All Mye Queen's Men Chronicles of Love, Volume I (All Mye Queen's Men, Chronicles of Love)

by Lee, Brenda Stokes

  "Queen, what the fuck are you doing? First Logic, now Teddy. What the fuck is wrong with you?" Queen grumbled to herself.

  Queen knew the answer to her own questions too. She knew that she was just giving in to what her body really wanted. The truth of the matter was that she secretly fantasized about both Logic and Teddy. Paul's indiscretion just gave her an opportunity and an excuse to be free to fulfill her fantasies. Their bodies were just what she needed to ease her pain. Paul may have stolen her heart and then smashed it in the dirt, but Queen was quiet content to forget about it by giving her body to these two spectacular specimens of manhood.

  "There's nothing wrong with you Queen. You're just an over sexed twenty one year old trying to get over yet another unfaithful boyfriend the best way she knows how." She convinced herself.

  "Bear, promise me that you want tell anyone." She begged.

  "I promise. You know I wouldn’t do that. Now promise me this won't be the last time we share our little secret."

  Queen smiled. "I can definitely promise you that."

  Teddy kissed her hard and deep, before sampling the sweet nectar of Queen's love one more time. Uninhibited and liberated Queen soon enjoyed yet another volcanic orgasm.

  Although they both agreed to bury their secret love there amidst the wild flowers they knew that this thing that was brewing between them was spiraling far beyond their control and was far from over.

  CHAPTER 27

  Days passed and Queen had still not gotten the courage up to speak to Paul. Despite her frequent romps with both Teddy and Logic she still missed Paul so much it hurt. It was an ugly viscous cycle. The more she missed him the more it hurt. And the more it hurt the less she wanted to think about him or their situation. And the less she thought about him the closer she grew to Logic. At this point she really just wanted it to be over and done with so that she could go on with her life.

  Still a part of her wanted to hear something, anything that would allow her to forgive him and take him back. But even if she did, would he want her back if he had any idea what she had done while they were apart. In a little less than two weeks she had managed to sleep with both Logic and Teddy.

  Naturally, neither one of them knew that she was sleeping with the other. To make matters worse, both of them were awe struck and falling harder and harder for her as the days went by. Still she tried to impress upon them that she wasn't ready for anything beyond sex. Yet they were more than willing to take whatever piece of her she was willing to relinquish.

  "What a fucking disaster!" She thought one morning as she stared in the mirror at a Queen she no longer knew.

  Not that she looked bad. In fact she looked fabulous. Her hair was shiny, her skin was soft and she had an extremely beautiful glow. It's true what they say, vitamin D does a body real good. But, what she discovered was different about her was her countenance and her new attitude towards men and relationships.

  She was no longer willing to give herself completely to one man. Yes, Logic and Teddy had free reign of her body, but her heart and emotions were closely guarded. And she was quick to pull back if they tried to get too close. Queen knew that this wasn't healthy. And she really didn't want to be a bitter, lonely hoe unable to commit to anyone or anything except a stiff dick and a wet energetic tongue. Still, she had been hurt one too many times to subject herself to another imminent visit to the heartbreak hotel.

  So, she made a decision. She would finally talk to Paul and hear his side of the story. If nothing else it would free her to love again. Spring break was coming up in two days. She decided to talk to him before she went home. At least if things didn't go well she didn't have to deal with him for a few weeks.

  Paul had called her like clockwork at ten in the morning and at ten at night for the past couple of weeks. Usually she just ignored his call and let it go straight to her voicemail. But today she was prepared to talk. It was a few minutes before ten and she said a silent prayer while she waited for her cell to ring. Moments later her phone rang.

  "Hello." She answered.

  "Queen?"

  "Yeah, it's me."

  "Oh my God! I didn't expect you to pick up."

  "Yeah, well it's time to get this over with, so that both of us to can get on with our lives."

  "Queen please don't say it like that. You haven't even heard what I have to say. Please just hear me out before you write me off."

  "Okay, so where and when do you want to do this?"

  "We can meet here..."

  "No, that's not going to happen."

  "Well, I can come over there."

  "Hell, no! That's really not going to fly. We need to meet somewhere that is very public, but still private enough that we can talk."

  "Damn you make it sound like I'm going to beat you up or something."

  "Trust me, this is strictly for your protection. Cause there is a part of me that still just wants to fuck you up."

  Paul laughed. "Yeah I can understand that. I probably deserve it. Okay what about the park near the campus?"

  "Yeah, that will do. What time?"

  "I want to see you as soon as possible. What about noon today?"

  "Sounds good."

  "Do you need me to pick you up?"

  "No, I have Logic's car."

  "Well, call me if there's a problem."

  "Sure." Queen said as she prepared to hang up.

  "Queen, are you still there?"

  "Yeah."

  "Thanks for taking my call."

  "No problem. I'll talk to you later."

  "No, I'll see you later." Paul grinned.

  Paul was ecstatic when he got off the phone. He hadn't talked to Queen since the incident. Now he was going to see her in less than two hours and if all goes well she'd be home before night fall. He couldn't contain himself.

  "Bear, I just talked to Queen. We're meeting in the park at noon." He happily announced as he burst into Teddy's bedroom.

  Teddy who was still in bed trying to sleep didn't move, or show any emotion. "That's great. Tell me about it when you get back." He mumbled as he rolled over to go back to sleep.

  Although he appeared uninterested, Teddy's mind was racing out of control. Teddy had so many mixed feelings about this meeting. Why wouldn't he? If the meeting goes well he may lose what little bit of Queen he has. But if it goes badly his best friend will be devastated and will spiral even deeper into depression. So, he did the only thing that he really could do, absolutely nothing.

  Logic on the other hand took it a little harder. He knew that Paul had a strong case for acquittal, but he wasn't sure what Queen would do. They had become the perfect little couple and he wasn't ready for it to end. They enjoyed each other immensely mentally, emotionally, spiritually and of course sexually. They had picked up where they had left off before Asia and her bullshit destroyed their love.

  Still, they were so close but yet so far from getting back on track. Yes, Logic was afraid of losing Queen again, but he wasn't afraid of letting her know that he didn't like it. After all, if she reunited with Paul what was going to happen to him?

  "So what's going to happen to us after you two talk?"

  "What do you mean?" Queen asked as she applied her makeup.

  "Queen, we've slept together almost every night since you've been here. What's going to happen with you and me if you let him back in? Are you just going to cut me out?"

  "Logic, come on. Don't start that. I'm just going to hear him out so that I can get my life back. I can't do anything but be mad and hurt and cry every damn day until I get this shit over with. I don't think that this is a bridge that we need to cross right now."

  "Queen I lost you once. I'm not willing to let you walk out of my life again. I like Paul and all, but I'm in love with you. I can't just give you back. What am I suppose to do?"

  "Logic, don't." Queen pleaded. "This isn't about you. It is about me. I got to get rid of this rain cloud over my head. Let me do this so I can move on."

  "I'm
sorry. I was just tripping. Do what you need to do. I'll be right here waiting for you. You are coming back, right?"

  "Of course I am." Queen said as she walked over and kissed his lips.

  Even though she tried to console him, Logic still looked anxious, distraught and uneasy. Queen saw the uncertainty and frustration in his face and she knew what she needed to do. She knew how to comfort him, but she wasn't sure if he'd let her. After all, the only thing she had been willing to offer him thus far was her body. It was obvious to her now that her body would no longer be enough to pacify him. Logic wanted all of her and he wasn't a man who would be willing to share her love. Thank God he didn't have a clue about Teddy.

  "Queen, he's not going to fall for this shit," she thought. "Of course he will. What man turns down a damn blow job?"

  Queen locked lips with logic and kissed him hard and deep as she unbuttoned his jeans and unleashed his anaconda. Then she dropped to her knees and did what had to be done to let him know that she appreciated him stepping up and being the King of the castle. She sucked his flesh deep into her smoldering hot mouth. Several minutes later after a few soon to be patented moves Logic erupted like an active volcano. In the aftermath of his pleasure, Queen could tell by the broad grin on his face that he was relieved of all frustration, confusion and doubt that she truly cared for him.

  A broad grin came over his face as he picked her up and carried her to the bed for some sticky icky. "I love you Mye Queen."

  "I love you too..." Queen managed to mumble as Logic devoured her body, sending shock waves of delight to the core of her sensuality.

  CHAPTER 28

  Needless to say Queen arrived a few minutes late to her meeting with Paul. As she entered the parking lot of the park she spotted Paul standing outside of his Jet black, chromed out Escalade anxiously awaiting her arrival. She pulled up next to him and nervously prepared to get out of the car. She didn't have a clue what to expect or what to do. She just wanted to leave with the few remaining unbroken pieces of her heart still in tack, but she wasn't certain that would be possible.

  "Damn he looks good," she murmured as Paul swaggered towards her.

  An uneasy, yet sexy smile illuminated his face as he helped her out of the car. He looked magically delicious. Fortunately, Queen had just ate. Still, his cologne was alluring and invited Queen to draw near and hug him, so she did.

  "You look good. How have you been?" She said as she hugged him.

  "I've been better. You look amazing. God, you feel so damn good." He said as he gave her a huge bear hug which lifted her body from the ground. "I missed the hell out of you girl."

  "I missed you too." She managed as he squeezed the breath out of her. "Paul, stop! Put me down, you're cutting off my circulation," She giggled.

  "I'm so, sorry. I’m just happy to see you here. I got a little carried away." He laughed as he put her back on the ground. "It's just been so long since I held you in my arms. I didn't mean to hurt you."

  "It's okay. I'm alright. So, where do you want to go to talk?"

  "Did you eat?"

  "Not, yet. Why?"

  "Come with me. I'll buy you a chili dog. Then we'll find a bench and talk."

  "Okay."

  "So how have you been? You look sensational." He asked as they walked.

  "Thanks. I have some good days and some bad, but I'm determined to survive this." Queen confessed as they headed towards a nearby concession stand.

  "Yeah, I know what you mean. But, I'm not sure I can survive this without you."

  "Don't talk like that." Queen said as they approached the hot dog vendor. "So what are you getting?" She asked, determined to change the subject.

  "The usual. What about you?"

  "The same."

  They continued to make small talk as they found a secluded park bench and ate their hot dogs. For a while things felt normal between them. But Paul quickly noticed that Queen shied away every time he attempted to touch her. Although this hurt Paul deeply he understood. He realized that they had a long road back and he was willing to go as slow as Queen wanted to travel.

  "So, I guess we need to talk about some things." Queen sighed.

  "Yeah, I guess we do. Queen, the first thing I want to tell you is that I'm sorry. I never meant to hurt you. I'd hurt myself before I'd hurt you. You know that right?"

  "Paul let's just get to it. What happened?"

  Paul recanted verbatim what happened that crazy day. He spoke honestly from his heart. Queen listened and spoke not a word. She never once interrupted his story. She looked through his eyes into his soul and knew that everything he said was in fact the truth. Even though it was clear that Zoey set Paul up Queen didn't know how to get back where they were. Too much had transpired and too many people had climbed in bed with them. True most of it was on her, but it didn't change the way she felt.

  "So basically, that's what happened," Paul concluded. Queen remained quite. She didn't utter a sound, even when Paul finished. This disturbed Paul. "Queen please say something, anything."

  "Do you have anything to substantiate this tall tale of fantasy, deception, manipulation and intrigue. Otherwise I’m going to have to assume that it’s just a flat out pack of lies."

  "Logic told me that you were missing your keys and your scarf. I found these in the back of the truck." Paul said as he produced Queen's scarf and her truck keys. "Zoey must have left them there that afternoon."

  Queen said not a word as she fondled the scarf. A lone tear rolled down her cheek as she desperately fought back the many others that struggled to be free. She wanted to jump in his strong arms and kiss him, but she couldn't. The taste of Logic was still in her mouth, reminding her of what she had done. So she said nothing. And despite her best efforts a stream of tears flowed steadily down her face.

  "Baby, please don't cry. Just talk to me. We can work through this. Queen please." Paul begged as he took her in his arms and attempted to console her.

  Queen finally spoke. "I was walking to class and Destiny bumped into me. I checked my purse for my wallet and it was still there. I never thought once about my keys. Who knows when the scarf went missing. That bitch planned every detail of this bullshit from the moment she saw us in the cafe."

  "So you believe me? Thank God!"

  "Not so fast. I believe she set this up. But please explain how you could not tell it wasn't me."

  "Queen, she opened the truck with your keys and blindfolded me with your scarf. A scarf that smelled of you. I had no reason to think that it wasn't you."

  "Maybe at first you might have thought it was me. But at some point you had to think something was up."

  "Not till it was too late."

  "Okay, then I have a few questions."

  "Go ahead, ask me anything."

  "Did you kiss her?"

  "No, not once."

  "Did you go down on her?"

  "Hell to the fucking no!"

  "Where you ever on top in control?"

  "No, absolutely not."

  "Did you touch her?"

  "No, she held my arms down, so I played along. I only touched her at the very end. I grabbed her ass like I always do you. And that's when I realized that she wasn't you. I swear Queen, I'm telling the truth."

  Queen held her head in her hands covering her face. Her head felt like it weighed a hundred pounds. She envisioned herself doing every single thing she asked Paul about with both Teddy and Logic. And not just once, but she did it several times. Queen realized that she had in fact betrayed Paul a hundred times more than he had ever come close to betraying her. Of course she could cling to the fuzzy premise that they were broken up. Because the truth was that they actually were no longer a couple. But she knew that would simply be a cowardly cop out.

  "Queen, what's wrong? Are you okay?"

  Queen hesitated. "Yeah, I'm okay. Look, I'm sorry we didn't have this talk sooner, but I was too angry and too hurt to face you."

  "So, what happens now? Do you forgive me."<
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  "Paul you didn't do anything wrong. You were the victim of a deranged psychopathic trick ass hoe who'll do anything to have her way. Of course I forgive you."

  "Thank God!" Paul grinned as he hugged and kissed Queen. Okay, so let's go get your stuff from Logic's. I'll follow you in the truck."

  "No that's okay."

  "Alright, well, we can get them later."

  "Paul you don't understand. I'm not ready to come back just yet."

  "What? Queen no! Why not?"

  "Because I shouldn't have been there in the first place. We moved too fast and when shit went south I had absolutely nothing. I had no man, no transportation and no home. I can't put myself in that position again."

  "So, how is this going to work? You're going stay at Logic's. What's that shit about?"

  "No, I decided to get a place of my own."

  "Okay, what about us? Are you still going to be my girl or what? I don't understand."

  Queen was hesitant to speak. "Paul we got some issues to deal with before we get back to where we were. I want to be your girl again. But...."

  "But what, Queen?"

  "But I've changed. This shit fucked me up. I have major trust and intimacy issues and... I can't get the image of you two out of my mind."

  "Queen fuck all that shit. Just let me love you. I'll earn back your trust. I want to be your man again. Will you let me be your man?" Paul pleaded as he planted kisses all over Queen's wet tear stained face. Eventually his mouth located hers and he thrust his tongue deep into her mouth and searched for hers. Queen could not resist. She gave in and kissed him back.

  "Look, I'm going home to spend spring break with my parents. I need time to think. We can talk again when I get back?"

  "Queen, that's a long damn time. I'm fucking dying without you. I can hardly eat or sleep. What's there to think about if you still love me?"

  "I know, and I wouldn't ask for more time if I didn't really need it."

  "I hear what you're saying. But tell me one thing."

  "What is it?" Queen asked.

  "Are you still in love with me? Be honest." Paul nervously inquired, not sure if he could handle the answer.