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“No. No, I don’t think I do trust you,” Kelm said. “Not in the least. Take him back to the cell and put six guards in the corridor. We’ll hope that he actually has killed everyone who might try to rescue him again, but I would rather not take the risk.” He gave the orders with a flick of his hand and then stayed to watch them carried out, an eyebrow raised in amused disbelief.
Daniel dropped the spear with the heads on it and drew his sword. He looked at the circle of yfelgopes, already bristling with weaponry, closing in on him and then dropped it and raised his hands with a smile of resignation. He felt hands on him and a punch that winded him and nearly doubled him over. Then he was being pushed and shoved back toward the dungeon, back toward his cell.
“Thank you for coming back to me, Daniel,” Kelm said as he passed. “You have saved me from making a very unpleasant report back to Gad.”
Daniel nodded amiably at Kelm as he passed, happy, in a way, that he was going back to the cell. It would give him some time to analyse his situation and plot his next move. The game continued.
CHAPTER SEVEN
The Pious Kings
I
Backing away from the enchanted image, Freya turned to the other mirror that showed herself as she was now. Then she turned again and looked into the mirror directly opposite that showed her wearing the crown. The third mirror reflected her image as she was at thirteen. She gasped and raised a hand to her mouth.
She appeared as she had when she first came to Ni?ergeard. The bedraggled school uniform she wore was all dirty and dishevelled from walking through tunnels and swimming in icy streams. A chill went through her. Why was the mirror showing her this instance in her childhood and not any of the earlier, happier ones?
So, three mirrors. One showed the present, one showed the past, one showed the. . future? Seeing the past, as reality, made her think this other held a measure of reality too. But what was she doing in that gown? With that crown on?
She turned again to the mirror that showed the future. She went right up to it. It was an incredible effect-her older face mirrored every tilt of the head and twitch of her face. Her eyes went to the crown and the reflection’s eyes went to her own bare head. She raised her hands and watched them in the image as her reflection lifted them to her head. Carefully, Freya mimed gripping the crown and then taking it from her head. The reflection followed the movement of her hands and removed the crown.
She turned the image’s crown over in her hands, studying it, watching how the light played across it. And then, as the light danced upon the silver surface, her eye fell on the reflection of the mirror behind her. When she looked at it before, it showed her as a child, but now it showed something different. It looked like two people standing in the mirror.
She turned and looked at it. But when she looked at it straight on, it showed her as a girl and nothing else. She turned back to the future mirror and looked at one via the other; there was definitely something standing behind her young mirror image, but she couldn’t quite tell. How were the mirrors fixed to the walls? If only there was some way to move them closer together-
The racks.
She moved one of the racks closer to the “past” mirror that showed her as a little girl and then went back to the “future” mirror. She lifted it off of the wall-from its series of hooks that ran along a groove-and carried it across to the other mirror, placing it on the rack. Then, with her back to the “past” mirror, she moved the “future” mirror so that it showed her and then the image behind her as well.
What she saw was her older self in the mirror before her, but standing behind that image, reflected in the other mirror, was another reflection of her. By turning to the side and leaning forward, she managed to manoeuvre herself into a position where she could see past her future self to the other.
The face of a young girl peered out at her from behind the lavish red skirts of her future self. At first Freya thought it was her younger image again, but as she looked at it longer, she saw that she had different features, a different skin tone, but nonetheless still bore a striking resemblance.
Could it be her daughter?
Freya raised a hand and waved. The girl mirrored her perfectly. “Hello?” she said, and the girl mouthed the words at the same time as she. Was it still just a reflection, then? She stood still, studying her face and clothes. The girl’s expression betrayed no emotion other than her own, and so its thoughts, its personality, were masked to her.
She took a step back and knocked the frame of the mirror ever so slightly as she did. The mirror tilted and a whole line of images grew from behind the image of her supposed daughter. All her descendants curved away into the dim distance behind her.
What a remarkable enchantment.
An idea occurred to her and she turned around. She caught her breath as she found herself faced with herself as a young girl, and in the reflection behind that was her mother. And behind her was her grandmother, and then, presumably, her grandmother’s mother, and all the way down the line, into the far distance.
It was eerie and haunting. “This is too much,” Freya said.
But it wasn’t even the half of it. Turning to the door, she found that another mirror hung on the back of it. Closing the door, it latched, and she looked at the image that showed her in a regular, everyday outfit but surrounded by a busy, daytime cafe scene, which she recognised instantly-the Jericho Cafe, where she liked to do most of her revisions. Her mirror image was standing just as she was now, but to the side of her was a small, round table that had her book and an empty mug containing a sodden tea bag.
Was this her as she could have been? But could have been if. . what? If she hadn’t returned? If she’d killed Gad? If she hadn’t come across Swi?gar and Ecgbryt in the first place?
People moved around in the background behind her, casually, calmly. A guy her age-a nice-looking guy, well-groomed and not too fashionable, just the type she liked-came and sat at the table behind her and started poking around on his laptop. Did this image show what she wanted her life to be like?
Freya brought the mirror to the centre of the room and hung it on another of the racks. Then she took the rack showing her future and turned them toward each other. They stood at a right angle to each other. Each one showed her reflection, and the reflection of herself in the other mirror-but they were different images.
On her near left was the reflection of herself in the cafe, and on her near right was the reflection of her future self. But the inside reflections were different from these two again.
The cafe scene’s mirror showed a sitting room, small-a little too small perhaps-but cosy. She was standing in front of a sofa, and behind her, where the image of the unknown student would have been, was a man she couldn’t quite see but whom she was certain she recognised. She could only see the edge of his face and so she tilted the mirror in order to show more of it.
It was Daniel. He looked at home. She could identify some of her things in the room-a print of a painting she liked, a carving a friend gave her from Africa. She was dressed in night clothes and seemed comfortable, relaxed. . with Daniel, who wasn’t wearing the hard mask he’d picked up on the street, but who seemed pleasant and gentle, as if Ni?ergeard had never even happened.
She looked into the other mirror, and beside her future self, she saw an image of herself, still wearing the silver crown but wearing battle gear-darkly polished plate armour and chainmail, with black boots and trim, a sword fastened at her hip. Her hands were bare and smeared red with blood. The scene behind her was dim and dark, but she was pretty sure that there were bodies around her.
Freya realised she wasn’t breathing and took a deep breath. She forced herself to think this through. Surely they couldn’t both be true, so either of them must only be a possible future-or both of them might be. But if so, for what purpose? To show different options? To tempt her into certain paths? Who would create such things? Ealdstan, presumably, but why? What did he use them for?
In the right-hand mirror, she saw herself crowned, and behind that, wearing the battle armour, behind that was a reflection of her in rags and bound in chains, behind that she was wearing blue, papery pajamas and a white robe-like someone might wear in a mental hospital-and behind that she was wearing the Oxford graduation robes, and behind that were more and more images, although it was extremely hard to make them out.
What did it mean? If they were all probable futures, was there any significance to their order? Were the closest images the most probable?
She took a step back, out of the mirrors’ reflections, feeling light-headed. Again, she asked, what was the point of this room, besides a sort of dizzying diversion? Almost ten minutes passed and she was breathless, disoriented, with an overwhelming number of questions. Was it possible that Ealdstan, in his hundreds of years’ worth of time, could have cracked the secret to using these mirrors and could see the actual future? If anyone could, it would be him, although they’d not discovered anything in his study that related or even alluded to this place or the mirrors. And if he had figured out a way to exploit them somehow, then to what effect?
Things got really crazy when she set three mirrors up to reflect one another. They showed all different kinds of scenes of herself and people she knew and didn’t know in familiar and unfamiliar settings. She tried to track which images were shown in what mirrors, but it got very confusing, and the more complex the setup, the harder it was to make out exactly what was in the reflections. She strained her neck and her eyes trying to see as much of the different scenes as possible.
Then she placed all four mirrors around her and turned slowly, as if in a kaleidoscopic chamber. Her eyes watered and she experienced a sharp stab of vertigo that forced her to move out from the reflecting mirrors quickly before she keeled over. She almost threw up at that point, and it took her a long time to recover.
Unable to pull herself away from the room, she spent countless hours arranging and rearranging the mirrors-moving them just so, tilting them this way and then that, standing exactly here-but she eventually tore herself away, becoming hungry and tired. Her mind was so full of images that she could barely begin to process them all, and it made it difficult for her to think of anything else. She felt like screaming.
Used in combination, the mirrors all had so many different properties. The “now” one showed the friends and people she’d been close to when reflected in the “past” mirror: her parents in their garden, her sister in a classroom, Daniel standing in a forest-that was odd-Ecgbryt in a dark tunnel, and beyond that she thought she saw Modwyn with her eyes closed in what may have been a bedroom. The images behind that were hard to make out. Trying hard not to look into their faces, she replaced each of the mirrors in their original places on the walls and behind the door. She shivered and left the room, closing the silver door behind her. She was continuing back down the thin passageway and back to the stairs when she remembered that there was another room on that floor.
Her head was spinning and she decided that she was in a very bad condition to face what might be in that room, if it was anything. “Let sleeping dogs lie,” Vivienne had said, and the words came back to her now. She trudged down the stairs, back into Ealdstan’s study. Vivienne was at her usual place, going over the books again. Of the hundreds that lined the walls, it seemed she had made her way through at least half of them. No mean feat, but then Freya didn’t know how long they had both been at it.
“Ready to go at it again, Freya?” Vivienne said, pulling a stack of books toward her. And then moving her hands over to the pansensorum.
“No-no, I don’t think I am,” Freya protested as Vivienne stuck in her ear plugs. “Listen, wait-I found-”
But Vivienne whipped the top into a spin and the room gave a lurch. Freya grabbed for a chair and pulled herself onto it.
II
London
21 May 1471 AD
Henry sat in his cell, more than a broken man-a broken king. Only fifty years old, Henry looked a hundred. He had seen too much of this world; his heart longed for the next. When would he see golden skies? How long would he be forced to endure the arduous pain of this world? The horror of existence?
There was a rattle at the door and it opened. The guard, without a word, let a hooded man into the narrow room.
“You,” Henry said. It was a declaration more than a statement. An accusation. “You. .”
He didn’t have the energy to hate anymore. He was tired-all passion had left his body. He stared down at his old, impotent hands.
Ealdstan took down his hood and stared at the king, who turned weary, wet eyes up at him. For the briefest moment, Ealdstan experienced an unfamiliar sensation-that of looking into eyes older than his own. With a shift that he felt in his gut, the feeling passed and he was staring instead into the cloudy eyes of a sad, beaten madman. He took a few steps toward the window, and Henry, as though possessing no will of his own, also turned his face to the bars.
The sky was shades of russet and orange, fading into a light purple.
“I never betrayed you,” Ealdstan said. “You must think that I did, but I always did what was best for the kingdom, for the crown.”
Ealdstan turned from the window to see that Henry had also turned away. “You are in your silent mood again.”
“No. No, I am not. I am just tired. It is exhausting. First ruling, then deposed, then enthroned once again, only to be deposed once more. All the fighting, all the battles. English blood on English soil for the first time in over a hundred years. How did I fail my people? Where have I erred?”
“They wanted leadership. They wanted safety.”
“I would have led them to safety. I would have led them to piety.”
“They would sooner have the safety that victory over your enemies promised. A warm bed and a full belly. Even very pious men falter with a blade at their neck.”
“‘My enemies.’ I never understood that phrase. We are all brothers. We all bear the burdens of reality in this world. Who is my enemy? God knows, I have been an enemy to many, but has a man ever been mine?”
“You are too philosophical-that has always been your weakness.” Ealdstan sucked in his breath at this last word-the word he had told himself not to say. Weakness was the beginning and end with this man. It would not do to taunt him. “The opposer is in every man you meet. You say every enemy is your brother-every brother is your enemy. We war not just outside the world, but within ourselves also, for the opposer is also there. The evil builds in season, like a flood tide, and will one day overrun us and wash away all that cannot stand.”
“And will you rouse your sleepers and save us at that time?”
“You could have been strong. You could have more readily drawn strength from others. Your wife, for instance.” Or me, he added silently. If you had only listened to me.
“I would have been stronger if I let others fight for me, you mean?” Henry looked up, his eyes flashing. “Is that strength? Or is strength the power to stand for peace when all around you war? You who have known. . how many kings now? In your wisdom, perhaps you can answer me this question: Why do hands clenching swords inspire men more than hands clenched in prayer? Why are there always far more willing to rip apart than to knit together?”
“Your father knew the reason. He brought peace, and he carried a sword.”
“Father’s victories were the worst part about him. If he were to have died at Agincourt, or somewhere along his French campaigns. .” Henry was lost in wishes and thoughts he dared not speak.
“And he saddled me with a nation falling apart, piece by piece, like a castle of sand washed into the sea. I was never a warrior. I was not the man he was. I have walked the battlefields of England and seen Lancastrian fathers weeping for Yorkist sons. A man was brought to me for the crime of loo
ting the battlefield. He was distraught, inconsolable. While rummaging through one of the stiffening bodies, he prised a golden bauble from cold hands that he himself had once owned and given to his son on his marriage. It wasn’t until he held it in his own hands that he recognised the form of the body beneath him. What is a rational man’s response to this madness? And what is a king’s? It is the curse of the king that the curse of the nation be visited on his body. My own subjects war against me, just as my mind wars against my body. I loved my father, I truly did, but I have often wondered, if he had lived to see me grown, would he have even known me for his own? What do you think?”
“The old king was religious, in his own, direct way. He owned a warrior’s piety. He would have recognised that in you.”
“And you? What do you think?” He turned his gaze up, this time a young child looking for approval. Ealdstan felt sick.
Weak, he wanted to say. Weak in mind and body. He could almost spit bile at the limp, pathetic lump of flesh that had once owned the throne and yet now rotted in prison.
“I know what you think,” Henry said, bowing his head. “You think I was just unlucky. Some days I think God torments me for a purpose, in order to teach me and the kingdom; other times I think He just does it to prove how powerless we all are before His magnificence.”
“There’s still a chance for you. The people still love you-you can unite them. But you must follow my lead!”
“No,” Henry said, shaking his head. “No, I know where you would lead me. I know the cost you would extract from something the Lord knows is only too poor.”
“Please, I ask you for your sake.”
“Never. I will never give you what you ask of me-it goes against every nature of my spirit. It was never I who weakened these isles-it was you. Only ever you.”