Mail Order Bride: Westward Winds (Montana Mail Order Brides: Book 1)

by Linda Bridey

  Dean didn’t smile as he said, “I think I know something about misery, Tessa.”

  Tessa had to concede that point. “Yes. You do. I know that my misery was greatly different than yours, but it was misery just the same. You don’t understand what it’s like for women, at least in the East. In many ways, women are considered property and although my parents are wonderful, they saw it as my duty to do what was expected of me for someone of my station, as you put it.”

  “Explain it to me more, Tessa,” Dean said.

  “Every day, I was told how to feel, what to think, how to dress, where I could and could not go. What to eat, how much to eat, who my friends should or shouldn’t be. Can you imagine such a life? And the damn parties! Endless parades of men who had no substance, who were out for a dalliance, or to marry someone with whom to breed just to create an heir. No one wanted me for me, Dean. No one even knew the real me.”

  Dean replied. “Why didn’t you just tell them you didn’t want to do that anymore?”

  “You’re not listening again and neither did they! They didn’t listen when I did tell them over and over. They believed I was just being silly and thought I would see the error of my ways at some point. Just like you have believed about me of late. My feelings don’t seem to matter to people.”

  “I love my family very, very much, but I know they were hoping that I would suddenly become the dutiful daughter and be what society said I should be,” she said. “I had to get out of there or go mad, Dean. I was in danger of suffocating and dying inside.”

  “So you thought up this crazy plan when you saw an ad in the paper for mail-order brides? So I was just a way of escape?” Dean couldn’t believe how much that stung. “Me and my family were a means to an end?”

  Tessa saw her own fury matched as Dean’s protective nature regarding their children came to the fore. His eyes took on a fierce light. Tessa put a hand on his arm without thinking.

  “No! I swear! All right, maybe it sort of started out that way, but once we began writing back and forth, getting to know each other, I began to care about you and I wanted to come meet you because I felt you were a wonderful man. Not as an escape. I still had to sneak away because they would have never let me come here to meet you. And after we met, I knew I’d made the right decision, or at least I thought I had.”

  Dean sighed and closed his eyes for a moment as understanding dawned on him. “So that’s why you were so mad about the letters. I guess I didn’t look at it from your point of view, but I see it now. You left everything you knew behind; your family, friends, and your way of life because of our letters to each other. You felt safe enough to do that because of the things you thought that I had said to you. And finding out that Marcus wrote them instead of me scared you. Like the stuff in them wasn’t true and here you were married to some guy you didn’t really know.”

  “Yes! Yes!” Tessa could have wept with joy. He was finally listening to her. “It was as if everything I had come to know about you was false. What would I find out about you that contradicted the things in those letters? Were they just said to lure me here to be domestic help or were you really looking for someone to love you? And were you looking for someone to love again? I knew no one here, Dean and yet I came because I felt that I’d come to know you. Those letters made me trust you and made me feel safe in coming here.”

  Dean nodded. “I get it, Tessa, but why not write home about us? Was it because I’m not rich or come from some fancy bloodline?”

  Tessa saw how vulnerable he felt and wanted to reassure him. “I don’t care from what class you come. I’ve never cared about class, Dean, and I never thought of you as being inferior in any way. I had planned to send a letter once we were married because then there would be nothing anyone could do to prevent it. Dean, I wanted very badly to marry you and I wasn’t going to let anyone stop me from becoming your wife.”

  “That makes sense,” Dean said with a smile. “I’m glad in a way, for that reason, you didn’t send a letter beforehand, too. I wouldn’t have wanted anything to mess up us getting married. But you didn’t send a letter after we were married, either. That makes me feel like you were ashamed that you’d married someone like me. Someone who doesn’t have the kind of education you do or fancy clothes or knows which fork you’re supposed to use at an expensive restaurant.”

  A smile curved her mouth over his “fork” remark. “Dean, I don’t care about any of those things. What I was looking for in a man, I found in you. Someone brave, honest, caring, and strong. A man who wouldn’t be afraid to make a commitment or honor that commitment.”

  “Yeah? What else?” Dean said.

  “A man who knew how to be loyal, who would be a wonderful father, and who found it important to take care of his family. Someone smart.”

  Dean pursed his lips at that.

  “Dean Samuels, do not do that! Do not think less of yourself because you didn’t have the opportunity to go to school or because you were too busy making a living for your family to have the proper time to study! There is certainly no shame in that and you are much more educated about what’s really important in life than a fraction of the people I used to associate with back in Pittsburgh,” Tessa said.

  Dean was startled by her stern demeanor. It reminded him of the way she talked to Jack when he was misbehaving. “You really feel that way about me?”

  “Yes, I do!”

  Dean grinned. “I still don’t know how smart I am when it comes to women. Not very, I don’t think. Tessa, I really didn’t think it was a big deal about the letters. I would never lure you here under…no, don’t tell me…false pretenses. I need to tell you something else about those letters. Please don’t get mad again. We’re makin’ progress here. Aren’t we?”

  His unsure expression amused her but Tessa kept from smiling. “Yes, we are.”

  “Good. You see, Marcus was the one who put that ad in the paper. He knew that I had a lot on my hands with the ranch and the kids and all and he kept teasing me that I should put an ad in the paper for a mail-order bride and finally, one day, I said go ahead. I was only joking, but he did it anyway, the jerk,” Dean told her.

  Tessa laughed. After coming to know Marcus and his mischievous ways, she could well imagine him doing it.

  “But, Tessa, once I read that letter, I wanted to know more about you. The main reason I asked Marcus to help me was because I was afraid if I sounded stupid, you’d stop writing and I wanted to keep hearing from you. I couldn’t admit it to anyone, including myself, at first.”

  “You’ve never lost a spouse, Tessa. You’ve never lost the person you thought you were going to grow old with and raise a family with. After Sarah died, I was scared to death to love anyone again. I was afraid of losing someone again. I also somehow felt that if I did get married again, I’d be cheating on Sarah. Can you understand that, Tessa?”

  “Yes,” she said and hated herself for the first prick of jealousy she’d felt toward Sarah.

  “So I locked up all those kinds of feelings and I never intended on letting them out again. But every time I got a letter from you, a little bit of my grief went away. And then you said you wanted to come here and that really made me panic because it was becoming real. But something made me have Marcus send that last letter to you, the one tellin’ you to come out here.”

  “Then you were here and you were so much more than I ever expected you to be. I thought you were the most beautiful thing I’d ever seen and I kept thinkin’ that there was no way you would end up stayin’. But you did and little by little, I started letting Sarah go and saw that it was ok for me to be happy again. To be happy with you.”

  “You finally got me through my grief over Sarah. She’ll always be a part of me and I’ll always love her, but I’m not in love with her anymore. I love you, Tessa, only you,” Dean said.

  His tender words melted away all of Tessa’s doubts and fears. “I love you, too, and I’m so happy to have my own place in your heart, Dean. It me
ans more to me than I’ll ever be able to tell you. Thank you for telling me your feelings even though I know you’re not comfortable with talking about them.”

  Dean said, “We’re married now and we should be able to tell each other anything. I won’t promise to be perfect at it, but I promise to do my best. Does that sound fair?”

  Tessa took his hand and squeezed it. “Very fair. You know, for someone who says he’s not very smart, you certainly sound intelligent.”

  “Thank you, Mrs. Samuels. I appreciate that,” Dean said with a smile.

  Tessa said, “You’re very welcome, Mr. Samuels.”

  Dean leaned closer and said, “So how do you feel about doin’ some of that other kind of talkin’?”

  “What other kind?” Tessa asked with mock innocence.

  Dean’s kiss slowly went from being tender to sensual and demanding. Tessa became warm all over and she responded to him eagerly. When it ended, Dean smiled down at her.

  “That kind.”

  “Oh. Yes. That kind. I think I could be persuaded,” Tessa said.

  “Then up the ladder you go,” Dean said as he pointed to the hayloft.

  Tessa’s eyes widened. “What? Up there?”

  “Uh huh. Unless you’re chicken,” Dean said with a grin.

  “I am no such thing,” Tessa said defiantly as she gathered the bottom of her nightgown and started climbing.

  Dean followed closely, enjoying the view as they went. When they reached the loft, he grabbed Tessa and pulled her down onto the loose hay with him. Tessa laughed as Dean nuzzled her neck and asked, “So are you serious about wanting more children?”

  “You know I am,” Tessa said. “Why do you ask?”

  He answered by embracing her and kissing her fiercely. “Talkin’ time is over. I’ll show you,” he said when he ended the kiss.

  Like the winds of fate that had brought her to Dawson, Tessa let herself be swept away by her love for Dean. She responded to the love and desire in his eyes and in his touch. Soon, they were lost in one another as the moon shone down on the barn.

  Epilogue

  The next afternoon, Geoff and Tessa walked through the barn, trying to work out their differences since they hadn’t done so yet. She had been too preoccupied with the tense situation between her and Dean. Geoff knew this and had not pressed until now. However, he was due to return to Pittsburgh soon and wanted some answers from his daughter.

  “Papa, don’t you see? I’m not much different than you. As I said before, you struck out on your own, so why shouldn’t I have been allowed to?” Tessa asked.

  “It was different for me, Tessa. I didn’t want to get caught up in all of the fighting. Things were dangerous there. It wasn’t what I wanted for myself. I wanted to be my own man and make my own future,” he told her.

  Tessa arched a brow at Geoff. “Did you hear what you just said?”

  Geoff went back over it and saw her point. He gave her a considering look. “You tricked me,” he said.

  “No, you tricked yourself, Papa,” Tessa said with a mischievous smile. “I had nothing to do with it.”

  “I hate it when I’m outsmarted by a woman,” he teased.

  Tessa laughed.

  Geoff sobered. “But your life wasn’t in any danger.”

  “No, not any physical danger, but I was in danger of becoming resentful of the people I love because I couldn’t pursue my own dreams and wishes. If I had stayed in that life, I would have withered away inside. Would you want that for me?”

  “Of course not.”

  “And if I had told you what I wanted to do, would you have let me?”

  Geoff’s silence an uncomfortable expression told her the answer to her question.

  “Right. So you see that I had no choice and none of this is Dean’s fault. He had no idea I’d run away like that, so please don’t blame him,” Tessa said.

  “I understand where you’re coming from,” Geoff said. “And I don’t blame him. I could see that he had no knowledge of your subterfuge. I don’t necessarily agree with your methods, but I can now accept why you did it. I now know that we should have listened to you better. I’m sorry that I didn’t.”

  Tessa hugged her father. “Thank you for saying so, Papa. I appreciate it very much. I have a good life here. You don’t have to worry about me anymore. We’re not the richest people, but Dean is a hard worker and he loves me and the children. That means more to me than any amount of money.”

  “I know he’s a good man, Tessa and the children are a delight. Jack is quite amusing,” Geoff said with a smile as he thought about how Jack had started calling him “Grandpa” right away.

  “You don’t know the half of it, Papa. You never know what he’s going to say or do,” Tessa said. “And he’s so hard to stay cross with.”

  “Hmm. I know someone else like that,” Geoff said with a twinkle in his dark eyes.

  “Papa!” Tessa’s objected.

  Geoff said, “You know that it’s true, Tessa. You may be incorrigible and strong-willed, but you’re also beguiling and charming. It’s a very lethal combination.”

  Tessa smiled. “I will take that as a compliment.”

  Geoff embraced his daughter and laid his cheek atop her head. “As far as worrying about you goes, I’m your father and I will always worry about you. That’s what parents do. I’m sure you’re learning that already.”

  Tessa said, “Yes, I am. It astounds me that I fell in love with Sadie and Jack as well as their father, Papa. But we are going to have more children, so be prepared to be a grandpa several times over.”

  “I look forward to it.” He tightened his hold on her and said, “I love you, Tessa.”

  “I love you, too, Papa,” Tessa said.

  Geoff released her and smiled at her as Jack came running into the barn. “Grandpa! C’mon, we’re goin’ fishin’ and Uncle Seth says you wanted to learn.”

  Laughing, Geoff said, “So I did. Lead the way, young Jack!”

  *****

  By the time two weeks had passed, Geoff was indeed convinced his daughter had made a good match and that he would be leaving her in good hands. He’d enjoyed meeting the rest of Dean’s family and had gotten to know them all a little better. Geoff found himself impressed by Marcus’ self-taught knowledge. Seth entertained him with stories of his exploits on cattle drives and Geoff told them some of his own adventures in Ireland.

  Too soon, it came time for her father to head back, which made Tessa realize how much she missed her family. Geoff promised that he would try to bring the whole family to meet them the following spring.

  Dean and Tessa drove Geoff to Wolfe Point to meet the stage coach. They waved him goodbye and Tessa couldn’t help crying. Dean held her and whispered comforting words to her. Tessa finally dried her eyes and smiled.

  “I’m all right now. We’ll write all the time to keep in touch and next year will be here before you know it, right?” she said.

  “Of course it will. Don’t worry, I’ll keep you busy,” Dean said suggestively.

  She smacked his arm. “You’re awful.”

  Dean laughed and helped her get back in the wagon. “Yep, that’s me, your awful husband.”

  “Who writes awful letters,” she said.

  “About that. I had an idea. You have two sisters, right? I have two brothers. Seth needs a wife, he just doesn’t know it. So does Marcus. How do you feel about playing match maker?”

  Tessa considered it. “Well, it might take some work, but I’m quite sneaky and you’re very smart, so I think we might be able to pull it off. I hope Seth writes better letters than you do. Oh, wait, I’ve never read any letters written by you, so how would I know?”

  Dean captured her mouth in a kiss. “Hush up now, wife,” he said when he released her.

  “I will not!” she said.

  Dean laughed again as he clicked to the horses. “Well, then I’m gonna have to keep kissing you to get you to shut up.”

  Tessa was quiet
for a moment and then began talking a blue streak about anything and everything.

  As they drove back to the ranch, they laughed and loved, accompanied by the westward wind.

  The End

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  Other Books By Linda Bridey

  Montana Mail Order Brides Series

  Westward Winds (Montana Mail Order Brides Book 1)

  Westward Dance (Montana Mail Order Brides Book 2)

  Westward Bound (Montana Mail Order Brides Book 3)

  Westward Destiny (Montana Mail Order Brides Book 4)

  Westward Fortune (Montana Mail Order Brides Book 5)

  Westward Justice (Montana Mail Order Brides Book 6)

  Westward Dreams (Montana Mail Order Brides Book 7)

  Westward Holiday (Montana Mail Order Brides Book 8)

  Westward Sunrise (Montana Mail Order Brides Book 9)

  Westward Moon (Montana Mail Order Brides Book 10)

  Westward Christmas (Montana Mail Order Brides Book 11)

  Westward Visions (Montana Mail Order Brides Book 12)

  Westward Secrets (Montana Mail Order Brides Book 13)

  Westward Changes (Montana Mail Order Brides Book 14)

  Westward Heartbeat (Montana Mail Order Brides Book 15)

  Westward Joy (Montana Mail Order Brides Book 16)

  Westward Courage (Montana Mail Order Brides Book 17)

  Westward Spirit (Montana Mail Order Brides Book 18)

  Westward Fate (Montana Mail Order Brides Book 19)

  Westward Hope (Montana Mail Order Brides Book 20)

  Westward Wild (Montana Mail Order Brides Book 21)

  Westward Sight (Montana Mail Order Brides Book 22)