The Lady of the Camellias
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We could also give the initials of a number of people who were reunited in this living room and were astonished to find themselves thrown together; but we fear we might weary the reader.
Let us merely say that everyone was suffused with a mad gaiety, and that among those present, many had known the dead woman, and seemed not to remember that fact.
There was much hearty laughter; the auctioneers shouted at earsplitting volume; the salesmen who had invaded the benches in front of the selling tables tried in vain to quiet things down so they could conduct their business calmly. Never had a reunion been noisier or more varied.
I was gliding inobtrusively into the middle of this depressing tumult when I recalled that there was an area near the bedroom in which the poor creature had died where her furniture was being sold to pay off her debts. Having come more with the intention of looking than buying, I studied the faces of the auctioneers, whose expressions bloomed radiantly every time an object reached a price they had never dreamed possible.
Honest people who had speculated on the prostitution of this woman, who had profited a hundred percent from her, who had followed the last moments of her life in gossip circulars, and who had come after her death to gather the fruits of their honorable calculations and at the same time to serve the interests of their shameful credit.
How right the ancients were who had the same god for merchants and for thieves!
Dresses, shawls, jewels sold with incredible speed. None of that held any interest for me, so I kept waiting.
Suddenly I heard the cry:
“One volume, perfect-bound, gilded on the spine, entitled: ‘Manon Lescaut.’ There’s something written on the first page. Ten francs.”
“Twelve,” said a voice after a rather long silence.
“Fifteen,” I said.
Why? I do not know. No doubt for this “something written.”
“Fifteen,” repeated the auctioneer.
“Thirty,” said the first bidder, in a tone that seemed to defy anyone to challenge him.
It became a battle.
“Thirty-five!” I shouted, in the same tone.
“Forty.”
“Fifty.”
“Sixty.”
“A hundred.”
I swear that if my goal had been to cause a sensation, I would have completely succeeded, because with this bid a great silence took over, and everyone started looking at me to figure out who this fellow was who seemed so intent on acquiring this book.
Apparently the emphasis I put on my last word convinced my antagonist, and he abandoned this battle, which had served only to make me pay ten times what the volume was worth. Leaning toward me, he said to me quite graciously, if somewhat tardily, “I yield, sir.”
Nobody else having spoken, the book went to me.
Lest a new wave of stubbornness overtake me, which my pride might have enjoyed, but which my purse would have taken ill, I wrote down my name, had the book put to the side, and left. I must have given plenty to think about to the people who witnessed this scene, who undoubtedly asked themselves why on earth I had paid a hundred francs for a book I could have gotten anywhere for ten or fifteen francs at the most.
An hour later I sent for my purchase.
On the first page was written in ink, in an elegant script, a dedication to the recipient of the book. This dedication carried these sole words:
MANON TO MARGUERITE,
Humility
It was signed: Armand Duval.
What did this word mean: humility?
Would Manon recognize in Marguerite, in M. Armand Duval’s opinion, a superiority of vice, or of heart?
The latter interpretation seemed more likely, as the former would have been nothing but an insolent liberty that Marguerite could not have appreciated, whatever her opinion of herself.
I went out again and thought no more of the book until that night, as I was going to bed.
Certainly Manon Lescaut is a touching story, of which not one detail is unknown to me, and yet whenever I find that book in my hand, my sympathy for it draws me, I open it, and for the hundredth time I live again with Abbé Prévost’s heroine. That heroine is so real that I feel as if I have known her. In this new circumstance, the comparison made between her and Marguerite gave an unexpected character to my reading, and, out of pity, my indulgence for the poor girl who had left behind this volume grew into something almost like love. Manon had died in a desert, it is true, but in the arms of the man who had loved her with all the energy of his soul, who, when she was dead, laid her in a grave, watered her with his tears, and buried his own heart with her; whereas Marguerite, a sinner like Manon, and perhaps a convert like her, had died in the bosom of sumptuous luxury, and, if I could believe my own eyes, in the bed of her own past, but amid a desert of the heart far more arid, far more vast, far more pitiless than that in which Manon had been buried.
And in fact Marguerite, as I learned from friends who knew of the final circumstances of her life, had not had one single truly consoling visit at her bedside throughout the two months of her lingering and painful death struggle.
And then, from Manon and Marguerite, my thoughts traveled to certain women I knew who lightheartedly pursued the same path to destruction, which hardly ever varies its route.
Poor creatures! If it’s wrong to love them, the least we can do is to pity them. You pity the blind man who has never seen the rays of the sun, the deaf man who has never heard the sounds of nature, the mute who has never been able to give voice to his soul, and yet, under the false pretext of modesty, you choose not to pity that blindness of the heart, that deafness of the soul, that muteness of conscience, which drive a miserable afflicted woman mad and make her incapable, however much she might wish it, of seeing goodness, of hearing the Lord, and of speaking the pure language of love and faith.
Victor Hugo created Marion Delorme, Alfred de Musset created Frederic and Bernerette, Alexandre Dumas created Fernande, the thinkers and poets of the ages have bestowed the gift of mercy upon the courtesan, and sometimes a great man has rehabilitated them by virtue of his love, and sometimes even with his name.
If I insist in this way upon this point, it is because among those who will read me, many perhaps are already inclined to throw down this book, fearing they will find nothing in it but an apology for vice and prostitution, and the youth of the author no doubt adds to this concern. But let those who would think this way disabuse themselves, and let them continue reading, if this is the only fear that holds them back.
I am quite simply convinced of one principle, which is this: For a woman whose education has not taught her goodness, God almost always opens the way to two paths that lead to it—the path of suffering, and the path of love. They are difficult; those who walk them end up with bleeding feet, their hands scraped raw, and brambles along the road snag the trappings of their vice until they arrive at their end with that nudity at which one does not blush in the presence of the Lord.
Anyone who encounters these hardy travelers must support them, and tell everyone that they have encountered them, because by spreading this news, they show the way.
It is not a question of baldly placing two markers at the outset of life’s journey, one of them bearing the inscription “The Good Path,” the other the warning “The Bad Path,” and telling those who present themselves to choose. One must, like Christ, show the side roads that will lead those who have been tempted onto the second path back to the first; and above all, one must not make the first steps of the road back too painful or seem too arduous to undertake.
Christianity supplies the marvelous parable of the prodigal son to teach us indulgence and forgiveness. Jesus was full of compassion for souls wounded by mortal passions, and whose wounds he liked to salve, dressing them with balm he drew from the wounds themselves. In this way, he said to the magdalen, “Much will be for
given because you have loved much.” A sublime pardon that awoke a sublime faith.
Why would we make ourselves more inflexible than Christ? Why, in clinging obstinately to opinions of people who affect severity in order to be thought strong, would we spurn, as they do, souls that bleed with wounds that, like the diseased blood of an invalid, surge with the evil of their pasts, and require nothing more than a friendly hand to tend them and heal their hearts?
It is my own generation that I address, those for whom the theories of Monsieur Voltaire happily no longer hold, those who, like me, understand that for fifteen years humanity has been caught up in one of its most audacious moments. The knowledge of good and evil has been gained once and for all; faith is being rebuilt; respect for holy things has returned to us; and if the world has not achieved perfection in every respect, it is at least better. The efforts of all men of intelligence strive toward the same goal, and all great wills apply themselves to the same principle: Let us be good, let us be young, let us be sincere! Evil is nothing but vanity; let us take pride in the good, and, above all, let us not despair.
Let us not despise the woman who is neither mother nor daughter nor wife. Let us not limit our esteem to family life, narrow our tolerance to simple egotism. Given that heaven rejoices more at the repentance of one sinner than over a hundred good men who have never sinned, let us endeavor to make heaven rejoice. We may be rewarded with interest. Let us leave along the path the alms of our forgiveness for those whose earthly desires have marooned them, so that a divine hope may save them, and, as the wise old women say when they prescribe a remedy of their own invention, if it doesn’t help, at least it can’t hurt.
Certainly it must seem presumptuous of me to seek to draw such grand conclusions from the slender matter I treat here, but I am one of those who believe that the whole resides in the part. The child is small, and contains the man; the brain is a cramped space that houses all thought; the eye is only a dot, and encompasses miles.
CHAPTER IV
Two days later, the sale was completely over. It had brought in a hundred and fifty thousand francs.
The creditors had divided two-thirds among themselves, and the family, which consisted of a sister and a little nephew, inherited the rest.
This sister’s eyes had opened wide when the businessman had written to tell her that she was the inheritor of fifty thousand francs.
It had been six or seven years since this young woman had seen her sister, who had vanished one day without anyone’s being able to discover thereafter, from her or from others, the least detail about the life she had led following the moment of her disappearance.
She arrived in Paris with all speed, and great was the astonishment of those who had known Marguerite when they saw that her sole inheritor was a plump and pretty country girl who until that moment had never left her village.
Her luck was made in one fell swoop, without her knowing the source of this unhoped-for fortune.
She returned to the country, someone told me later, burdened with great sadness by the death of her sister, a burden that was nonetheless lightened by the rate of four and a half percent interest she had managed to secure on the principal.
All these details reverberating around Paris—that hub of scandal—soon began to be forgotten, and I myself was almost forgetting the role I had played in these events when a new incident brought Marguerite’s entire history to my attention and acquainted me with details so touching that I felt compelled to write the history I am writing now.
For three or four days the apartment had been on the rental market, emptied of all its auctioned furniture, when one morning someone rang at my home.
My servant, or rather my porter, who performed domestic duties, went to the door and brought me a visiting card, telling me that the person who had given it to him desired to speak with me.
I glanced at the card, and read there these two words: Armand Duval.
I struggled to remember where I had seen that name before, and I recalled the first page of the volume of Manon Lescaut.
What could the person who had given this book to Marguerite want with me? I gave instruction to let the man who was waiting enter immediately.
I soon saw a young blond man, tall, pale, dressed in a traveling suit he seemed to have worn for several days and not even bothered to brush upon his arrival in Paris, as it was covered in dust.
Monsieur Duval, strongly moved, made no effort to hide his emotion, and it was with tears in his eyes and a tremor in his voice that he told me, “Sir, you will forgive, I beg, my visit and my attire; but apart from the fact that among people our age such things are not too embarrassing, I wanted so much to see you today that I didn’t even stop at the hotel where I sent my trunks, and hurried to your home, afraid that, though the hour is early, I might not find you here.”
I begged M. Duval to sit by the fire, which he did while withdrawing from his pocket a handkerchief, in which, for a moment, he hid his face.
“You must not be able to imagine,” he resumed, sighing sadly, “what this unknown visitor might want of you, at such an hour, so oddly dressed, and weeping like this. I have come quite simply, sir, to ask you a great favor.”
“Speak, sir; I am at your service.”
“You attended the sale of Marguerite Gautier?”
At this name, the emotion that had gripped this young man overcame him, and he was forced to raise his hands to his eyes.
“I must appear ridiculous to you,” he added. “Excuse me again for that, and believe that I will never forget the patience with which you are listening to me.”
“Sir,” I replied, “if the service that I apparently am able to render you will serve to ease a little the sorrow you are feeling, tell me quickly how I can be of use, and you will find in me a man happy to oblige you.”
M. Duval’s pain was affecting, and despite myself I wanted to do what I could to help him.
He then said to me, “You bought something at Marguerite’s sale?”
“Yes, sir, a book.”
“Manon Lescaut?”
“Correct.”
“Do you still have this book?”
“It is in my bedroom.”
Upon this news, Armand Duval seemed relieved of a great weight, and thanked me as if I had already done him a great favor merely by keeping this volume.
I got up, went to my bedroom to get the book, and gave it to him.
“That’s definitely the one,” he said, looking at the dedication on the first page and leafing through it. “That’s definitely the one.”
Two large tears fell on the pages.
“Ah, well, sir,” he said, raising his head to me, not even trying to hide from me anymore the fact that he’d been crying and was about to cry again, “do you have a great attachment to this book?”
“Why, sir?”
“Because I have come to ask you to give it to me.”
“Excuse my curiosity,” I said, “but you, therefore, are the one who gave it to Marguerite Gautier?”
“I am.”
“The book is yours, sir; take it. I am happy to be able to return it to you.”
“But,” M. Duval resumed in embarrassment, “the least I can do is to refund the price you paid for it.”
“Permit me to offer it to you as a gift. The price of a single book in a sale like this one is a caprice, and I no longer remember how much I paid for it.”
“You paid a hundred francs.”
“That’s true,” I said, embarrassed in turn. “How do you know that?”
“It’s quite easy. I was hoping to arrive in Paris in time for Marguerite’s sale, and I arrived only this morning. I wanted absolutely to have some object that came from her, and I ran to the auctioneer to ask permission to look at the list of articles that had been sold and the names of the buyers. I saw that this volume had been
bought by you, and resolved to beg you to give it to me, even though the price you had paid for it made me fear you were not attached to it as a mere souvenir, but rather had some particular interest in possessing it.”
By speaking this way, Armand evidently seemed to fear I might have known Marguerite in the way he had known her.
I endeavored to reassure him.
“I knew Mlle Gautier by sight only,” I told him. “Her death made the same impression on me that the death of any pretty young woman would make on any young man who had once taken pleasure in the sight of her. I wanted to buy something at her sale, and stubbornly began to bid on this volume—I don’t know why; for the sheer pleasure of enraging a gentleman who was set upon it, and seemed to be defying me to get it. I repeat to you therefore, sir, this book is at your disposal, and I beg you again to accept it as a gift, not to take it from me as I might take it from an auctioneer, so that it may represent for us the beginning of a longer acquaintance and a closer friendship.”
“All right, sir,” Armand said to me, extending his hand and shaking mine. “I accept, and I will be grateful to you all my life.”
I very much wanted to ask Armand about Marguerite, as the book’s dedication, the young man’s journey, and his desire to possess this volume inflamed my curiosity; but I feared that if I were to quiz my visitor it would seem that I had refused his money in order to gain the right to interfere in his private affairs.
You would have thought that he had read my mind, because he said to me, “You have read this volume?”