Where the fuck did she go? No one has heard from Pearl in three fucking days. She left no note, didn’t fucking call, or tell anyone where she was heading. What the fuck is she thinking? She has to understand how fucking pissed I will be when I finally find her. I told her not to run from me again.
FUCK!
Thinking back to that night, I am not sure what happened. Tank and I had really started to lay into each other before we were brought out of it by Shadow,who quickly broke us apart and let us cool off for a minute or two before he asked if we knew that Pearl had left.
Tank and I quickly moved to the front of the club and noticed that both of our vehicles were still where we had left them.
“The girls are at my house with Doc, that has to be where she is headed. Let’s go.”
“Blaze, I’m not sure what the fuck has been going on while I have been away, but you should know I have no plans to give her up. I made the biggest mistake of my life the night I walked out, and I will spend the rest of my life trying to make it up to her.”
“Tank, I don’t want to fucking discuss this right now, I want to fucking find her and make sure that she is alright. Let’s fucking go.”
Getting into my truck I notice that Tank is quickly moving to his truck, then we are both on our way.
Pulling up to my house I notice that Doc’s vehicle is no longer there. Opening the garage, I am not happy to find it empty. Fuck, she is running again.
Grabbing my cellphone, I quickly dial Doc as I get out of the truck. Tank is quickly behind me and we are striding into the house.
“Doc, where the fuck are you, and where the fuck are Pearl and the girls?”
“Why, hello to you too, Prez. I’m at the fucking clubhouse at the fucking party that you are missing out on. Pearl got home about 45 minutes ago and told me that I could head out. Wait, what the fuck happened? Why are you fucking calling me asking me about Pearl? Where the fuck is Pearl, Prez?”
“We don’t fucking know Doc, she took off again. Every fucking time something happens, she fucking takes off. I am going to tan her fucking ass raw when I get a hold of her. Tank walked in on us in the office at the Dungeon and we got into it. While we were fucking going after each other, Pearl snuck out. I am not sure how long we were at each other before Shadow actually came in and broke us apart.”
“Tank and I are going to head out looking for her. We will let you know if we find anything out.”
As I hang up the phone, I look over towards Tank. “Where do you think she would have gone? What the fuck happened? Any ideas where she might have gone, Tank?”
“No, I have no fucking idea. I have only talked to her once in five fucking months. It seems that you should be the one who knows where she has gone, Prez. I still can’t believe you fucking collared her while I was gone.”
“Tank, I am not discussing this with you right fucking now. We can discuss all of that shit later. I need to find her.”
“We, together, need to find her Blaze. I will stop at nothing to find her and spend some time with her. I was not fucking kidding when I said that I need her to talk with me.I will not stop fighting to get her to at least forgive me for what I let happen to her, if not more. She is the only woman that I have ever had these fucking feelings for, and just because you decided to claim what was fucking mine doesn’t mean that I will just give up.Especially when she is so far gone with my child.”
“Watch it Tank, that is my ol’ lady and my babe you are talking about. I will not allow you to speak about her like that. She is mine, so watch your fucking step.”
“Whatever Blaze. How do you want to head out looking for her? I think one of use needs to head up to Milwaukee.”
“Yeah, I will head up to Milwaukee. You get back to the clubhouse and see what you can find fromher credit cards and phone. Although she took a fucking burner on her way out the door, so I am sure that her phone is not on at the moment. Also, you should know that I had a tracker put on her vehicle, but I am sure that she removed it, so that will probably be a dead end for you. You should probably ask Doc or Trip if she talked to either one of them about removing it, because that is who she would have gone to.”
As I leave to go to Milwaukee, my thoughts drift to the woman that has consumed me. Why did she leave so quickly? Tank and I were just working out some of the residual issues that his departure left. I am sure that she felt like we had put her in the middle of our fight and that is something that she struggles with, I know that, but fuck- she just took off.
I think back to her restless nights since Tank has returned. That has something to do with her edginess and also her quick departure after Tank walked into the office. If she is still so affected by him, I’m wondering if she will be better off with both of us in her life. I don’t know how that would fucking work, and sure as shit would not be the first one who would be signing up to share my Pet.But, if it is what she needs to be happy, and if she could blossom under our joint ownership, I am not going to be the one to deny her that.
Going through the house in Milwaukee, I find no clues as to her whereabouts. As I am searching through her stuff looking for clues, I am shocked to find the journal that her psychologist asked her to start after the rape. Flipping through the pages I am quick to skip over much of the journal, stopping only when I reach the last few weeks, noticing a change in what she was writing and even the pattern of writing. When I trail back to the first day in this change, I see that it is the day that Tank returned.
Reading over the last few weeks of entries I notice that my assumptions on the way up here were right. She is clearly torn between her feelings for Abraham and myself and it is on every page of this fucking journal. Why hasn’t she talked to me about this? Getting more pissed off and glad that she is not within reach right now, I need to calm down and come up with a way for her to come into her own as far as her desires are concerned.
Heading back to Chicago, I decide that Tank is probably the best solution to tracking her down. With all the security and computer stuff that he has always been good at, I know that she will use her credit card or cellphone at some point, hopefully soon.
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Pearl has been gone for two fucking days and I have not been able to sleep. I need this woman in my life like I need air. Laughing, I think to myself how different my life is now than it was just a year ago. I never thought that I would need someone like I need Pearl. I will do anything to keep her in my life and to make sure that she blossoms under my hand- even if that means sharing her with Tank.
Chapter 4 – Tank
Sitting in the office at the clubhouse three days after Pearl left, waiting for something to show up on one of her credit cards or phone, is really trying my fucking nerves. We should be out there searching for her, not sitting on our asses doing nothing, or what feels like nothing.
Why the fuck did she run and where the fuck did she go?
Blaze and I were just working out some of our issues and would have calmed down shortly and talked shit through.Which is all that we have been able to do the last two days with no lead on Pearl.The many discussions that Markus and I have had about how we will move forward once we find her have calmed down significantly since that first one, to say the least. No matter what, we are able to work out that the first step must be that Markus punishes her for leaving.Then that I will talk with her about the night that I walked out.
We think that she ran because she is having a difficult time with her already turbulent emotions since I have returned. Markus thinks that she just blocked out her feelings for me during the months that I was gone.Which might be one of the reasons that she ran so quickly after I walked in on them into the office.
I already feel shitty enough about leaving Pearl that night all those months ago. I have thought of little else except being able to talk with her about it. I don’t know what I will have to do for her to forgive me, but I will do whatever it takes to have her look at me the way that she used to. Looking at me with longing an
d love in her eyes, not the hate and contempt that I thought I saw as I barged into the office three nights ago.
Being able to see her looking at me with those gorgeous brown eyes, looking up at me while I am driving my cock deep into her, making her scream my name as she begs for her pleasure. Fuck, I have missed those eyes looking up at me like that. All those whores that I fucked while I was away never came close to capturing my attention or thoughts for more than it took for me to blow my load and release some tension. My thoughts always quickly returned to her, the girls, and the future we could have had.
As soon as I was back in Chicago and I heard about what had really happened, not only that night, but also what has happened in the months since that night, I regretted every choice that I made, the leaving, the drinking,the whores, all of it. Why I ever doubted Pearl and her actions is beyond me, and the work that I will have to do with her to trust me again is something that I am more than ready to put in. I just hope that she is able to forgive me and we can make our way forward, together.
Scrubbing my head out of those thoughts, I return to the computer screen in front of me to look through her cellphone and credit card accounts, again. Seeing nothing new I set up some alerts to message my phone if any activity happens on any of Pearl’s cards or on her cellphone while I am out.
Walking out of the office to look for Markus, I think that we might need to switch up our tactics on finding Pearl.It has already been three days and we have had no sightings and no alerts as to her whereabouts. Reaching the main room, I notice that Markus is sitting at the bar with a stack of papers in front of him, but he is not focused on them at all. He is clearly distracted and thinking of his, no mine, no,my Pearl.
“Prez, I have set up alerts if and when she uses her phone or credit cards, I will get notified, but I think that we need to do something more.”
Looking over towards me he nods his head in agreement with me. “I just don’t have any fucking idea where she might have gone. I have even reached out to that asshole David’s family and they were of no fucking helped. Maybe we need to head over there instead of just calling on the phone?”
“Let’s do it. Fuck, it’s the only way we might find her before she needs to be back to school in three days. I’ll go pack up the computer and shit and we can hit the road” As I turn to walk away a ping sounds from my phone. Reaching down I notice instantly that it is the alert I had set up for Pearl’s cards.
“It’s Pearl, she used one of her cards.” Striding into the office with Markus close on my heels I log into my computers and start to scroll through to find out where she is.
Chapter 5– Pearl
The last three days spent with the girls at the cottage have been good. Living off the grid is something that I could get used to. The TV has enough kids shows on to entertain the girls when we are not outside enjoying the cool spring weather.
I am heading towards the fridge to get out snacks for the girls as they are waking up from their naps. I notice that we are out of milk. Fuck! I will need to run into town and grab some at the store. I used the rest of my cash in Waupun, so I will have to use a debit card to get anything.
When the girls get up, I pack them into the car to head into town. We pulled up to Kwik Trip and I grab the milk and some other staples that will tide us over for the remainder of this trip. As I check out I take out some extra cash and put 30 dollars in the gas tank as well, so that I will not have to use my cards again. Using the cards at all is something that I wish I didn’t have to do, but maybe Markus (more likely Abraham) hasn’t setup a trace on my cards.
Making our way back to the cottage, I put the supplies away and start dinner, a cottage staple of hot dogs, macaroni and cheese, and corn on the cob.
As the food is finishing up, I set it to keep warm on the stove, turning towards the girls who have been watching TV, and decide to head out on the boat around the lake before eating dinner.
Finishing getting the life vests on Iris and Rose, we head towards the boat. Thankfully it was rather easy to get it launched, seeing that whoever was up here last left it attached to the 4 wheeler. We spend about an hour trolling around the lake before the girls start to complain about being hungry, so we decide to head in and eat dinner.
Chapter 6–Tank
Taking the long drive towards Wisconsin, Blaze is leading at a quick pace and I am close on his heels. I know that I will not be able to speak with her until after he has finished with her. I might have owned her in the past, but she is his, at least for now.Nothing I do or say will change that until she has forgiven me for what I let happen to her. Fuck, I have not even begun to forgive myself,so I cannot see that this will be an easy go for any of us.
While we were heading out from Chicago,Blaze let me know that he needs me to stay back until he has had his time with Pearl. He tried to get me to stay back completely, but he knows that I have been struggling with the events that have transpired since returning. He knows that I need some closure to move on past the choices that I have made and talking to Pearl is the only way this will happen.
After about four hours on the road we pull off the freeway and follow the GPS to find the gas station that she had used her credit card at. I head in and talk with the cashier. Coming back towards my truck I let Blaze know that the girls are at a cottage a short distance away. Leaving the gas station, we drive for a short while before pulling down a gravel road where I stop short. Looking at the clock noting that the girls will be going to bed shortly I think better of charging in. The girls do not need to be awake for the greeting that I am sure Blaze wants to give their mother.
As my mind drifts to the punishment that awaits Pearl, I can only imagine what Blaze has planned for her. The last four hours on the road have done nothing for the depraved thoughts that have raged through my skull of what I would do to Pearl if she were under my thumb and at my command and control.
I throw the truck into park and headed over to Blaze. “The girls are probably not in bed yet, and I don’t think that you should rush in there while they are awake. I saw a motel back about a mile or so, why don’t we head over there and I will get myself checked in, and then maybe head back to that tavern that we passed to have a quick bite before you deal with Pearl?”
“Yeah, the girls don’t usually go to bed until like eight, I was thinking the exact same thing, Tank. Let’s get a move on.”
“That sounds good. Just know that I will be coming to talk with her tomorrow Blaze. You can have tonight, but as soon as the sun is up, I’ll be knocking at that door to work these fucking issues between us out.”
Grabbing tightly onto the steering wheel he answers “I know you have been beating yourself up about the whole situation, just know that she is mine now Tank, mine. Do not try to take what is mine- you will not enjoy the fucking consequences. You fucking hear me?”
“I know she is yours Blaze, and I will not cross that fucking line, but I have penance to make up to her.I will stop at nothing to make sure that she forgives me for all of the transgressions I have done against her.” Running a hand through my overgrown beard I go on,“if that baby is mine, however, that is a whole different fucking situation.I will need to deal with it as I see fit.”
Blaze groans at the thought of the baby being mine and quickly answers me. “I know, I know. She will not take the test because she says the risk to the baby is too high. I am not sure if she is too keen to take it after the baby comes, either. She insists that the baby is hers and that it doesn’t matter who the father is, Tank. She is being very stubborn on the issue; I have tried talking to her about it many times.”
Moving back a step I open the door and sit myself down. “Let’s go over to that hotel and get me checked in before we head over to the tavern and grab some food. The sooner we get that done, the sooner you can get back to deal with her, and the sooner I will be able to address our issues as well.”
Chapter 7- Blaze
As soon as we get a location on Pearl and the girls, the
Dominant in me is raging to get to the cabin and get a hold of my pet. I want, no, I fucking need her to feel the pain that I have felt these last days without her. She told me that she was mine and that she would be mine forever. From what I can fucking remember, that did not include running and hiding from me. I intend to remind her of those facts as soon as I get my hands on her.
After finishing up quickly at the hotel and having a quick bite to eat and a beer, I am quickly headed back to confront my pet. I pull back in at the cottage and Tank gets out, slowly walking towards his truck.
Looking over his shoulder he calls “Be ready for me when the sun comes up, Blaze. I cannot put off dealing with this shit much longer.”
“I know, Tank. See you in the fucking morning.” Rolling my eyes at his insistence I just shut the door and head slowly towards the cottage. Not sure about the layout or where the girls are, I scan the outside of the cottage before reaching the front door. I see only a light on in what, I am assuming, is Pearl’s bedroom, and nightlights on in two of the other rooms. I make quick work of the lock before entering the darkened front room. Hearing barks from Hilda, I quickly hush her as I toe my boots off and make my way to the room with the light on.
Standing in the doorway looking towards Pearl, who is stretched out on her side on the bed, I am instantly reminded of the love that I feel for this woman. The ache that I have felt the last few days while she has been gone is something that she will soon feel tenfold under my punishments, starting now.
“Pet,” comes out harshly as I take a step into the room. When she hears me she slowly rolls onto her back and I see the bump of her belly protruding from under the sheets. Her eyes lock with mine and I see all the emotions that have been raging through me, in her as well.
“Markus,” is out on a whisper as she pushes herself to a sitting position, swinging her legs over the edge of the bed. Keeping her eyes on mine she gradually makes her way over to me, slowly reaching out to me. I see my collar and ring still in place on my pet, but see no submission in her movements.
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