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Poems 1959-2009

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by Frederick Seidel

Thump thump, speed bump.

  The most expensive hotel in the world ignites

  As many orgasms as there are virgins in paradise.

  These epileptic foaming fits dehydrate one,

  But justify the cost of a honeymoon.

  The Caribbean is room temperature,

  Rippling over sand as rich as cream.

  The beach chair has the thighs of a convertible with the top down.

  You wave a paddle and the boy

  Runs to take your order.

  Many things are still done barefoot.

  Others have the breakout colors of a parrot.

  In paradise it never rains, but smells as if it could.

  Two who could catapulted themselves overboard into the equator.

  I die of thirst and drown in chains, in love.

  Into the coconut grove they go. Into the coconut grove they go.

  The car in the parking lot is theirs. The car in the parking lot is theirs.

  The groves of lemon trees give light. Ooga-booga!

  The hotel sheds light. Ooga-booga!

  The long pink-shell sky of meaning wanted it to be, but really,

  The precious thing is that they voted. Ooga-booga! And there we were,

  The cane toads and the smell of rain about to fall.

  The crocodiles and spiders are

  The hippos and their friends who shot them dead.

  The xylophone is playing too loud

  Under the coconut palms, which go to the end of the world.

  The slave is screaming too loud and we

  Can’t help hearing

  Our tribal chant and getting up to dance under the mushroom cloud.

  CLIMBING EVEREST

  The young keep getting younger, but the old keep getting younger.

  But this young woman is young. We kiss.

  It’s almost incest when it gets to this.

  This is the consensual, national, metrosexual hunger-for-younger.

  I’m getting young.

  I’m totally into strapping on the belt of dynamite

  Which will turn me into light.

  God is great! I suck Her tongue.

  I mean—my sunbursts, and there are cloudbursts.

  My dynamite penis

  Is totally into Venus.

  My penis in Venus hungers and thirsts,

  It burns and drowns.

  My dynamite penis

  Is into Venus.

  The Atlantic off Sagaponack is freezing black today and frowns.

  I enter the jellyfish folds

  Of floating fire.

  The mania in her labia can inspire

  Extraordinary phenomena and really does cure colds.

  It holds the Tower of Pisa above the freezing black waves.

  The mania is why

  I mention I am easily old enough to die,

  And actually it’s the mania that saves

  The Tower from falling over.

  Climbing Everest is the miracle—which leaves the descent

  And reporting to the world from an oxygen tent

  In a soft pasture of cows and clover.

  Happening girls parade around my hospice bed.

  The tented canopy means I am in the rue de Seine in Paris.

  It will embarrass

  Me in Paris to be dead.

  It’s Polonius embarrassed behind the arras,

  And the arras turning red.

  Hamlet has outed Polonius and Sir Edmund Hillary will wed

  Ophelia in Paris.

  Give me Everest or give me death.

  Give me altitude with an attitude.

  But I am naked and nude.

  I am constantly out of breath.

  A naked woman my age is just a total nightmare,

  But right now one is coming through the door

  With a mop, to mop up the cow flops on the floor.

  She kisses the train wreck in the tent and combs his white hair.

  ORGANIZED RELIGION

  Will you? Everything? Anything? Weird stuff, too?

  I want to do anything you want me to.

  I will meet you in an hour in the mirror.

  I will meet you in front of the mirror.

  When the cars have their lights on in the daytime when it’s raining,

  And the full-length bedroom mirror is the hostess entertaining,

  And the summer downpour thrillingly thrashes the windows,

  My naked in high heels shows me she can touch her toes!

  The rainy city outside stretches around the world.

  The rainy season inside the mirror gets whirled

  Into a waterspout. No doubt

  The dolphins in the mirror know what water is about!

  You love it all.

  I love it when you make me get down on all fours and crawl.

  I put you on a leash and spank you.

  I thank you.

  The value of life which will end is unbearable,

  And these are just some ways of bearing it. The joy is terrible.

  The joy is actually terrible.

  The sweetness of life is actually unbearable.

  God looks up to His creation by dint of lying on the floor.

  God lies there on His back on the carpet and looks. That’s what you are for.

  Hike your skirt up higher. There is nothing higher or more

  Than Him you stand over and adore!

  MOTHER NATURE

  Mother Nature walked from Kenya.

  Going faster is Italian.

  Going fast got you nowhere.

  Madagascar is impatiens.

  Came the warriors of the nations,

  Came the Delawares and Mohawks,

  Came the Choctaws and Comanches,

  Came the Mandans and Dacotahs,

  Came the Hurons and Ojibways,

  All the warriors drawn together

  By the signal of the peace pipe.

  And they stood there on the meadow,

  With their weapons and their war gear,

  Painted like the leaves of autumn,

  Painted like the sky of morning,

  Wildly glaring at each other.

  The smiling Indian economy is running uphill inputting,

  Outrunning a rising ocean of sweat.

  The poor stay behind and drown

  In their own brown.

  Technology is the placenta

  Feeding the fetus dreams.

  It was high tide.

  It was wet dreams.

  Skira reproduced the paintings,

  Mother Nature at Ajanta,

  Her beauty, her big breasts,

  Her athleticism, her shoreline, her high tides.

  The orbit was Aryan.

  Sanskrit debris floats by a boy in orbit in St. Louis.

  Anything to see those breasts

  In that art book!

  By the shore of Gitche Gumee,

  By the shining Big-Sea-Water,

  Hiawatha liked the white man,

  Liked Caucasians, liked their smell.

  From the waterfall he named her,

  Laughing Water, Minnehaha.

  Mother Nature, you, my mother,

  Help the paleface ask me for my colored hand in marriage!

  And the great chief liked his odor,

  And he offered him his daughter,

  Redskin jewel from a giant, legend waiting for an answer,

  And the frightened white man could not answer.

  Mother Nature went to China,

  China the vagina.

  Wet dreams conceive there,

  Where no one wants a daughter.

  I pin the throttle on the straight

  Toward China all night,

  With the moon out and the stars,

  And reach Kabul.

  The nightclub bombing in Bali

  Shattered Baghdad.

  The hotel temple dancers hold the sky up.

  The elephant lifts his friend the tiger to safety.
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  The satellite picks up a faint signal

  From the Arabian Peninsula

  From long before Islam

  Of the immortal Imru’ al-Qays declaiming his ode.

  Whalesong surfaces in the desert and spouts.

  The Arab Pindar pinpricks the emptiness.

  A nanosecond of moisture

  Irrigates ancient Arabia.

  His she-camel is a Ferrari with a saddle

  Who knows the desert by heart and is unafraid.

  He praises her in his monorhymes of tribal twaddle

  About this and that and the brevity of life.

  The Prophet Muhammad

  Acknowledged his fame

  As the finest poet in hell

  Where the pre-Islamic poets dwell.

  Let shuttered windows shatter

  To let the bomb-blast in.

  Everyone is screaming.

  The exits have been padlocked.

  Everyone is screaming.

  Muhammad took away their silliness.

  Muhammad is the firestorm.

  Everyone converts.

  Her breast is bigger than I am.

  Her nipple is bigger than my mouth.

  Let me masturbate to death.

  Let my hand fall off.

  Islam is submission.

  Behead the man

  Who will not listen!

  My head and hand are coming to an end.

  I am coming in Manhattan

  By the shining Big-Sea-Water.

  I am coming to the end. I am coming to.

  The predawn streets are empty.

  This is what it feels like.

  Everyone is screaming.

  I am coming, Mother Nature.

  I am coming, Mannahatta.

  I am coming in Manhattan.

  This is what it comes to.

  Everyone is screaming. All the planes are grounded.

  The exits have been padlocked.

  The asteroid is really coming.

  The president in Washington is speaking to the world.

  The sea tilts up and down

  Next to the silent dawn.

  BROADWAY MELODY

  A naked woman my age is a total nightmare.

  A woman my age naked is a nightmare.

  It doesn’t matter. One doesn’t care.

  One doesn’t say it out loud because it’s rare

  For anyone to be willing to say it,

  Because it’s the equivalent of buying billboard space to display it,

  Display how horrible life after death is,

  How horrible to draw your last breath is,

  When you go on living.

  I hate the old couples on their walkers giving

  Off odors of love, and in City Diner eating a ray

  Of hope, and then paying and trembling back out on Broadway,

  Drumming and dancing, chanting something nearly unbearable,

  Spreading their wings in order to be more beautiful and more terrible.

  LOVE SONG

  I shaved my legs a second time,

  Lagoon approaching the sublime,

  To cast a moonlight spell on you.

  TriBeCa was Tahiti, too.

  I know I never was on time.

  I was downloading the sublime

  To cast a moonlight spell on you.

  TriBeCa was Tahiti, too.

  The melanoma on my skin

  Resumes what’s wrong with me within.

  My outside is my active twin.

  Disease I’m repetitious in.

  The sun gives life but it destroys.

  It burns the skin of girls and boys.

  I cover up to block the day.

  I also do so when it’s gray.

  The sunlight doesn’t go away.

  It causes cancer while they play.

  Precancerous will turn out bad.

  I had an ice pick for a dad.

  A womanizing father, he’s

  The first life-threatening disease.

  His narcissistic daughter tried

  To be his daughter but he died.

  The richest man in Delaware

  Died steeplechasing, debonair.

  One company of ours made napalm.

  That womanizing ice pick’s gray calm

  Died steeplechasing in a chair,

  The jockey underneath the mare.

  She posted and she posted and

  Quite suddenly he tried to stand

  And had a heart attack and died,

  The ice pick jockey’s final ride.

  The heart attack had not been planned.

  He saw my eyes and tried to stand.

  My satin skin becomes the coffin

  The taxidermist got it off in.

  He stuffed me, made me lifelike. Fatten

  My corpse in satin in Manhattan!

  My body was flash-frozen. God,

  I am a person who is odd.

  I am the ocean and the air.

  I’m acting out. I cut my hair.

  You like the way I do things, neat

  Combined with craziness and heat.

  My ninety-eight point six degrees,

  Warehousing decades of deep freeze,

  Can burst out curls and then refreeze

  And have to go to bed but please

  Don’t cure me. Sickness is my me.

  My terror was you’d set me free.

  My shrink admired you. He could see.

  Sex got me buzzing like a bee

  With Parkinson’s! Catastrophe

  Had slaughtered flowers on the tree.

  My paranoia was revived.

  I love it downtown and survived.

  I loved downtown till the attack.

  Love Heimliched me and brought me back.

  You brought me life, glued pollen on

  My sunblock. Happy days are gone

  Again. My credit cards drip honey.

  The tabloids dubbed me “Maid of Money.”

  Front-page divorce is such a bore.

  I loathed the drama they adore.

  You didn’t love me for my money.

  You made the stormy days seem sunny.

  BREAST CANCER

  The intubated shall be extubated and it rains green

  Into the uptown air because it is almost raining.

  You can smell the sidewalks straining.

  The side streets are contagious but serene.

  The disease is nutritious.

  The bitter medicine delicious.

  The beautiful breasts are repetitious.

  The much older man you love is vicious.

  The man will be even older by the time

  She takes down the book to read the poem.

  RILKE

  As he approaches each tree goes on,

  And the girls one by one

  Glance down at their blouses. A nun,

  Then six or seven, hop in

  A cream station wagon,

  White-beaked blackbirds baked in a pie.

  In his mind is

  The lid of an eye

  The dark dilated closing behind him.

  Rilke. Arched eyebrows and shadowed

  Moist eyes. An El Greco. Swart, slim.

  He’s late to her. He thinks of her, waiting,

  Limb by limb.

  Her defenselessness and childlike trust!

  Smiling to be combed out

  And parted—and her lust

  Touching the comb like a lyre.

  To have been told by her not to trust her!

  And he distrusts her.

  And everywhere he sees

  Hunchbacks and addicts and sadists

  In braces in the cities,

  Roosting in their filth,

  Or plucking the trees,

  In New York for true love,

  In Boston for constancy.

  You can be needed by someone

  Or needy, thinks Rilke.

  They clutch their loves like addicts<
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  Embracing when they see

  Hot May put out her flowers.

  Or clutch themselves. They can’t shake free.

  He thinks of the time

  He lived by her calendar

  When she missed her time.

  She gave the child a name.

  When she bled, she laughed and gasped

  Tears warm as pablum

  On his wrists. But that is past.

  Rilke feels his body

  Moving in front of his last

  Step. He sweats, and thinks

  Of the rubble massed

  On Creusa behind Aeneas’s

  White-hot shoulders and neck.

  Addresses

  And clothesline laundry swelled

  Like pseudocyesis—

  That’s what he has to pass through.

  His tie is her blue,

  And a new lotion gives him an air

  Of coolness. He combs his hair,

  And tries to smooth his hair.

  He’ll be there,

  The husband. She’ll have left him asleep—

  A nap, beyond the top stair,

  In darkness.

  Light, light is in the trees

  Pizzicato, and mica

  Sizzles up to his knees.

  A dozen traffic lights

  Swallow and freeze

  And one by one relay red red

  Like runners with a blank message.

  I hate her, I hate her, he said

  A minute ago. Curls cluster

  Rilke’s dark head.

  CASANOVA GETTING OLDER

  Do they think they are being original when they say

  This is a new thing for me to ask, and ask

  Do you love me?

  Everyone these days keeps asking

  Do you love me?

  Everyone says

  This is a new thing for me to ask.

  The answer is yes.

  This is a new thing for me to ask.

  The answer is yes I don’t.

  Do you love me?

  The answer is yes.

  The eyes glisten with feeling.

  The creature hath a purpose and its eyes are bright with it.

  This sudden pecking of asking, of being asked, is this.

  The answer is yes I don’t.

  The heart got the shot but got the flu anyway,

  And the body aches, and fever and chills, and can’t sleep.

  The forest shivers with fever.

  Their mother pulls their covers up.

  The whippoorwill keeps calling whippoorwill whippoorwill.

  Do you love me? Do you love me? I don’t love you.

  Not everyone is afraid.

  Not everyone feels vulnerable.

  Everyone is afraid of the terrible joy. I do.

  Each other is Mecca,

  The hajj to the Other.

 

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