He's Back: A Second Chance Romance

by Aria Ford

  “No,” I said lightly. I had no idea my tension was showing that badly. I shrugged and acted nonchalant. “Just got a lot on my mind.”

  “Oh.” He shrugged. “Well, good luck. Have fun,” he added ironically. I grinned blandly back.

  “I’ll do my best.”

  I took myself off to my position and tried, with varying degrees of success, to focus on the task at hand. My thoughts were all elsewhere. To be precise, my thoughts were all with Macy.

  I had high hopes for tomorrow.

  CHAPTER TWELVE

  Macy

  I managed to get through Friday’s workday without being too unproductive. That surprised me. I was barely able to concentrate on the calls, the papers, the meetings…my mind was all in that cafe with Maddox, seeing the guilty look on his face.

  Well, that’s that.

  I wasn’t going to blame him—I hadn’t asked him about his current singleness, and to be fair to him I hadn’t told him about mine, either. He hadn’t actually lied to me.

  Well, he did, a rebellious sector of my brain informed me. He told you he’s not seeing Claudia.

  I sighed. It was late on Friday and I’d just got in from work. I walked across the room and put my briefcase in my study area, then headed to the kitchen and put on the coffee machine.

  “If he was telling the truth,” I said aloud, “why hasn’t he contacted me?”

  I knew I was being silly. It was a day since I’d seen him. How could I expect him to get on the phone or send a message every day? Valery sometimes hadn’t gotten hold of me for two or three days.

  That thought was probably not guaranteed to make me feel better: Valery had been manipulative, trying to make me say I needed him. His silences were meant to stretch out as long as it took me to break them.

  I’m not doing it with Maddox. If he wants to get hold of me he can do it first. It’s not my call.

  I took my coffee through to the lounge and sat on the sofa, staring out over the room. Two days ago, he’d been here. I’d finished the laundry, or probably my sheets would still smell like him. Now, it seemed like I was being forced to see that encounter for what it really was. An encounter. Nothing more.

  The clock ticked loudly in the silence. I looked up at it accusingly, as if it was purposefully intruding on my privacy and grief. It said seven o’ clock.

  “Right,” I said with a sigh. “Time for dinner.”

  I wandered through to my kitchen, wondering if I should go out. I’d messaged Harper earlier in the day, but she was out of town for some kind of expo, and I was left without her ready company.

  “I’ll just make something quick,” I decided, rummaging around in the cupboard for Basmati rice. With a bit of luck, I had one of those step-by-step Thai things in the pantry. I could almost remember buying one and putting it in there.

  “There it is…oh, dammit…” it had fallen to the back, hiding behind bags of flour and boxes of tea and pasta. I was fiddling about, the way one does, trying to fish it out from the back row without actually emptying the cupboard like a sensible person, when the doorbell rang.

  I groaned. “Can’t you come back tomorrow?” I said softly. Whoever that was, it was probably the couriers or something. I’d ordered a pair of earrings as a gift for mom and it was likely them, being delivered. I sighed and headed to the door to press the buzzer. A few moments later I heard the lift door make its opening noise and someone rang the bell outside my door.

  “Hello?”

  I stared.

  It was Maddox. He was dressed in a tan-colored blazer and trousers, his hair shining and in place. His eyes were shy and his grin awkward and he was holding a big bunch of carnations. Red ones.

  “Maddox?”

  He chuckled nervously. “I’m sorry, Macy. I thought we should talk. And I wanted to invite you to dinner. If you’re interested?” He looked at me hopefully and I sighed.

  My heart was melting, but I was badly in need of some explanations. “Come in,” I said.

  He nodded.

  Having him in my space again felt weird. I shut the door behind him and we stood there, warily, eyeing each other with a reserved shyness. I sighed.

  “Well,” I said, turning to the kitchen. “You know where things are. Come in. Want some coffee?”

  He stayed where he was. “Macy?”

  “Yes?” I asked. I went through to the kitchen, busily bringing down an extra cup, taking capsules from the box and making a new cup of coffee. If he was here to try and sweet-talk me, I wasn’t too interested. I just wanted the truth.

  “Macy, listen,” he said. “I’ve been an ass.”

  I chuckled. He was standing in the doorway of the kitchen, just behind me. His muscular shape almost filled the door, blocking the route out should I have chosen to take it. I felt my heart thump with the beginning of arousal, but I schooled my face into neutral.

  “Well,” I chuckled. “That’s true. Why do you say that now, particularly?”

  It was his turn to chuckle. He did so. His eyes were warm.

  “Well, I agree that I’ve been an ass so often, with you, that we have quite a list. I chose to start now because…well…” he shrugged. “I guess I finally realized what an ass I’ve been.”

  I raised a brow. Was he going to finally explain himself? I felt hope fill me, but was cautious. “That sounds very interesting,” I said carefully. I took the cups of coffee and went through to the sitting room with them.

  He came to join me as I sat down. I took the white glazed coffee cup in my hands and leaned back, watching him.

  He cleared his throat. “Macy, before we start, I want to say that I wish I’d never walked away from you. It wasn’t what I wanted. I know that now.”

  I knew my heart was pounding away in my chest like the wings of a butterfly, swift and fluttering.

  “Why, Maddox?”

  He sighed. “You know, I can’t actually believe what I did, now. It was so stupid. So blind. I was such an idiot.”

  “Why?” I said softly. Now that we were here, in my living room, discussing the past and the way he had been then, the way he had hurt me, I wasn’t letting him get off lightly. He had to tell me the truth.

  “Well, because…because I thought I’d hurt you.”

  I stared at him. I laughed—surprise more than happiness. I was angry. “Maddox Jefferson!” I said, feeling the affront ignite inside me. “How could you really think that of anything you could possibly do, just disappearing out of my life for no reason would hurt me less? Have you any idea…”

  I trailed off, covering my face with my hands. It was as if all the sadness, all the misery, all the self-doubt and blame that sixteen-year-old girl had felt then was welling up inside me, condensed and concentrated and fueled with an adult rage.

  “Macy, I…”

  I looked up at him from over my fingers. He was sitting there uncomfortably, hands outspread, face a picture of confusion. My anger bubbled over then.

  “Don’t you try and calm me,” I said icily. “I am so, so angry with you. I can’t believe that, after all these years, you tell me that you did what you did then because you didn’t want to hurt me! How could you not realize how much you did hurt me? How is it that you still, after all these years, miss that?”

  He was looking at me helplessly. “Macy,” he said softly. “I’m sorry.”

  I wanted to say something like, “that sure helps,” but strangely enough, it actually did. The rage that had built and grown in me evaporated. I leaned back.

  “Thank you.” I said in a small voice. “Now. Do you mind explaining the logic behind that?” I asked after a moment as my mind settled and started to think more clearly. “I would love to know how you thought that wasn’t going to hurt me.”

  He sighed. “I thought…Macy, let’s be honest. You’re a millionaire’s daughter. I’m a boy from the backstreets of Vermont Hill, son of a convenience-store owner.”

  “So?” I asked angrily. “I didn’t care about that. D
id you? You saying that you didn’t want to be with me because my parents are wealthy?” I heard my voice crack on the last word, incredulity weaving through it like fire in grass. I couldn’t believe this.

  He looked at me, helpless. “It isn’t that I was…that I judged you, Macy,” he said sadly. “I never judged you. Or them. Truly.”

  “Well, that’s what that sounded like,” I said testily. My coffee was going cold and I drank another mouthful, holding it between my hands for warmth. In spite of the mild weather, I felt cold, a deep coldness inside me that didn’t seem to shift.

  “It isn’t,” he said. “When I…” he paused. “My mom is from a very different background. She came from a well-educated family. Her dad’s a professor. She…I think she always resented being married to my dad. She never said that. But it was in every line of her. In the things she didn’t say. I didn’t want to do that to you.”

  I stared at him. Put the cup down and leaned forward, looking into his eyes.

  “Maddox Jefferson,” I said very softly. “You mean you broke up with me because you didn’t want to see me suffer?”

  He was looking at his hands. “Yeah,” he said tightly. I could hear the emotion in his voice and it spoke to my heart, making it beat loudly.

  “Well,” I said in the same soft voice. “I can tell you that I suffered every day after you left. I can tell you that I cried each night and wondered what it was that I’d done wrong. I wondered how it was that you could love me and then walk away. I thought I’d done something wrong. I thought there was something wrong with me. Something you couldn’t love.”

  I was crying now, tears running silently down my face. I couldn’t believe how much sadness was still in me. I had thought this was all long forgotten about, all in the distant past. That I’d moved on. But it seemed I’d only become numb to it. The wound was still inside, still fresh. Still raw.

  I heard him stand up. He walked across the floor and I thought he’d gone to look out of the window. My hands were over my eyes as I wept, loudly, and my shoulders heaved. Then, suddenly, I felt the couch dip a little and I felt a hand, soft and warm and tender, touch my shoulder.

  “Macy,” he whispered, very gently, like he was taming a wild creature. “Macy.”

  I sighed and let him hold me. I was sniffing, my face was wet with tears. I shook. “I must look charming,” I said with a shaky laugh as I wiped my nose on a napkin.

  “Yes,” he said simply. “You do. You’re the most beautiful woman in the world, Macy Trent. I can’t believe you thought I didn’t love you.”

  I drew in a deep shuddering breath. “You can’t believe I thought…you mean…” It was all too much to take in. Did he mean that?

  “I mean it. I do love you, Macy. I think until I saw you again I never realized how much I do love you. But my world hasn’t been the same without you in it. I thought I could walk away. I can’t. Would you have me now?”

  I stared at him. His eyes were looking into mine, brown and warm and gentle.

  “Yes,” I said softly.

  “Yes?”

  “Yes!” I said. I was laughing and I wrapped my arms around him and dragged him back onto the couch and he was laughing too. He tickled me and I yelled and tickled him back and he laughed helplessly. It was like when we were sixteen again, only better. Because now all the barriers were gone. There was only honesty and truth.

  “Maddox Jefferson,” I said, when we sat together, our breath steady now. My head was resting on his shoulder and his hand covered mine. We sat side-by-side, reveling in each other’s closeness.

  “Yes?”

  “I love you.”

  He stared at me in disbelief. I laughed. I said it again.

  “I love you, Maddox Jefferson. I always have. I love you exactly how you are. If you weren’t exactly who you are, in fact, you wouldn’t be you and then I wouldn’t love you.” I giggled, knowing it made perfect sense. “I love you, Maddox. Now and always.”

  CHAPTER THIRTEEN

  Maddox

  I couldn’t quite believe what Macy was saying. I sat next to her on the couch, my arms around her, and let the words seep through me. It felt like deserts must feel, after years and years without the rain. A deluge of feeling, restoring life.

  “Macy?” I said gently. “You’re sure about this, hey?”

  She gave me a look. “Perfectly sure, Maddox. Do you want a signed affidavit?”

  I laughed. “Not necessary.”

  “Thank you.” Her voice was thin and I chuckled.

  “Oh, Macy,” I sighed. “I’m sorry. I’m going to be asking you about everything now, just to make sure I never make the same mistake again. That I never make assumptions again.”

  “Good,” she said. She nestled closer, and her lips traced my neck, making me shiver with rising desire. “At least, sounds good.”

  I chuckled. “You might not think so when I start questioning you about everything.”

  “Try me.” She was leaning on my chest, her hands on my back, seeking out the back of my neck as her lips nuzzled me. I was catching fire under her touch, so I forced myself to concentrate on her words.

  “You really do know there isn’t anyone in my life but you?” I asked.

  She nodded. “I believe you,” she said simply. “I’m sorry for being suspicious. I think that all those years ago I just stopped trusting you.”

  I sighed. “I’m sorry,” I said guiltily. “I hope you can trust me a bit now?”

  “I do trust you,” she said. The words made my heart twist. Not only was that a great affirmation; it was also a great responsibility. I took it that way, anyway.

  “I will try and be worthy of that,” I breathed.

  She chuckled. “Well, good. But for now,” she added, purring, “you can do something about your past wrongs.”

  “Like what?” I asked. I gasped as her body pushed against me, pushing me back onto the couch. I could feel her small, soft breasts against me and I wanted her more than I’d wanted anything before.

  “Like taking me to bed,” she said succinctly. “We have a decade to offset here.”

  I laughed. “My dearest Macy,” I said huskily. “You couldn’t ask for a better thing.”

  “Good,” she purred.

  Then, without warning her, I lifted her up of the couch. She yelled and then giggled as I held her to my chest. My lips came down onto hers and I slid my tongue in between those soft, tender lips. My whole body was vibrating with longing now and I walked carefully toward her bedroom, moving her gently through the door so I could lay her on the bed.

  She looked up at me as I carefully closed the door behind us. Then I came over to join her.

  I lay beside her and held her in my arms. My tongue explored her mouth, pushing back and twining with her tongue as I explored and licked that sweet place. I leaned back, gasping.

  “I think we need to do something about this,” I said huskily. I ran a hand down her body. She was wearing a blouse and slacks, and I could feel her breasts through the fabric of shirt and bra. I wanted her so badly. I was shivering and gritting my teeth. But I wasn’t going to rush this. I was going to take it slowly. This was a night that I wanted to be special. As special as she was to me. I wouldn’t rush.

  ***

  I leaned back as Maddox pushed me onto the pillows. His body leaned against me, lean and firm and I could feel his heart beating in his chest as he held me tight to him.

  “Macy,” he whispered. His hands were in my hair. He had always played with my hair: running his hands through it, pulling it, kissing my locks. He did that now, then lowered his lips to mine again. “Macy.”

  His hands stroked my throat and then he moved lower, kissing the bare skin he’d just touched as he fumbled with the buttons of my shirt. I reached to help him but he gently nudged my hand away and L let it lie on the coverlet as he slowly, painstakingly, unfastened my blouse.

  When he’d peeled it back, he leaned down and, so gently, moved my bra aside. I felt
his lips nuzzle the soft skin of my breast and tensed as they sought my nipple, sucking it into his mouth with a soft sound. I moaned as he reached round to my other breast, then unfastened my bra, taking it off first one shoulder and then the other, all the while plying me with his eager, hungering lips.

  His mouth moved lower and I tensed, feeling my stomach flutter as he moved down to the top of my trousers. I held my breath as he unbuttoned them slowly, and then exhaled in a rising tide of anticipation as he moved them down my body and slid them off my legs. I heard them fall onto the carpet, but my senses were already focused elsewhere.

  He peeled back my panties and slid his hand inside. His fingers stroked downward, playing over my folds. I heard his indrawn breath as he felt how wet I already was and I bit back a smile. Of course I was. He aroused me faster than anyone ever had before.

  His hands moved lower and he gently reached between my thighs, a long finger probing for my clit. Then, as he fingered it and made me sob with pleasure, he lowered his face so that he sucked my folds.

  I was crying out, my whole body lifting off the bed as he worked me with such easy expertise. I let his name escape my lips.

  He shifted and smiled down at me. He started undressing himself and I shivered in eagerness, knowing what was coming next. I sat up and helped him, unfastening his shirt buttons with quick ease and then helping with the fastening of his pants as he let it fall off his shoulders. I reached inside, feeling with some joy the rigid rod that pressed against his abdomen.