My Almost

by Kelsey Cheyenne

  I always thought he was the one who got away, but I should’ve realized he was the one who let me go. No matter how tight I held on to him, to us, it would never matter. It would never change anything and that’s the hardest part to grasp.

  What-ifs can drive a person crazy. What if I was prettier, what if I was older, what if I was more outgoing, and on and on and on, considering every single possible question with even the faintest string of connection. But none of it matters. None of it would change the outcome. He was not my soulmate. He was not my destiny. He was my person for that moment.

  He was never supposed to be my forever, and that’s okay.

  But he’ll always live in my heart as my almost.

  ∞ The End ∞

  Playlist

  I Knew You Were Trouble – Taylor Swift

  Keep the Change You Filthy Animal - All Time Low

  Young Wild and Free - Snoop Dog and Wiz Khalifa

  Whiskey - Jana Kramer

  A Party Song (the Walk of Shame) - All Time Low

  Damned If I Do Ya (Damned If I Don’t) - All Time Low

  Dirty Little Secret - All American Rejects

  Sparks Fly - Taylor Swift

  Weightless - All Time Low

  New Again – Taking Back Sunday

  Time-bomb - All Time Low

  Outlines – All Time Low

  Sugar We’re Going Down – Fall Out Boy

  The Moment I Knew - Taylor Swift

  Enchanted - Taylor Swift

  The One That Got Away - Katy Perry

  Treacherous – Taylor Swift

  Counting the Ways - Kate Voegele

  The Heart Wants What It Wants – Selena Gomez

  That’s What I Call Crazy - Lucy Hale

  Walls - All Time Low

  Daylight - Maroon 5

  Thnks Fr Th Mmrs - Fall Out Boy

  Come Back... Be Here - Taylor Swift

  Red - Taylor Swift

  I Won’t Give Up - Jana Kramer

  Breaking - Anberlin

  We Found Love (Hopeless Place) - Rihanna

  Nobody Puts Baby in the Corner – Fall Out Boy

  Here We Go Again – Demi Lovato

  Maps – Maroon 5

  Haunted – Taylor Swift

  Thanks to You - All Time Low

  The Story of Us - Taylor Swift

  Why You Wanna - Jana Kramer

  White Horse – Taylor Swift

  A Drop in the Ocean – Ron Pope

  I Almost Do – Taylor Swift

  Cute Without the ‘E’ - Taking Back Sunday

  Look What You Made Me Do – Taylor Swift

  Seventy Times Seven – Brand New

  Swing – Taking Back Sunday

  Which to Bury, Us or the Hatchet – Relient K

  A Little Less Sixteen Candles, A Little More Touch Me – Fall Out Boy

  You’re So Last Summer – Taking Back Sunday

  Better Than Revenge - Taylor Swift

  Fuck You Betta – Neon Hitch

  Sorry Not Sorry – Demi Lovato

  I Hope It Rains – Jana Kramer

  I Write Sins Not Tragedies – Panic! At The Disco

  Paint You Wings – All Time Low

  Girl At Home – Taylor Swift

  You’re Not Sorry - Taylor Swift

  Stone Cold – Demi Lovato

  Last Kiss – Taylor Swift

  Amnesia – 5 Seconds of Summer

  The Way I Loved You – Taylor Swift

  Since U Been Gone – Kelly Clarkson

  Back to You – Selena Gomez

  All Too Well – Taylor Swift

  Clean - Taylor Swift

  Author’s Note

  Thank you, thank you, thank you for taking the time to read this book! I hope you enjoyed the ride and relationship of Chelsea and Aiden. Unfortunately, I know all too well how relatable this story can be. Being young and in love is something most people experience if they’re lucky. Sometimes things work out. Usually they don’t.

  I bled onto these pages. I poured my heart and soul in to every word until it ripped me apart from the inside out. This is easily the hardest book I’ve ever written and it’s taken me years to complete this story. I started writing this book back in 2011-2012 and it’s taken me this long to do the story justice.

  I hope you rooted for Chelsea and Aiden and I hope you felt the same heartbreak Chelsea did. We’ve all had broken hearts and I wouldn’t wish that on anyone, so I’m sorry if you can relate.

  If you’ve been following me at all, then you know the playlist was a huge part of this book. Hence the titles and the full list. If you also notice almost all the songs are a few years old. These songs were around when I started writing this book and helped create this story. The songs are all meaningful and the lyrics of every one are important to this book. I hope you take the time and give the songs a chance. I worked hard on finding them all and organizing them in this particular manner. They follow Chelsea’s story and emotions throughout the book. Please give them a chance!

  If you read and enjoyed this story, it would mean the world to me if you’d review it. Reviews help indie authors immensely and it helps me grow as a writer.

  Acknowledgments

  Thank you, from the bottom of my heart, to everyone who helped this book come to fruition.

  Crystal, you alpha and beta read this story and helped me fin my vision. This book would be an utter disaster without you. I cannot thank you enough.

  My Romance Rookies, you all beta read, gave me pointers, helped me with my blurb, gave me amazing advice that shaped this book into what it is today. I could not have done it or finished this novel without the help of all of you. I’m so glad we’ve connected and I can call you each my friends. I love you all.

  To Richelle, for slaying the hell out of this cover. You listened to everything I wanted with patience and grace and you rocked it.

  To Courtney, for reminding me about Tatiana and getting punched in the face at the real senior week. Sorry those scenes didn’t make the cut but I’m sure some of these will still make you laugh.

  To Kurt, for loving me and being my real soulmate, for always being supportive and helping me reach my goals. For being everything. For loving me.

  To all my author friends for being supportive always. I learn so much from all of you and helping me on this journey means the world to me.

  To my readers. Thank you for giving me a chance. Thank you for letting me live my dreams and do something I love. I’m so grateful for every one of you.

  About the Author

  Kelsey lives in PA with both of her soulmates – her boyfriend and her golden retriever, Hudson. When she’s not reading or writing, she can be found watching Netflix, researching true crime cases, or rocking out to the Queen Taylor Swift.

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