Rogue Highlander: The Lady Sparrow

by Sondra Grey

  When he released her, she whirled, all fire, and struck out at him with her foot, nearly tumbling off balance without the use of her hands. Calum had to sidestep her to avoid the kick and Isla took off again at a run.

  She got no more than a few feet before he was on her, and then she was face first in the hay, her ankles being bound by one of the ropes normally used to secure stable doors. Tears of anger, humiliation, and frustration streaked down Isla’s face. Calum tried to speak to her, but she turned her head. So, he said nothing, and hoisted her up until she was dangling over one broad, strong shoulder.

  As they strode out of the stables, Isla saw only the packed dirt floor, and then the stone of the castle floors. There were a few times when he paused, when she heard footsteps, and they waited with in the shadows. Isla could have called out. She could have asked for help. But then someone would see her, trussed up like a lamb on its way to be sheered. Keeping quiet, she let him drag her back up the tower, back to her rooms.

  Once they were through her door Calum laid her gently on the soft coverlet and picked some of the straw from her hair.

  “Untie me,” she said, when she was sure her voice would be steady. She sounded dead, and she felt the swamping depression of defeat.

  “No.” He sat down next to her and brushed the hair off her face with a gentle hand. She hated his gentleness. She wanted the rough Calum, the Calum that had dragged her through the woods and thrown her over the side of his horse. That Calum was easier to hate. “You’ll run again, and I can’t allow that to happen. Not now Isla, there’s too much at stake.”

  “There’s nothing at stake,” she said. “This is all a game! I’m nothing to you, and nothing to them, and I’m going to leave. I’m going someplace where I don’t have to think about any of you ever again.”

  Calum kept stroking her hair, swept a tear from her cheek with his thumb. “It doesn’t work that way, lass. If you were just Isla the healer, perhaps. But you’re not. You’re the niece of a proud Clan Chief. You are pregnant with my child – and both The Earl and I have our enemies. You leave, and you’re still a piece to be used. There’s no going back, or moving on. If you leave, you’ll disgrace your uncle. I’ll be obligated to find you, and if I’m searching for you, if the Gordon’s are searching for you, if the MacLeod’s are searching for you – then so will the Cameron’s, and the Douglas’s, and the MacDonald’s. You’ll be used as leverage, ransomed… I cannot untie you Isla.”

  “You could,” she said, she was crying now. His tenderness was undoing her. “You could let me go. You could forget all of this.”

  He was silent a moment and then his hands stopped their stroking. He leaned down and picked her up, so that they stared at one another, face to face. Even in the dark she could see clearly the rough beauty in his features, the sympathy in his eyes. Be angry with me! She urged him. She’d never received anyone’s sympathy – their ire, their frustration, their amusement. She couldn’t bear sympathy. It wasn’t an emotion Deirdre ever allowed.

  “There’s no forgetting, Isla.” He reached down, his hand flattening intimately over her stomach.

  “Don’t pretend you care about me!” she said, reaching for her haughtiness, for her healer’s cool. “Release me! Unbind me, and let me be rid of you!”

  His gaze firmed, lips pressed flat a moment. He took a long breath and then spoke again. “Isla. Think rationally. I know you are a rational woman at heart. Look on this with intelligence, and not passion.”

  He met her stare and held it, and Isla took a deep breath. He was right. She was letting her passion rule her better instincts. She needed a cooler head. She scooted away from him, needing the distance, and he let her. When she felt she could speak without heat, she inclined her head.

  “I’m sorry, Isla. I’m sorry about what I said in my study. I was appalled at myself, at my behavior that night of the feast, and I sought to blame you for what had occurred. I acted impulsively.” He shook his head, “You bring that out in me. I have little control around you.” He reached out, warm hand encircling her knee through her gown. “And rather than cool off, think things through, I left. I rode to Skye to meet with the MacLeod’s and engaged myself to Anne. It was a mistake, and I knew it immediately, but I did it because I thought it was in the best interest of my clan. I knew if I didn’t obligate myself to another, I’d ride back to find you – I’d act in my own self-interest, instead of the interest of my people. I thought I was doing what was best. And in doing what was best for me – I did not think of you. And I’m sorry.”

  Isla didn’t want to forgive him. She pressed her lips hard together and breathed only through her nose.

  “I wish I were upset at the way things turned out,” he said, ruefully, giving her a half smile that died when he saw her face. He shrugged. “I’m not. Anne still gets a husband, and I get an alliance with the Gordons. I get a child,” he paused, reaching a hand out for Isla’s face, but she jerked it away. “And I get you,” he finished softly. “And I’d be lying to both of us, Isla, if I said I didn’t want you.”

  Isla said nothing. She refused to be persuaded by anything that came out of Calum Grant’s mouth. She stared at the window and thought of her freedom. She thought about the sea at Aberdeen, of fleeing south and spiting all of them.

  “Think it through Isla,” he said, softly. “Think it through. Think of your options. You can marry me, be lady of Dundur, raise your child with a father who will love it. Or I can leave.”

  She looked at him, sharply, and he shrugged. “I’ll not let you run, but if the morning comes, and you still wish to be free of me, I will speak to the Earl myself.”

  Isla’s breath caught in her throat. Was he only saying that to appease her? She stared at him, and he met her stare. No, he meant it.

  “Sleep,” he said, standing up and removing his boots. He left his kilt and shirt on and walked around to the other side of the bed. Laying down on it, he took up almost half of the mattress. “Sleep,” he repeated, closing his eyes to her. “Think on it. We’ll speak in the morning.”

  How he could fall asleep in her room, with her tied up and sitting over him, and the rest of the castle only a scream’s worth away, Isla couldn’t fathom. But in minutes, Calum’s breathing was deep and untroubled.

  Isla stared at him. Doubt had found its way into her certainty and she sat there, working at her hands, trying to loosen the ribbon because all she wanted to do at that moment was pace and wring her hands.

  Perhaps Calum hadn’t tied her wrists that tightly, or perhaps the silk ribbon wasn’t the best fabric for tying knots, but she had the ties loosened enough to work the knots over her knuckles and free her hands.

  Isla worked quickly, shaking out her wrists and reaching down to untie the knot at her feet. Beside her, Calum slumbered on, chest rising and falling in a peaceful rhythm. Isla stood, ready to leave again. But when she turned, to check and make sure Calum was really and truly asleep, she stopped.

  Lying atop her bed, jaw slack, hair loose, kilt rucked up so that his muscular thighs were bared, he looked like she imagined a fallen angel might look, as if he’d tumbled from some height, and landed, limbs loose and askew.

  A vision flashed before her eyes: Calum in the courtyard of Dundur, after his run-in with the horse. Unconscious, bleeding and helpless. Isla’s arms crossed instinctively over her stomach. Inside her, his child grew – a child that would never know its father if she left. Could she leave? Could she still leave?

  The sun was perhaps an hour from rising when Calum awoke. His breathing stopped short, and he snorted, as if a dream had ended. Abruptly his eyes opened and he turned to his left, to where Isla should have been. She saw the momentary panic in his tense shoulders, in the abrupt way he sat up. Then he spotted her, sitting in the chair in the corner of the room.

  He took a deep, steadying breath, his voice rough with sleep as he said, “You’re still here.”

  “Yes.”

  “Then you’ve decided what you�
�ll do?” He didn’t move a muscle, just watched her.

  “Yes.” She said. “I’ll marry you.”

  There was no smile, no celebration. Her tone made it clear that marriage to him was not what she wanted. And Calum seemed to take that in stride. He stood up, nodded and went to retrieve his boots.

  “Then, my future Lady Dundur, I recommend you get some sleep. We wed in just a few short hours.”

  He reached down and took her unwilling hand in his. He pressed a warm kiss to the top of her palm and then strode out her door.

  The wedding was held at the castle chapel, which was big enough to accommodate most of the clansmen from all three clans. The ceremony was short, and while those who viewed it admitted that the Laird of Dundur looked resplendent, and his bride looked absolutely breathtaking, none commented over how joyed the couple looked. Indeed, the Laird of Dundur looked calm and collected, but Isla Macleay looked almost lifeless, expression blank, gaze fixed somewhere past the priest’s head.

  When the kiss had to be sealed, people watched, breathless, as the Laird of Dundur took his new wife by the chin, folded her close to his chest, and covered her mouth with his. And they’d swear that the young healer’s knees had wobbled.

  CHAPTER THREE

  R hona came in to Isla’s rooms to help her prepare for the wedding feast. “I’m deeply saddened lass,” said Rhona, clasping Isla’s shoulders, eyes filling with tears, “that you’re to leave so soon after I found you at last.”

  Isla wanted to tell her aunt that all this was Rhona’s fault. That if Rhona had but kept the pregnancy to herself… But Isla was beyond blaming her aunt. Rhona had only done what she’d thought was best, and so Isla had hugged her aunt and said all the right things about visiting, and Rhona, in turn, cried a bit.

  Patting Isla on the cheek the woman said, “I wonder what Deirdre would do in my place? What talk would she give you about the wedding night? What advice would she want me to give to you?”

  Isla stared at her aunt helplessly. What would her mother say? Isla shook her head, “She’d be proud I was marrying a laird. I think some part of her regretted giving up her position here to marry my father. The villagers used to call her That Lady Deirdre because of how ‘high and mighty’ she acted.”

  Rhona laughed a little, and Isla smiled. Much of her mother’s attitudes and eccentricities made sense, now, as had her insistence that Isla marry well. Well, Deirdre couldn’t have asked for more. She’d have even forgiven Isla the baby.

  “She’d tell me not to ruin it,” said Isla, ruefully, “She’d probably tell me I should get my tongue lopped off lest I use it to abuse my husband into disowning me.”

  Rhona laughed at that, and even Isla had to chuckle.

  “He seems like a good man,” said Rhona, reluctantly. “I think he will treat you well. And if he does not, niece, you and your child always have a place with us.”

  Isla nodded, too emotional to speak.

  “Come,” said Rhona, “I know I don’t need to explain your wedding night to you!”

  Wedding night. Isla had nearly forgotten. She flashed back to that night at Dundur, Calum atop her, hand at her hip, working himself slowly into her heat. She felt her cheeks flame and was happy that Rhona had turned towards the door and did not see.

  But the men in the hall seemed to see everything. In fact, it seemed that, the drunker everyone became, the more they kept speaking about the wedding night. The long tables were now accompanied by several small tables and it seemed as if the village had turned out to celebrate the wedding of the Gordon Niece to the Laird of Dundur. There were at least ten pipers piping, and drummers and harpists. Wine and ale flowed like water. People sang and danced and laughed.

  Isla sat at the high table with the Earl, the Laird, Leith Macleod and their closest relatives. Every once in a while, a clansman would stand up and call a toast, and there would be cheers and drinking. And more than three times there were loud, chanting calls of “kiss her!” which wouldn’t stop until Calum fit his lips to Isla’s.

  Pressed close to his chest, his lips both hard, and soft, and heated, it was an effort for Isla not to respond. She’d no appetite for the food and no thirst for the drink. Calum had stopped drinking after his third cup of ale, and he was deep in conversation with the Earl when the fourth such call for a kiss came. The hall roared, the clansmen demanding they be heeded. And so Calum let out a roaring curse and leapt out of his chair so fast it tumbled behind him.

  Standing up, he faced the crowd of clansmen, raised a hand and bellowed, “One more is all you’ll have!” Then he reached down, hauled Isla up, spun her about and pulled her close. The kiss was a deep and impassioned one. His hand wound into her dark hair, holding her still as he fit his lips to hers. When she opened her mouth to breathe, his tongue shot forward pressing her lips open further, demanding her response. She couldn’t help herself. She kissed him back, trembling as he bent her backwards over his arm, the kiss deepening. She clutched his shirt to keep herself upright. Blood sang through her veins and pounded in her ears, drowning out the sounds of the cheers. When Calum released her, her head was reeling, and desire was a live coal whose burning heat seared through her.

  Isla all but stumbled back into her chair, but Calum kept a hold of her hand and addressed the room. People were cheering loudly and Isla was pretty sure he’d announced their retirement from dinner.

  “My love,” Calum said, loudly, gesturing to her. Isla blinked up at him. Desire was still smoldering in his eyes, and when he tugged her to her feet, she stood. It was that or strike out at him, and Isla was currently being assaulted by images of them together, her body remembering the feel of his inside hers. She felt faint.

  “Have they told you about the bleeding, lass!” Someone called out.

  “Come on then, Grant! Lift up the kilt and show us what sword you’re wielding this evening!”

  To Isla’s complete dismay, the pipers began piping them from the hall, and people rose from their tables, and follow them out. Isla cast a panicked glance up at Calum who was grinning, ear to ear, slightly red in the cheeks himself.

  There was a parade leading up the tower stairs and to the bedroom. They weren’t heading to her room, she realized, but to Calum’s. And when they got to the door, Calum threw it open, and tucked her behind him.

  “Friends, Clansmen, and family! My wife and I bid you good night! Now, if you’ll leave us in some peace.”

  And with that he turned and slammed the door. It had all happened so fast that Isla could do nothing but gape at Calum as he leaned against the locked door, slightly breathless. The smile he’d been wearing during their celebration disappeared and, in its place was wariness. Isla straightened and stared at the walls. Beyond them music still echoed.

  “They’re still out there,” she said, frowning.

  “Oh,” said Calum, glancing over his shoulder. “I expect they’ll stay there until they’re satisfied we’ve consummated the marriage.”

  Isla frowned at him and stared at the bed. Her traitorous body excited at the idea, but pride had her crossing her arms. “We’ve already consummated,” she said.

  Calum’s lips quirked at that. He looked like he wanted to approach, but kept himself motionless, casually leaning against the door. “We’ve certainly known each other,” he said, inclining his head to her, “But the marriage has yet to be consummated.”

  “You’ll not get near me,” said Isla, flatly.

  Desire flared hot in Calum’s eyes as he stood up, straight. “A challenge,” he murmured.

  “It’s not a challenge. I’m pregnant, there’s nothing you could possible want with me now.”

  “Ah, Isla,” said Calum, smiling genuinely. She hated that his smile made his face light up, that he looked so incredibly beautiful. “In fact, you are even more desirable, knowing that you are my wife, and that you carry my child.”

  “Well I don’t desire you.”

  “Another challenge.” He was moving towards her no
w and she found herself backing away from him.

  “It’s not a challenge Calum, stop!”

  He stopped, cocking his head to the side. “Isla,” he said, his voice deep and purring, “There’s no reason in the world to stop. You are now my wife, and I am now your husband. This is what we’re supposed to do…”

  “To make children. We’ve already made one.”

  That stopped him in his tracks. He opened his mouth, closed it. Then shook his head, staring at her incredulously. “You mean to tell me when we were together, the first time, it was in order to make a child?”

  “Well no of course not…”

  “Then your logic is faulty,” he concluded. “Try again.” He crossed his arms and tapped his foot, dramatically waiting for her answer.

  Isla took a deep breath, readying herself for another argument, but Calum cut in.

  “Remember that night, Isla? I do, though I woke the next morning wishing to hell I hadn’t done it.” She opened her mouth but he stepped forward, and grabbed her hand. “Remember the second time, when I turned you around and came behind you. You mewled like a kitten…”

  “How dare you…”

  “How dare I remind you of the pleasure I gave you? How dare I remind you of what it’s like between us? This is our wedding night, Isla. And I’ve been thinking about it all day…” He drew her forward and held her hand by the wrist, turning it so that her palm faced him. Pulling it towards his mouth he breathed hotly in the center, and then pressed his thumb there, running it in sensual circles. Desire shot through Isla so suddenly she nearly fell forward. Or had he pulled her? Either way, she was in his arms, and his hand was running over her hair, pulling out her combs until her hair fell heavily down her back.

  “Can you forget how angry you are with me, Isla? For now? And let there be some peace in our marriage bed?”

  “Peace?” parroted Isla, wits addled by his nearness.