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19: ‘The returning memory of a dream long forgotten’
‘was immediately exhilarated’: see HS, DaB, p. 184.
‘This life cannot’: PdeM to HS, 4 October 1946 (PdeM Mon).
‘My decision is’: PdeM to HS, 12 October 1946 (PdeM Mon).
‘the richest’: HS, DaB, p. 197.
‘the Reichstag, now a vast shell’: see Stephen Spender, European Witness (London: Hamish Hamilton, 1946), p. 235.
‘an astonishingly bizarre’: Kingsley Martin, ‘A German Diary’, The New Statesman and Nation, 27 April 1946.
‘hungry, discouraged’: PdeM, ‘The Dead Cities Revisited’, July 1946 (unpublished article in PdeM Mon).
‘satrap days’: see HS, DaB, p. 182.
‘Apart from the British’: HS to Mimi Spiel, in ibid., p. 190.
‘Although props and scenery’: see Walter Goehr, ‘Art Among the Ruins’, The New Statesman and Nation, 13 July 1946.
‘unnaturally elaborate’: Clarissa Churchill, ‘Berlin Letter’, Horizon, March 1946.
‘In the midst of’: HS, DaB, p. 228.
‘Otherwise we can never’: PdeM to HS, 15 July 1945 (HS PdeM).
‘I came here’: PdeM to HS, 1 September 1945 (HS PdeM).
‘What can one do’: PdeM to HS, 12 August 1945 (PdeM Mon).
‘how many shades’: HS, DaB, p. 219.
‘London is so beautiful’: HS, diary, in DaB, p. 206.
‘one of the foremost’: HS to Mimi Spiel, in DaB, p. 223.
‘taken as ever’: ibid., p. 227.
‘with its blunt’: PdeM to HS, 19 August 1945 (HS PdeM).
‘They hardly ever’: HS to Mimi Spiel, in DaB, p. 190.
‘nothing goes to one’s’: HS to PdeM, in ibid., p. 191.
‘The Red Army’: ibid.
‘It is very difficult’: HS to Mimi Spiel, in ibid., p. 227.
‘Writing to her sister’: RM to Jean Macaulay, 17 July 1947 (RM TC).
‘She was also disturbed’: RM to Jean Macaulay, 25 August 1947 (RM TC).
‘unheralded and unordered’: RM to Jean Smith, 16 September 1947, Dearest Jean: Rose Macaulay’s Letters to a Cousin, ed. Martin Ferguson Smith (Manchester: Manchester University Press, 2011).
‘with its indefatigable’: RM, Fabled Shore: From the Pyrenees to Portugal (London: Hamish Hamilton, 1950), pp. 32, 171.
‘evoking the shifting colours’: ibid., p. 23.
‘rather startling!’: RM to Jean Smith, 16 September 1947 (Dearest Jean).
‘If these objects’: RM, Fabled Shore, p. 40.
‘she had passed a lovely’: RM to Jean Smith, 16 September 1947 (Dearest Jean).
‘She told a hitchhiker’: see RM, Fabled Shore, p. 175.
‘the returning memory’: ibid., p. 175.
‘the Labour mismanagement’: RM to Jean Macaulay, 25 August 1947 (RM TC).
‘a desolation of’: RM, Fabled Shore, pp. 245–6.
20: ‘The place I really did lose my heart to was Vienna’
‘roofs covered with’: see GG to CW, 11 February 1948 (GG GU).
‘not going back to anyone’: see GG to VG, 19 June 1947 (VG Bod).
‘longing to push the’: see GG to CW, undated, 1947 (GG GU).
‘much of Britain was ambivalent’: see David Kynaston, Austerity Britain 1945–51 (London: Bloomsbury, 2008), p. 243.
‘I know what real’: see VG, interview with William Cash (private collection).
‘comforting Vivien’: see GG to CW, undated (VG Bod).
‘a joyful Christmas’: see GG to CW, 26 December 1947 (GG GU).
‘he was feeling happy’: see GG to CW, 30 December 1947 (GG GU).
‘bleakly miserable’: see GG to CW, 11 February 1948 (GG GU).
‘He does not have enough imagination’: see GG, The Third Man (London: Vintage, 2001), ch. 1.
‘white bonnets protruded’: see GG to CW, 16 February 1948 (GG GU).
‘The illegal penicillin’: see GG to Wilfred Harrington, 28 July 1950, Richard Greene, Graham Greene, A Life in Letters (London: Little, Brown, 2007).
‘Hideous they were’: Elizabeth Montagu, interview in Norman Sherry, The Life of Graham Greene (London: Pimlico, 2004–5), vol. 2, p. 252.
‘a sordid smoke-filled’: see GG, The Third Man, ch. 11.
‘How do you know?’: see GG, Ways of Escape (Harmondsworth: Penguin, 1982), ch. 5i.
‘I was there’: EB to CR, 12 April 1955 (LCW).
‘fully intelligent’: EB, GG, V. S. Pritchett, Why do I Write? An Exchange of Views (London: Percival Marshall, 1948).
‘the crowds of people’: see GG to CW, 17 February 1948 (GG GU).
‘He would have forgotten’: see GG to CW, 18 February 1948 (GG GU).
‘the best thing’: CR to Lilian Ritchie, April 1940, in LCW, p. 41.
‘And marriage is’: CR, diary, 12 November 1942 (LCW).
‘Now that I am leaving’: CR, diary, 23 December 1945 (LCW).
‘Death of the Heart’: CR, diary, 25 December 1945 (LCW).
‘Love of my Life’: CR, diary, 23 February 1946 (LCW).
‘going to take’: EB to CR, 23 November 1946 (LCW).
‘As a matter’: EB to Isaiah Berlin, Easter Sunday, 1948 (Isaiah Berlin archive, Bod).
‘If I were’: EB to CR, 8 February 1948 (LCW).
‘Socialist principle’: Clement Attlee, in Peter Hennessy, Never Again: Britain 1945–51 (London: Penguin, 2006), p. 198.
‘If I lived’: EB to Lilian Ritchie, 10 March 1948 (LCW).
‘I feel sometimes’: EB to CR, Easter Sunday, 1948 (LCW).
‘Hotels are always full’: see GG, Ways of Escape, ch. 5ii.
‘a scrap of paper’: see GG, Ways of Escape, ch. 5i.
‘love is a little peace’: GG, ‘Il Pace’, A Quick Look Behind: Footnotes to an Autobiography (Los Angeles: Sylvester & Orphanos, 1983).
‘he had betrayed’: see GG, interview in Sherry, Graham Greene, vol. 2, p. 281.
‘Everyone from Douglas’: Dorothy Glover to GG, 14 April 1948, in William Cash, The Third Woman: The Secret Passion that Inspired The End of the Affair (London: Abacus, 2001), p. 169.
‘drink to it’: see GG to CW, 29 April 1948 (GG GU).
‘lauded the novel’: EB, review of The Heart of the Matter, Tatler, 2 June 1948.
‘he was fond of her’: see GG to VG, 3 June 1948 (VG Bod).
‘Currency reform’: see HS, DaB, p. 214.
‘Vienna has become’: HS, diary, in ibid.
‘he was embarrassed’: see GG, Ways of Escape, ch. 5i.
‘Shellfire and a blaze’: HS, Return to Vienna, trans. Christine Shuttleworth (Riverside, California: Ariadne Press, 2011), 8 February.
‘the shattered Prater’: see GG, The Third Man, ch. 14.
‘like a sort’: Elizabeth Montagu, interview in Sherry, The Life of Graham Greene, vol. 2, p. 250.
‘a strange unknown world’: see GG, film treatment for The Third Man (GG HRC).
‘more and more likable: see GG to CW, 21 June 1948 (GG GU).
[num]‘enough of being successful’: see GG to CW, 25 June 1948 (GG GU).
‘tired of being rich’: see GG to CW, 4 August 1948 (GG GU).
‘the British foreign secretary’: see Hennessy, Never Again, p. 351.
‘Our relationship’: HS to Mimi Spiel, in DaB, p. 242.
‘I can only repeat’: ibid.
‘You are the cause’: PdeM, in ibid.
‘He is a wonderfully’: Rosamond Lehmann to Rayner Heppenstall, 26 February 1945, in Selina Hastings, Rosamond Lehmann (London: Vintage, 2003), p. 240.
‘Barbara replied that’: for Rex Warner’s meeting with Barbara Rothschild, his letters to Pam Morris and his life in Berlin more generally, see Stephen E. Tabachnick, Fiercer than Tigers: The Life and Works of Rex Warner (East Lansing: Michigan State University Press, 2002), pp. 239–46.
‘Tackley weekend’: see GG to CW, 1 August 1948 (GG GU).
‘a moment, perhaps’: HS, DaB, p. 246.
/> ‘green grave’: see HS to PdeM, February 1946 (HS PdeM).
‘In Wimbledon’: HS, DaB, p. 249.
‘Deep gloom has’: PdeM to HS, 12 September 1948 (HS PdeM).
‘a male friend’: HS, DaB, p. 252.
‘I must write’: PdeM to HS, 18 February 1949 (PdeM Mon).
‘Love to you’: PdeM to HS, 3 March 1949 (PdeM Mon).
‘I’m tired, tired’: PdeM to HS, 22 June 1949 (PdeM Mon).
‘so like Vienna’: EB to CR, 12 April 1955 (LCW).
‘an awful pang’: see GG to CW, 24 September 1949 (GG GU).
21: ‘We could have been happy for a lifetime’
‘And they called that’: GG, ‘After Two Years’, A Quick Look Behind: Footnotes to an Autobiography (Los Angeles: Sylvester & Orphanos, 1983).
‘the idea of mortal’: see GG, interview in Marie-Françoise Allain, The Other Man: Conversations with Graham Greene (Harmondsworth: Penguin, 1984), p. 159.
‘Marriage was not’: see GG to CW, 30 January 1950 (GG GU).
‘a priest who had’: see GG to CW, 13 April 1950 (GG GU).
‘He could only offer’: see GG to CW, 3 April 1950 (GG GU).
‘most people are only’: see CW’s diary, 26 February 1949 (GG GU).
‘The greatest saints’: GG, ‘Frederick Rolfe: Edwardian Inferno’, The Lost Childhood and Other Essays (London: Eyre & Spottiswoode, 1951).
‘Reviewing Greene’s’: George Orwell, ‘The Sanctified Sinner’, Collected Essays, Journalism, Letters, vol. 4: In Front of Your Nose, ed. Sonia Orwell and Ian Angus (Harmondsworth: Penguin, 1970).
‘What sort of sinner’: see Malcolm Muggeridge, Chronicles of Wasted Time, vol. 2: The Infernal Grove (London: Collins, 1973), p. 105.
‘she had dreamt about having’: CW, diary, 24 March 1950 (GG GU).
‘And to the other’: CW, diary, 28 March 1950 (GG GU).
‘He understood how’: see GG to CW, 11 April 1949 (GG GU).
‘You’re my human’: GG to CW, 8 December 1949 (GG GU).
‘exceptionally likeable’: see GG to CW, December 1947 (GG GU).
‘He hated going’: see GG to CW, 18 December 1949 (GG GU).
‘Order of Battle’: see ibid.
‘see Catherine’s hand’: see GG to CW, February 1950 (GG GU).
‘In a few years’: see ibid.
‘looking yearningly’: see GG to CW, 28 February 1950 (GG GU).
‘superb piece’: CW to Bonte Durán, 13 March 1950, in Norman Sherry, The Life of Graham Greene (London: Pimlico, 2004–5), vol. 2, p. 326.
‘The three of them had’: see GG to Bonte Durán, 19 March 1950, in ibid.
‘Spent the morning’: CW, diary, 11 January 1950 (GG GU).
‘violent quarrel’: CW, diary, 21 March 1950 (GG GU).
‘another bad’: CW, diary, 22 March 1950 (GG GU).
‘why he had been so cruel’: see GG to CW, 28 March 1950 (GG GU).
‘He had never imagined’: see GG to CW, 29 March 1950 (GG GU).
‘he was praying’: see GG to CW, 3 April 1950 (GG GU).
‘a miserable day’: CW, diary, 12 April 1950 (GG GU).
‘he felt strongly’: see GG to CW, 12 April 1950 (GG GU).
‘almost all’: CW, diary, 13 April 1950 (GG GU).
‘particularly nice’: CW, diary, 12 February 1950 (GG GU).
‘I am certain’: CW, diary, 16 May 1950 (GG GU).
‘unhappy evening’: CW, diary, 19 May 1950 (GG GU).
‘Graham really hates’: CW, diary, 25 May 1950 (GG GU).
‘cautious and depressed’: CW, diary, 31 May 1950 (GG GU).
‘Caught disease’: CW, diary, 28 March 1949 (GG GU).
‘I am a coward’: CW to Bonte Durán, 16 June 1950, in Sherry, The Life of Graham Greene, vol. 2, p. 318.
‘Graham seemed very’: CW to Phillip Caraman, 17 July 1950 (GG BU).
‘more peaceful’: CW to Phillip Caraman, undated (GG BU).
‘no judge on’: CW to Phillip Caraman, undated (GG BU).
‘so good and’: ibid.
‘a long talk’: CW, diary, 12 October 1950 (GG GU).
‘the story had germinated’: see GG, Ways of Escape (Harmondsworth: Penguin, 1982), ch. 5iii.
‘Is it possible’: GG, EoA, book 2, ch. 2.
‘sweet’: GG, ibid., book 3, ch. 2; book 2, ch. 3; book 2, ch. 1; book 1, ch .2; book 2, ch. 2.
‘almost as a conniver’: ibid., book 1, ch. 1; book 1, ch. 7.
‘one gets so’: ibid., book 1, ch. 1; book 1, ch. 3; book 2, ch. 4.
‘Suddenly I wanted’: ibid., book 2, ch. 3; book 2, ch. 6; book 2, ch. 1.
‘with nervous irritation’: ibid., book 1, ch. 6; book 2, ch. 2.
‘not at peace’: ibid., book 3, ch. 1.
‘I swear that if’: ibid., book 2, ch. 2.
‘the best part of it’: see GG to CW, 22 March 1950 (GG GU).
‘a situation where they’: GG to CW, undated (GG GU).
‘this may possibly’: CW to Phillip Caraman, 23 July 1951 (GG BU).
‘Greene behaved’: Evelyn Waugh to Nancy Mitford, 19 September 1951, The Letters of Nancy Mitford and Evelyn Waugh, ed. Charlotte Mosley (London: Sceptre, 1997).
‘Flying between the clouds’: see GG to CW, 6 October 1951 (GG GU).
22: ‘Let us neither of us forget . . . what reality feels like and eternity is’
‘as though you’: EB to CR, 4 September 1948 (LCW).
‘I can go no’: CR, diary, 5 September 1948 (LCW).
‘Oh, I am’: EB to CR, 7 September 1948 (LCW).
‘Keep me in your’: EB to CR, 14 April 1949 (LCW).
‘dearest friend’: EB to CR, 26 May 1949 (LCW).
‘Oh God’: EB to CR, 28 October 1949 (LCW).
‘Oh E, how’: CR, diary, 16 October 1949 (LCW).
‘I should like’: CR, diary, 11 November 1951 (LCW).
‘the most extraordinary’: CR, diary, 2 December 1951 (LCW).
‘My inability’: EB to CR, 16 October 1949 (LCW).
‘Our love is’: EB to CR, 5 January 1950 (LCW).
‘Yes, I think’: EB to CR, 6 May 1950 (LCW).
‘a page or’: EB to CR, 16 October 1949 (LCW).
‘You are my’: EB to CR, 18 June 1953 (LCW).
‘the perfect dwelling’: EB to CR, 28 October 1949 (LCW).
‘would be your’: EB to CR, 26 December 1949 (LCW).
‘In a queer’: EB to CR, 5 January 1950 (LCW).
‘feeling for words’: Nora Wydenbruck, Rilke: Man and Poet; A Biographical Study (London: John Lehmann, 1949), pp. 171, 166–7.
‘precious hours’: ibid., pp. 181, 185, 187–8.
‘intense sympathy’: ibid., pp. 224, 237, 305.
‘Let us not’: ibid., p. 288.
‘I look at your’: Gustave Flaubert to Louise Colet, 6 August 1846, The Letters of Gustave Flaubert, ed. and trans. Francis Steegmuller (London: Picador, 2001).
‘He loved her’: EB, preface to The Flaubert Omnibus, Collected Impressions (London: Longmans, Green & Co, 1950).
‘a caress, a kiss’: EB, translation of a letter from Flaubert to Louise Colet (EB HRC).
‘extraordinary feeling’: EB to CR, 6 November 1960 (LCW).
‘In 1946, in daylight’: see EB to CR, 30 June 1946 (LCW).
‘rather ill again’: EB to CR, 26 May 1949 (LCW).
‘terrifyingly empty days’: EB to William Plomer, 9 September 1952, The Mulberry Tree: Writings of Elizabeth Bowen, ed. Hermione Lee (London: Vintage, 1999).
‘queer state of’: EB to Isaiah Berlin, 8 October 1952 (Isaiah Berlin archive, Bod).
‘To his belief’: EB autobiographical note, 1953 (EB HCR).
‘Do you know’: EB to CR, 6 July 1954 (LCW).
‘growing realisation’: CR, diary, May 1954 (LCW).
‘feverish high-pressure’: CR, diary, 18 July 1954 (LCW).
‘a life to let’: CR, diary, 29 July 1954 (LCW).
‘the uninterrupted’: EB to CR, November 1954 (LC
W).
‘Oh I miss you’: EB to CR, 14 August 1954 (LCW).
‘so restless and’: EB to CR, November 1954 (LCW).
‘non-achievement of happiness’: EB, ‘Disappointment’ 1, People, Places, Things: Essays by Elizabeth Bowen, ed. Allan Hepburn (Edinburgh: Edinburgh University Press, 2008).
‘never underrate’: EB, ‘Disappointment’ 2 (People, Places, Things).
‘looking at life’: CR, diary, 8 December 1954 (LCW).
‘a sort of exhilaration’: CR, diary, 9 December 1954 (LCW).
‘loneliness, sorrow’: CR, diary, 10 December 1954 (LCW).
‘The way you two’: EB, A World of Love (London: Jonathan Cape, 1957), chs 7, 1, 8.
‘a speaking language’: ibid., ch. 1.
‘profound breath’: ibid., chs 5, 6, 8.
‘They no sooner’: ibid., chs 11, 2, 4.
‘E has a miraculous’: CR, diary, 11 November 1956 (LCW).
‘unreal happiness’: CR, diary, 12 December 1954 (LCW).
‘middle-aged paradise’: CR, diary, 20 December 1954 (LCW).
‘Your sweetness’: EB to CR, 4 January 1955 (LCW).
‘if your hatred’: CR, diary, 15 April 1955 (LCW).
‘sad, disturbing’: CR, diary, 28 August 1955 (LCW).
‘You must really’: EB to CR, 6 January 1956 (LCW).
‘The fact is’: EB to CR, 29 February 1956 (LCW).
‘These last ten’: EB to CR, 15 May 1956 (LCW).
23: ‘The world my wilderness, its caves my home’
‘a lovely little’: RM to Jean Macaulay, 16 July 1949 (RM TC).
‘shinned down a’: Penelope Fitzgerald, introduction to Virago 1983 edition of WMW.
‘cave-fanciers and’: RM, ‘Notes on the Way’, Time and Tide, 5 October 1940.
‘A seed can lodge’: HY to Rosamond Lehmann, quoted in Rosamond Lehmann, ‘An Absolute Gift’, Times Literary Supplement, 6 August 1954.
‘is about the’: RM to Hamilton Johnson, 30 August 1950, Letters to a Friend 1950–1952, ed. Constance Babington Smith (London: Collins, 1961).
‘if she greatly’: RM, WMW, chs 2, 3.
‘about dust-heaped’: ibid., chs 5, 6.
‘New ruins’: RM, Pleasure of Ruins (London: Weidenfeld and Nicolson, 1953), p. 454.
‘I can’t think’: RM, WMW, ch. 2.
‘Day of wrath’: ibid., chs 7, 23.
‘We are in hell’: ibid., ch. 23.
‘Very soon trees’: RM, Pleasure of Ruins, p. 454.