Texas True

by Janet Dailey

  Shaken a bit by the news, Natalie worked to make sure it didn’t show. “Slade tends to talk a lot. And it’s usually just that. Talk.”

  “Usually,” he mocked her with her own choice of words.

  Rather than meet his gaze, she stared at the front of his shirt, remembering the feel of those broad muscles beneath it. God help her, she wanted to feel them again.

  “Why did you have to come back for the funeral?” She hurled the question at him, anger and frustration all mingling together. “Why didn’t you leave the next day like you said you would? Why did you have to stay?”

  His fingers loosened their grip on her arm but didn’t release her entirely. “I know what I told myself at the time,” he said quietly. “Now I’m wondering if it wasn’t some subconscious desire to see you again. Maybe I wanted to see for myself that you were happily married. You’re not.”

  “Every marriage goes through rough patches.” There was no way she was going to admit that hers was more than a rough patch, that divorce seemed inevitable.

  “I’ve seen the way he treats you, Natalie. He’s no good for you.”

  “And you’re better, I suppose.” Pushed by a surge of bravado, she made the mistake of meeting his gaze.

  “You’re damned right I am,” he murmured, and bent his head, feathering a kiss across her lips.

  “Don’t.” She drew back. “I can’t do this again, Beau. You broke my heart once, and that was enough. The worst of it was, I never understood why.”

  “Maybe I didn’t know how to tell you,” he said.

  “You can tell me now,” she challenged him.

  He shook his head. “Even now it’s not that easy to talk about Iraq. You can’t imagine what it was like over there, seeing what I saw, doing what I had to do. I learned not to make friends after seeing so many of them die. And the people I had to kill as a sniper—Lord, so many, and not all of them soldiers. I didn’t even try to keep count. By the time my tour was finished, the boy who’d kissed you good-bye was gone. The man who’d replaced him was somebody you wouldn’t even want to know. The memories, the nightmares—and the worst of it, having to pretend everything was all right. You deserved a whole man, a clean man, something I would never be again.”

  She gazed up at him, her eyes tracing the lines of shadow below his eyes. Such kind eyes. And they’d seen so much suffering. “So that’s why you didn’t write?” Her voice was a whisper of emotion.

  “I wanted to. But I didn’t know what to say. It was easier to disappear and hope you’d forget me.”

  “I never forgot you.” Her hand slid up his cheek as he bent to brush her mouth with his.

  The very tenderness of it evoked a tremor of longing. Her lips parted, seemingly of their own volition, wanting more, inviting more.

  When he kissed her again, hard and deep, a moan rose in her throat. Her arms slid around his neck. They were spiraling out of control. They should stop. They had to stop. But the hunger of all those years apart was as powerful as a landslide. He was fully aroused, his erection straining the zipper of his jeans.

  His arms caught her close, arching her against him. His hand found its way under the hem of her shirt, sliding up her ribs to cup one small, perfect breast, stroking the nipple through her lace bra. Her fingers raked his hair as she uttered little animal sounds—sounds that triggered a rush of memories. They were nineteen again, and nothing mattered except belonging to each other, body and soul. Now it was the same. So help her, if she burned in hell for it, she didn’t want to stop—and neither did he.

  But there were other forces at work.

  A belching snort from the mare broke them apart. Lupita shuddered and lifted her tail as the mineral oil took full effect. The odor was enough to quell any thought of desire.

  “Oh, good grief!” Natalie pulled away from it and stumbled over to stroke the mare’s neck. “That’s my girl,” she murmured, avoiding Beau’s eyes. “You’re going to be fine now, aren’t you, Lupita?”

  The moment had turned awkward. Beau darted out of the stall and returned with a shovel to scoop the mess and haul it outside. By the time he came back into the barn, Natalie had gathered her gear and was headed for the door. Her stoically frozen expression was enough to tell him that whatever had passed between them was over.

  He stepped into her path. “Thank you,” he said. “You saved that mare’s life tonight.”

  “You’ll get my bill in the mail.” She sounded shaken.

  “Will you be all right?”

  “Of course.” She stood in the light of the single bulb. Her eyes were shadowed with fatigue, as if she’d spent too many sleepless nights. “Beau, what happened back there . . .”

  “I know,” he said. “Don’t worry, it’s already forgotten.” That was a lie and they both knew it.

  “We can’t go back to where we once were,” she said. “We’ve come too far over the years. We’re different people now.”

  He gazed down into her dark eyes—so much kindness there, so much truth. A lot of women might be capable of an affair, but Natalie wasn’t made that way. “I understand,” he muttered. “Sorry things got out of control.” He ached to wrap her in his arms and hold her close one last time, but that would only complicate things. “I’ll walk you to your vehicle.”

  She shook her head. “Please don’t. I’ll be fine.”

  He let her go then, listening as she loaded her gear and started the engine. As she pulled out of the yard, he stood in the doorway, watching the red dots of her taillights until they vanished around the bend.

  Catching the muffled sound of a vehicle’s engine starting, Lute slipped from his hiding place in the barn’s deep shadows and exited the building through a rear door. Too bad he couldn’t reach Slade right now. It would have been quite a sight if Slade had shown up and caught his wife and Beau in that hot embrace. But Slade was on his way back from a run to Mexico and wasn’t answering his cell. All Lute could do was leave him the message.

  He ought to let Stella know as well. Not that Stella would care, though she might get a good laugh out of the news that Slade’s wife was getting it on with her old boyfriend. But that wasn’t for him to decide. Stella was paying him to pass on everything he relayed to Slade, so he dutifully made the call.

  Maybe this time would make a difference.

  Lute was more than ready for his life to change. He was tired of being a shit shoveler for the Tylers, and being chewed out by Beau just for taking a nap was eating at him like a worm in his gut. The more he thought about the man, the more he hated him. He would like nothing better than to watch Slade pound him to a whimpering pulp.

  Stella had said that Slade wanted to give him extra jobs. Maybe he’d learn more about that the next time he went into town. Lute wasn’t lazy. But cleaning stables didn’t fit his kind of ambition. Or put the kind of money in his pocket that he wanted.

  The next morning, Beau was up early to head straight to the bunkhouse and catch Lute in bed. He stalked into the small single room. “Gear up!” he barked. “Put your pants on!”

  “What’d I do now?” Lute grumbled as he crawled out of the quilts and reached for the jeans that were hanging on the bedpost.

  “You damn near killed one of our best mares. Why did you give her all that grain? Any idiot would know better than to do that!”

  Lute cast him a whipped dog look. “I didn’t mean any harm by it. She was the last one to get fed, and I’d run out of hay. The grain was there, in a sack, and I thought, what’ll it hurt this once?”

  Beau squelched the urge to grab him and throw him against the wall. “That mare bloated because you were too damned lazy to go to the hay shed and get another bale! She would’ve died if I hadn’t noticed her and called the vet.”

  The vet.

  A sly expression crept over Lute’s face, causing Beau to wonder how much the little bastard knew. He always seemed to be slinking around, like he was spying on people.

  Lute shrugged. “Then I guess it’s
taken care of. No harm done. I’ll get the hay first thing after breakfast.”

  “No, you won’t. Get your gear together while I find a man to drive you to town. You’re fired.”

  Lute straightened. His lip curled in contempt. “My cousin Sky might have something to say about that.”

  “Sky works for me. And I don’t care if he’s your blasted twin brother. If he was here, he wouldn’t just fire you, he’d beat you till you couldn’t piss standing up. The one thing he won’t stand for is some idiot mishandling a horse. You’re to be outside in fifteen minutes. Somebody will be coming by for you. He’ll have your back pay. After that, I never want to see your lazy ass around here again!”

  Beau strode downstairs and outside, his step lightened by the sureness that he’d done the right thing. Once he heard the story behind his cousin’s dismissal, Sky would be fine with it. The man was slow to anger where most things were concerned, but Will had mentioned seeing him break the jaw of a cowhand he’d caught whipping one of the horses.

  Jasper had just finished breakfast in the kitchen with Bernice. The old man would be free to drive Lute into town. Maybe he’d even impart a few words of wisdom into the young fool’s ears. But Beau couldn’t imagine Lute would listen.

  Replacing him would be easy enough. With school letting out, there’d be plenty of husky kids eager to work for the Tylers and earn a little college money. He’d give Jasper a notice to post at Burger Shack when he got into town. Meanwhile, he could get one of the regular hands to do the job.

  Before going back to the house, he stopped by the mare barn to check on Lupita. He found her nursing her foal, looking fine. She’d be hungry this morning. He’d get her some hay as soon as he saw Jasper off.

  Lute had told the old man to let him off at the Blue Coyote. He climbed to the ground, shouldered his backpack, and watched as the pickup pulled away. The ride to town had taken forever, with the old-timer driving under the speed limit and lecturing him on the virtues of honesty and hard work all the way. Screw that! Lute swore silently. He’d shoveled shit for the last time.

  Slade was bound to be sore about the firing. But maybe the news that he’d pretty much caught Slade’s wife in the hay with Beau Tyler would make up for that. Lute was counting on Slade to give him more work. Maybe now that he’d proved his worth, he could even get his license and be hired as a driver. He could drive a pickup. How much harder could a big truck be?

  The bar wasn’t open yet, but peering through the gap between the plastic blind slats, Lute could see somebody moving around inside, cleaning or setting up. Maybe Stella would give him some work, too, or at least help him with a place to sleep. He had to find something. If he had to pay for food and a motel room, the back pay he’d gotten from the ranch wouldn’t last him more than a few days. He could be faced with living on the street or hitching his way back to Oklahoma.

  Stepping up to the door, he knocked. After a brief silence, it opened a few inches. Lute found himself staring into the sharp, black eyes of Nigel, the bartender.

  “We’re closed,” Nigel growled.

  “I . . . I know,” Lute stammered, thinking he’d give his right arm to inspire the kind of fear that man did. “I need to talk to Stella.”

  Looking past Nigel, Lute saw that Stella had come out of the back. He caught her eye. “It’s all right,” she said. “Let the boy in.”

  She motioned Lute to a stool at the bar and sat down next to him. She was dressed in a loose tank top that showed her black bra straps at the shoulders. With her face bare of makeup, she looked older than she had the first time he’d seen her, more like somebody’s mother. Up close, he could see the graying roots of her hair.

  A box of stale doughnuts lay open on the bar. Lute eyed them hungrily.

  “Help yourself,” she said. “I was just going to throw them out. So tell me why you aren’t at work. What happened?”

  “Got fired.” Lute spoke while cramming his mouth full. “Damned Tyler blamed a sick horse on me. Wasn’t my fault, but anyway, I need work and a place to stay. Is Slade around?”

  “He won’t be back till tonight. Can’t say he’ll be too happy about your getting fired. But I’ll see that he gives you some kind of work and a back room at the trucking company. For me, it’ll be better than having you at the ranch. Now you can really keep an eye on him.”

  Lute stared at her, puzzled. “Slade’s bound to be mad. What makes you so sure he’ll hire me?”

  “Because I own his business.”

  “What?” The last of Lute’s strawberry doughnut dropped to the floor.

  Stella shrugged. “He was having money troubles last year, about to lose the place. I bought him out, and now it’s mine. Not many people know that, including that stuck-up little wife of his, so I’d appreciate it if you’d keep it to yourself, even with Slade.”

  “Sure. But I thought Slade had plenty of money.”

  “He does—now that I’ve set him up with some of my business connections. We split whatever he brings in. But lately I’ve had the feeling he’s been holding out on me, making deals on his own. That’s why I want you to keep your eyes open. A hundred a week, just like before. Deal?” She held out her hand. Her fake crimson nails were long and sharp.

  “Deal.” Lute accepted the handshake.

  Stella smiled like a satisfied cat. “Now, how’s about some coffee to go with those doughnuts, honey?” she said.

  Why did so many emergencies have to happen at night? And why two nights in a row? Natalie struggled to keep her eyes open as she drove her SUV homeward over the back roads. Tonight her patient, a yearling stud, had been found tangled in barbed wire. The thrashing colt had to be tranquilized while the wire was clipped away and the deep wounds dressed.

  The young horse would be all right, but Natalie was exhausted. All she wanted to do was go home and crawl into bed.

  Slade was due home tonight. With luck, he’d be out cold. If she could sneak into the spare bedroom, where she’d been sleeping since the night she’d accused him of cheating, she might be able to get some needed rest.

  Stifling a yawn, she sat up straighter behind the wheel.

  The house was dark when she pulled into the drive and pressed the garage door opener. Slade’s red pickup was there, parked in its usual place. Good, he must be asleep. She’d be less likely to disturb him if she went in through the clinic.

  Taking her medical bag and the opener, she closed the garage from the outside and went around to the clinic’s front door. Her hand found the lock and inserted the key.

  The instant the door swung open, Natalie sensed something was wrong. Heart in her throat, she found the wall switch and turned on the light. Her knees went weak beneath her.

  The clinic had been completely trashed, furniture ripped and overturned, glass broken, files scattered across the floor. The computer had been smashed, the instruments and medical supplies crushed as if they’d been stomped by heavy boots. There’d been no animals in the back room, thank heaven, but the cages were toppled and bent as if they’d been kicked across the room.

  Everything was ruined.

  CHAPTER 9

  Natalie stared at the chaos that had been her clinic. From the back of her mind, a warning voice screamed, Run! Get out of here! But she was frozen in shock. She stood rooted to the spot, taking in the nightmare. What had happened here—and why?

  Then, as Slade appeared in the hallway, she knew.

  Even at a distance she could smell the liquor on him. He was dressed in rumpled work clothes, his beard unshaven, his eyes narrow red slits. Natalie willed herself to stand her ground as he lumbered toward her like an enraged bear. Somehow she found her voice.

  “Stop right there, Slade Haskell! Have you gone crazy? Why in heaven’s name did you do this?”

  He paused, close enough to cut her off from the clinic’s front door. “Because you been screwin’ that bastard Beau Tyler. That’s why!”

  Natalie’s heart slammed. She and Beau had come close
to the brink, but what Slade was accusing her of hadn’t happened. “That’s not true! I was at the Tylers’, but I went there to treat a mare with colic!”

  He shook his doubled fist at her. “Don’t you lie to me, you little whore. I got an eyewitness that seen the two of you in the barn. For all I know, you were there with him again tonight.”

  “I was working! You can call—”

  “Shut up, bitch! You’re gonna pay right now! Then I’m goin’ after Tyler and shoot his damned balls off!”

  He was coming toward her again. Natalie’s hand closed on a metal folding chair that was leaning against the wall. If he came at her, she’d need some way to defend herself.

  As he lunged for her, she swung the chair with all her strength. The blow glanced off his forehead, leaving a red gash above his eye. He swore, yanked the chair away, and grabbed her arm.

  Now she had nothing left. He was twice her weight and as strong as a steer. There was nothing she could do to stop the huge, rock-hard fist that crashed into the side of her face. Pain exploded in her head. Then mercifully, her vision spun into blackness.

  She woke alone, in the dark. For the first few seconds, she was aware of nothing but a throbbing, swollen pain from her temple to her chin. As more awareness dawned, she realized she was lying faceup on the cold tile of the clinic floor with bits of shattered glass scattered underneath and around her.

  Now the memory came back—Slade cursing her, his fist crashing home, the swirl of pain. And she remembered one more thing.

  He said he was going after Beau.

  She had to get up. Had to do something. She pushed herself to a sitting position. Her arms seemed fine, but something was tangled around her lower legs, restricting their movement. Reaching down to feel, she discovered her jeans and panties bunched around her ankles and a telltale stickiness between her thighs.