The Alpha's Dilemma (Full Moon Series Book 4)

by Mia Rose

  “We’ve been here a long time.” Dustin smiled sadly as he looked around at their camp.

  Declan couldn’t help but feel saddened himself. He finally met the man who turned him and started connecting with his true inner wolf, and now it was all to be taken away from him. Yet again, Declan would be left with no family.

  “When are you all planning on leaving?” Noelle asked.

  “The day after tomorrow,” Maria sighed. She too, looked around at the camp longingly. Declan thought he saw a tear well up in her eyes, but she turned and headed off to her own tent before he could be certain.

  “You two should get going,” Dustin said. “There’s much to be done in your own pack, Declan, and I’m afraid there’s nothing left to be done here.”

  “Do you know where you will be going?” Declan asked.

  Dustin shook his head slowly. “We will be nomads for the time being, until this all blows over. Maybe one day, we will be able to return home.”

  Declan wasn’t sure what he should do. He wanted to hug Dustin or reach out to him in some way, and he also wanted to explain to him how much Dustin had changed his life for the better. But Declan couldn’t move, and he couldn’t find the right words. Instead, he nodded solemnly.

  Dustin smiled at him as though he recognized Declan’s inner struggle and he reached out and patted his shoulder. “Go!” Dustin said.

  Noelle grabbed Declan by the hand and led him away from the campsite. Declan glanced at Maria’s tent as they passed by, but she was not there. He knew where she was —by the river; the only place she could think. Declan was overwhelmed by the realization that she would no longer have the river to rely on when she needed peace.

  He wanted desperately to stay and help as much as he could, but he knew Dustin was right. There was not much that could be done. And Declan still had so much to deal with, in his own pack. He could only hope that Gabriel had taken care of everything while he’d been away.

  The trip back to the apartments passed in a daze. Noelle and Declan hardly spoke as they were each wrapped up in their own thoughts, but they held hands the entire way, just to reassure each other that they were not alone in this.

  From the bus stop, they walked back to the apartments and headed straight to Noelle’s parents’ apartment. As she opened the door, she heard her father come running from the back room. He took one look at her and rushed up, hugging her so tightly she could hardly breathe. Finally, he released her and grabbed her by the shoulders, looking her over to make sure she was physically unharmed.

  “What the hell is wrong with you?” Garett’s first words flew out of his mouth in a flurry, and Noelle was shocked by the question. “I just got you back here safe and sound, and then you go off into the night to chase after this guy!” Declan’s eyebrows were raised, but he made no comment.

  “I told you that I couldn’t explain it when I left,” Noelle said calmly. “But I can explain it now.”

  Noelle proceeded to explain the dream to her father. The one which led her to the meeting of the alphas. Abigail entered the room about halfway through the story, and Noelle could tell that she’d been crying. Despite it, she sat on the couch and listened attentively to the rest of Noelle’s story.

  “This is quite some story,” Garett huffed. He looked at his daughter and smiled grimly. “I’m afraid we have some news to share with you as well.”

  “What is it?” Noelle asked, suddenly worried. “Is anyone hurt?”

  “No,” Abigail said quietly. “Not yet, at least.” Abigail looked at Garett, who looked at Declan with a worried expression.

  “Have you been able to transform yet?” Garett asked him.

  Declan shook his head. “Not yet, but I have an idea of how I might be able to correct it.”

  “Well, you might want to look into it sooner, rather than later.”

  “Why? What’s going on?” Declan asked, with worry creeping into his voice.

  “We’re afraid that Gabriel may have gone power crazy,” Abigail started to explain. She walked into the back room and came out again with Megan in tow. Noelle could tell that her cousin had been crying as well.

  “What the hell is going on?” Noelle demanded.

  Megan wiped the tears from her eyes and sat down on the couch. She took a deep breath and opened her mouth to speak, but no words came out.

  “Megan, what’s wrong?” Noelle asked again, this time much softer. She had never seen her cousin like this before, and it scared her.

  “Gabriel is losing his mind,” Megan said quietly.

  “What do you mean?” Declan asked.

  Megan looked up at him and spoke matter-of-factly. “He called a pack meeting last night. He announced that no one in the pack would be allowed to hold jobs any longer, and that starting today, we would begin to evict all the humans that lived here. We are expected to wake up every morning, and participate in training exercises together to get prepared.”

  “Prepared for what?” Declan asked.

  Megan shrugged. “He didn’t explain why he was making these decisions. The only thing he made perfectly clear to us was that… if any of us should deviate from these plans, he would kill us on the spot.”

  Noelle looked at Declan and they shared a worried glance. “I understand why this is so upsetting,” Noelle started to say to Megan, but the look she received stopped her from speaking any further.

  “I am not this upset because he has gone insane,” Megan explained calmly. “After the meeting, I went to his room to try to talk to him about everything, and to figure out what exactly was going on in his mind. When he opened the door, I could hear another girl inside, laughing.”

  Declan sat down on the couch opposite of Megan. He listened carefully to every word she said and his cognitive wheels were turning, trying to make sense of it all. He recalled what Dustin had told him —a true alpha has instincts instilled within, from the day they are born. And it is not something which can be bestowed on the weak-hearted.

  “When I pushed open the door to see who it was, I noticed it was just some human. Gabriel walked up to me and he was smiling so strangely —I don’t even know how to explain it. He told me that since he was alpha now, he would have to choose someone to be his mate. He told me that I could never fit that role for this pack. So, he took it upon himself to go ‘shopping’ as he called it.”

  Noelle shook her head as she said this word, and she didn’t fully understand what Megan was saying. It wasn’t really making any sense to her.

  “Noelle, he is picking out human women and bringing them here to turn them. He is hoping to do another ritual with these new women to choose a new mate.”

  “But I thought Gabriel said that a hybrid wolf would always be the alpha female?” said Noelle, shocked at Megan’s words.

  Megan looked at her cousin sadly. “Yes,” she said slowly, “which is why you will be participating in the ritual as well. Only this time, it’s to the death.”

  Declan stood up from his seat with such a force that he knocked the chair over. Noelle stared at him and then nodded as though she knew exactly what he was going to do. Without another word, Declan left the apartment, the door slamming shut behind him.

  “Where is he going?” Megan asked.

  “To find Gabriel.”

  “A true alpha has instincts instilled within from the day they are born, it’s not something which can be bestowed on the weak-hearted.”

  Chapter 12

  Battle of the Wills

  “This ultimatum was wrong.”

  Declan found Gabriel sitting in his apartment. He pounded on his door until Gabriel got up from the couch and opened it.

  “What do you…” Gabriel started to say, but was stopped short when he saw that it was Declan standing there.

  “We need to talk. Now!” Declan pushed Gabriel inside and he stumbled back a few steps, clearly still in shock.

  “Where have you been, Declan?” Gabriel finally managed. “We didn’t think you were going
to ever come back.”

  “Oh, yeah?” Declan could feel the rage welling up inside of him and he knew that if he could still transform into his wolf form, it would have already happened. “Well, I’m back now. So, why don’t we start with your new laws that you’ve laid down here for the pack?”

  Gabriel studied Declan closely as he spoke. He took a few small steps nearer to Declan and watched as he stood his ground, but Gabriel knew that it was all just a façade. The shock of seeing Declan wore off and Gabriel started to pick up on some key things which told him that the man standing before him was exactly that —a man.

  “So, you’re a human now, huh?” Gabriel smiled viciously. “It’s interesting if you think about it. I mean, all that time as Alpha and what did you really do for us? Nothing, if you ask me.”

  “Everything I did was for the protection of the pack,” Declan said, his voice dangerously low. “I may have not been the best alpha, but I was sure as hell a whole lot better than you will ever be.”

  “Did you even think about that when you handed me the title and ran away?”

  Declan looked at the man standing before him, and for a moment, he could not even recognize him. Gone was the somewhat cocky but sweet-mannered guy who thought he wanted to be in charge, but never wanted all the responsibilities it came with. Standing there in front of him now, was a power-hungry man, driven by a thirst for respect from the pack, no matter how it might be acquired.

  “I made a mistake,” Declan said slowly.

  “See?” Gabriel laughed. “You’re not an alpha! Alpha’s never make mistakes.”

  “You’re wrong,” Declan said. “An alpha’s true strength comes from the ability to admit when they have made a mistake.”

  “Wow,” Gabriel mocked, “how truly philosophical of you.”

  “What happened with Megan?” Declan asked, deciding to try a different route. At the mention of her name, Declan noticed a shadow pass over Gabriel’s face.

  “She didn’t want to fight for me,” Gabriel said simply, recovering himself. “I gave her the opportunity to choose to join in the next ritual, and she decided not to. I guess some people just don’t know how to appreciate what’s right there in front of them.”

  “A ritual you are forcing the females to participate in, to the death? And you were going to pit Megan against her own cousin?”

  Gabriel laughed suddenly. “It would have made for one hell of a show!” Declan could feel his blood boiling and his eyes were clouded by fury. Gabriel looked at him, his eyes growing large.

  “What the?” Gabriel started to say, but the door slammed open behind him.

  Both Declan and Gabriel turned to see Noelle standing there, her skin rippling, intensely. Gabriel looked at her with a vicious smile.

  “You may want to reconsider this,” Gabriel said quietly. “Remember, the pack has me as their alpha because that’s what their beloved Declan decided. But you, well, let’s just say that you aren’t exactly their favorite person. Oh, and if they were to find out that you somehow hurt me…” Gabriel’s voice trailed off as his intention hung between them, thick as a cloud.

  Declan stepped between the two of them and took hold of Noelle’s hand. “Let’s go!” he urged Noelle.

  He tugged her again, and she finally followed him out of the apartment. They walked together in silence, each with their own regrets —Declan ashamed that he could not transform into his alpha form, and Noelle ashamed that she almost gave into her own.

  Noelle returned to her parents’ apartment after a short conversation with Declan. How far had they come from the magic of last night? Noelle wished she could close her eyes and be transported back to the safety of the tent, and into Declan’s arms.

  She sat down on the couch next to her cousin who was flipping through channels on the television, aimlessly. Noelle wanted to say something to her but she wasn’t sure what Megan wanted to hear. Her cousin had never been one for clichés like, “It will all be okay” or “Everything happens for a reason.”

  “It’s just really shitty, you know?” Megan said out loud, shaking Noelle from her own thoughts.

  “What do you mean?” Noelle said.

  “Like, first I find out that my mom isn’t my mom. And then I come to find that the guy I’m in love with, is actually a psychopath.”

  Noelle sighed. With everything that had been happening in her own life, she had completely forgotten about the news her cousin had recently received.

  “Have you looked into at all?” Noelle asked. Megan nodded. “You haven’t found out anything?”

  “Not yet,” Megan said as she sat up. She turned off the television and looked at her cousin. “It’s almost like I appeared out of thin air, I swear. I tried to look up babies born on my birthday, but of course, that’s not my actual birthday, anyway. It’s just the day Mom first met me. No one knows when I was actually born. They never searched for me or sent out any kind of missing person’s report. I don’t know where else to look.”

  Noelle looked at her cousin and she could tell that she was deeply upset and trying hard not to let it show. Noelle reached over and wrapped her arms around Megan’s shoulders, hugging her softly.

  “You’re right.” Noelle sighed. “It’s pretty shitty.”

  The two girls stared at the black screen of the television, and Noelle realized that this was the first time they had ever been able to stay in the same room with each other alone. The silence felt peaceful between them, and for the first time in a while, Noelle felt like she could breathe. She never would have guessed that in this crazy time of her life, her cousin would be the one to offer her exactly what she needed.

  They stayed like that for a while until Noelle’s parents walked inside the apartment. Noelle could tell by their faces that something was off. “What is it?” Noelle asked.

  “Sweetie,” Abigail said softly, “we don’t want you to get upset.”

  “When you start it off like that, Abigail, how do you think she is going to respond?” Garett said as he reprimanded his wife.

  “I was just trying to say…”

  “Can someone just tell me what is going on now?” Noelle demanded.

  Garett cleared his throat and laid his jacket on the back of the couch before sitting down. “We had a meeting today,” Garett explained, “with the council rebels.”

  “You met them?” Noelle asked, sitting up straighter on the couch.

  “The WHO rebels?” Megan asked, looking between her uncle and her cousin. Noelle ignored her question as she waited for her father to continue.

  “Well, we kind of met them,” Abigail said finally. “It happened like Edmund had explained it to us. We received a note yesterday, indicating a place to meet today, and we were instructed to bring Edmund with us.”

  Noelle looked around suddenly at the mention of his name. In the chaos of the morning, she had forgotten about Edmund and only now realized that he was missing.

  “Where is he? Was he here this morning?” Noelle asked.

  “He was,” Garett explained. “He was hiding in the room since Declan had come in with you.”

  “Okay!” Megan yelled out. “Can someone explain to me what the fuck is going on? Because, I only know about one Edmund guy —the kidnapper. And I’m pretty damn sure that my own family would not be harboring the man who kidnapped their own daughter… and niece! Am I wrong?”

  Noelle looked at her parents and Garett explained the situation as best he could. He told Megan about the council rebels and Edmund’s role with them, which led to their kidnapping. He tried his best to explain the mission of the council which was not to kill the werewolves, but to help turn them back.

  Megan sat there quietly with wide eyes as she listened to her uncle. Finally, he stopped talking and Megan looked at Noelle and asked, “Do you believe him?”

  Noelle hesitated before nodding. “I wasn’t sure at first, but it seems quite a grand scheme to try to pull off, don’t you think?”

  “I guess so
,” Megan said quietly, before retreating into her own thoughts again.

  “So, that’s that then,” Abigail said, clapping her hands together as though they’d just settled on which restaurant to eat at.

  “No, Mom, that’s not that,” Noelle said slowly. “I asked you a question. Where is he now?” Abigail lowered her eyes and Garett cleared his throat again, uncomfortably. “You let him go, didn’t you?” Noelle said. The disbelief permeating with every word she spoke.

  “Noelle, their mission relies on him, and I cannot say that what he is trying to do is something that I disagree with entirely,” Garett said, studying his daughter’s reaction carefully.

  “You agree with turning werewolves back into humans?” Noelle asked. “What if they don’t want to turn back? What if this is the life they choose? Then what?”

  Abigail closed her eyes and said the words that Noelle had been dreading most, “Then they die.”

  Noelle looked around the room and she felt as though everything was shifting around her. She had once requested this exact cure for her own family, so why was she so against it now? They had figured out that with her blood, the cure would be able to change those who had already transformed, which meant that her father would be able to become human again. She herself, could choose her humanity over the wolf inside of her. And Declan —he was a human now, too. This could mean that they could finally have the life together that they both wanted.

  But there was a voice inside of her that was screaming —she couldn’t yet decipher the words, but she could tell that one thing was certain. This ultimatum was wrong.

  Declan sat in his office alone, staring at the ceiling as thoughts swirled together in his mind. If he closed his eyes hard enough, he could imagine shutting his mind as well so that all the thinking would just stop. But he was not strong enough to keep the lid shut, and so sprang open his mind again, leading the rampage on, in his head, once again.