I'm Dying Laughing
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‘Who is it?’ cried Emily.
‘Madame George.’
‘Oh, get her off the phone. The phone must be kept open for the AP, UP and for calls from the USA. We don’t want these local calls.’
Christy got her off the phone and waited by the telephone. In a moment it rang; Emily exclaimed joyously, ‘At last. It must be the UP. They haven’t called yet. Reuter’s called half an hour ago. How slow they are! Imagine letting Reuter’s get in ahead of them!’
She sat there, her crazed and fallen face gay, while she sucked at her drink. She was very genial, kept insisting on one or the other filling up the glasses; and when at last Christy said, ‘Chicago calling,’ she jumped up, ready to speak to Anna, who was then in Chicago with one of her daughters.
‘Oh, dear Anna—’
But Anna, speaking to Christy, said she did not want to speak to the widow; she just wanted to know what the latest news was and whether Maurice and Dale were there. Christy said that Emily wanted to speak, but Anna refused, ‘No, I can’t speak to her.’
Christy had a short conversation with his grandmother, then called Maurice to the phone. Emily was hurt. She could not understand why Anna would not speak to her, above all.
‘I am the widow. I am her daughter-in-law. I am the closest.’
She ran to the phone and tore Maurice away, and spoke with tears, ‘Oh, dear Anna, it’s Emily. Oh, dear Anna, what a tragedy, poor Stephen. This to happen to us, when we were all so happy. Oh, everyone is here, dear Anna, Maurice, dear Maurice, Christy, Des Canby is here, Dale is coming and everyone is looking after us. We are expecting a call from California. We had a call from London earlier this evening. Oh, everyone is so shocked and upset. Everyone so loved Stephen. Oh, Anna—Anna—he left me! Oh, Anna—he left me!’
She began to cry in earnest and Maurice took the phone from her and spoke quietly to Stephen’s mother.
‘No one knows what happened. It’s better for me to write to you, Anna. There’ll be an inquest and then the funeral. Yes, of course, we’ll send Stephen back to the States. I know you want him buried with our own. We’re all doing all we can and Dale has already arrived at the airport. He telephoned. Don’t worry. There is no need for you to come over. You can’t do anything here.’
Emily meanwhile had thrown herself into the arms of Douglas Dolittle, crying and saying, ‘He left me, Doug! I can’t believe it: I was sure he never would. Oh, Doug! Look after me.’ And, when later Dale entered the room, she did the same with him. Maurice sat at the back of all the chairs which had been assembled for the company, his hands to his face. Christy, obeying Emily’s orders, stood near the telephone.
Emily was annoyed, astonished, ‘UP haven’t called yet. What’s the matter with them? Here in Europe they certainly haven’t the zip they have in the USA. I see now why we get such stale news. No reporter worth his salt in the USA would let a news item like this slip through his fingers. My God, if only I were on their news service, I’d have telephoned two hours ago—when did the news come through, Maurice? You don’t know. Where’s François? Well, Suzanne, you know. My God—anyway keep the line open. We must keep them open for the news services.’
Axel and Ruth Oates turned up. She got up to greet them and eagerly offered them drinks, while they were weeping.
‘This is the first big party we’ve had in months. And for such an occasion. Well, life, life! My God! Everything in reverse. Oh, poor Stephen. He loved me so. He wrote such beautiful letters to me and to Giles and Christy. He was just going away on a business trip for a couple of months, and he wanted us to know how much he loved us. The police have taken the letters, but I can tell you what he said. To me he said, “My darling wife; you were always the perfect wife, I have never had anything to reproach you with. You were perfect. Your loving husband Stephen.” He wrote to Christy that he had been the perfect son; and to Giles that he loved him and always would; and he even wrote a letter to you, Axel and Ruth, that you had always been the perfect friends. I would show them to you, but the police took them all, because of the accident and because there must be an inquest. Of course, the idea that he planned it is stupid. No one would write such beautiful letters and plan a thing like that. It was a terrible accident. The only thing I know is that he loved me and us all and he knew it and he lived for us.’
After a while and when they had all drunk a little more, and she was still waiting for the news services, disappointed and put out, she said sulkily to Axel and Ruth, ‘And do you know what is going to happen now? Uncle Maurice and Dale are closing the house and they are sending me off to Switzerland, second-class in the plane. I am not used to that. I am used to luxury travel. They don’t understand that Stephen would never allow it. He always had the best for me. They never understood Stephen. Stephen would be furious if he knew the arrangements. I might as well have no seat in the plane, like on the floor, have people walking over my hair, tramping on me. That is what they plan for me. Christy is looking after his brother; Suzanne is taking them both till it is all worked out. The servants are going. And I am to go to a cheap hotel, bed and three meals a day, not even a sitting-room and they will write to me, pay my board and send me to a doctor. I can’t choose the doctor. If Stephen were here he’d be crazy-furious to see me treated this way.’
Christy, standing by the telephone, said, ‘Mother, I will always look after you and Giles. Don’t feel like that. You won’t have to live that way. It is just till we get everything settled. I promised Father that I would always look after you and Giles and I will.’
‘When did you promise that?’
‘A little while ago, last month. He said he had to go away on a business trip and I promised, in case anything happened then or any time, to do as he would always have done for you.’
She, with her tormented face, half-merry and half-morose, drunk but very keen, looked at him with a cunning smile. She smiled fully, got up, put her arms around him, and thanked him with many kisses.
‘Oh, my dear good boy. Thank you! Bless you!’
In the end everyone but Maurice and Christy left and she seemed not sorry to get rid of the consoling company, standing between the festive console table and the telephone which was still being kept open for AP and other newspaper services.
When all was settled, Christy and Maurice saw that Emily packed and got ready for the plane trip to Lausanne, where she was to visit doctors and possibly go into hospital. The estate had enough money: she could have a long course of treatment. But when they came for her, she had gone. No one knew where she had gone. The truth is she had taken another plane, to Rome; and with her she had only a valise, filled with papers, The Monster.
Someone who had known her long ago in Hollywood days, going through Rome, which at that time was full of Americans, passed her in the Forum Romanum, without recognizing her and then stopped, came back and looked again. This old woman, with the straggling half-grey hair, the droll, hanging-fat face, the untidy silk suit, was still unmistakably only one person in the world, Emily Howard. He came up to her.
‘Emily! What are you doing here?’
Emily was sitting on the stones near the Trajan Column. She had a handbag on her lap and beside her a worn valise, of snakeskin with gold fittings, which lay open. Some loose papers lay on the steps and in her lap were letters it seemed.
‘Emily! What are you doing here?’
Emily looked up into the face.
‘Don’t you know me? I’m Jim Holinshed. Here’s Vera!’
Emily looked strangely at them.
‘Oh, I’m waiting for someone. Hello! He comes by here.’
‘Emily, what are you doing here?’
‘This is my office.’
She looked up at the sky, shook her head and held up some letters.
‘This is my office. I have no other office. Stephen would never have wanted to see me like this. But there is someone will help me. He believes in me, in all of us. He will help us. Vittorio! You know him? I am waiting for h
im. I get my mail here. I send letters. This is the only good place.’
She put her hand in the valise and brought out papers, which she strewed about the steps.
‘Emily, where are you staying?’
‘Staying? I am staying here.’
‘No, where is your hotel? Can we take you there?’
‘Oh, I live here.’
‘Where do you sleep, we mean?’
‘Oh, I sleep here. You know the saying, The son of man has nowhere to lay his head? That is absurd. You can lay it anywhere. I lay my head on the steps. And I stay here.’
‘Emily, come and have a meal with us.’
‘Oh, no, I don’t want to play ball with the little children; that’s too funny.’
‘What do you mean?’
She began to laugh and could not stop. She lay on and rolled about the steps, endless laughter.
‘Oh, Jim—Jim Holinshed! What a funny thing. It is all so funny! Everything is so funny!’ She kept on laughing, until she cried ‘If Stephen could see me now! But he’s in jail. He’s in jail for contempt. They took him from us in the end.’
They left her, in the end, and went to the American Embassy. They did not know what else to do.
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copyright © 1986 by The Estate of Christina Stead
Preface copyright © 1986 by R. G. Geering
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