Let Me Love You

by Davies, Amy

  We strip each other of our clothes. He runs his hand slowly down my body and parts my legs. I’m breathing faster now. I just need to feel James inside of me, to feel him make my world explode. He slips a finger into me and I moan; I need more. He knows me because he slips in another and then another, while still sucking hard on my nipple. I feel that familiar feeling again and I know my orgasm is close.

  “Faster James, please. I missed you. I need to come, James.”

  James’s fingers pick up speed and I explode around him, trying to catch my breath. I feel James placing himself between my legs and he freezes.

  “What’s wrong babe?” I ask.

  “Fuck, I don’t have any condoms, baby. Shit. I’m gonna have to stop.” He goes to pull away, but I place my hands on his firm ass and stop him.

  “James I’m on the pill and you know I haven’t been with anyone since Dean and I was tested after him. If you say you’re clean, then I trust you.” He leans back down to kiss me, sucking on my bottom lip.

  ”I’m clean baby, always use a condom. Never in all my life have I had sex without one.” He kisses me. “Don’t need Little Wilde’s running around….yet.” He smirks. I can feel him place himself at my opening, all slicked and wet from my orgasm. “Fuck Tally, you’re so wet.”

  My body is aching more for him. “Please James, I need you inside me … now.” With that James eases into me, slowly, inch by inch. I grab onto his ass and force him in deeper, but James holds his ground.

  “You’re killing me Tally, let’s just take this slow. I haven’t had you for what seems like years. I’m going to come so damn quick if we go fast.”

  I look into James’s ocean blue eyes and cup his face with my hand, running my thumb over his bottom lip. “James, make love to me.” He starts to move. I run my hands down his back, dragging my nails up and down his hard muscular back. James moans and picks up the pace.

  “God, you feel so good baby. Fuck. You close baby? I’m going come.” Our breathing is fast and heavy. James brings his hand between us and starts rubbing my clit with his thumb. That was all it took. My body stars to tighten and pure bliss runs through my limbs as I cry out James’s name.

  “Harder, James…Harder.” James pounds into me a few more times and he stills while his orgasm rips through his body. James lowers his lips to mine and kisses me tenderly. He pulls back from me and I instantly miss his touch. James helps me off the bed and hands me my clothes. We get dressed in silence, but I can feel him staring at me.

  Out of nowhere there is a loud bang on the door. “James, you finished yet dude? Carmen isn’t impressed by you taking off with Tally. She is pissed man. You two need to get back to work and get this shoot finished, you have a meeting after this.” Marcus shouts through the door. Fuck. I had forgotten about the photo shoot. Damn James and his mind blowing sex.

  We finish getting dressed and exit the guest house to find Marcus leaning against a tree. I smile at him and he just shakes his head and laughs to himself. “You need to be prepared for Carmen man, she is on a rampage that you left her there.” James laughs.

  “Fuck her man, I needed time alone with my girl and did you see the faces she was giving. Fuck me faces, is that right baby?” He says as he pulls me tight to his side and kisses my hair.

  I put my hands over my face and let out a little laugh. “Not fuck me faces Wilde, they were me remembering what you feel like inside me, and your mouth on me.” I smirk and wink at Marcus who is looking at me with wide shocked eyes. I turn to James and he pretty much has the same expression on his face. “What? You didn’t think that I could say things like that in front of Marcus, that I would just blush and shy away. Oh baby, I can handle myself around guys like you two. I know how you work. You haven’t met my brother Jake yet or any of his team. I grew up with horny ass teenage soccer players.” I shrug and walk away, leaving the two speechless hotties behind me.

  I get back to my table where my laptop is set up and start flicking through the photos. The staff are mulling around drinking coffee and eating from the buffet. This is how I like to work, cool, calm and collected. There is no need for drama. Speaking of drama, Carmen comes storming towards me with a not so happy look on her face. “Where the fuck did you vanish to? I have a very, very important meeting to get to and I don’t appreciate you running off to fuck my co-star. That is very unprofessional of you. I will be having a word with Erica about this.” She has gone all red in the face and me, well I have lost all color.

  “He isn’t just some co-star Carmen, he is your friend, and by the way, my boyfriend. Yes we shouldn’t have left the shoot, but honestly, did it look like I could stop him? Would you have stopped him?” Everyone is standing around watching us argue, well Carmen arguing and me making a point. When she doesn’t say anything I keep going. “Yeah. That’s what I thought Carmen. You don’t say no to James Wilde and believe me doll, I don’t ever intend to.” She scowls at me and storms right back the way she came.

  I turn to see James and Marcus clapping their hands in sync. ”Well said sweetness, it’s about time someone set her straight and told her to shut the fuck up,” said Marcus with a huge grin on his beautiful face. Oh yes, Scarlett is going to love him.

  We wrap up the shoot. Cleo and I are packing the equipment away in the two trucks they arrived in. Carmen is long gone, which pleases me in a big way. I watch James and Marcus walk towards my car as I make my way over. “So, will I see you tonight, or will your meeting be a long one?” He places his hand on my hips and kisses me.

  “I will pop by after the meeting, it won’t take long. It’s just a chat about the wrap party and the publicity that we have to do for the show.” I nod my head.

  “Okay babe, I will see you later then. I need to get this back to Exposure and I will start going over the photos from today. Scarlett is working and I don’t fancy sitting by myself at home.” James kisses me again and pulls away.

  “Well, text me when you’re leaving Exposure and I will let you know where I am, okay? Perhaps you can pick me up on your way home.”

  I nod. “Okay, sounds like a plan.” He opens my car door for me and I climb in and smile at him.

  “Baby, I’m taking you shopping for a new car some time soon. I hate you driving around in this contraption.” I feel my eyebrows hit my hairline.

  “Excuse me? You’re what?” He just shrugs.

  “You need a new car babe. This thing isn’t safe.” I laugh, closing the door and starting my jeep.

  “My car is perfect, James. I don’t need you to buy me a new car. If I want a new car, I will buy one myself. Also, for your information James Wilde,” I lower my voice and crook my finger at him to come closer. “I’m worth more than you, Mr. Wilde. My bank balance has way more than you. So you see, I don’t need you to buy me a car. I can do that perfectly on my own. You get me?”

  James is gobsmacked once again. Yay me. That’s twice in one day I have rendered James silent and it feels good. Not so smooth now is he? I didn’t lie to James, as everything I just told him is true. Scarlett, Jake and my-self are trust fun babies, but we all used our money differently when we had our instalments. I drive back to Exposure and help unload all the equipment with Cleo and the guys. Once that’s done, I head back to my studio and upload the photos from today’s shoot to the company server so that Erica can take a peek when she is ready. I sort through all the photos and send my choice over to Erica and Mr. Williams; it doesn’t take up too much of my afternoon. I glance at my phone and it’s been two hours since I left the shoot. I haven’t heard anything from James, his meeting must be important. I decide to take a sneak peek into the Google life of James Wilde. I search his name and click on the images that they have of him.

  My stomach sinks like a lead balloon. There are photos of James with different women; they are all drop dead gorgeous. Why does he like me when he can have all these women? I don’t understand it. I feel sick. Oh God, what if I’m just filling in until he finds someone he really want
s? I know he told me he loves me, but how many women has he told he loves them? I decide to get off the images and click on news feeds of James. There are dated events that he has appeared at, red carpet type events, also charity galas. Nate comes to mind and a small smile creeps on my face. I see that a link has been posted with today’s date and I wonder if that has something to do with the photo shoot. That would be good for the company of the name is mentioned. The website loads up and there is a headline that reads. “James Wilde back with ex-girlfriend, movie star, Sasha Davenport? Both seen leaving restaurant down town earlier this afternoon.” There is a stream of photos of James a very beautiful woman leaving the restaurant and hugging at the side walk. In the next photo, they are kissing full on mouth and then they are both sitting in the back of the car really close. I feel tears spring to my eyes and I can’t breathe. It was all a lie.

  Chapter 16

  I don’t remember leaving the studio or driving to Cassidy’s apartment. Everything is just one teary blur. Why did he do this to me? I walk into Cass and Josh’s apartment and find Cassidy sitting on the couch and Josh on his laptop. They both look up at me as I drop my bag on the floor. I feel strong arms around and pick me up. From the smell, I know its Josh that has caught me from falling to the floor. “Oh my God Tally, what the hell has happened?” says Cassidy. I shake my head, unable to speak. I have to show them. I can’t talk right now. I point to the laptop and I see Josh frowning but he hands it to me. I type in the website and show them. I hear Cassidy gasp and Josh swear under his breath.

  “I’ll fucking kill him. What the fuck is he playing at?” I swallow the huge lump in my throat.

  “We made up this morning, we talked at the photo shoot and we made love.” I stop myself “No he fucked me. He told me he had a meeting about the wrap party and he wouldn’t be long. I know it’s only been two, well nearly three hours now, but I haven’t heard from him, and that’s why.” I say pointing towards the laptop, anger bursting out of me. “Cassidy I love him. I don’t know if I can survive this.” She hugs me closer and rocks back and forth, as she knows that’s what sooths me. I hear my phone ring and I feel sick all over again. Josh brings me my bag and I dig out my phone.

  “You don’t have to talk to him Tal.” I look over at Josh.

  “I do Josh. I need to tell him it’s over. We are done.”

  I get up and walk towards their guest room, which sometimes morphs into my room. I take a deep breath and answer my phone. “Hello?” I say weakly.

  “Baby I’m just finishing up and then I can meet you at your place. That sound good for you?” Tears start to flow again.

  “James, I don’t think it’s a good idea anymore.” I wipe the tears away, but more keep falling.

  “What’s not a good idea? Baby, you’re scaring me. What’s happened? Has Carmen done something after what happened at the shoot today?”

  “No. Carmen hasn’t hurt me James, you have. Listen it’s...” I don’t finish what I’m going to say as James cuts me off.

  “What the fuck? How have I hurt you Tally? I haven’t done anything. When I left you at the shoot, we were happy. I came to the restaurant had my meeting. We ate, and now I’m on the phone with my girlfriend, who is breaking up with me for fuck knows what reason. Tell me what I have supposedly done, Natalia.” Fuck, he used my full name, just like Scarlett. He sounds pissed, not that he has any right to be. I’m fighting the sobs that are threatening to break through.

  “Sasha.” That’s all I say. I hear James take in a quick breath and mutter ‘Fuck’, but he doesn’t say anything else.

  God, I was so damn stupid. I knew it was too good to be true. Guys like James Wilde don’t fall for plain Jane’s like me. “That’s what I thought. Good bye, James. Please don’t contact me again.” Before he can say anything, I hang up. I drop my phone on the floor and curl up in a protective ball on the bed. I hear the door open and Cassidy climbs into the bed with me. She is spooning me from behind. She is my absolute rock, always has been. I feel the bed dip again and I open my eyes to see Josh climbing into the bed in front of me. He wraps his arms over the both of us and we just lay there in complete silence. My phone rings and rings and then the texts start. I can’t even think about him right now. I hear Cassidy’s gentle snores and I let a smile slip across my face. I look at my best friend’s boyfriend, who is watching me. “Hi.” He gives me my Joshy smile.

  “Hi Pup, you okay?” Josh started calling me Pup after he got introduced to Scarlett and Jake; it stuck with him after that day.

  “I will be Josh, I promise. I just thought that after everything with Dean, I thought I would never find someone, you know.” He nods, he gets me. “I let him in, Josh. I never thought I would be able to do that again, and then he does this. Fuck, I hate men.” He pulls his head back and cocks his eyebrow; I giggle. “Present Company excluded. You’re a star, Josh, and I love you for that. The way you take care of Cassidy and me when needed. You’re the other big brother I always wanted.” I hug him tighter. My phone rings again and Josh leans over the bed to pick it up. He glances at the screen.

  “There are fifteen missed calls from James, Pup, six from Scarlett. I think you need to text her and let her know you’re okay. You know how she worries.” I nod and take my phone. I swipe the lock bar and dial Scarlett’s number.

  “Hi, I’m okay Scarlett. No I’m with Cass and Josh right now. Scar don’t you dare tell him where I am! No, just leave it!” I sit up. “You’re MY sister, you don’t owe him shit. Just tell him to stop calling me. I will explain later okay? Oh yeah, and what did he have to say about that?” I shake my head and take a deep breath. “Fine whatever, tell him I will be there in twenty minutes. Don’t let him in the house Scar, I mean it. Okay, bye.” I climb over Josh and stand, looking down at him and a now awake Cassidy.

  “Do you want us to come with you, babe?” I bite my lip thinking about what to do.

  “No Cass, its fine babe. If Josh gets within two feet of James, I think he will beat the shit out of him.” We all laugh.

  Josh looks at me “What did he tell Scar?”

  “He told her that she was there in the meeting with them, as she is organising a charity gala in December that’s linked to James’s charity for Nate. They thought the meeting would kill two birds with one stone, but little does James know that he has killed three birds.” I shrug. “Listen, I had better go. I will let you know how it all goes, okay? I love you guys to the moon and back.” They both jump off the bed and hug me tight, reining kisses all over my face and head. I smile into Josh’s chest.

  “We love you too Pup.” I groan and they laugh again.

  I think about James and Sasha on my drive home. I can’t help but wonder what lame ass excuse he is going to use as to why they kissed and snuggled in the back of the cab. He thinks he is so smooth. We shall see what he has to say for himself. Twenty minutes later, I pull into the drive at my house and see James leaning against his car, looking sexy as sin. He has his head down, arms crossed across his chest, legs are crossed at his ankles. Goddamn it, why did he have to look so good all the time? I can feel myself softening towards him already just from his looks. Fuck, I need to stay strong. James sees my car and pushes off his BMW, but doesn’t make a move towards me. I take a few calming breaths before exiting my car. I climb out and straighten my shoulders and walk towards him and greet him. “Hi.”

  “So without any explanation from me you cut me off, shut me out? Do I mean that little to you Tally?” Wow wasn’t expecting that, but then again I don’t know what I was expecting.

  “Wow. Typical guy move, blame the so-called only girl in your life. Nice move, Wilde.” I go to step around him, but he grabs me by my arm.

  “I think we need to talk about this Tally.” I jerk my arm back and look him in the eyes.

  “You kissed another woman, and not just any woman Wilde, your ex-girlfriend of all people.” I can tell by his expression that he is pissed that I’m back to calling him Wilde, which I kno
w he hates.

  “I didn’t kiss another woman Tally, she kissed me. It was a friendly kiss on the lips, it’s what we do. We have known each other a very long time baby. Sasha is getting married next summer and she has just found out she is pregnant and is unsure as to what Chad will say.” I stand there staring at him, not knowing what to say. The passenger door on James’s car opens and I’m shocked as to who steps out. Sasha comes around the car and stands next to James.

  She smiles a warm smile at me. “Hi Tally I’m Sasha, but I guess you already know who I am.” I nod and look at James. Why the hell has he brought her here?

  “I don’t get why you’re here Sasha. I really don’t want to sound like a total bitch, but I think you two should both leave. I need time to think and I can’t do with you two here, knowing you shared a kiss, and God knows what else this afternoon.” I walk away and almost make it to my front door. James catches me by the elbow.

  “Oh, for fuck sake, Tally. Did you not hear what I just told you? We are just friends. Is this your way out? Of not letting me in fully and letting Dean win again? He gets your heart, but I don’t? He got to love you and do all that you to and you stayed.” I whip my head to look at him, fresh tears leaking down my face.

  “Oh fuck baby, I didn’t mean that. Shit, I’m so sorry Tally, baby please.” He reaches for me again and I step back, still locking eyes with him. I can see the sadness and regret in his eyes, it’s all over his face. I turn to see Sasha with her hand over her mouth, tears slowly making their way down her cheeks. Oh my God, he told her.

  “Do you know how hard it was for me to see the headlines and all those pictures of you and Sasha kissing and hugging in the back of a cab?” He doesn’t speak. “Well do you James?” He shakes his head no. “No? Well I’ll tell you now Wilde, it fucking hurts? It ripped me in two. After everything that went down with Dean, I really thought that we would work out, but I don’t know if I can do this James. Tell me what you would do if you saw me kissing Dean or another guy that I dated before you. So much has happened in the last few days, and it’s too much for me to deal with. My head is all over the place.” His head shoots up to mine and he looks scared.