"Sadie, don't talk baseball either."
"What do you think about another road trip?" Saved by Tony, once again.
"Where to this time?" Now Heather was interested.
"What about the Lake of the Ozarks in Osage Beach, Missouri? My parents took me there once when I was a kid and it was incredible. It would be a haul to drive but fun, what do you think?”
"Sadie, that's an awesome idea! Do you think Mike and Ash could go?”
"I don't know about Mike? Tony or Jason, you could ask him and I can check with Ash."
"Tony, you can call him since I just talked to him today and he hasn't heard from you in over a week."
"Way to make me feel bad, Jason. You know I have been slammed ever since I went back to work at the firm, but I will check with him tomorrow."
"Oh, this could be so much fun!" I was beyond excited. A vacation with Ash was just what we needed. I texted him immediately.
Me: DO U THINK U CAN GET AWAY FOR A COUPLE OF DAYS TO ROAD TRIP IT WTH MY FRIENDS AND ME?
I didn't expect him to respond for a while and I got what I expected. I looked down at my phone in anticipation several times before I gave up and set it on the table. Everyone was looking up places to rent and Tony found a killer house right on the lake. Boats weren't that expensive to rent, neither were wave runners. The night ended with us talking about the trip the whole time. When we all were heading out the door, my phone dinged. I grabbed it out of my purse so fast I am surprised it didn’t shoot across the room. I looked down and saw
Ash: ANYTIME ANYPLACE AS LONG AS I GET TO BE WITH U
I smiled huge!
"Was that who I think it was? What did he say?"
I showed my phone to Heather and, "aw!" came out of her mouth.
"My thoughts, exactly."
"You girls make me sick."
"Don't be a hater, Tony, you'll find yours someday." If only Heather knew. But I was certain she was right. Some girl would be lucky to have him.
"Now it's up to you, Tony. Convince Mike to take a break. Let us know what he says and then we can set a date."
"Sadie, it will be taken care of by morning."
We all said our goodbyes and headed home. I was so happy at the idea of a road trip with my friends again. This time I get to share it with Ash. Life doesn't get any better than this.
Tony talked to Mike and he said he was in. It didn’t take long for us to figure out that Labor Day weekend would be perfect. We knew the lake would be packed with people, but none of us cared. I was packing when Ash knocked and then just walked in as he has become accustomed to doing. He found me up stairs trying to fit all of my shit into one bag.
"Hello, princess." He gave me a kiss that like all his others, made me need to change my panties. I fell back on the bed spreading my legs so he could fall between them on to me. Ash grabbed me behind the knees and bent me up into the position I have come to claim as my favorite. It is all about seeing his sexy face when he cums that gets me every time. He ground his pelvis into mine and my whole body jerked.
"You want me, don't you?"
"More than words can explain. Please help me. I feel like I'm about to explode I want you so bad."
"You will never have to say please to me, woman. I will take you always."
He ripped my panties off of me. Did I forget to tell you I didn’t bother getting completely dressed because I knew this was coming? My tank top was next. It was over my head in no time. I had no bra on either so with those few moves I was completely naked. His turn was next. I grabbed his shorts and began to unbutton them, but I guess he was in more of hurry than me to get started. He took control and had his shorts, shirt and shoes off faster than I could blink. He let his hand drop to between my legs and as soon as he felt how ready I already was for him, he was inside of me. No foreplay was needed or a condom for that matter. We stopped using them a month ago after we discussed me being on the pill. I moaned loudly as he plunged inside me. He was not taking it easy on me and I didn’t mind one bit. We were learning how to please each other when I figured out that Ash liked to get a little rough sometimes. Surprisingly enough to me, I got off on it more than he did. I grabbed his arms hard, squeezing my nails into his skin while he pulled my hair tight but not too hard. He continued to pound me into oblivion when my climax reached a high it has never been to. I screamed, "Ash, I'm cuming!" And I could feel him release himself at the same time. I was out of breath and numb from the euphoria when, "I am so in love with you" came out of my mouth. I didn't think before I said it but Ash’s mouth came crashing down on mine until he pulled back just long enough to say, "I love you too Sadie Warren, so much" and then he was back to kissing me. I could feel him growing in size inside of me again. I started to grind my hips when his hand cupped my ass cheek to lift my pelvis up while he still had full control of my mouth. He started slow until he regained his full potential and from that point on, it was just romantic. He did everything soft and slow. Kissing and licking while still rocking in and out. It didn’t take long for both of us to get there and when we did, it was out of this world. So much emotion had been put into us from sharing our feelings, that it made it that much better. When we were done we laid on the bed holding each other.
"I have wanted to hear those words from you for so long. I didn't want to scare you by moving too fast but my God, woman, you own my heart."
"You don't have to worry about scaring me away, Ash. I am yours, hopefully forever."
"Don't get me started on forever, Sadie, because that is exactly what I want for us. Someday I'm going to give it to you and promise to make you the happiest girl in the world."
"Someday I might just say yes."
We both laid there until I was forced to get up and finish packing. Eventually I decided I needed two bags after all. We loaded my things into Ash’s trunk and left to go meet at Tony’s.
We pulled up to see Jason and Mike's car were already there. I jumped out and ran inside the house screaming, "Who's ready to party?"
They all looked at me like I was crazy or something.
"Don't look at me like that. This is going to be a blast!"
Ash walked in as I finished what I was saying and all attention went to him, ignoring my excitement completely.
The boys got up and came over to him to shake his hand and Heather pulled him into a hug. Don't get me wrong, I am so happy he blended in so easily with my friends. More so that Ash now sees Mike as a person instead of a superstar. We all got up and started walking out the door when the question came up, who is driving?
In the end, Jason's jeep wouldn’t hold all of the luggage so Mike decided he was driving his Denali. That put all the brothers and Heather in one car. Ash wanted to drive, so we rode by ourselves, which was fine by me. It was going to take at least five hours to get there, if we didn’t make too many stops. That’s why it was only nine o'clock in the morning and my friends were all crabby pants. Whatever, I was in love and nobody was going to bring me down.
We headed out and I was on cloud nine. The highway allowed me to roll down my window and hang my feet out. Ash blared the radio and I was in heaven holding his hand. My life was in such a good place. I couldn’t be happier with my choices and Ash loved me too. We stopped in St. Louis to see the arch, which took a little longer but was so worth it. You get to ride in an egg elevator all the way to the top. You are so high up, if there is any wind what so ever, it moves. It was the craziest thing. Ash was swearing he was not afraid of heights before we got up there, but he was shaking while holding my hand. Tony was turning green before we even got out of the egg. Then he looked out one of the small windows and threw up. Yep, I said it. The people working made him feel better by saying it happens all the time. Mike and Jason wouldn’t let him live it down for a second. Walking back to the cars, it was all about making fun of Tony. I felt so bad for him. Getting the opportunity to actually go inside ‘The Gateway to the West’ was an experience I will never forget. We were back on the road
and it was only two and a half more hours until we rolled into Osage Beach. The traffic was awful. I was pretty sure I could crawl faster than we were moving. Once we finally crossed the Bagnell Dam, it was smooth from that point on. We found the house about ten minutes later and it was completely awesome. From the street it didn’t look that big. Once we walked in was a totally different story. The entire back wall was made of windows looking out over the lake. There were five bedrooms, so nobody had to share if they did not want to, meaning Tony and Mike. Heather and I immediately went to change into our swimsuits. The boys just stripped their shirts off. It was a race to the dock where we all jumped in like little kids. We splashed and dunked each other. There was even a slide every one of us went down. When Mike said he was getting hungry, we all decided to get out and shower for the night ahead of us. Three showers meant not having to wait as long, not that there was that much more hot water. Jason was the last in, and oh did he scream like a girl. He bitched about it for the rest of the night. Heather and I got ready in her and Jason’s room so I could surprise Ash with my outfit. I had a nude colored razor back tank top made purely out of lace with a pink push up bra underneath. I paired it with white dress shorts that barely covered my ass cheeks and pink, four inch, strap heels with a camel colored stiletto. I wore my hair half up with the under layer coming over my shoulder on one side. Ash was going to go crazy over this and I loved the anticipation of seeing his face. Heather went with a bright yellow sundress that was strapless and clung to her curves well. She had borrowed my orange cork heels that I had just got, but the punch of color was too cute to say no. She had her hair down and I curled it in beach waves like she asked. We both kept telling each other how great the other looked but it was her last comment that got me rolling on the bed laughing.
"Sadie, you know he's going to be walking around with a hard on all night."
I could just picture it in my head.
"That's my plan. I figure enough girls look at him. Some are ballsy enough to hit on him right in front of me. This way they can see me and if they think they can one up me, then let them."
"Did you think about the guys hitting on you? Ash might get in a fight."
"No, he won't. I'm his and he knows it."
We walked in to the family room where all the guys were laughing about something. Ash was laughing the hardest until he spotted me. Then his face dropped.
"You are not wearing that."
"What? Why not?"
"Why not? Sadie, I love you. You know I do. And I have faith that you love me too. But I can't take you out and see all the men wanting to do what men want to do to you. I will be arrested for murder. Can't you understand that? Please tell me you can?"
"Ash, it’s going to be fine. You’re over reacting."
"No, he's not." Thanks to Tony, I was losing ground and fast.
"Stay out of this, Tony. I'm not changing. I look good. I shouldn’t have to."
"The point is you look too good. That's all I'm trying to say."
I looked over at Heather and she had the most wicked look on her face. I knew that look. She wanted me to stick to my guns.
"I am not changing. End of discussion."
"Hey Ash, if it makes you feel any better, Jason and I will be there. Chances are no one is going to want to fuck with her."
"Thanks, Mike, but I don't need you guys to protect my girl for me. I can handle it."
"Well then stop bitching about my clothes and let’s go have some fun!"
I was so ready to dance and have fun. We waited outside for the cab to come pick us up. Nobody wanted to drive since we all knew we would be drinking. After about ten minutes, the cab had finally arrived. We told him we wanted to go to the hottest club on the lake. He took us to a place called Shooters. It was so packed! We all stood in line for forty minutes just to get in the door. It was almost too busy to be any fun. There were no tables left so we stood next to the bar. We ordered food from the bartender but then had to eat it with no table, still standing.
"This is bullshit! Let’s go somewhere else." Heather had her fill and she was ready to go.
I leaned over to ask the bartender "Do you think it will slow down anytime soon?"
He responded laughing. "It’s a holiday weekend. The answer to that is a resounding hell no. It’s only going to get crazier."
I turned to everyone and found Ash right in front of me. I pecked his lips and said, "Are you ready to go too?"
"Babe, I was just trying to block the view of your ass from everyone. I don't care what we do as long as I get to be with you and nobody else touches you."
"You sure are territorial tonight. What's up with that? You always love the way I dress."
"I know. You’re right and I am being overprotective. I guess I just feel like I have more to lose now."
"How can that be? I haven't changed."
"Sure you have. You love me. That in itself makes you so much more important to me."
"Aw Ash, I'm not going anywhere."
"I think that's all I needed to hear because, I really was digging the fact that every man here wants you, but your fine ass is mine."
I kissed him. This time with a lot more passion than the peck before it.
"That's the Ash I want. Glad you’re back. I don't like controlling, jealous guys at all. Been there, done that and dropped it."
"Hey you guys, I don't mean to interrupt, but Mike pulled the celebrity card and they have a VIP section waiting for us."
How is it that Tony always gets to deliver the best news?
"That's awesome. Show the way. Sadie, you walk behind Tony and I will follow you."
"Are you kidding me?"
"I said I was okay with it, not stupid. I want that ass in front of me to look at. Not every dude in the place."
"Tony, a little help here?"
"Nope. I have agreed with Ash since before we left the house. You’re on your own."
"Men!"
"Walk, Sadie."
I followed Tony reluctantly with Ash literally on my ass. As in, I walked up the stairs and his hands were on each cheek. We finally got to the rest of the group and I have to say, I was ready to get out of there until we got here. The view of the lake over the balcony was so pretty.
"Sadie, you have to come over here and look at these boats. They're insane. They park like cars to come here. Look at that one. It’s as big as a house." I walked over to the rail where Heather was and leaned over to see. She was right, they were huge! I thought I heard a whistle and then a couple of seconds later I know I heard, "Keep bending over like that, honey, and I will show you what a real man can do for you."
Oh shit! I turned around just in time to see Ash fly across the room and had some dude pressed up against the wall. Security was on it in no time and kicked the guy with the mouth out of VIP. That wasn’t the end for me though. I went and sat down before Ash ever made it back to us. He was still fuming .The look in his eye was murderous and he was walking straight back to me. Great! Why do I do this to myself? It all brought me back to the last serious relationship I was in and that was with James. I found myself expecting Ash to react like James, therefore I did just as I would have then. I panicked. I was shaking uncontrollably. Tears dripped from my eyes and the words spilled from my mouth.
"I'm so sorry, Ash, I'm so sorry. Please, don't be mad at me. I know it was all my fault and you told me it was going to happen. I promise I will listen next time. I will wear whatever you tell me to. I'm so sorry..."
All of my friends were staring at me like they did not know me. Heather was the only one who knew about James, other than Colt. I was acting like a freak and I knew it, I just could not stop. Ash was in front of me and before I could finish he was saying, "Sadie, listen to me girl, none of this is your fault. I would never be that mad at you, sweetheart. I don't know why you would ever think I would. Listen to me, okay? When that douchebag whistled the first time, I was kind enough to tell him that you were my girl. He should have stopped th
en. He’s the one that chose to keep going with it. That's why I was mad, it was never you." He kissed me softly and said, "I don't know what I ever did to make you think that I would hurt you, but Sadie, please stop crying. You are breaking my heart." Heather was there taking my hand, telling Ash she was going to take me to the bathroom and help me clean myself up. I went with her willingly. Anything was better than the prying eyes of all of the people around us. Once we reached the bathroom, Heather pulled me into a hug.
"I know what all this is about, Sadie, and you're going to be okay. Ash is not James and he never will be him. You do know that, right? Remember you telling me this about Jason?"
I wiped the tears from my eyes and responded, "Yes, I do, and you’re right. It just took me back to that ugly place. Now I have to go out there and answer a bunch of questions that I really don't want to answer."
"I will block any uncomfortable questions coming at you. But I really don't think anyone will. What I really feel you need to do is talk to Ash. Not tonight while we’re out, but sometime soon. I wanted to cry for him, not you. I knew you just needed to collect yourself. He, on the other hand, had no idea what was going on and seeing the hurt and worry on his face was awful. You’re stronger than this, Sadie. Don't let James still control you this many years later, okay?"
"Definitely, okay! I will not give that asshole any more of me. Let’s get back out there. I want to see Ash."
"Have I told you how much I love him by the way? You couldn’t have found better."
"Thanks. I completely agree."
We headed back to the guys and I just knew they would be waiting and staring. What I didn’t expect was Ash would be sitting in a chair with his head dropped between his legs and his hands placed behind his neck. I felt even worse for how I made him feel. I walked over to him, dropped to my knees and brought my hands up to his cheeks. I lifted his face and then crashed my lips to his. I didn’t care who was around or watching. This man owned my heart and to hell with everyone else. I knew I scared him. But my lips were telling him I was okay. The room started chanting and whistling. We did not stop. Ash stood up, taking me with him. I wrapped my legs around him and continued to kiss the man I loved. When the kiss slowed, a smile came to his lips while he still kissed me. One grew on mine as well. I pulled back and pecked his lips several times before he put me down. I grabbed his hand and pulled his ear down to my mouth.
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