities of starting a relationship with him. He was everything I thought I wanted in a man and he wanted me. That was the incredible thing about this whole scenario. For the first time in my life I was wanted by two men. Well, the first time in this life anyway.
“Well even though I want to steal you away for the day I have to let you out. So drive careful and call me when you get a break. Promise me.” I shook my head yes as he leaned in and kissed me. Again, it was very sweet and warm and it sent chills down my spine. He smelled very good and I wanted to stay here so bad it hurt. He pulled away and stroked my cheek and then touched my wet hair.
“You should have dried your hair you could catch a cold. And I like it when your hair is down it really looks pretty like that. But you’re still stunning either way. Now get out of here before you’re late.”
I regretfully opened the door and stepped out of the truck. I walked to my car and got in it as he pulled away. I shivered due to the fact that my car was very cold. I had to warm it up because my wet hair made me even colder. Then I noticed my phone was still in my car sitting in the cup holder. I had completely forgot that my phone was here, it was a good thing I didn’t need to make a call last night. I looked at the screen and it said three missed calls. Who co
uld have called me last night or this early in the morning? As I drove to the medical building I checked my voice messages. The first was Kerri, she sounded very tired and still a little drunk.
“Hey Av, it’s me. I’m so sorry for storming out like a little baby tonight. It had nothing to do with you. I’m happy Dallas wanted to dance with you. I’m just a little mad and hurt by Gavin and our breakup, you know what I mean? I just wanted to call and tell you that I love you girl. And I’m sorry. Talk to you at work tomorrow. Bye.”
She sounded very sincere and I knew she wasn’t really mad at me. I knew she was having a rough day yesterday and drinking did not make things any better. The next message was a hang up. Probably Kerri again and she didn’t want to leave another message. The last message had a long pause before anyone spoke.
“Hi Avery it’s the guy you helped on the side of the road, Landon Cooper. I got your message today and I’m sorry I didn’t call you sooner but I just got my phone charged. I gave you my number because I want to take you out some time. It was incredibly nice of you to help me and I want to repay you. I’m new in town so I need someone to show me around. I hope that you can be my tour guide for the day. If you’re interested call me back. Take care, bye.”
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