“Yes, it is just that you and him both are so dominant, and I am not sure that either of you would be able to share me.”
“Share? No, we would not be able to share, Pet. We would have to both own you equally. It is not something that I have talked to Abraham about, but I must admit that it has crossed my mind a time or two since you started having those dreams when he came back.” Stroking my face lightly he goes on, “That is what made you run? Your fear of what I, no, we, would think if you asked for both of us to own you?”
“Yes, that is why I ran. I don’t think I can talk with him, and didn’t know how to talk to you, about it.”
“Well, he will be here in the morning to talk with you and you can tell him what you have just told me. We will see what his thoughts on the matter are. Pet, know that no matter what he decides, you are mine and you will not leave me again. No matter what the fuck happens, if you do, I will have to seriously stop myself from locking you in a cage and leaving you there.”
“He is here? Why, is he here?”
“Sweetling, he and I have been together nonstop looking for you these past days. I let him come up here, but wanted to have some time with you alone before he talked with you. He is at the motel down the street and will be here at sunup. I will take the girls out on the lake when he gets here so that you two can talk and find some peace. You will not do anything unbecoming of my ol’ lady or pet, though. Do you understand me?”
“Yes, Master. I understand. Thank you, Master.” I lean into him as he takes my mouth with his in a passionate kiss. “I love you, Markus.”
“I love you as well, Sweetling. Let’s get to sleep so that you are rested for the morning.”
Chapter 9 – Pearl
Trying to turn over to go to sleep I am quickly reminded of the belting that I just received and I hiss. A gruff laugh comes from next to me and then Markus is up on his knees helping me to turn over and snuggle in with my pillows again. After he finishes making sure that I am comfortable he gets up to check on the girls and then returns. Turning off the lights, he shuts the door behind himself, stripping out of his pants and lifting the blanket to get into bed. He curls up behind me resting his arm on my side and his hand on top of my belly. Sleep claims him quickly and I am left wide awake, pondering the events of the evening.
What the fuck is happening?
I know that Abraham and I have a lot to talk over, and tomorrow will not be an easy day for either of us. I am not sure if I will be able to handle the emotional roller coaster that is going to happen, but it must be done if I am to get what I want out of the situation, which is to have both of these men in my life, no matter how that has to happen.
I struggle for the next two hours to get to sleep, and when it finally comes I drift again into the dream of the two men in my heart. Dreaming of both of them, taking me together, with no qualms or problems between us.Being able to be happy together, if that is even possible.
Waking up to Iris and Rose standing in front of me, I am shocked to see them dressed. “Good morning. You going somewhere, girls?”
As I sit up, Iris answers me quickly, “Yeah momma, Markus is taking us out on the boat and Abraham is here, too. Momma, it is so cool that they are both here to play with us and hang out. You won’t be sad anymore because they are here, right? You are always so sad when they are not around, Momma.”
“I will not be sad anymore Iris, I will be happy, I promise. Now you two go have fun on the lake and show Markus how to catch some fish, Ok?”
“Yes momma, we will.”
As I follow them out of the room with my eyes, I am caught off guard by Abraham standing quietly against the doorframe staring at me.
“Abraham,” comes out on a whisper and he makes his way towards me.
He is quickly reaching out for me to help me out of bed, until he realizes that I am not wearing any clothing and grabs his shirt off and over his head. Putting it on me quickly, he continues helping me up. When I get into a seated position, I hiss again at the pain the belting has caused and he quickly helps me to my feet spinning me around.
“OhLittle-no sorry, Pearl, I see that Blaze did not go easy on you last night.” His face drops as he goes on,“Let me get the crème for you to put on before you finish getting dressed and then we can talk.”
Walking around to the other side of the bed he grabs the crème that was left there from the night before. “I will give you a couple minutes to put that on and then get dressed. Meet me in the living room when you are done. We need to talk.”
“Yes, Abraham. I will see you in a few minutes.”
He turns and walks out the door shutting it behind himself, louder than I expected. I lift the hem of his shirt and try my best to apply salve to the welts on my ass and thighs. Pulling on a loose fitting pair of yoga pants when I am done, I make my way out of the bedroom. When the door opens, I look to the couch and find Abraham waiting for me, but let him know that I need to use the restroom before we begin.
Taking an extra minute or two in the bathroom to brush my teeth and run a comb through my hair, I give myself one last look in the mirror before I turn around and head into the talk that I have been both looking forward to and dreading for the past few weeks.
As I approach the couch, the look coming from Abraham is one of anxiety and dread. Sitting down on the opposite side of the couch from him, I need to adjust to get myself comfortable with the baby bump protruding so much, and the welts on my ass. Reaching for the bump to adjust my stomach, my hand is beaten to the bump by Abraham’s. The words that come next out of his mouth are ones that could not have hurt either of us any worse or more than we already are.
“What happened to us, Pearl? I love you so fucking much, and even when Ileft, that never changed. No matter what I did during those months,nothing would help to get the thoughts of you off of my mind. What the fuck happened that night? What has happened since I have been gone? I thought that there would not be a happier day than seeing you, fat with my seed. Right now, that could not be further from the truth,though.”
“Abraham, so much has happened” I say rubbing my hand over his, before quickly looking down to catch a glimpse of the sparkling diamond that Markus placed on my finger. Pulling my hand back, I quickly try to think of something to say to Abraham, but find myself at a loss.
“Let me start Pearl.” Taking his hands off of my belly he moves,resting his back on the arm of the couch and goes on. “I know that the words I am about to say will not make a difference to you and, ugh, I know thatthey should have been said a lot sooner or not have needed to be said at all. Fuck, they should have been said after I stopped those fucking idiots from raping you, and after I was done taking them apart piece by piece. That is something that I will work every day for the rest of my time on this Earth to make up to you, I swear it to you now.”
“Abraham, I know that you were under the impression that what you walked in on that night was something that I was doing of my own free will, and that I was trying to play some sort of game, but that could not have been further from the truth. As far as being alone after the rape, I was never truly alone. Markus, Doc, or Trip always seemed to be somewhere keeping watch over me and the girls. Not that it was an easy thing to get through or even that I have completely healed from it yet.”
Looking into his blue pools, I see tears forming in each, but Abraham goes on without pause. “I have no excuse for leaving you there, for turning my back on the only woman that I have ever cared for, loved, or wanted. I should have known that you were not the type to play games, especially when it came to what we shared. That must have been such a difficult time for you, going through all that alone.”
Placing a hand over the bump of my belly I answer, “We made it through and we are stronger for it.”
“I will understand if you can never forgive me for that, but how could you keep this baby from me? Hmm? How far gone are you?”
Answering him I simply say “A little over six months.”
“Don’t you fucking dare take that tone with me Tank!” My words get heated as I continue, “I didn’t even fucking know I was pregnant until after the rape when the nurse left a test for me to take before I was going to take the morning after pill to prevent a pregnancy from the two fuckwits that had just raped me and beaten me to a bloody pulp. Just so you fucking know, I needed fucking stitches and almost two weeks to recover before I was able to return to work without fear of the bruises being visible.”
“Pearl, I was just trying to….”
“No, fuck you, Tank.”
“Stop fucking calling me that, and stop with thedisrespectful language. You know better than to use my road name when we are together talking and I have no problem reminding you that I own a piece of you. If a reminder is needed, I have no problem asking Blaze for a chance to spend a few minutes with you to teach you a lesson.” When I meet his eyes I see lust flush in them and am quick to stand and move away from him.
“That will not be happening, Abraham. Markus owns me heart, body, and soul, and he would never share me with you- no matter what you might think.” Or what I might want, runs through my mind, wishing this wasn’t as far from the truth as it really was.
“I am not talking about fucking sharing you, Little One. I will find a way to fucking own you, at least for a little bit, if need be, and your disrespect continues to go unchecked. He will have no problem letting me have some time to teach you a lesson, just as I did with you that night all those weeks ago.”
“Six months ago, Abraham. Six fucking months ago, ring any bells with you?” With a snarl in my voice I go on, “Sir.”
“What are you saying, Pearl?” I’mlooking at him with contempt in my eyes.Heappears to be thinking back to six months ago, “Are you saying that you think you got pregnant the night of your punishment at the Dungeon?”
“That is what the doctor tells me.”
“So, when can we have the test to determine who is the father of this baby so we can move on as a family, Pearl?”
“No- I am not doing that Abraham. There is too much of a risk to the baby to do a paternity test in-utero.”
“Fine, we will wait until the baby is born and then we will have the test.”
“No, we,” shaking my finger between us I finishes “fucking won’t.”
“What do you mean no, Pearl? We are having the test to see whose baby this is, because the dynamics within this little fucking family will change if that baby is mine. It doesn’t matter who you are with, if that baby is mine I will be in their life, no matter what.”
“The baby is not getting tested after its born Abraham. It is my choice,no matter what you or Markus thinks. Don’t fucking push me, or you will not like the consequences.”
“What the fuck is that supposed to mean Pearl?”
“If I say I am not having this baby tested, then there will not be a fucking test. Markus and I have argued about this for the past few months as well. We have not been able to reach common ground and that is after some very intense punishments, so I have no question that me and you will not be able to, either. I have no issue telling you exactly the same thing that I told him, this is my fucking baby. You, nor him, needs to have anything to do with me and the little guy.”
The anger in my eyes flares as I continue,“As far as the law will be concerned, I am a single mother and you two are nothing more than a breeze passing by. If you push this, I will not fail to air all the dirty shit that has gone downto make sure that the girls, this little guy, and I, are not bothered by either of you again. Do you want me to air all the shit about what happened the night of the attack and how you so lovingly left me to get raped? Is that something that you think will play out well in the courts? Do you, Abraham?”
“Pearl, no one said a fucking thing about the courts, Jesus Christ. Why are you so quick to jump down my fucking throat?”
“Just don’t fucking push it Abraham, it has been a point of contention with Markus and I, the argument doesn’t seem to have changed with you.”
Stilling for a moment he whispers out, “Little guy? It’s a boy?”
“Yes,” reaching down to still the kicking that started while we were arguing my hand is quickly joined again by his. “Don’t push this Abraham. I cannot and will not argue again about this.” Looking up into those blue eyes I plead, “Please, don’t push it.”
Hearing the door creak open, I look up to see Markus striding into the room. Looking over at us he sees Tank’s hand being quickly removed from my belly. “Sorry to cut this talk short. My fathering skills are not as good as I presumed.” Looking towards him questioningly and with some fear in my eyes, he goes on, “I forgot the fucking diapers.”
Chapter 10 – Tank
I can’t believe that she is pregnant with a little boy. Since I first saw that bump the night at the club, I have thought of little except that baby and the woman whom I’d left. Fuck me;I am such a fucking idiot. I should have known better when I walked in that night, but Layla’s fucking games lead my mind somewhere else. If that stupid cunt wasn’t already dead, I would put that bitch under.
Now, I will have to work like hell to just be a part of this child’s life, not to mention having to endure the fucking heartbreak of seeing Pearl with Blaze together and, fuck me, seeing his marks on her, his collar around her neck and his ring on her finger. When I saw the welts this morning it was such a fucking turn on to see her punished for her leaving, but also torture knowing that I was not part of that and I would never be buried deep inside of her again.
Pushing the thoughts of being with Pearl from my mind happens fast when I hear Iris and Rose storm into the cottage shouting. “Momma, Iris pooped her pants and Markus didn’t bring any diapers or wipes with us on the boat. He is so silly.”
Pearl and I are both on our feet quickly as the girls rush the couch one smelling significantly worse than the other. Iris reaches for me saying, “Uppie please, Abraham,” and I grab her up and take her over to the mock changing table set up in a corner of the room. Laying her down I swiftly go about changing her diaper. When done, I pick her up and turn back to see both Markus and Pearl staring at me.
“What are you two staring at?”
Pearl answers me quickly, “Iris has been very quiet since the night they were taken. We know that they didn’t see much, if anything at all, but we still really do not know what happened.” Shaking her head and taking a few steps toward me reaching out for Iris, she goes on this time quieter, “She hasn’t talked to or approached anyone like that, except me since that night, not even Markus.” Her face flushes as she takes Iris from me and walks back towards Markus.
Rose, who is now at my feet tugs on my pant leg drawing my attention down to her. “Abraham, come outside with me to play, please?”
“Of course Rose, I would love to come outside with you. I have missed spending time with you, your sister, and your momma these past few months.” Hearing a grumble coming from Markus I go on without pause, “What are we going to play?”
“Maybe if momma and Markus and Iris come outside too, we could play tag? Iris isn’t that good but momma or Markus will help her.” Looking towards her mother, Iris smiles seeing her mom nodding her head yes. Grabbing my hand, she starts pulling me towards the door with Pearl and Iris in tow and Markus quickly follows with an indulgent smirk.
The remainder of the morning is sp
ent playing tag and enjoying the unseasonably warm March weather. Heading back into the house we work as a team changing diapers and getting the girls ready for naps after we have shared a quick lunch. I have decided to head back to Chicago tonight, but am hoping that I will be able to talk more with Pearl when the girls lay down for their naps.
As Pearl is putting the girls down for their naps, I decide to ask Markus for some more time with Pearl and also ask him about the fucking paternity test.
“Prez.”
“Markus is fine when we are out of the fucking clubhouse, Abraham. What is it that you want?”
“I need to finish my talk with Pearl and was hoping that I could do it during the girls’ naps. Of course, that is, if it is okay with you?”
“If Pearl stays awake, which I doubt, I have no problem with you finishing up your talk. Has she told you more about that night?”
“No, but she did jump down my fucking throat when I asked her about a paternity test. What the fuck is that about Markus?”
“It is a sore fucking subject with her, that is for sure. I have been asking her to get both a paternity test as well as the genetic testing that the doctor has recommended, but she has refused repeatedly.”
“Why does the doctor want her to have genetic testing? Is there something wrong with the baby? Or Pearl?”
“No, no, not at all, at least that the doctor can tell anyway. It is just recommended in women who are over 35 years old, due to advanced maternal age.”
“Advanced maternal age, what the fuck is that?” I say to Markus with a questioning look on my face.
“Yeah, that is what I said when I first heard it, too. I don’t know, it is just something that doctors came up with to scare the crap outta women who are having babies later in life.” Looking at me, shrugging his shoulders he goes on, “there are some extra tests that they recommend moms to have due to it, like a chromosome test to see if the baby might have Down Syndrome, and some others. The doctors also recommend some extra ultrasounds to make sure that the baby is growing properly and shit.”
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