Running To You

by DeLaine Roberts

  Looking around the apartment, I didn’t see him, but his things were here. Glancing towards the patio, I could see a glimpse of his shoulder. He was sitting outside with a beer, talking on the phone. When I opened the door, he ended his call and smiled at me, “Zoe says hello.”

  “Did you fill her in on everything?” I tried to smile, but it felt forced. I went over and sat down next to him, “I’m so sorry Grayson, my emotions are all over the place and the pregnancy issues are making my actions even worse! I will stay here in bed and eat well. I sent a text to Drew earlier letting him know I wasn’t going back until Wednesday. I love you so much and I know that you are my soul mate. I don’t understand why I try to push you away?”

  “Alexandra, you push me away because that is easier than having to fear me leaving, but I am not leaving, not going anywhere and neither are you. You have to TRUST that. I am not sure what it will take to convince you other than time. We love each other and that is the only thing that matters. Once you move back, everything will fall into place, you’ll see.”

  As we walked back into the apartment, “I was talking to Zoe, but I didn’t tell her anything about the baby. I thought I would let you do that or we could do that, publicly, when we are ready. Like you, I am tired of the drama. Regarding Harrison, please stay away from him, his intentions have an evil undertone and that is all I am going to say for now. Next weekend, I will take care of him.”

  “Why do you have such disdain for Harrison? I understand you used to be inseparable.” I thought twins were supposed to be inseparable, but I am an only child, so what do I know.

  “When I met Olivia, she was like a breath of fresh air. She reminded me of what I had missed from a civilian life: family, fun nights out with other couples, parties and events, dancing. She said she wanted to start a family and would give me what I had been missing being away in the military. Olivia was a sexual prowess and we had a very seductive sex life, very much on the dark side. I soon learned that Harrison was deep into BDSM and had sexually/physically tortured her in a way as part of that whole dominant/submissive lifestyle. From that moment on, I could never look at him the same way; it gave me such distaste for him. Because of that, she couldn’t get enough sexually, and will never be satisfied. Ultimately, that is what caused the end of our relationship. It is hard to realize that you are living a lie until it all unfolds in such a painful way. That was my old life and I never want to go back to it. Seeing him at your door in Chicago was almost too much to bear. All I could think about was protecting you from him, but you had made your decision and sent me away. I love you so much and will go over the mountain to protect you.”

  “I did not see that side of Harrison. We went to the game and just enjoyed hanging out like beer buddies. He wants nothing more from me and he made that clear. I think you need to talk with him but there will be time for that soon.” I reached up and ran my finger down his cheek and across his bottom lip.

  “Grayson, I am hungry, care to order a pizza with me? I could use one of those beers, but I bet my packet says that I can’t have one, doesn’t it?” trying to get some lighter conversation going.

  “Let’s go see what it says.” He was trying to play dumb.

  “Why Dr. Know-it-all, I thought you had it memorized. Are you falling down on the job?” and our jovial spirit was coming back.

  I bedded down on the sofa, as Grayson ordered the pizza and made a salad. He fixed me a tall glass of lemonade and came to lay with me. “Hey Red, Zoe was reminding me that I have a medical conference in Austria in a few weeks. I would love for you to go with me. Have you ever been? Do you have a passport?”

  “No, I have never been to Austria. I do have a valid passport. I would love to go” I'm giddy with excitement.

  “If you like, we could leave from Chicago and just ship your things here. That way they would be here when you got home, if that is okay angel?”

  “I would love that, sweetheart. A little mini-trip for us would be fantastic. Just the thought of getting away with you is refreshing. To spend time with you, just us and no drama, is just what the doctor ordered.”

  Grayson was quiet for a few minutes, then he looked at me with sad eyes, “Alexandra, could you ever see yourself not working and being a stay-at-home mom?”

  “I have never thought about that aspect of my life, because I have never had a serious relationship. All I have thought about since before starting my education was a career.”

  “I will never ask you to give up your career, but I will tell you that anytime you want to stop working, I will support you. I can take care of you. I love you and I want you to be completely fulfilled in all parts of your life. If working makes you complete, that’s fine with me. However, if staying home and raising our kids together is what you would want, I am ready for that, too.” His eyes begun to twinkle as he talked about our “kids” and that made me smile. The thought of having a real family, something I have never really known. It now was becoming evident that the one thing Grayson and I both missed growing up was a complete family, something both of us wanted in our future and it was right in front of us.

  “Grayson, you would be okay if I didn’t go back to Chicago. In fact, I think you would be happier if I didn’t. But I need to know, is it about me having a career or is it because of Harrison?”

  Taking a deep breath and a long time to answer, “It has nothing to do with Harrison. A part of me is dead when you are not around, YOU put excitement in my life, make me feel whole, fill up my head, my heart, even my bed!” He tried to laugh, but I could see he was trying to tell me he was half empty when I wasn’t around. It’s the same feeling that I have when he is not with me. The pizza arrived, ending his serious ploy to discuss me working, but it did leave me with much to think about.

  All I have ever wanted was right in front of me, begging me to be his, begging me to give him/me a family and I was blowing him off for a career, half in Chicago, half here, for what? After all, Grayson is 10 years older than me, he has had longer to want or long for a family. He thought he was going to have that with evil plastic bitch Olivia before their relationship ended last year. Now, he has the opportunity to have it with me. I had no problem finding confidence and strength when it came to my career. I wanted to find that same strength in my ability to make a family with Grayson. Uncover the trust that he would always be there for me and not walk out when the going gets tough, or that I would leave out of fear of being rejected. If only I had experienced that faithfulness and commitment to love growing up. I loved my dad, but when my mom got sick, he took her illness so hard that he couldn’t let her see his pain. So, he never came home, he left her with staff to take care of her. He was always traveling. Eventually, other women were part of his life until he met Gretchen. This meant he wasn’t there for me, either. But, Cooper was and that is when we bonded and became so close.

  Playing with the new layers in my hair as he walked past me, “Angel, what are you so deep in thought about?"

  ”Oh, you know, the usual, you, me, showers, sex." I thought I could catch him off guard.

  ”Red, you need to chill out and eat, before I tie you to the sofa and make you rest!" He was playfully giving it back to me. This side of Grayson, relaxed and comfortable, is wonderful. But I could tell, he was using restraint and would like to enjoy more, which made me happy.

  I was enjoying my pizza and salad, it hit the spot. I turned the football game on and was stuck watching the Dallas Cowboys. Grayson and I shared barbs back and forth about the game. After the half-time, Cooper made his way back home. Mark, Monica, and Emily, one of the shoot stylists, had joined him. We all enjoyed watching the game and taking sides. It was fun just relaxing and hanging out. I could see that Grayson was relaxed, happy that I was eating and I caught a glimpse of what life would be like as a couple, just enjoying time together. I wanted more of that, my heart longed for it. I enjoyed just laying on top of Grayson on the couch watching the game, him rubbing my back and feeling connected in
a strong, protective way.

  “Alexandra, Alexandra, are you going to sleep on top of me all night?” I could hear Grayson mumbling underneath me, I had fallen asleep.

  “I am so comfy I can’t move. I guess that means you are stuck being my mattress the rest of the night.” He was laughing and yawning at the same time.

  Laughing, “Red, I will show you a mattress!” “But, I want to take you to bed. I have something else in mind for you!” Leading me into the bedroom and closing the door behind us. He took me in his arms, twirling me around to the bathroom, putting me down by the shower, “I want to play in here, you up for a lesson?”

  “Ah, YES, Professor Brooks please warm the water!” Oh, let the passion begin.

  Only the lamp was on in my bathroom, but I could see the twinkling in his eyes. Grayson wanted me. He removed my clothes, sensually peeling off one piece at a time. Staring, learning and then exploring and teasing my body. Sucking my nipples, biting my belly button, then he turned me so that I faced away from him. Pulling my hair to one side, he began biting and sucking on my neck, my shoulders, and my upper back. I quickly turned around on him, undressing him and exploring his body. Running my fingers through the glorious hair on his chest, kissing his chin, biting his nipples. I reached down to unbutton his shorts and boxers, letting his erection release into my hands before putting him fully in my mouth, enjoying the sense of him.

  Grayson gently pulled me up as we stepped out of our clothes and into the warm water. It felt so good to be in his arms, completely safe from the world, experiencing the emotional and physical effects of being in love, in here, in the shower...our happy place. As we teased and tantalized each other, Grayson took his thumb and massaged my clit, then gently started sucking me until I was able to achieve my release. As my body gave way to trembling from complete satisfaction, what this man can do with his mouth is a gift. After my body calmed from the aftershocks of my orgasm, I slipped out of Grayson’s arms and slid down his body. Taking him into my mouth, I teased and stroked him with my hands. I was tantalizing him with my tongue, even biting him, just to hear him suck in air. Gazing up at him, I could see that I was pleasing him as he stopped holding onto the shower walls and started to hold my head, clinging to me, as if he was afraid that I would stop. He began moaning and throwing his head back, “Red, don’t stop, that feels so damn good,” making a few thrust into my mouth and then pulling out as he exploded all over my breasts. Having never experienced this before, he caught my surprise and pulled me up to him and held me tight, “Alexandra, you have an amazing talent on your knees. Ah, my little angel, you have turned into quiet the little nymph. I can’t get enough of you!”

  “Grayson, it makes me very happy to be your student, and you have a few talents of your own that I am enjoying immensely. To think, if we had been doing this all along, we wouldn’t be pregnant!”

  “Alexandra, there is nothing better, no replacement for being inside you and I can’t wait until Tuesday when I can have you all night, and I will, so rest up. You will need your strength for what I have in mind!” He gently popped me on my bottom as we finished up our shower and made our way to bed.

  Cuddling in bed and just talking about the weekend and the visitors in and out, I could tell that Grayson wanted to discuss something more. “Grayson, just say it, what is on your mind?”

  “I was trying to figure out if Cooper would take in Mark or one of his stylist friends as a roommate when you move in with me, at some point in the future of course, whenever you were ready.”

  “Actually Grayson, I wanted to talk to you about that. I am ready to do that and was thinking about moving in with you when I get back from Chicago.”

  “Alexandra, my lease is up in November, what do you think about looking for a home here in Dallas for us to live in as a family?”

  “I love that idea. Our lease is up in December, so this gives Cooper time to find a roommate or go to a single apartment. I will let him know in the morning.”

  “Speaking of mornings, it is almost morning already. Go to sleep my little sex minx, or I may have to take you back to the shower for some repeat action. I love you, Alexandra Morrison and I promise to never stop telling you that, ever again.”

  Chapter 12

  Waking up when Grayson’s alarm went off, I realized that I had slept all night without having to get up, as we were all tangled and nestled together. Sleeping with Grayson is the warmest, coziest feeling, and I am glad that he likes to spoon me. I sleep so much better wrapped in his arms.

  “Good morning Red, you are so beautiful when you first wake up. How are you feeling this morning?” He was nibbling on my neck.

  “Like I need a shower!”

  “Oh, you dirty little girl, come on, I’ll show you a shower!” As he led me to paradise first thing in the morning, all I could think about was sex. I wanted him, all of him and I couldn’t wait until we could be together again.

  “Grayson, what does your schedule look like today?” As I tried to wrangle my unruly hair this morning into a pony tail and he was getting dressed in scrubs for work.

  “I am going to the gym for a quick workout, and then I have patients starting at 8:30, Tumor conference at noon and then I should be back here by 6:00 if not before,” giving me a questioning look.

  “I wanted to talk to Coop about the apartment lease situation and I also wanted to see what time to have dinner ready.”

  “Alexandra, if you get stir crazy, we can go out or if you are okay to dine in, we can order out this afternoon and I will pick it up on my way home, that way you can stay here and relax, just call me or text me and I will do whatever you want, my pet!” Giving me a big bear hug and kissing my neck, “You make me so happy, I love you so much!”

  “I love you too, Grayson!” We headed to the kitchen to make breakfast.

  I made Grayson coffee and toast and he kept trying to get in my way, finally shooing him out of my kitchen. “Alexandra, are you joining me for breakfast?”

  Looking at me quizzically, I could tell that he really wanted to tell me to eat but I beat him to it, “I am having yogurt, fruit and oatmeal. Oh, and some juice since the coffee police is sitting at my bar!”

  “Well, that makes me the sex, shower, food and now coffee police. I am glad to be so gainfully employed!” We both busted out laughing! Too loud unfortunately, we managed to disturb Cooper.

  “Hey, you two need to get a room. Ya’ll are Texas-sized happy and way too loud!” He said as he tried to put a t-shirt on and grab coffee at the same time.

  “Cooper, funny you should mention that, when you are more awake, I want to make arrangements for our lease and go over some ideas I had with you,” thinking I may have to go easy on him.

  “Alex, I have it under wraps, seems that Monica is in need of a place in December, her roomie is getting married. Whenever you bail on me, there will be someone to pick up the pieces of my broken heart. Can I get applause for my fake tears?” We all had another storm of laughter.

  “Well, Cooper, I can honestly say, it is never a dull moment with you.” Grayson said, punching Cooper in the shoulder.

  “Well, to be totally honest, doc, it hasn’t been a dull moment around here since you came into the picture either,” and we all had our turn laughing again.

  Oh, what a fun way to start the day. Grayson kissed me bye and my heart took a leap, realizing that I would be without him all day. This was a life that would take some getting used to, but I fell asleep last night thinking about Grayson asking me to stay home with our kids. Thinking about it again just now, these thoughts bring a smile to my face and tears to my eyes...family. Without a doubt in my mind, a comfortable feeling came over me that I have been waiting for my whole life. I couldn’t wait to tell the world we were going to be a family. The thought of it had me grinning from ear to ear.

  My phone was beeping, locating it, a text from Grayson:

  Missing you already angel, I love you, GT

  Responding:

&
nbsp; I Love you too +1!

  p.s. please tell me you are not driving!

  Grayson’s response:

  No, I am at gym, shower b4 going to ofc...wish YOU were here!

  I decided to not answer him for awhile, so that he could ponder on his “shower” comment, as much as I was. I sure would like to be there with him in the shower. Yummy thoughts and no complaints. My reflections of my splendid weekend with sexy, Dr. Brooks, were being interrupted by Drew calling me.

  “Hi Drew, how are you and where are you, this morning?”

  “Alex, I got your message this weekend and I probably shouldn’t be bothering you, but I am concerned. Are you okay, please tell me it’s nothing to worry about?”

  “I am fine really, but we do need to talk. I am glad you called.” Taking a moment to breathe and find my words, “Grayson and I are going to be parents, I am pregnant, Drew.” Whew, that just happened. At least it was out, blurted or not.

  “Alex, congratulations to you and Grayson, I could not be happier for you, he is a very lucky man!”

  “Thank you, Drew. The doctors told me that I would need to be off my feet for a couple of days, but I am in Dallas. I came in for the weekend and had a slight scare, so I am resting for a few days, no traveling if you are okay with this. My plan is to head back to Chicago on Wednesday, finish out the next few weeks there and then relocate back to Dallas?”

  “You can do whatever you need as far as time off, but if you want to relocate back, go ahead and do it this weekend or as soon as you are ready, because I have a surprise for you.” He was sounding coy, real enthusiasm in his voice; I couldn’t be for sure what he was up to.

  “Well, originally, I was going to try and keep this under radar for the first trimester, but you know how I seem to be a drama magnet lately. But I do want to try and keep it private, if that is okay with you? Also, I don’t plan on,” Drew interrupted me.