20 By one account, Diana: B-RK, p. 146
21 “She didn’t see him until late”: Interview with Andrew Morton
22 “James was always with her”: Ibid.
23 “confusion … that line”: Ibid.
24 “The classic was the suicides”: Ibid.
25 “breathless haste”: B-AM1, p. 17
26 “hope for the best”: Ibid., p. 16
27 “had doubts about her veracity”: Interview with Andrew Morton
28 “secret friendship”: Ibid.
29 “much to Diana’s annoyance”: Ibid.
30 “She procured them because”: Ibid.
31 Like Diana, Knight had been: Interview with Andrew Knight
32 “Angela rang me”: Ibid.
33 “Angela is a very private”: Interview with Andrew Morton
34 “Yes, if [Diana] says”: Interview with Andrew Knight
35 “She wants it in The Sunday Times”: Ibid.
36 As the project advanced: Interview with Andrew Morton
37 “Just remember we always”: B-AM1, p. 64
38 “trivial, like mosquitoes”: WO, 4/9/88
39 “Someone said to me recently”: Sun, 6/9/89
40 “ingratitude”: Sun, 9/10/91
41 “Diana doesn’t understand”: To, 3/30/92; Sun, 9/10/91
42 “I love people for”: DM, 5/20/97
43 they might not communicate: DEx, 6/6/88
44 “It was not an easy”: Interview with Richard Kay
45 “I don’t understand why I have”: SuEx, 10/11/92
46 “a close friend … she told friends”: B-AM1, p. 136
47 “There were 4,000 of her words”: Interview with Andrew Morton
48 “made a number of alterations”: B-AM1, p. 19
49 “presumably out of deference”: Ibid.
50 “the man she longed to marry”: Ibid., p. 11
51 When Angela Serota called: Ibid., p. 174
52 “extraordinary … grieving family”: DM, 8/24/91
53 “Diana’s tears flowed”: Sun, 8/30/91
54 “What do you suppose”: Independent, 11/30/91
55 “more positive and balanced”: B-AM1, p. 176
56 “second honeymoon … lovebirds”: DS, 8/13/91
57 “happier and closer”: Sun, 8/13/91
58 Meanwhile, the Waleses: B-JD, p. 579
59 “Their lives are spent”: B-AM1, p. 182
60 “While the caring princess”: DEx, 9/23/91
61 “actually very healthy”: B-JD, p. 585
62 “the greatest year of her life”: Good Housekeeping (British edition),10/91
63 “wistful solitude”: DM, 2/12/92
64 “poignant reminder of the royal wish”: Mi, 2/12/92
65 “The marriage was indeed”: B-JD, p. 592
66 Diana was well aware: Ibid., p. 591
67 “all eyes will be on them”: ES, 2/12/92
68 placing the blame for: Mi, 2/14/92
69 “It was she who seemed”: ST, 2/16/92
70 “Here she was again”: ST, 5/17/92
71 “tabloid mauling”: B-JD, pp. 579–80
72 they arrived and departed: B-AM1, pp. 180–81
73 “leaving Diana to attend”: DM, 4/2/92
74 “I asked, ‘Are you aware’ ”: Interview with Roberto Devorik
75 she was visibly shaking: Interview with David Puttnam
76 “It was a hard-boiled crowd”: Interview with Andrew Knight
77 “suddenly she started”: Interview with David Puttnam
78 “I think it would be better off”: Neil, p. 262
79 “effectively … too fantastical”: Ibid., p. 261
80 “He started going through”: Interview with Andrew Neil
81 “gushing prose”: Interview with Sue Douglas
82 “We have something serious”: Ibid.
83 “I was able to say”: Interview with Andrew Knight
84 “I never had any doubt”: Interview with Andrew Neil
85 The Sunday Times upped: Neil, p. 263
86 “there were large chunks”: Interview with Sue Douglas
87 “Treat that book”: Interview with Stuart Higgins
88 “It is believed”: DEx, 5/9/92
89 “I still see myself”: ST, 5/17/92
90 “The Princess hoped by putting”: Interview with Robert Hardman
CHAPTER 17
1 “She thinks he is a bad”: B-AM1, p. 184
2 “her own privacy”: DT, 1/13/93
3 “There was no commercial”: Interview with Max Hastings
4 “coming under strong pressure”: Sun, 6/4/92
5 Fealty to his sovereign: The Spectator, 1/23/99
6 The first Sunday Times excerpt: ST, 6/7/92
7 “I HAVE NOT COOPERATED”: Mi, 6/8/92
8 “odious exhibition”: B-JD, p. 583
9 McGregor checked once more: Gua, 1/12/93 (Lord McGregor letter12/11/92 to Sir David Calcutt)
10 Prince Charles first read: B-WB, p. 165
11 “Diana and Charles agreed”: B-AM2, p. 29
12 “pompous”: Interview with Andrew Knight
13 “she was making his life unbearable”: B-AM2, p. 30
14 “Are you really telling me”: Interview with Andrew Knight
15 “This was Diana’s elaborate way”: Ibid.
16 “She was under huge pressure”: Interview with Andrew Neil
17 Fellowes knew at once: B-JD, p. 584
18 “embarrassed the commission”: McGregor letter, 12/11/92
19 “the thought that the Princess”: B-JD, p. 587
20 He changed his mind: Ibid., p. 586
21 When Charles learned: Ibid., p. 588
22 “if she tried to manipulate”: B-AM2, p. 31
23 That afternoon, Diana burst: Sun, 6/12/92
24 “rallied to the Prince”: B-JD, p. 588
25 “shocked and horrified”: Pano, p. 18
26 Two days earlier: B-JD, p. 588; ST, 6/28/92
27 “was led to believe”: ST, 6/28/92
28 “Left her shaken rigid”: B-AM2, p. 34
29 “Diana said, ‘When I came’ ”: Interview with Elsa Bowker
30 by writing Diana a series: ST, 12/13/92
31 Diana reacted defensively: B-AM2, p. 35
32 “stinging … irate”: B-AM1, p. 217
33 “caring and compassionate”: Sun, 6/8/92
34 “was very upset”: Interview with Andrew Knight
35 Although their views informed: Interviews with Sue Douglas, Andrew Neil
36 “dignified silence”: ST, 6/28/92
37 “campaign of derision”: B-AM2, p. 40
38 when transcripts of the Squidgy: MOS, 1/18/93
39 “was done to harm me”: Pano, p. 22
40 “had enjoyed a ‘physical’ ”: Sun, 9/1/92
41 while he never took: ES, 9/3/92, 12/3/93
42 “destroyed”: B-AM1, p. 221
43 “flowering of [her] true”: Ibid., p. 21
44 “growing sense of self-belief”: Ibid., p. 27
45 “emotional roller coaster”: Ibid.
46 “She dropped most”: Interview with Richard Kay
47 “incensed … at what she perceived”: DM, 5/6/93
48 “unpaid adviser”: DT, 10/7/97
49 “James Colthurst was still my”: Interview with Andrew Morton
50 “What had been hidden”: Pano, p. 18
51 each consulting lawyers: B-AM2, p. 48; B-WB, p. 166
52 “openly talking about”: B-JD, p. 589
53 “Mrs. Walsh”: DM, 12/10/92
54 being “exiled”: B-AM1, p. 222
55 during the Balmoral holiday: B-JD, p. 592
56 WHY CHARLES AND DIANA ARE BACK TOGETHER: B-JW, p. 129
57 “often distraught”: B-JD, p. 593
58 “The Glums”: B-JW, p. 130
59 “The strain is immense”: Ibid., pp. 593–94 (PC letter 11/8/92 to unnamed recipient)
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bsp; 60 Diana had been on the phone: Ibid., p. 593
61 “recent wave of misleading”: Ibid., pp. 139–40
62 Within days, the tabloids: Mi, 1/17/93; Sun, 1/17/93
63 the tape of this conversation: DS, 11/14/92; MOS, 1/17/93
64 “I’ll just live inside”: Mi, 1/17/93
65 prompted questions: DM, 11/14/92
66 “snapped”: B-JD, p. 595; B-WB, pp. 169–70
67 “Unable to see any future”: B-JD, p. 595
68 “not at all”: Pano, p. 19
69 to tell them the news: Ibid., p. 20
70 “heard it on the radio”: Ibid., p. 19
71 “carefree, glossy”: DM, 12/11/92
72 “Diana sounded flat”: B-AP, p. 297
73 “The media did not mismatch”: DM, 12/10/92
74 “report the truth”: ES, 12/10/92
75 “royal magic … on his judgment”: DM, 12/10/92
CHAPTER 18
1 “She lived her life in so many”: VF, 10/97
2 “to discuss the things”: Interview with Roberto Devorick
3 “She liked to be the one”: Interview with Marguerite Littman
4 “She needed to be liked”: Interview with Mark Lloyd
5 “It was totally one-to-one”: Interview with Cosima Somerset
6 She retreated: B-RK, p. 108
7 “I said, ‘When you do’ ”: Interview with David Puttnam
8 “They are perfect”: Interview with Nicholas Haslam
9 “Why are you sending”: Ibid.
10 “She was very clever to give”: Ibid.
11 “I was not on the same social”: B-SS, p. 18
12 giving Diana “prophecies”: B-AM1, pp. 130, 163
13 “the mother I would have liked”: DM, 1/14/98
14 “the essential ingredient of our relationship”: DM, 9/4/97
15 The family was also decidedly: VF, 5/97
16 “At lunch at Annabel’s”: Interview with Cosima Somerset
17 “She liked my way of living”: Interview with Elsa Bowker
18 “To be her friend was difficult”: Ibid.
19 Like Elsa, Hayat was: ES, 6/2/95; DM, 5/9/98
20 “glass stump”: B-JD, p. 546
21 “Peter took the approach”: Interview with Nigel Dempster
22 PALACE DENIES SPIRITUAL CRISIS: Ti, 4/28/93
23 “her sulky public behavior”: SuTel, 9/7/97
24 “simply cry [until she was] totally drained”: Ibid.
25 “compassionate and practical”: Ibid.
26 The Louisiana-born: NYT, 4/4/99
27 “I would have loved to”: Interview with Marguerite Littman
28 “I deliberately didn’t get”: Ibid.
29 since she had trained as: DM, 5/6/93
30 “like a brother to her”: Interview with Roberto Devorik
31 “By 1989, [Andrew and I] were sharing”: B-SF, p. 163
32 The first was Steve Wyatt: Ibid., pp. 191–92, 198–200
33 “financial adviser”: Esquire, 6/95
34 While hiding in some nearby: Ibid.; B-SF, pp. 6–10; B-JW, pp. 112–13
35 “potent confederacy”: B-SF, p. 187
36 “its level best to isolate”: Ibid., p. 224
37 “She’s the only person I know”: B-RK, p. 157
38 “Palladian jewel”: Spencer, p. 55
39 after the royal security: DEx, 5/18/93
40 “brief but bitter silence”: Spencer, p. 55
41 “I hate you so much”: B-AM1, p. 29
42 Diana and Raine had met: DM, 5/12/93
43 As word of their friendship: Mi, 7/13/98
44 “she felt remorse”: Interview with Elsa Bowker
CHAPTER 19
1 “I never found her strong”: DM, 9/1/97
2 “I was a problem.… busy stopping me”: Pano, pp. 20–21
3 “Parents sometimes desert”: Ti, 9/12/91
4 As expected, the press saw: DT, 12/4/93
5 THE REAL PAIN OF A BROKEN MARRIAGE: To, 11/18/92
6 DIANA: THE PAIN OF BEING UNLOVED: DM, 11/18/92
7 “children are not … every household”: Ibid.
8 “lecture on good parenting”: Ibid.
9 “astonishing”: To, 11/18/92
10 “extraordinary”: DM, 11/18/92
11 She had sixty sessions: DM, 5/26/93
12 “that didn’t actually say”: ITV-Doc
13 “I have it on very good”: DM, 4/28/93
14 “the ‘authority’ was herself”: Ibid.
15 “astonishing”: DM, 5/26/93
16 “showed she had beaten”: To, 4/28/93
17 “dieting, bingeing, and self-hatred”: Susie Orbach, Fat Is a Feminist Issue (1988), p. 13
18 “the body as the personification.… wrested away from her”: Susie Orbach speech “Protest and Defiance: Surrender and Complicity: Eating Problems in the 90’s” (1993)
19 “someone who had learned”: DEx, 4/28/93
20 “not about lack of self-control”: Orbach, Fat Is a Feminist Issue, p. 28
21 By 1993, she had been taking: B-SS, p. 93; DM, 2/24/98; B-AM2, p. 108
22 “haze of loneliness”: DM, 6/2/93
23 a poll in Today: Gua, 12/23/93
24 “Bad Witch … Good Witch”: B-SF, pp. 187, 196
25 Foreign Secretary Douglas Hurd: B-JD, p. 653
26 Diana’s celebrity even eclipsed: Ti, 12/5/96
27 THE TRIUMPH OF DIANA: Ibid.
28 “Nepal,” he was told: DT, 3/23/93
29 “addicted to the limelight”: B-AM2, p. 80
30 “relentless”: DM, 7/13/93
31 a Mirror poll: Gua, 12/23/93
32 and Tatler magazine: Tatler, 11/93
33 “dirty tricks”: DM, 3/3/93
34 “downgrade … marginalize”: DM, 4/8/93
35 “Palace plots against”: DM, 7/30/93
36 “I acknowledge that she had to”: Interview with Andrew Morton
37 “many-headed hydra”: DT, 9/1/97
38 Kay was thirty-six: Interview with Richard Kay
39 “our first serious and lengthy”: DM, 9/1/97
40 “I realized how inadequately”: Interview with Richard Kay
41 “I saw her at her happiest”: DM, 9/1/97
42 “I wanted information”: Interview with Richard Kay
43 “When I was at the Mail”: Interview with Richard Addis
44 “unofficial press officer”: B-AM2, p. 137
45 “I couldn’t disclose”: Interview with Richard Kay
46 “I want to get away from it all”: Interview with Mark Lloyd
47 “It was totally secure”: Ibid.
48 “Once Diana made up”: Ibid.
49 “suffering from stress and exhaustion”: SuPe, 7/25/93
50 “You make my life hell!”: Sun, 8/3/93; DEx, 8/3/93
51 “looking angry and strained”: Mi, 10/11/93
52 PAIN OF A PRINCESS: IS THE STRAIN GETTING TO DI?: Ibid.
53 DI’S AT BREAKING POINT AS CHARLES WINS THE PR WAR: Sun, 10/12/93
54 “This is the face of a woman”: Mi, 10/11/93
55 “increasingly emotional”: Sun, 10/12/93
56 A meeting on: Ti, 10/31/93; DM, 10/26/93
57 “Diana told me that Prince Charles”: Interview with Andrew Neil
58 “The idea I am searching”: Financial Times, 11/22/93
59 “prolonged eating binge”: Sun, 11/4/93
60 “rare public display”: ES, 11/4/93
61 “pathetically damaged … broken”: B-SS, p. 27
62 “shocked … self-mutilation”: Ibid., p. 19
63 “were counteracting … tension and panic”: Ibid., pp. 27–28
64 “it proved impossible”: B-JD, p. 653
65 “real purpose”: Ibid., p. 654
66 “The pressure was … owed it to the public”: Pano, p. 24
67 “little light”: Interview with David Puttnam
68 “I will be reduci
ng.… kindness and support”: To, 12/4/93
69 “the tears started”: ES, 12/3/93
70 “campaign to downgrade”: Sun, 12/4/93
71 she left her 118 charities: ES, 12/3/93
72 Indeed, Mike Whitlam: To, 12/4/93
73 “Carping newspaper columnists”: Ibid.
74 “bored stiff”: Sun, 12/4/93
75 “does not know what”: Ti, 12/4/93
76 “We can reveal today”: DM, 12/6/93
77 “the great and good”: Interview with David Puttnam
78 “I don’t think she knew her own”: Interview with Michael Adler
CHAPTER 20
1 “There is one man”: Mi, 12/5/93
2 Hoare was distantly: ST, 12/18/94
3 her “protégé … study and excavate”: DM, 9/8/94
4 he embraced Sufism: NOTW, 2/26/95
5 eyes of “deep velvet”: DM, 8/22/94
6 “old-fashioned politesse”: ST, 8/28/94
7 As a figure in the London: DM, 9/8/94; ST, 12/18/94
8 “Oliver is half child”: DM, 9/8/94
9 From 1985 to 1989: NOTW, 8/28/94; ST, 12/18/94
10 Hoare was also close to: ST, 8/28/94
11 sharing an interest: DM, 8/22/94
12 Diana began visiting: To, 3/21/94; 9/24/94
13 “Sometimes she could phone”: NOTW, 2/19/95
14 “She wrote the letter”: Interview with Elsa Bowker
15 “there was great love”: Ibid.
16 The calls began in September: NOTW, 8/21/94
17 “Whoever it is just wants”: Ibid.
18 “It was like a war zone”: NOTW, 2/19/95
19 “Oliver told Diana he had”: Interview with Elsa Bowker
20 “had been made essentially”: B-SS, p. 98
21 “asking for trouble”: Ibid., p. 100
22 The anonymous phone calls ceased: NOTW, 2/19/95
23 Over the next six days: NOTW, 8/21/94
24 “rented by the Office … calling her first name”: Mi, 4/30/98
25 “Yes, I’m so sorry”: NOTW, 8/21/94
26 This time they were traced: Ibid.
27 “her head rested trustingly”: To, 9/24/94
28 “enough to start speculation: Telegraph magazine, 10/29/94
29 “The Princess has been a regular”: To, 3/21/94
30 Five months later: NOTW, 8/21/94
31 Both Hoare and Diana had learned: DM, 8/22/94; 8/23/94
32 Kay spoke to Clive Goodman: Interview with Richard Kay
33 “some very loyal, and perhaps misguided”: NOTW, 8/21/94
34 On Saturday afternoon: Interview with Richard Kay
35 “poured out her anger”: DM, 8/22/94
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