Breaking My Heart

by Aleya Michelle

  “Baby I’m so sorry I shouldn’t be yelling, you have been through so much you must feel terrible. It’s okay baby, I’m here now and I’ll never let anyone touch you ever again, I promise,” he tells me lovingly. I feel so safe, so much safer in his arms, his warmth and softness is a place that eases any pain that I feel. I calm down and he lies with me as I drift off into a much needed deep sleep .

  “Roxy calm down. It’s me Roxy, wake up it’s Kade,” I can hear Kade’s voice; feel an arm on my shoulder. I’ve woken up screaming hysterical, uncontrollably.

  “Get off me!” I scream.

  My arms are flying all over the place, they are connecting with something, someone.

  “Stop, help, help me!” I’m yelling, fighting with my eyes still closed.

  “Roxy! Wake up you are having a nightmare!” Kade yells. Finally my brain has realised, oh shit I’m dreaming. I sit up and open my eyes, my heart is thumping and I’m still shaking. Looking straight into big brown perfect eyes I see the worried look on Kade’s face.

  “I’m so sorry baby, I didn’t know I was dreaming,” I tell him and grab his hand hoping I didn’t hurt him too bad.

  “Don’t apologise Rox, you have been through so much it’s normal for you to have bad dreams about it. Got me with some good hits baby,” he smirks changing the subject.

  “How is it this guy is still walking and doesn’t have any broken bones?” he laughs and squeezes my hand, I laugh back and I’m so thankful that he is here. I wrap my arms around him.

  “Thanks for being here Kade, you are helping me more than you know,” I tell him.

  I kiss his lips, feeling the usual spark. It’s a mixture of love, lust, need, and want. “I love you Rox,” he says and continues to kiss me. I deepen the kiss, I need his closeness, security and tenderness to forget what happened. To wipe away the memory of the gun and those hard, horrible hands.

  “I need you Kade, all of you, help make me feel safe,” I tell him and kiss him again showing him with my tongue how much I need him. He has no trouble reciprocating my need and kisses me back with love and warmth. He holds me in a loving embrace. We make love more intimately and beautiful than ever before. He is so close, personal and affectionate with me and shows me the best way he can how much I mean to him, how much he loves me and will do anything he can to protect me and keep my safe.

  I am still so pissed off with Jeremy and don’t want to hear his voice, so I decide to text him about what happened.

  Jeremy I need you to know that I was attacked and had a gun held to my head in my car. They told me to pass on the message to you that they want their money. I am okay now. Still shaken, so just give me space, I need time to process it all.

  He replies immediately.

  What the fuck, Roxy I am unbelievably sorry sis. I never thought they would do that to you, please don’t hate me. I will sort it out I promise, I love you and I’m so glad you are okay. Xx

  Glad I got that out of the way, now to get my life back to normal, the sooner the better.

  You would think one day at uni wouldn’t be so hard, but I actually find it quite the opposite. They cram so much into that one day. Ridiculous amounts of assessment and now end of year tests. I am spending every free second studying and cramming for all that’s coming. I have been getting a lift with Tia in the mornings and afternoons since my attack and it’s calmed my nerves knowing I’m not alone.

  I have never been good at studying, I get distracted by what’s around me. I need to turn my phone off, ensure the house is quiet and focus on writing each topic out over and over until it is mesmerised and glued into my brain. And then I do it some more.

  Kade has been great, I’m letting him quiz me now that I’m feeling more confident knowing my topics and information. But there’s something about his voice that is such a turn on in this environment that I can’t concentrate and I end up grabbing the palm cards out of his hands flicking them away and dragging him onto the bed. “Break time,” I scream and giggle then I start kissing him and rubbing myself against him.

  “Oh yes this is my kinda break,” he says laughing. With one quick movement he has changed positions and has me pinned to the bed. Holding my arms up above my head, he kisses me again and proceeds to kiss my neck, ears and throat while I’m squirming underneath him. “Let’s get naked baby and I’ll show you how much I’ve missed you while you’ve been studying,” Kade tells me.

  Chapter 24

  Men Are From Mars

  Men are from Mars women are from Venus! That is all!

  Why do we think so differently, like complete opposite reactions to everything!

  Men think in black and white, yes or no, the simple things in life.

  Where we see the colours, shapes and descriptions are more important and necessary to us.

  Life's boring without that right?

  Well I tried telling that to Kade and talk about stubborn!

  Pig headed and arrogant are more the right words.

  It started with another trip to the White Haven, and an early

  morning boat ride on the lake with lots of swimming. It’s a gorgeous day, couldn't get more prefect weather.

  The problem was that he had four drinks over a few hours and was the designated driver. “Are you trying to kill us all driving drunk?” I ask him accusingly.

  “You may not feel drunk but you would be over the fucking limit for sure.” I keep hassling not giving in as it’s is way too irresponsible.

  His response is, “Don’t be ridiculous I've only had a couple and feel fine.”

  That makes my blood boil.

  “What if the water police pull you up, you lose your license, get a fine would you be fine with that?”

  I question in a bitchy tone. “Rox just chill it won't happen,” he says quietly trying to cuddle me.

  I push him away and tell him, “The one time you think there's no police they will show up but worse than that you are putting us in danger, let me off the boat!” Now I am shouting and pointing to the shore.

  “What the hell Roxy are you nuts?” he accuses me and laughs. I stand up.

  “I am deadly serious, now let me the fuck off this boat Kade,” I say to him angrily.

  He responds, “Fine then if that's what you want you got it.” He drives over to the sand and lets me off.

  I storm back to the house not looking back. But I hear the boats motor taking off.

  Jerk! Friggen stubborn, idiotic jerk!

  An hour later they are still not back. I'm sun baking reading Abbi Glines’ new book, now relaxed and over Kades bullshit. When I hear them walking back, I don't give eye contact to Kade. I’m still feeling slightly shitty with his disrespect and tone he used with me. He disappears inside. The others grab a seat and chill with me. “You know what he's like,” his sister Ebony says quietly to me.

  “Yep stubborn as an ox,” I answer her smirking.

  She squeezes my arm which makes me smile.

  All of a sudden I feel someone behind me and I'm lifted up chair and all. It's Kade of course.

  “Come on baby loosen up and have fun,” he tells me playfully. He is now running with me still in the chair towards the water.

  “Agh no Kade put me down!” I'm screaming and laughing at the same time. “No don't do it, Kade!” I yell at him trying to be serious. Then splash! He did it, he totally threw me in the lake. I am glad I was sunbaking so I had my bikini and sarong on. I swim to the surface. “Oh you bastard!” I scream though I’m half laughing.

  He then jumps in after me, grabbing me and pulling me under the water, he pulls my body tight to him.

  Both of us come up for air and he pulls me tighter and kisses my lips, all wet and salty. I try not to respond but damn it's nice. His body against me, sun beaming on us, hot lips and then his tongue enters. I'm jelly, my hands dive into his hair and I grasp his golden strands and push his face closer to mine, he lifts me up and I straddle him. We are totally unaware of the audience until we here cheers
, wolf whistles and, “Get a room.” I laugh into his kiss, slightly embarrassed. Talk about getting caught up in the moment. He kisses me one last time, then places me down. Holding my hand we walk out of the water and grabbing the now soaked chair, he whispers to me, “Make up sex later baby.” His smile is so irresistible.

  But my answer is, “You are still in trouble mister you will have to work it off later!”

  Well that was an eventful day. Little did I know the next day would be even more eventful.

  We decide on a beach day the next morning its easy thirty degrees and as we walk hand in hand down to the beach I take a moment to really absorb my surroundings.

  The crystal blue of the water, the waves crashing into the sand, seagulls soaring in the sky. I feel relaxed and calm looking at the ocean. A cool breeze to ease the burning sun, enhancing and delivering the salty smell from the water. We lay down our towels. Ebony and John go for a swim and I go shell hunting. I love finding shells all unique in shape, size and colour much like people in their different races, personalities and traits. The sand feels gravelly under my toes, I'm careful not to tread on the blue bottles on the water’s edge. The water is so refreshing and invigorating even just splashing on my feet. I walk over to the rock pools to search out some critters.

  Kade is adjusting his wetsuit, ready to go surfing. He needs to keep up the practice for the World Championships in a few months. He really is talented. My baby the pro surfer, I like the ring to it.

  I watch him start to paddle out, he is so strong with his arms and back working together, I can see the muscles in his neck contracting as he is paddling. I’m getting all hot and bothered which is just the normal for me around Kade as I continue to explore.

  Being in graphic design I guess all the unique and untouched is so interesting to me.

  Each rock has carvings, cracks, imprints and with moss across them they all have their own unparalleled uniqueness.

  I love the colours of sea urchins, sea snails and sea weed; none having an exact replica.

  I walk out further into the rocks, a wave comes in and I tread back a little off my balance. Not seeing the spiky purple sea urchin, I clumsily fall onto the spikes. “Ouch,” I scream in pain. My heel now has three spikes impaled into it. I try and dislodge the spikes but they are stuck.

  That's when I feel a shooting pain through my heel and up my leg. I call out to Kade just as I sit down and start to pass out. Shit, was my last thought before I blacked out.

  I wake up to a torch being shone in my eyes. “Roxy, can you hear me?” I hear a man’s voice talking and I'm nodding but can feel my head aching. My eyes are trying to adjust to the brightness, they open and close a few more times. When I can focus I see a doctor in front of me. “Roxy you're in the hospital,” he says answering my next mental question.

  “You were poisoned at the beach do you remember?” he asks. I look down at my bandaged foot and I wince in pain. Fuck, how could I forget? I nod. I panic looking around for Kade. When my eyes find his I feel that familiar heart pang. I smile as he runs over. “You had me so worried,” he kisses me with depth. “It was a poisonous one baby, such bad luck. You passed out and had a severe reaction.”

  Shit that explains the way I'm feeling pretty much like I got hit by a truck.

  “We had to take you into surgery as one spike was lodged too deep. Luckily we could remove it and then treat you with anti-venom,” the doctor confesses to me.

  Coming out of anaesthetic feels terrible. I was disorientated and had a dry throat from hell, not to mention the burning in my hand from the drip.

  Damn. My eyes feel like bricks are holding them closed.

  When the doctor and Kade leave I fall back into a deep sleep, hoping for some peace and quiet.

  My eyes were so heavy and sore, now they are nice and relaxed.

  The second time I wake it still takes a few attempts to adjust to the sunlight in the room, it is still bright but I’m not feeling so groggy.

  I smile when I feel Kade holding my hand.

  The spark runs up my arm and I get goose bumps. He stirs and smiles up at me with sleepy brown and perfect eyes. “I love you,” I tell him just because I feel so overwhelmed over everything right now.

  “I love you more,” he says looking sincere.

  “How long do I need to stay in here for?” I enquire hopeful it's not too long.

  “Few days baby. The doc needs to make sure all the poison is out first,” he answers and kisses my cheek.

  “What day is it anyway?” I question really having no clue.

  “It’s Sunday but I've already texted Neeta using your phone to say you won't be in till at least Wednesday, no arguments,” he orders with a sternness that gets me quite hot.

  “Yes sir,” I answer back in a sexy voice. Kade laughs.

  “You're insatiable Rox, still in hospital from poisoning and already thinking about sex.”

  I smile and declare, “Well if you weren't so damn spunky I wouldn't be all hot and bothered baby.” I tease and rub my hand up and down his arm.

  I end up taking the whole week off as it’s taken me a long time to recover from the damn poisonous sea urchin. Who would have thought. I have walked along beaches and rocks a million times in my lifetime and avoided them and yet was super unlucky this time. At least we got to stay at the lake house longer and I got special treatment.

  Thank god I’m feeling better as it’s my birthday tomorrow July sixteenth and I can’t wait to see what Kade has gotten for me, not that it’s all about presents, I just get excited.

  “Happy Birthday beautiful,” Kade wakes me up with those beautiful words. I smile and stretch my arms up.

  “Thanks baby,” I respond and pull him closer. He kisses me sweetly.

  So I'm twenty-five today! One special day that is all about

  me. It's not about presents it just feels special. I guess Mother's Day must be pretty amazing too for all the mums. My mum is such a caring lady who gives anything, forsaking herself and always putting others first.

  “So here is your first present,” Kade tells me handing me a cute little box with a bow.

  “Aww thanks baby,” I answer him and quickly take the lid off, it is a beautiful bracelet with two charms, one a diamond heart and the other a cute little cat. “I love it Kade!” I squeal to him, a little unsure why he got me a cat, I guess he remembered growing up I always had cats.

  “I just have to get your present from the other room,” Kade tells me secretively. “Okay,” I answer thinking to myself, maybe it’s a big one?

  He comes back with a blue box it is large that’s for sure. What the hell is it? I am thinking.

  “This is your other present baby,” he tells me and puts the box on the bed.

  “Meow,” I hear coming from the box. “What the hell?” I say to Kade laughing. “Did the box just meow at me?” I ask him confused. I quickly pull the lid off and see the most adorable little grey kitten I have ever seen, looking at me with big blue eyes. “Meow, meow,” he calls to me. “Oh my god Kade you got me a kitten, he is so cute and perfect.” I pick him up and pat his velvet soft fur.

  He is so affectionate and starts purring already. I feel a special connection with this four legged beauty that I can’t describe. “What do you wanna name him Rox?” Kade queries me.

  “I know the perfect name actually,” I tell him smirking.

  “Foxy,” I answer grinning as he laughs and shakes his head.

  We meet mum, Phil, Jemma, Tia, and Sheree at Candelabra’s a little after six thirty that night for an intimate birthday dinner.

  Ebony and John are on their way just running a little late and I see Pete and Emma walk in as we are shown to our table. This is my favourite Italian restaurant without a doubt.

  The meals are superb, my usual fettuccine is perfect. The others have pizza, spaghetti, marinara and all are cooked to perfection and delicious.

  “Happy birthday to you, happy birthday dear Roxy, happy birthday to you,
” everyone sings and cheers.

  “Thanks guys this is a perfect birthday,” I say to everyone and thank them for coming. I smile at Kade and he squeezes my thigh. His eyes have been undressing me all night. I could feel the wetness pooling in my undies pretty much from the time the entrée was served.

  “I’m staying at Tia’s honey,” Jemma informs me. “So you two can make as much noise as you would like,” she adds teasing and laughing. But I think it is a great idea.

  The drive home is quite heated, guess the built up sexual tension was boiling over.

  We climb out of his truck; he pushes me onto my door, kissing me roughly with hunger and lust.

  I mirror him with my need and greedily coax his tongue with mine, our tongues entwining together so thirsty for each other.

  I grab his hair with my fingers showing him how horny he

  is making me.

  “Hmm,” I say as he grabs my arse and lifts me, he pushes his hard crotch into me, oh boy was he rock hard.

  I instantly feel wetter knowing how much I turn him on. I push further into his hardness and rub against it. Yes it feels so good. But it isn’t enough. I whisper in his ear, “You. Inside. Now.” He laughs at the command in my voice.

  He carries me towards the door and opens it quickly, god I’m glad no one is home.

  We reach my room; kissing again as I climb onto the bed dragging him with me then on top of me.

  I pull his blue shirt over his head and kiss his neck and his ear, licking and sucking. He is pushing into me so hard on top, I need him inside me now!

  I reach down for his jeans and start unbuttoning them, he helps and pulls them down. His dick is so much firmer with just cotton undies in between us, no boxers tonight. I reach for my jeans and unbutton them as he pulls at my lacy top, disregarding it onto the floor.

  He unclips my red bra and attaches his lips to my nipple sucking and licking, using his fingers on the other one to tease and pinch it. I think I may orgasm from that alone. I grab his face and start kissing him again and sucking on his tongue pushing my wetness up against his stone hard rod.