“Shhhh. I don’t want dad to know. And the apartment was Richards so I had to move out. And I didn’t want to be alone while I licked my wounds.”
“It was just a plus to have Jackson living there.”
“I had no idea he was living with Dean. It came as a shock to me.”
My mom gave me a look like she didn’t believe me. “So how was your vacation?”
“It was marvelous. You know your dad and I have been wanting to go overseas for the longest time and now with your brother and Jackson keeping the business running there was nothing stopping us.”
I smiled as I listened to my mom prattle on about her trip. My ploy for changing the subject working.
“Are you listening?” she asked as she checked the enchiladas from the oven.
“Uhm.”
She tisked and handed me a bowl of salsa and chips. “Go put these in the den. Alec should be here any minute.”
My ears perked up and I froze in the kitchen. “Who’s Alec?”
“If you were listening you would know Alec is an amazing young man, young doctor man we met on our last week in Paris. It turns out he lives close to us and I happened to show him your picture.”
“Mom you didn’t.”
She smiled and turned her back to me dismissing the horror I knew was evident in my tone. The doorbell rang and my mom grabbed the chips and salsa out of my hand kissing me on the way by with her parting words of, “You’ll thank me for this when you give me grandkids.”
On wooden legs I made my way out to the den where my mom was introducing Alec to everyone. Jackson smiled at me and my stomach dropped. He was about to be blindsided by my mom’s attempt to get him out of my head.
“Alec, this is Lucy.”
Alec was a handsome man I had to give my mom a nod to her choice. Although he was just as tall as Jackson there was no other comparison between the two.
Alec had soft brown eyes and a gentle smile. He body was lean where Jackson’s was perfectly honed from working out at the construction site.
Jackson scowled as my mom beamed. The dueling expressions made me giggle. Alec winked at me as he shook my hand.
“Hey, Lucser are you having your mom set you up now?”
Dean laughed but slugged Jackson on the arm while Trina wiggled her eyebrows at me. My dad cleared his throat trying to get some order.
“It’s nice to meet you, Alec. I’m afraid my mom wasn’t able to give me all the details on you before you showed up. So you’ll have to enlighten us.”
Alec was charming. We sat around the den talking while the food cooked. My mom laughed a little too hard and loud at everything Alec said. My dad chuckled and kept shooting me glances as if to tell me he approved.
Dean and Trina were in their own little world. Whispering to each other ignoring everyone else. Jackson scowled and it almost seemed like he was pouting.
When dinner was served I was stuck in the middle of Jackson and Alec. During dinner while Alec was telling me about his pediatrician’s office Jackson and my dad talked about the business and I assumed he was ignoring me completely.
When his hand landed on my thigh I jumped in my chair.
“Are you alright, Lucser?” Jackson asked the epitome of innocence.
“Yeah, I had a chill.”
“Do you need me to get you a sweater?” Alec asked. “There is a nasty cold going around.”
“You don’t want to get sick.” Jackson added squeezing my leg.
“I’m fine. It’s gone now.” I jiggled my leg as inconspicuous as I could, attempting to dislodge Jackson’s hand but he just clamped on tighter.
With extreme effort I was able to follow Alec’s conversation. The whole time Jackson’s hand crept higher up my leg. I crossed my legs which kept him at bay. He huffed and shoved food in his mouth.
“So Jackson have you been seeing anyone?” my mom asked.
My head snapped around to stare at him and then remembered where I was and went back to pretending his hand wasn’t attempting to sneak up my skirt.
“Jackson’s been busy with getting the farmhouse renovated,” Dean answered for him.
“The farmhouse still? I would have thought you were moved in by now,” my dad’s eyebrows furrowed with confusion.
“I’ve had some setbacks and I had to help Lucy move in with Dean. She was pretty depressed when I helped her pack.”
I dug my nails in Jackson’s hand still on my leg. He smiled brightly as Alec appeared confused just what Jackson was hoping for.
I let out a huff and my mom stood up. “Anyone want dessert?”
“Can I help you?” Alec asked showing just how amazing he was.
Alec followed my mom in the kitchen and I pretended not to see her attempt to get me to follow. Jackson snuck his hand up and brushed his finger over my soaked panties. He grabbed his beer and downed it his finger stroking back and forth.
My mom and Alec came back and I jumped up. “I’ll clear the table and meet you in the den.”
Jackson moved to follow but my dad commandeered him with questions about the farmhouse. During dessert my mom showed us pictures of their trip.
My dad yawned and I noticed how tired he looked. “I think we should get going. You guys just got home yesterday and I’m sure you’re exhausted.”
My dad hugged me tight and my mom sighed. “I am pretty tired.”
On the way out Alec touched my shoulder to stop me. “I’m glad I got to meet you.” His cheeks blushed in an adorable fashion.
“It was nice meeting you too.”
Jackson honked his horn making both of us jump. “Come on Lucser. I have a date I need to get ready for.”
“I could give her a ride,” Alec answered back through the open window Jackson was yelling at me through.
I almost wanted to take up Alec’s offer just to piss off Jackson and let him know he wasn’t the boss of me, but it wouldn’t be fair to lead Alec on. Besides I still needed to lay down the ground rules with Jackson. Maybe with him seeing proof other men thought I was pretty he would see he wasn’t the end all.
“Not today, Alec.”
Alec opened his mouth to correct him but I put my hand on his arm. “We’re both going to the same house. Don’t worry about it. It was nice meeting you.”
I jumped in Jackson’s truck and while I was waving at Alec Jackson gunned the engine throwing me back into the seat.
“What the fuck, Jackson?” I struggled to sit back up and buckle my seat belt.
He took a hard left and went down an old dirt road which led to the creek we used to play in when we were kids. Jackson didn’t answer me as we bounced down the pitted road.
When he reached the end of the road he threw the truck in park and shut off the engine. He stared at the moonlit water his mouth shut in a firm line.
“You will not go out with Dr. Asshole,” he finally said his voice low and menacing.
A thrill ran up my spine and I had to bite the inside of my cheek to keep from smiling. I knew I should have been offended having Jackson order me around like he had a right to my decisions. But this was as close to jealousy I’d ever seen in Jackson and I was pathetically turned on.
“You can’t tell me what to do, Jackson.”
“I can as long as we’re fucking. I don’t share, Lucy. You became mine the moment you let me lick your sweet pussy.”
“So what, I’m just supposed to deny every man who hits on me? One who could possibly lead to a real relationship?”
“Do you not want this?” Jackson unbuckled me and pulled me on his lap. His hand ripped my panties and he threw them on the floor board. He sunk a finger inside of me and I leaned back on the steering wheel.
We stared at each other while he pressed another finger inside of me and thrust them in and out. My juices coating his hand showing him how much I wanted him.
“Tell me you want some pansy ass doctor. Tell me you don’t want me. Tell me.”
I sank down on his hand writhing again
st his calloused palm. He stopped moving and held me still with his arm.
I moaned at the loss of my pleasure which was so close.
“Look at me, Lucy. Tell me what you want.”
“You!” I screamed frustrated with him for making me say it out loud.
“Fuck yeah you do. You like that I’m a brute. You like that I can make you cum so hard, your legs quake for hours afterwards. You are mine, Lucy. No one else. Do you hear me?”
My orgasm smashed into me and I cried out in pleasure both from the intensity and his words.
He removed his fingers and painted my lips with them. I licked them tasting myself. Jackson groaned and unbuttoned his pants freeing his massive erection. I sank down on it and kissed him mingling my essence with his.
“I heard you Jackson but you’re mine then too. As long as we’re doing this I’m it.”
He eyes blazed with desire. He grabbed my hips and pistoned into me at a punishing speed.
“I’m yours Lucy. For as long as you want me.”
We lost ourselves in our pleasure. Jackson fucked me with speed and intensity he had never unleashed on me before. He branded me with his hand and I loved every minute of it.
I smiled as he stiffened and spilled inside of me. Another step closer to getting what I wanted.
15
“Good morning, sexy.” Jackson’s sleep filled voice danced over me. “I like waking up to you in the morning.”
I opened one eye and gauged his mood. Dean had stayed the night at Trina’s house last night so Jackson didn’t have to sneak off to his bed at the ass crack of dawn.
“You like waking up to me with bed head and morning breath?”
“Oh, yeah. Your morning breath is sexy and I can do this.” He kissed his way down my stomach and licked me slowly. “Breakfast is served.”
I gave a half hearted laugh but Jackson was too busy using his tongue to hear the insincerity of it. It had been a week since our fight at the creek. One full week of me tiptoeing around him, analyzing every word and action desperately searching for some sign he had feelings for me. Feelings that weren’t lust.
My stupid heart tripped over itself when he woke me up with his declaration he liked having me in his bed in the morning. My stupid heart also sunk to my toes when his reasons were revealed. All Jackson wanted was my body. I knew it was dumb to want something more with Jackson but I couldn’t help it.
We were so good together. When we weren’t having amazing lust filled sex we were talking. Enjoying each others company. But also sneaking around behind my brothers back.
“Earth to Lucy. I’ve got my face down here. Where’s your enthusiasm?”
I blinked horrified he caught me worrying about our relationship while his tongue was on my clit. “I’m here. Maybe you just lost your touch.”
His face showed determination as he dipped back in between my thighs. My toes curled when he hit a particular spot that drove me crazy. I pushed into his face grabbing onto his hair to hold him place. Jackson took his cue and used his tongue and fingers to send me over in a fever pitch, making me forget I needed something more.
“Let’s go take a shower.” Jackson was drawing tiny circles around my belly button chuckling when he would make the muscles around it jump.
“Can’t we just stay in bed?” I groaned throwing my leg over his waist.
“If we stay in bed I’m going to ravish you again. Dean should be here soon and I want to take a shower with you.”
“So you can ravish me in the shower?”
“Beautiful and smart.” Jackson lifted me up and carried me to the shower.
I yelped when he sat me down on the cold bathroom counter so he could turn on the shower. When steam seeped around the shower curtain I jumped into Jackson’s arms and he swung us into the hot water.
We stayed locked together letting the water wash over us. I put my head on his chest and held him close. His hand went up and down my spine. He kissed the top of my head and inhaled deeply.
My head turned up and he was staring intently at me. “What?”
He shook his head and smiled. “Do you want me to wash your hair?”
I cocked my head to the side. His question didn’t match the severity of his face. “Sure.”
Jackson’s hands were magic on my scalp. I moaned and his cock twitched against my ass cheeks. Feeling his arousal I pushed back into him.
Jackson stepped back and continued to wash my hair. When we were clean Jackson entwined his arms around me and I buried my nose in his chest. The water started to run cold and he snapped it off.
He took his time running the towel up my body before wrapping me in it. His lips met mine and the desperation in it took me by surprise. I let him take what he needed. His tongue and lips almost bruising me with their pressure.
The inside of my thighs were wet and ready for him. Always ready for him. I was shocked when he pulled away and pushed my wet hair over my shoulder.
“Go get dressed and I’ll meet you in the kitchen. Dean won’t think anything is weird if he catches us cooking breakfast.” He swatted my ass and left the bathroom.
When he opened the door the steam rushed out leaving the room cold. Or it could have been the way he left. He was so tender in the shower even refusing to have sex with me so he could wash my hair.
With all the gentleness I should have felt cherished. Instead I felt like I was losing something I never had but always wanted.
I dressed slowly while I tried to reason out Jackson’s change of behavior. Dean was home when I went down to the kitchen taking away my chances of talking to Jackson.
Dean and Jackson talked about what they wanted to do while I picked at my food.
“Lucy, you aren’t going into another one of your depressions are you?” Dean asked making me drop my fork.
“Why would you ask that?”
“Because you’re playing at your food. Lucy I love you I can’t have you moping around again that guy was a super fuck face and you need to forget about him. You’ve got to stop letting him dictate your life.”
Anger surged through me. It was mostly at myself. Dean had seen me fall into two slumps while living with him. It made sense he would think I was capable of doing it again. “I’m not going into a funk. I’m just not hungry. Don’t worry Dean I’ll find another place to live.”
“Lucy that’s not what I want. I like having you here. I’m just stressed out and I feel like I’ve abandoned you because of everything happening with the business and because I’m with Trina.”
I put my hand on Dean’s giving it a squeeze. “I’m fine. Seriously, I’m just not hungry. Thank you for worrying about me. I didn’t mean to snap at you. I know you have a lot going on with business and I’m happy you’re with Trina. Don’t worry about me I’m fine.” I gave him my brightest smile and even took a bite so he could see just how fine I was.
Jackson’s foot snuck up my leg. I glanced at him and he winked at me before turning back to his food. He grabbed Dean’s empty plate and his own going into the kitchen.
I grabbed my plate and followed him. We took our time rinsing the plates and putting them in dishwasher. With Dean at the table texting who I assumed was Trina we couldn’t do anything more than bump into each other.
I leaned down to put the last plate in the dishwasher when Jackson’s hand grazed my ass. I wiggled it and he made a harsh sound in the back of his throat.
“Later,” he whispered when Dean got up to put his mug away.
“It could have been in the shower if you weren’t so obsessed with my hair,” I reminded him wishing I would have kept my mouth shut. It did me no good for him to know how much today’s non-sex shower bothered me.
Jackson opened his mouth but Dean came out the kitchen tossing his keys to Jackson. They left saying good bye and I went upstairs to get my computer thinking of going out to my old coffee shop to get some work done.
My phone was flashing when I got upstairs. It was a text from Jackson:
Sometimes a guy needs to cuddle with his girl.
The smile his text caused hurt my cheeks it was so wide. Could it actually be happening? Was Jackson seeing me as more than just someone to sate his sexual demands?
Am I your girl?
I sent the text before I could over think it. Afraid I was showing my cards too soon.
You’re the only girl I’m feasting on for breakfast. So yes
You’re my girl
Nope, he still thought of me as nothing more than a sex partner. I shouldn’t have expected him to change his mind so soon. It wasn’t like we had been together long.
And being we were sneaking around behind my brother’s back it wasn’t like we could even go on a real date. Sex and late night talks were all we had. How could he see me as a proper girlfriend when we couldn’t do anything girlfriend and boyfriend like?
I chewed on my lip scheming on how I could trick Jackson into taking me out on a date. Showing him my other redeeming qualities that had nothing to do with what was between my legs.
I hadn’t even been able to dress up for him. There was no point of putting on makeup when we were just going to end up in bed having silent sex so we wouldn’t wake up Dean.
I needed to step up my game. Jackson desired me. I just needed him to see he couldn’t live without me. Show how well we could be together.
My phone rang and I pounced on it wondering if I conjured Jackson’s will so he would call me and ask me on a date.
“Hey, Lucy this is Alec.”
“Hi, Alec how are you?”
“I’m good. I hope you don’t mind, your mom gave me your phone number. I would’ve called you sooner but this cold going around has kept me busy.”
“You were saying the other night how the cold was pretty bad this year.” My response was lame and I was completely aware of it but Alec’s call had caught me off guard and I wasn’t sure what to do.
Alec chuckled over the phone and I smacked my head. Why couldn’t I fall for someone like Alec? He didn’t make fun of me for being awkward no he laughed like I was adorable. In the short time I had known him I was positive Alec would never call me Luscer.
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