by Jude Ouvrard
I leap into his arms; this is definitely the best night of my life.
I can’t stop smiling. I don't think I’ll be able to sleep for a week. I don't think sleeping is in Joshua’s plans, anyway.
Abbie
Two weeks later...
Today, it's the boys turn to get their tuxedos for our wedding. To be honest, it's about time. The date is rapidly approaching and it’s making me nervous. What if they can't find the right suits? I think I’ve mentioned to Presley about a hundred times that he needs to get a purple tie. I truly hope he doesn't forget. It has to be this way. I even saved a few pictures of ties I’ve found on the web, and placed them in his cell phone before he left. I want everything to match and to be the best we can be. I never thought I would get this crazy over a wedding, but I am. I'm a bridezilla, albeit a mild one.
Last night, I woke up in the middle of the night. I had a dream about my mother. It was a good dream. Mom and I were getting matching tattoos. It was crazy, because Mom never approved of tattoos, but in the dream, we both had matching flowers done. I adored the idea, and I was determined I had to get this done. I couldn't wait, so I brought the laptop to the bed and surfed the web until I found the exact flower I had in mind. They’re freesias, like the ones we had for Mom’s funeral. I woke Presley up, begging him to get his equipment ready. It was 3:15 am when he started tattooing me. We opted for a small bouquet of pink and white freesias, on my upper arm. He even asked me a couple times if I was truly awake and aware of what I was doing. I promised him that I was, and that this was definitely what I wanted.
''You realize that it’s the middle of the night, right?'' he asked.
''I do and I'm sorry, but I want to do it now. The images are so clear in my head. Please, baby, I'll owe you big for this.''
''No, Abbie, you won’t owe with anything, I want to be the one to do it, but damn, it’s not like it’s a small thing. We won’t be done before the sun rises.''
''I know, and I'm sorry.'' I knew it was a lot of work for him to do, I'm not an idiot. I knew I had no right to wake him up in the middle of the night to do it, but I was certain it needed to be done right now. It was selfish on my part, and I felt bad for pushing him, but I couldn’t seem to think about anything else. Presley got his gear ready, wearing nothing but his underwear. I couldn’t stop staring at his amazing body. He got the coloured ink out, the black outline ink, the needles and the endless list of other equipment he needed.
At first, when he started drawing on my skin, I thought it was somehow tingling and provoking my desires for him. He was concentrated and making sure every flower was in the right place. Every once in a while, he stepped back to look at my arm and then he would return to fix it up. Presley is deliriously sexy when he is working at any kind of art. He has the same focused expression on his face when he’s working at his photography or playing piano.
So he did it, and I'm so freaking happy. I knew I wanted to get another tattoo, I just didn't know what it would be until I had the dream. It was obviously a sign; it was so clear in my head and I had to get it marked on my skin immediately. It was almost six in the morning when Presley finished. He did a fantastic job and is so talented. This time he didn't use a stencil, he drew it directly onto my skin, working the design until he was satisfied with the result.
He didn't get much sleep because of my crazy urge, and I know this morning he wasn't in a great mood due to a lack of sleep. I saw him grab some Advil before he left. I think it's probably better if I don't call to remind him about the purple tie.
I'm naked, about to take a shower, and I'm staring at my body. Studying my tattoos. I feel so different, but in a good way. I’m happy with myself; happy with the miraculous changes in my life. It’s as if I'm blossoming into a flower. I think Presley is bringing out who I always knew I was, but the real me that I kept hiding. I’ve never felt more free and grounded at the same time before, but I love the sensation.
Looking at my belly, I think I should cut back on the carbs until the wedding. We’ve been eating a lot of take-out lately, and I feel like I might have gained a few pounds. I don't dare get on the scale. I’ll trust my instincts and eat lighter for the next two weeks. Salad and grilled chicken with fruit; this will be painful. Well, at least until after the wedding.
We're supposed to receive the dresses this week. They’re going to be delivered to Lucia’s house, so we can be sure the men aren’t going to see them. I'm so excited about this. I’ll have to call Lucia, to see if she needs help with anything. I'm sure she won't accept any help, but I think I should ask anyway.
Presley has asked a friend of his, another photographer, to be at the wedding for the photos. If we want Presley in the pictures, we will obviously need someone else to be holding the camera. I trust him; I'm sure his friend is a good as Presley is. Well, maybe not as good, but good enough. I smile to myself. I’m being ridiculous.
Today, Alicia, Joy-Anna, and I are going to buy our jewelry for the wedding. I want something very delicate and feminine. I looked through a few magazines, but I didn't find exactly what I wanted. Joy-Anna is going to freak when she sees my new tattoo. I know Alicia has a big one in that exact same area, also done by Presley. When Joy-Anna arrives, I'm wearing jeans and a tank top, and applying lotion to my tattoo. She doesn't say anything, but there’s a huge smile on her face, and her eyes grow wide with surprise.
''Abbie Rylee...he inked you again! When did he do it? It looks pretty new,'' she says, as she takes a closer look.
''I had a dream about my mom, and I woke Presley up in the middle of the night to do it.''
''Ah! Now I understand why he looked like hell this morning, when he arrived to get Derek.''
I grinned sheepishly. ''Yep, my fault.''
''It’s so pretty, Bee.'' She is studying the details. “He put his heart into it. The flowers look real.
''Thanks.'' I suddenly feel the urge to hug her, so I do. She laughs, pleased and surprised.
''Are you alright, Abbie?''
''I am. I really am. I’m just overwhelmed by my life, him, you, Alicia, everyone. The wedding is coming, and it's all happening so fast. I want it so badly.''
Joy-Anna giggles. ''And then you’ll be Abbie Williams!''
''I know!'' I squeal. We hug some more, and jump around the room like little girls.
I put on my sweater and Presley’s scarf, that way I can smell his cologne all day. I top it off with a jacket, and we leave the apartment to meet Alicia outside in the parking lot.
She drives us to Lucia’s house. I don’t say anything, because maybe she wants to join us and I just didn’t know. I'm excited to see her as well. We enter the house, and Lucia walks toward us from the kitchen. Her smile is radiant, and as per usual, she kisses and hugs each and every one of us.
''Abbie!'' Lucia takes a hold of my hand. ''I know you were planning to go shopping for your wedding jewelry today, but if you don’t mind, I’d like to suggest something a little more traditional.''
We follow her into the living room, where there are some leather boxes in various colors sitting on the coffee table.
''I would like you to consider wearing the Williams’ family jewels. They’re mostly vintage, and in perfect condition.'' Lucia smiled, giving me a few seconds to let this offer sink in. ''If you don’t find anything that you like, then we can go to the jeweller’s downtown so you can buy something.''
''Are you sure about this? I mean, I'm touched by the gesture, Lucia, I am. Can I look at them?'' I ask curiously.
''Of course you can, Abbie.'' She picks up the first box and opens it; it contains a white pearl necklace with a matching bracelet and earrings. ''This set was worn by Bentley’s mother on our wedding day. It belongs to his great-grandmother.''
I take the box from Lucia’s hands to get a closer look. It is a classic, not exactly what I had in mind, though.
I hand the box to Alicia, while Lucia opens the next box.
''This one is from my side of the family. I
t belonged to my aunt, and she offered it to me as a wedding present. It’s all diamonds. It’s the set I wore on my wedding day.'' She hands me the box, and I see the little sparks of happiness in her eyes. It probably reminds her of her own special day. I take a look at what’s inside the box. It’s perfect, very delicate, but it shines beautifully. There are four diamonds on the necklace and I assume it’s made of white gold. The bracelet and earrings are also perfect. I think this is the one I’ll choose. Lucia continues with the third and last box. ''This one is the oldest one. It’s from the beginning of the twentieth century. It’s made of white eighteen karat gold. It’s an Edwardian Amethyst Pearl Festoon Necklace, with a Heart Girandole Centrepiece. I have to admit, it’s my favorite. I think this one would match your dress perfectly.
I take the box and look at the contents. I swear my heart isn’t beating anymore. This one is more than perfect. ''I think this is the one, Lucia. It will look amazing with my dress, and it has purple in it. Are you sure I can borrow it? I mean, it’s an antique and I’m sure it’s very important to the family.''
''Yes, Abbie, we’re sure. We trust you, and we know you’ll be careful with it.” Lucia is always so calm and serene. When I'm around her, even though the events are nearly always exciting, I always feel at peace. She calms me down, somehow.
''Thank you. It’s so pretty.''
Lucia takes the necklace from the box and places it around my neck.
''Abbie, you look spectacular, and you’re not even wearing your dress. I can only imagine how flawless you’ll be on your special day,'' Alicia says.
Joy-Anna leaves the room and returns with a mirror. Alicia and I study my reflection in it, while Joy-Anna is seeing how it would look with my hair up. We play around with my hair, and she lets a few strands of hair fall around my face. I can visualize myself on our wedding day, all pretty and feminine.
''It’s perfect, Abbie!'' Joy-Anna announces.
We're all happy and excited, and I'm getting very emotional about this whole family thing. When I first met Presley’s family, I was so anxious to see if we would get along and wondered if I would develop the special bond with them, which they all seem to have and now, I do. I’m embracing it every single time we hang out.
After sharing a few cups of coffee, we decide to go out and get something to eat. Lucia lets us go, while she stays home and works on preparations for the ceremony. We walk to a little restaurant where they make their own gelato, chocolate, and Belgian waffles. We all order something different to share. Although it will please my sweet tooth, I’m worried because my good eating habits have been pushed to the side recently. My jeans are a little tight and I don’t feel good in my own skin.
''Girls, I shouldn't even eat any of this; I'm afraid I won't fit into my dress. I think I’ve gained some weight,'' I worry.
''Don't worry,'' Joy-Anna says. ''Of course you’ll fit in your dress. You haven’t gained weight, Abbie. It’s all in your head.'' She seems to think that I'm kidding, but I'm serious.
''Yeah, don't worry about it. It will be fine.'' Alicia adds.
They’re nice, but I'm not stupid. I can feel the extra pounds. I promise myself I’ll go for a run every day until the big day, and only eat salad. I swear I’ll do it. I've done it before when I had to, and it worked. But for now, God, this is all so delicious. ''We’ll have to come back here at least once a week,'' Alicia says.
''No problem.'' Joy-Anna announces as she takes a bite of my waffle. The flavor is incredible: warm chocolate and mouth-watering fresh raspberries.
We laugh, we gossip, we have a good time. When I'm having a good time like today, I feel like I'm catching up on everything I missed out on when I was with Dean. I was only allowed to befriend his entourage, because he trusted them. I'm glad I met Presley that night at the concert, and decided to move on. Best decision I've ever made.
When I arrive home, the apartment is dark and quiet. I don't think Presley has gotten home yet. I walk into our room to check on my tattoo, and there he is, sound asleep on the bed, fully dressed. Poor Presley. This is all my fault, I know. I should have waited and asked him to do the tattoo tonight. I should know he’ll never say no to me. I’ll have to be a better judge, and think carefully before I ask him for something, because now he’s exhausted and I’m to blame. I grab a blanket from the closet and quietly lay it over him. I’ll check on the tattoo later. I stop in the doorway and watch him for a minute before I leave; he looks like an angel. My sleeping angel.
I grab a book; I need to get a little work done. I’ve been slacking off lately. I sit in the living room, surrounded by all the photos of Presley. I read, and just like that, I'm back in my own little world. My first passion, my motivation is reading. I cry and I laugh, I fall in love with the characters. Sometimes I hate them so much that I want to throw the book across the room, but sometimes I love them so much that the book will never leave my imagination, even days after I've finished reading. It is a world where I'm happy, no matter what the outside world throws at me.
Sometime later, I hear Presley walking around the apartment, searching for me. ''Abbie, are you here?''
''I’m here, '' I respond, still focused on my book.
''I’m so fucking hungry. Did you cook anything?'' I lift my eyes to take a look at him. No t-shirt, only his jogging pants hanging just perfectly on his hips. So hot.
''I’m sorry, I didn’t. What do you want to eat?'' I want to eat you; my naughty side speaks up.
''Pizza would be great.'' He runs a hand through his messy hair.
''I’ll order.'' I grab my phone and order pizza, and a salad for myself.
He comes to sit next to me, laying his head on my lap. I run my fingers through his thick dark hair while I continue reading. We're both quiet; in need of some down time. We both had a busy day apart. If this is what our life together will be like, I’ll never get enough of it. It’s as simple as that. He doesn't mind my reading and I love every side of him. I can’t say anything negative about him, where I only ever thought badly of Dean.
I'm out of breath. My heart is fighting for its life; it’s pounding in my chest and hurts like hell. Sweat slides from the nape of my neck all the way down to the small of my back. God, it hurts so much. My whole body is aching. My legs are shaking. I don't think I’ll be able to resist any longer. Please. I silently beg. Please!
''Come on, Abbie. You’re almost there,'' says a familiar voice.
I can’t do anymore, I can’t. I'm trying so hard to stay motivated, but this is hell on Earth. I feel a gentle pat on my butt. ''Come on girl, give it all you have.''
My breathing is ragged and it hurts my lungs. Why am I doing this again?
''Shut up, Joshua, or you’ll regret it.''
He laughs and continues running. Why can’t he stop now? He doesn’t even seem tired. I think we've been running forever. I hate running, I truly do. I stop moving and start coughing. I used to be in much better shape; why am I so unfit now? I know I’m still suffering some pain due to the injuries I received when Kelly and her friend beat me up, but it shouldn’t be this bad. I used to run every week. I stopped running when I met Presley, because I had other things on my mind. Running is usually what I do when I need to let my frustrations out, but now I'm doing this to make sure I fit into my wedding dress.
''Abbie, your face is bright red. I think we need to take a break.'' Joshua’s enjoying this. Torture, that’s what it is.
''Joshua,'' I cough. ''I hate you,'' I splutter, coughing again. ''How can you be in such great shape?'' I struggle to catch my breath.
''I do this every morning, Bee.''
I slump onto a nearby bench and hold my head between my legs. I can feel my heart pounding through my forehead; this can't be good. I didn't eat earlier because I was feeling off-color. I only had a small glass of orange juice before we left. Now my stomach is upset. This is a nightmare; all I want to do is go home.
''Abbie, you look kind of pale. Are you alright?'' Joshua asks, soundin
g worried.
''Joshua, I think I'm going to throw up.'' I get up and run to the nearest garbage can, reaching it just in time. I'm very thankful that my hair is up in a ponytail right now. I'm ashamed of myself. How can I possibly be in such bad shape?
''Jesus girl... are you alright?'' Joshua asks, rubbing my back. It’s awkward, but I appreciate his concern nonetheless.
''I don't know. I think I’ll grab a taxi and go home.'' I cough again.
''I’ll call Presley. Hang on.''
I’m trying to get it together. My throat is burning and I would love a glass of ice cold water. I go back to sit on the bench. I’m dizzy and my breathing is still erratic. I hear Joshua in the background.
''’Ley, come on man. Chill out. She's not dying. She was doing great at first...''
I think Presley is giving him a hard time, and I feel terribly sorry for Joshua right now.
''Yes...I know...We're in front of the Central Library...Alright, we’re not going anywhere.''
Joshua disconnects the call and walks back to me, looking uncomfortable. ''Are you okay, Abbie?'' he asks in a soft voice.
''I bet Presley is upset.'' It isn't a question when I already know the answer.
''Yeah. I’m an idiot. I shouldn't have pushed you so hard.'' Joshua squeezes my shoulder and I can see regret in his eyes. I know his intentions were never to hurt me. He was having a good time and I was too, at first. I should have stopped running sooner. It's my fault, not his.
''Don't worry Joshua, we had a good time. I used to have much better endurance. I don't know what got into me this morning.''
''Presley will pick us up.'' Joshua laughs. ''I think I'm going to be on Presley’s shit list for a while.''
I can’t help but laugh with him. ''I'm so sorry.'' I fix my ponytail, pulling the band tighter. ''I’ll talk to him, don't worry. You didn't do anything wrong.''
''Thanks, Bee.''
We wait in silence. I'm still dreaming about that ice cold water. I’m sure I smell terrible, too. My stomach is growling. It’s empty and it hurts, but I don't think I could eat anything right now. Obviously, I pushed myself too hard. We hear tires squealing at the corner and I recognize Presley’s car. He stops right in front of the bench, and before I know it, he’s kneeling in front of me.