Behind the Lens

by Heather Dahlgren

  The sliding door opening breaks my thoughts, and I turn my head. “Hey, man, what are you doing here?” Brody sits down next to me and smacks my leg.

  “Came by to check and see what happened with Kallie last night. She looked about ready to rip your head off when I left.” I laugh and take a drag of my cigarette.

  “She was pissed. We had it out on the front lawn before I kissed the hell out of her.” He looks at me with pride in his eyes and a smile on his face.

  “Fucking finally. I can’t believe it took you so long.” I flip him off as the door opens again, and Blake comes out.

  “What’s up, fellas? Hey, Brody, did he tell you that Kallie spent the night last night and didn’t leave until late morning?” I laugh at the ridiculousness of this conversation.

  “She stayed the night? Damn, you lucky bastard.” I put out my smoke and cross my arms.

  “Yes, she stayed the night. Yes, she didn’t leave until late this morning. No, we didn’t have sex. Happy?” Brody smiles, but Blake looks shocked.

  “What the hell? You didn’t have sex? What did you do?” Fucking moron.

  “Are you serious? We slept.” He pulls his chair right in front of me and sits on the edge of it.

  “So wait. You guys didn’t do anything at all? There was no touching of the sexual nature going on in that room all night?” Brody punches him in the arm, thankfully, because I’d have done it a hell of a lot harder.

  “Damn, Blake, give him a break. He’s getting to know her.” He rolls his eyes and looks back at me.

  “Bullshit. I don’t believe nothing happened. And Brody, he knows her. He’s been chasing her for months, in case you forgot.” I will remember this conversation when this asshole gets with someone. I will be sure to pry and annoy the ever-living shit out of him.

  “What are we in high school? You want to know if I got to touch a boob?” He throws his hands in the air.

  “Yes, Christ. That’s all I’m asking.” Brody and I bust out laughing at how dumb he is.

  “Just imagine what you would do.” He grins at me and shakes his head. “Now realize I did the complete opposite.” Brody gives me a pound, and we laugh at Blake’s expense again.

  “I’m going to order some pizza. You are so fucking lame.” He goes inside, and I smile at my brother.

  “I totally got to touch her boobs.”

  I’m on my way to Kallie’s for dinner. I picked up Chinese from the same restaurant as our first dinner together. It’s become one of our favorite places. I felt horrible when she called me crying because she is so upset about Braden and the girls leaving. She said she’s never had to do something so difficult before as saying goodbye to them. I couldn’t get out of the house fast enough to make sure she wasn’t alone. I’ve been trying to think of a way for her to see them all again, before they leave, when it hits me. She can take them to the airport. It may be hard actually watching them leave, but at least she’d be able to spend even just a little bit more time with them. I smile, proud of myself.

  When I get to her place, I knock once and walk in, like I always do. “Kallie?”

  “Coming.” I put the food down and think, not yet you’re not. I go into the living room, and she comes walking down the hallway. She steals my breath away. She looks hot as hell in a strapless pink dress. I smile and meet her halfway, pulling her to me and pressing my lips to hers. She opens right up, and our tongues get reacquainted. After several minutes, she pulls away and smiles up at me. “Is it crazy to say I missed you? That’s crazy, right, I just saw you.” I grin and wink at her.

  “Not crazy.” I take her hand and lead her to the kitchen. I lift her up onto the counter and stand between her legs. “Not crazy, when I feel the same way.” I kiss her again, unable to get enough. Once we pull away, she wraps her arms around my neck.

  “Glad it’s not just me.” I shake my head and rub her thighs.

  “You hungry? I got all your favorites.” She kisses me quickly and looks over at the food.

  “Thank you. Let’s go eat. I am hungry.” We make our plates, and like so many nights before, we go into the living room and eat at the coffee table. She tells me about her day at Braden’s and how she took as many pictures as she would at a shoot. She talks about the girls, what they did, and how they cried when she left; how Sarah pretty much stayed in her room, and Braden seemed miserable. She continues to talk about it through almost the entire meal.

  “Listen, I was thinking on the way over. How about you take them to the airport tomorrow? That way you will be able to spend a little bit more time with them.” She gives me a tight smile and puts her fork down.

  “Don’t think I haven’t thought about that, but I don’t think I’ll be able to drive home after saying goodbye. It was hard enough today.”

  “I’ll go with you.” She lights up and jumps on me, knocking me over.

  “Really?” I laugh and tuck the hair behind her ears.

  “Yes, really. Why didn’t you just ask me?” She sits up, so I do too.

  “I don’t know. I don’t know how to do this, you and me. We’ve been friends for so long, good friends, best friends, I don’t know what is expected now.” I pull her onto my lap and wrap my arms around her.

  “Nothing is expected. I want you to be able to come to me for anything, and I want to be able to do the same. I want you to feel comfortable with me, trust me. That’s all; everything else will fall into place.” I kiss her nose and she smiles. “Oh, and I want you to give me permission to touch, kiss, and have sex with you anytime, anywhere.” She laughs and I tighten my hold.

  “I can do that, but same goes for you. I want you to come to me, trust me, and be comfortable with me. And of course, give me access to this body anytime I see fit.” I kiss her and lift her so she is straddling me. She deepens the kiss and my hands start wondering. I rub her thighs, and each time, they get higher and higher. I reach behind her and squeeze her ass through her panties. She breaks the kiss and moans, resting her forehead on my chest. “I’ve never wanted someone as badly as I want you.” I freeze in place and lift her chin to look at me. She mumbled it into my chest, so I need to be sure.

  “Kallie, I’ve wanted you from the second I laid eyes on you.” She smiles and kisses my lips.

  “When I first saw you on the beach, it was surreal. I’d seen so many photos of you, but I wasn’t expecting this amazing guy.” I wink and grab hold of her ass once again.

  “That’s actually not the first time I saw you.” She dips her eyebrows in confusion. “I picked up Max from Ecstasy, and I saw this girl throw her head back and laugh. I was consumed. I couldn’t take my eyes off of her. When I found Max, she was gone. Not going to lie here, I thought about her even though I’d never seen her face, it was the way she laughed. When I met you on the beach and you laughed, I knew immediately that you were her.” She has tears swimming in her eyes, and I wipe them before they can fall. “So, you see I’ve been wanting you for a hell of a long time.” She stands up and holds out her hand to me.

  “Come on, Jax.” I stand up and take her hand. “No more wanting.” My already hard cock strains against my jeans as we head toward her bedroom. No more wanting, she’s finally mine.

  MY MIND IS SWIMMING WITH everything that is happening with Jax. He can’t even look at me without my panties wanting to go up in flames. The sexual attraction is crazy. I’ve never felt like I need to be with someone, but with Jax, that’s how I feel. I need him to make me come, I need to feel his body on mine, and I need to feel his cock buried deep inside of me. How in a matter of a day can I go from shoving it all down deep to unable to control it? Couple that with the confession he just told me about seeing me outside the club, and I’ve lost all self-control. No one has ever made me feel special, but Jax does that and I love it.

  I lead him into my room, and he closes the door behind him. We both stand and stare at each other. It’s overwhelming to think that this man that I’ve not only been attracted to for months, but that I k
now I have feelings for, will be all over my body in a matter of minutes. He’s not only by far the sexiest man I’ve ever been with, but he’s also got a lot more experience than I do. I’m not saying I haven’t been with guys, obviously, I have, just not the number of women he’s been with. I’m not just assuming here either; we talked about it once and he told me. I hope I don’t disappoint him.

  He slowly makes his way to me and cups my face in his hands, making sure I look up at him. “Talk to me.” My heart is beating frantically in my chest at this point. I’m nervous, excited, and pretty much blown away that he can read me so well.

  I take a deep breath, telling myself he wanted honesty, and even though I’m nervous to tell him, I’ll give him that. “Honest, right?” He nods his head, still holding mine in his hands. “Alright, well as excited as I am, I’m just as nervous. I don’t want to disappoint you in any way.” I try to drop my head at my confession, but he won’t allow it.

  “Don’t try to hide from me, not now.” He rubs my cheeks with his thumbs and gently kisses my lips. “Kallie, I already told you how I feel. I promise you, there is no fucking way you could ever disappoint me. If you don’t want to do this, we can wait. Hell, I’ve waited this long.” He winks, and I know he is trying to give me an out, but that’s not what I’m looking for. I just want him to know how I feel. With my stomach in knots and my heart ready to explode, I reach for the hem of my dress. He looks down and back at my face. “Are you sure?” I nod and he lets go of my face. I pull the dress over my head, dropping it onto the floor. I stand before him in my pink strapless bra and matching thong panties. He looks over every inch of my body, taking it all in. He pulls his shirt off, before unbuttoning his jeans, pushing them down his legs, and stepping out. I can feel my body reacting to seeing him, and I need to touch him. I reach out and run my hand down his chest and amazingly defined abs. He steps closer and takes my other hand, placing it on his chest as well. I use both hands to explore the contours of his body. I touch his pecs, let my hands drift down to those rock hard abs, back up to his shoulders, and down his colorful arms.

  I look up at him and see the heat in his eyes. It is such a turn on to know I have this effect on him. I drop my hands and slowly back up to the bed, with his eyes on me the entire time. When I reach it, I sit down, and he is right there. He bends down and captures my mouth in an all-consuming kiss. I grab a hold of his shoulders, and he places his knee between my legs. I break the kiss and slide up the bed until I’m at the headboard. He slowly climbs on and makes his way to me. When he reaches me, I lie back, while he straddles my body. Once again, he takes in every inch of me and that alone is causing me to breathe heavily. He must notice and looks up into my eyes. We search each other’s eyes, and even though we are both almost naked, this feels even more intimate.

  “Kallie, I need to see you, all of you. I need to touch and taste every inch of your body.” I’m so turned on at this point, I’d agree to just about anything. I reach behind myself and unclasp my bra. He pulls it off and wastes no time. He starts at my lips, exploring my mouth in a rough, controlling kiss. When I let out a moan I’m incapable of holding in, he breaks away and goes to my neck. He kisses, licks, and nips every sensitive inch before kissing his way down my chest. When he reaches the top of my breasts, he goes to the right and down that arm to my fingers, sucking each one into his mouth. He starts at my panty line and kisses my tattoo. “I fucking love this tattoo, are these your lips?” I open my eyes and look at him.

  “Yes.” He kisses and nips it.

  “That’s fucking hot.” He travels up my side, across my chest, and down the next arm, repeating the process. When he kisses up my side, he stops when he gets to that tattoo. “This is my favorite tattoo. It tells exactly who you are.” He gets it, he really does. No one gets me like he does.

  He finishes and moves to my tits that are begging to be touched. I’ve never had someone take so much time getting to know my body, and it is wreaking havoc on me. My nipples are painfully hard, and my pussy is dripping with need. He takes his time on both tits, avoiding the nipples, and it is driving me mad. Each time he gets close, I let out a soft moan and fist the blanket tighter. I’m to the point of begging when he captures the first one. “Yes, oh God.” I arch my back, feeding more into his mouth. He sucks me good and hard before moving to the next. I’m about crawling out of my skin when he moves down my stomach and both legs, and he kisses my ladybug tattoo, just like he did the rest. The whole time, he completely avoids my aching pussy. “Jax, please.” He kisses the inside of both of my thighs, before hooking his fingers into the top of my panties.

  “As much as I love hearing you beg, I don’t want that tonight. I want to give you everything you want, so I’m going to take these off now, alright?” I run my hands into my hair, anticipating what exactly he will do next.

  “Yes.” He pulls them down my legs, and I feel the air hitting me. I’m so wet, so ready to be touched, and nothing. I lean up on my elbows and look at him. He is on his knees, between my legs, looking at me completely bare to him for the first time.

  “I’ve never in my life seen such perfection.” He spreads my legs further apart and runs two fingers between my dripping folds. “Fuck, you are wet, baby. That is such a fucking turn on.” When he does it again, I thrust my hips up on his fingers because it feels so incredible I need more. “Does it feel good? You ready for me to make you come?” Holy shit, his dirty talk is hot as hell. Just listening to him talk like that could make me come, easily.

  “You have no idea.” He settles between my legs and places soft kisses all over my pussy.

  “Oh, believe me, I have an idea.” He begins lapping at me like a dripping ice cream cone, making sure not to miss a drop. I throw my head back and grab onto his hair tightly. When he slowly pushes two fingers inside me, I can already feel myself close to orgasm. “Fuck, you are so tight. Am I hurting you?” I rock my hips, causing myself to moan.

  “Fuck no.” He begins pumping his fingers, and when he adds his tongue to my clit, that’s all it takes. “Oh God, Jax.” I free fall, feeling the most intense orgasm of my life that carries on and on while he continues to finger-fuck me. He finally pulls his fingers out and licks me clean before climbing up my body. I can see my essence on his face, and fuck, I never would have thought that would be a turn on, but with him, it is.

  “I’ve never tasted anything sweeter in my life.” He crashes his mouth to mine, and I taste myself, which surprisingly is sweet. When we break apart to catch our breaths, he smiles down at me. “You have no idea how long I’ve wanted to taste you. It was fucking worth the wait.” I smile and reach my hand down to his hard cock. I rub him through his boxers, and he closes his eyes, letting out a growl from deep in his chest. I do it again, getting the same response, and it gives me the confidence I need.

  “I’m going to take these off, alright?” He opens his eyes and grins at me. He knows I am repeating his words.

  “Let me make something clear, you never have to ask me.” I slide them down his legs with a smile on my face. When I can’t reach any further, he helps by taking them off completely. I know I’ve seen him before, but it is completely different now. I take him in, just like he did to me, and for a minute, I wish I had my camera. I shake my head and wrap my hand around his cock, touching him for the first time. He’s big, much bigger then I’m used to. When I begin pumping him, he pulls my hand away and pins both to the top of the bed. “I need to be inside you. I can’t wait another second.” He reaches for a condom that I didn’t even notice him place on my nightstand. He rips it open and rolls it on, staring into my eyes the entire time. Fuck. He positions himself until the tip of his cock is right at my entrance. “You’re in control here, Kallie. You tell me if I’m hurting you, if you want me to go slower or faster.” I nod my head and bite my lip. He leans forward and pulls my lip out with his teeth. He kisses me sweetly and links our fingers together. “Relax, baby. I’ll go slow, you ready?” I nod my head, and he sl
owly begins to push inside of me. I can feel him stretching me with every small push, and I close my eyes, letting the feelings take over. “You okay?”

  “Yes.” He continues to slowly push in, and inch by delicious inch, I feel the stretch.

  “Kallie, open your eyes and look at me.” I do, and it is a look I will remember forever. He is looking at me with heat, lust, and maybe even love. He gives one hard push, and I yell out. “Shit, are you alright?” I steady my breathing and nod my head. “I’m so sorry. I’m completely in, let me know when you are alright for me to move.” He rubs his thumbs on mine and begins kissing me again. It’s everything I’ve been waiting for, Jax consuming every part of me. I begin rolling my hips, and he starts moving. It feels so unbelievable. The more we move, the better it feels, and the harder I push, the faster he moves. He breaks the kiss to let out a moan, which causes me to become frantic.

  “Fuck, Jax, it feels so good.” He moves our locked hands above my head and takes over. He is thrusting his hips hard and fast, and I love every second of it.

  “Oh, baby, you feel so fucking good. Having your pussy wrapped around me like this is fucking heaven. I’ll never get enough, never get my fill.” I’m so fucking close to coming again, and his words just bring me closer. I am meeting him thrust for thrust, I can feel his sweat on my body, his scent is surrounding me, and it’s amazing. “That’s it, fuck, you’re so close. I feel you, baby, damn, I feel you.” He picks up his pace, and I can’t hold out any longer. If I thought that other orgasm was strong, I was sorely mistaken. This one crashes over me hard and fast.

  “Jax!” He continues his fast rhythm for a few more hard thrusts until he stills.