Secret for Vinhelm #3

by L. Marcelo

  As expected from his girl, she shook her head. He knew how much she hated it but he wanted the whole world to know who his girl was. He wanted everyone to know that Meahri Lyfheld belonged to him. Only to him.

  “Please.” He begged.

  She was a sucker for it. No matter how much pain he caused her, she still love him. Now that he was begging, it was so hard for her to say no. Her mind wanted to but her heart said the opposite. In the end, she found herself nodding.

  When he got the answer he needed, he stood up and pulled her up. He put his hand around her waist and guided her to the small stairs at the side of the stage.

  With his girl beside him, in his arms, he seemed to have forgotten his injury. He was worried that it will hurt today but it seemed like Meahri’s presence was too much that he forgot about it.

  Everyone saw everything.

  They may not know what the two talked about but it was too impossible to not know what was going on after seeing it with their own eyes. The fans went crazy. Some were happy, some were screaming rooting for them and some were crying. The stadium was filled with all kinds of emotions. It was probably the most emotional concert in history of New York or maybe in the whole world.

  “I’m such a bad guy, don’t you think?” He started speaking again.

  “She’s crying again because of me. I always make her cry. I’m really not the guy everyone thinks I am.” She stopped walking. He knew she wanted to protest but he beat her to it and pulled her up the stairs.

  “I’m just a normal guy, an imperfect guy… Or maybe stupid guy fits more.”

  The crowd grew wilder. He continued, “A stupid guy who made a huge mistake and almost lost the love of his life.” He heard her cry harder. Since she was beside him, it was unavoidable for her sob to reach his microphone and everyone heard it.

  When they got on the stage, he put his arm around her waist again as they head towards the seat at the middle of the stage.

  “As all of you had seen, in all the stops of my US tour, we’ve shown each of those photos and short clips that we showed a while ago. The person in all of those is this girl.” He stopped when she looked at him with a face like she just saw a ghost.

  She didn’t have any idea what he was talking about. Not when she was all busy with work and didn’t bother looking at any updates about the concert. Part of her reason was because she only knew about the concert last night. Majority of it was because she was too scared that it would make her miss and love him evern more.

  She didn’t know. He can’t help but smile at the thought.

  How can his girl be stubborn in a way that he found himself loving the trait instead of hating it? Just when he thought that he was the most stubborn human being, he met Meahri. She was more stubborn than he was.

  “To tell you the truth, the only reason why I had a US tour all of a sudden, after being retired for 4 years is because of her. I wanted to prove to her that I’d do anything to get her back.” He guided her to the seat as he stood beside her.

  She hasn’t stopped crying but she seemed to be calmer than she was a while ago. He let go of her hand. She didn’t look at him. She didn’t want to. She was scared. She was too scared that he’d hurt her again and if he did, she didn’t know if she could ever recover from it. She didn’t want to go through such thing again.

  Then it hit her.

  The moment she agreed for him to take her on stage, she opened herself to that possibility. She realized it didn’t matter anymore. She loved him that much and no matter how much pain he gave her, she couldn’t give up on him. She had loved him for 6 fucking years, how can she stop now?

  She was in her own world until she heard the crowd went insane.

  As a fangirl, hearing that, she knew what it meant. She was about to look at Vhynce and she saw him on his knees. He was saying something but she couldn’t understand it. She was hearing her own sob.

  In her mind, all she had to do was go back to his arms, to the arms that always made her feel safe. He didn’t want to do what he was about to do but still, he pulled away. He put his hands on both sides of her face.

  “Did you see my surprise?” He asked. His eyes were filled with sincerity and something she had been wishing to see in his eyes.

  She saw love.

  She finally saw it in her rockstar’s eyes and it made her cry harder. She didn’t know how much tears she’d shed today but she was goddamn sure that they weren’t tears of pain. For a change, they were tears of joy.

  How can someone be cute when they cry? She’s impossible. He smiled as he stared at his girl.

  She shook her head. He guessed right. She didn’t see it. It was because of the tears that made her vision blurry. He wiped the tears. He took her hand and put it on his chest.

  “This is my surprise for you.” He sounded so sweet and gentle. She missed that voice, the voice that brought her to heaven while she was still on earth.

  She looked at where her hand was.

  At first, she didn’t saw it since her vision was still blurry due to all the tears. She wiped it. When her vision was finally clear enough to see it, she wanted to ask Vhynce, the fans, her mom, her dad, and even God if she was dreaming.

  Such a crybaby. He touched her cheek and wiped the tears away.

  She wasn’t simply touching it. She was feeling it. It was her whole name written on his chest. The numbers 02.14.21 were written underneath her name. She was crying so much that there were no words to describe how much more she was crying.

  He pulled her into his arms.

  “Will you take me back?” He asked.

  She choked on her tears but she tried her best to answer as clear as she can. “Yes... Vhynce… Yes! I will… I’ll always take you back… Always.” He almost didn’t hear the last word since she was crying on his chest.

  While she was busy crying, he started to speak again.

  “To all my fans, my friends, my staff, Ryan, Peter, Therry, to my RMM family and to everyone who made this concert possible, thank you. I want to thank all of you from the bottom of my heart. Thank you for being part of this amazing moment in my life.”

  He put his arms around her as he continued. “Without all of you, none of this would be possible. Each and every one of you helped me with something very important in my life. Not only did you help me get her back but remember, all of you also helped a charity. So give yourself a round of applause.”

  The fans screamed their hearts out. They didn’t care if they wouldn’t have their voices tomorrow and the day after. They were simply happy for their rockstar. Some may not be but majority were. Besides, whether they like it or not, they can’t do anything about it.

  Their rockstar was madly in love with his girl.

  Something amazing that people didn’t know about being a fan was how it felt whenever your rockstar thanked you. It didn’t matter if he thanked you as an individual or as a group. What was important was the thought that he appreciated the things you did for him.

  The long wait in line during events just to catch a glimpse of him, a few seconds talk with him that whether rain or shine you won’t leave until you see him. The part where you don’t buy what you want, eat what you want just to save enough money to buy a copy of his latest album or a ticket for his upcoming concert.

  All those sacrifices were nothing when you hear your rockstar say those two words, ‘Thank You’.

  It was what every fangirl felt. That was how much they love their rockstar.

  People think that fangirls were crazy girls who screamed their hearts out just because their rockstar was hot or handsome. They’re not just that. They’re the kind of people who knew what real sacrifices was all about. They are some of the people in the world who knew what unconditional love really was and most of all, having a fangirl as your lover was probably one of the best things that would ever happen in your life.

  And right now, Vhynce was able to prove it and thousands of people just witnessed it.

  As she
continued crying in his arms, he continued talking. “This is how my US tour ends. Thank you for coming and it’s nice seeing all of you again! Maybe I’ll try to release a song or two from time to time. It’s my way of thanking all of you for helping me win her back. Take care on your way home and maybe, let’s meet again soon. Good night everyone!”

  Those words were probably the words that made his fans the happiness that night. It was a sign that they can hear new songs from their rockstar again. And maybe hold events and concerts again soon too.

  Knowing that the girl crying in his arms didn’t have any plan to stop, he kissed her on the lips. He could taste her tears on her lips. She was crying and yet he found it adorable.

  Before he knew it, she stopped crying.

  If only he knew earlier that it was the only way to stop her tears, he should’ve done it long ago. He didn’t want to stop, not because he wanted to stop the tears but because he missed her. He missed the taste of her lips.

  It took all his strength to pull away.

  When he did, he saw his old Meahri. She had that sweet innocent smile on her face. It was obvious that she was embarrassed but seeing her smile once again, He can’t ask for anything more. He took her in his arms and carried her. He expected her to protest but instead she put her hands around his neck.

  Chapter Seven

  It was past midnight when the two arrived at Meahri’s place.

  The original plan was to go to Vhynce’s place but since she needed to finish some work, she insisted on going to her place instead. Him not wanting to argue and knowing how tired she was, he agreed.

  As soon as they arrived, Snoopy welcomed them and they both petted the not so little fella with so much affection. As they continued to walk through the room, Snoopy followed them. She was headed to the living room but he caught her hand and dragged her to her room.

  When they were inside, he gently pushed her to sit on the bed. Snoopy looked at them as he sat on the floor near the door. He looked like he knew the two needed to talk so he needed to give them some space. He watched them as if he understood what they were talking about. Snoopy was too smart for a dog.

  “Vhynce… I need to finish some work tonight.” She sounded more tired than cold. She was. Who wouldn’t be after all the crying she did at the concert? She may be tired but she had some work to finish.

  She wasn’t planning on attending the concert because she has some deadline to meet. But since Therry, Rayle and Tyler personally went to her place to give her the ticket, there was no way she would decline. And damn, was she thankful that she didn’t.

  “Work can wait. I can’t. I’ve waited long enough to have you in my arms again.” He held her face between his hands and made her look up to him to meet his gaze. She didn’t know if what she saw was real but he seemed to be begging.

  He never begged but now he did and it was for her attention.

  "But I have a deadline tomorrow…" She struggled to get up. When she was about to stand up, she stopped when she heard him say “Please” with desperation in his voice.

  When he knew that she had given up, he went outside and called Snoopy. The not so little fella happily followed him.

  A few minutes passed by and he was back at her room. He made sure not to forget to close the door behind him. When he was in front of her, he gently pushed her down the bed with him. He was on top of her. She didn’t know what to feel but one thing she was sure of, her heart was beating so hard that it could jump out of her body.

  "I can't believe you're busier than me now." There was a trace of disappointment in his voice.

  “I also wish I’m not.” She sounded sad and regretful.

  She loved how much projects she had been getting for the past few years specially for the past few months but at the same time, she was quite sad too. She loved what she does. She didn’t even consider it a job. That was how happy she was. However, now that he was back in her life, she wanted to balance it. She wanted to take as much projects as she can but at the same time, she wanted to make sure that she would have time for him too.

  “But you deserve it. You worked so hard to be where you are now… Sorry. That was a stupid thing to say… I guess I’m just too stupid.” There was pain in his eyes and she knew how much he meant every word.

  She reached for his face. “No, you’re not. Just stubborn and maybe…” She smiled. “In denial.”

  “Therry told me the same thing.”

  He looked like he wanted to disappear in her eyes, in her life after of all the things he had done. But now that she was back in his arms, there was was no fucking way he would leave her ever again.

  She wasn’t the only one he hurt. Part of him can’t forget the fact that he also hurt Therry, the man who always had his back. He lost the man when he left Meahri hanging.

  She looked at him and it was enough for her to know what he was thinking. She knew that he was punishing himself to make up for all the pain that he had caused her. She should want that but she didn’t. She hated it. She hated to see him in pain. Whenever he was, it hurt her two times more.

  She put her hands behind his neck and pulled him to her. She kissed him on the lips hoping it was enough for him to understand how much she loved him. At first, the message didn’t seem to get through him but as she made her way inside his lips, he felt it. He understood what she was trying to tell him.

  She made him realized how much he missed her.

  As their kiss got deeper, he started to unbotton her top and immediately stopped. No words were said. They just stared at each other.

  If it were up to him, he wouldn’t have stopped. It took up all his strength to even stop now but it was Meahri. He didn’t want to disrespect her in any way so he stopped. He didn’t have to say anything and she understood very well what he wanted to ask. She didn’t say anything but instead she nodded.

  When he was about to continue, she held both his hands.

  “Promise me one thing...”

  She almost sounded like she was at the end of the cliff and it would all depend on him if she would be saved or not.

  “Anything.”

  He meant it but there was also a trace of confusion in his word.

  “Just promise me you won’t freak out.” She sounded happy, excited and worried all at the same time. She looked at him in the eyes and she knew the answer. She can now see that he finally acknowledged his real feelings for her and that made her happy.

  Before he can reply, she removed her hands and he knew what she meant by it.

  She was giving him permission to own her, everything of her.

  Since they met, this was the first time he’d get to see her body. He can’t believe that it was about to happen. He wanted to own her but she never lower down the barrier around her. He respected her so he never pushed it. No matter how closed they got for the past few months, that barrier never disappeared. It was only now that the same barrier fully disappeared. He felt so happy.

  She watched him closely. She wanted to see how he’d react once he saw everything, once he saw what she had been hiding from him for the past year.

  He took his time in unbuttoning her top until he saw something that made him stop. This time he wanted to stop.

  She saw how his expression changed.

  He looked so surprised, happy, sad, thankful, sorry, overwhelmed, guilty and all other emotions that she can’t find the words to describe what they were. She may not know what it was called but one thing she was sure of, it was a face that she’d never forget.

  He saw it.

  He finally saw the reason for that unbreakable barrier surrounding her. He was too happy that he was lost for words. Just thinking about what he saw, it seemed impossible. He can’t make himself believe it. He can’t help but touch it.

  It was a tattoo a few inches above her left breast. It was almost near her collarbone.

  Secret for Vinhelm

  02.14.15.

  It was the same date but different years. Their
names were both in the other’s tattoo and the design almost looked identical. Both the words and the numbers were written in Script.

  It can’t be a coincidence. It was too much to be one and he came to realize it too.

  Therry introduced her to him, he met her not knowing she was his fangirl, they worked together and after everything that happened, she still accepted him wholeheartedly. He can’t be wrong. He now understood what it was, what he and Meahri was.

  They were destined for each other.

  He was left speechless. He continued to stare at it.

  He had always been the kind of man who never wanted to have any tattoos. He didn’t have anything against it. He just preferred not having one. And now, just a week ago, he got himself one. He chose to have one because he wanted Meahri to be part of him whether they got back together or not.

  She was a huge part of his life and getting her name permanently inked on his body, not to mention on his left chest where the heart was closer, made him feel that she’d always be with him.

  He got one without knowing Meahri also had one. He never knew about it and he was sure no one did. She never wore any sleeveless before. At least they’d never saw her wear one, not even when they’re sleeping together. There was no chance that anyone had seen it before he did.

  There was nothing that can describe how he felt. He loved the thought that he owned her without him knowing. He owned her for so long.

  It was as if even if they didn’t got back together, she was still his.

  “Why Secret?” He found himself asking as he continued touching the tattoo.

  “It’s my name in the fanworld.” She confessed.

  It took him a couple of seconds before realization hit him. He remembered what Therry and Thaira told him about Meahri being called Secret. Now that it hit him, everything made a lot of sense.

  While he was still in shock, she took his hand, the same hand that was touching her tattoo, and brought it to her lips. She broke the silence. "I love you Vhyncent. Not the man everyone knows, not the rockstar who makes all the girls fall for him but the man in front of me." She smiled. It was a smile filled with nothing but pure happiness and love. He hugged her and turned them around.