Baby for the Billionaire

by Maxine Sullivan

  That caught his attention. “You did?”

  She flushed, then gave a shrug. “Sorry. It took me by surprise when I saw it.”

  Just like she was taking him by surprise.

  “No need to apologize,” he said, as the driver opened the car door.

  Nick had the strangest feeling when he saw his mother’s casket near the altar. He stopped inside the door, his legs unable to move. This was his mother, something inside him screamed.

  And then he felt Sasha touch his arm and at that moment he was truly grateful to have her with him.

  The service was brief with only about twenty people who’d bothered to come. Two of the men he remembered as her husbands from years ago. Not much for a life spent with five husbands and various lovers.

  A life spent on the edge.

  Outside the church a man in his early sixties came up to him and shook his hand. “Nick, she would have been so happy you came.”

  Nick’s brows flattened. “And you are?”

  “I was Julieann’s husband.”

  “Husband?” Nick bit back from asking which one.

  “Her last one,” the man said, reading his mind. “My name’s Ted, by the way.”

  Ted’s eyes darted to Sasha. “And this must be your new wife,” he said, startling Nick, then explained, “Julieann read about your marriage in the papers.”

  Nick grimaced inwardly. He wondered how long before his mother would have found a way to make use of that knowledge.

  “How long were you married, Ted?”

  “Five years.” The older man’s eyes didn’t waver. “She’d changed, Nick.”

  “Really? So she wasn’t drunk behind the wheel of her car when she died?”

  “No, she wasn’t,” Ted said firmly. “She’d been working the nightshift at an old people’s home. She fell asleep because she was tired.”

  “My mother would never have been working. Period. And certainly not working to help anyone else.”

  Ted began to look upset. “I told you, she’d changed. Believe me, she had.”

  Nick held himself in check. Nothing would convince him of that statement. “It doesn’t matter if I believe you or not. It’s over.”

  The older man blinked rapidly, then reached into his pocket and pulled out an envelope. “I think you should have this.”

  Nick didn’t take it. “What is it?”

  “It’s a letter. To you. She was planning on sending it, but kept putting it off until she felt you were ready.”

  Nick still didn’t take it. “I don’t want it. It’s too late.”

  Ted continued to hold out the envelope but his hand shook a little now. “Then it won’t do any harm for you to read it.”

  Nick stared hard at him. “Were you good to my mother, Ted?”

  Moisture refilled Ted’s eyes as he straightened. “Yes, I was.”

  “Then I’ll take it for your sake.” Nick took the envelope, aware of the other man’s relief. He couldn’t promise to ever read it. “I’m sorry for your loss, Ted.”

  “I’m sorry for yours, too, son.”

  Swallowing a lump in his throat, Nick cupped Sasha’s elbow and walked her to the limousine. Ted had no need to offer condolences for losing his mother.

  You couldn’t lose something you had never had.

  After dinner that evening, Sasha wasn’t surprised when Nick said he was going to do some work in the upstairs study. He’d already spoken to his father about the funeral, and then Alex had called from London with concern in his voice.

  She knew Nick was upset and he needed to be alone to think about the day’s events. She understood he was having trouble assimilating what Ted had told him about his mother, how to fit that image into the person Nick knew her to be. She could only imagine the thoughts going through his head right now.

  Of course, he hadn’t needed to hear her exclaim over the church like they were attending a joyous wedding instead of a solemn funeral. Yet she hadn’t been able to stop herself. The moment she’d seen it, she’d fallen in love with its picture-book setting. The perfect picture for the perfect wedding she had dreamed about.

  She sighed and pushed aside her wistful thoughts as she settled down to do some work of her own. For once, time dragged. She wanted to go and see how Nick was doing.

  For a few hours she held back, but at nine o’clock she couldn’t wait any longer. She went upstairs and knocked on the study door, only to find him nowhere to be seen.

  And then she saw the letter from his mother lying open on the desk. Her heart started to thud.

  Hurrying to the window she saw his car was still parked outside in the driveway. Then she checked their bedroom but he wasn’t there either. She was about to go downstairs and check the kitchen when she noticed a door open at the far end of the landing.

  Nick’s old bedroom.

  She found him sitting on the side of the bed in the dark, the light from the hallway spilling across the center of the room, showing him with his elbows on his knees, staring down at the floor.

  “Nick?” she murmured with concern, wanting to rush to him but not wanting to intrude in a private moment.

  He lifted his head. “Sasha.”

  “Are you okay?”

  A moment’s silence, then he straightened. “Yeah, I am.”

  She took a few steps into the room. “I went to look for you in the study.” She hesitated. “Urn … I saw your mother’s letter was open and I was concerned for you.”

  “Did you read it?”

  “No! I would never do that.”

  He grimaced. “I wasn’t accusing. I thought you might have read it to see if it had upset me, that’s all.”

  “And has it? Upset you, that is.”

  “Yes and no.” He took a ragged breath. “No, because my mother truly was genuinely sorry for all she’d done. Yes, because it’s too late to tell her I forgive her.”

  Stunned surprise rippled through her and she sat down on one of the brocade chairs. “You forgive her?”

  He nodded. “My mother was never the type of person to ask for forgiveness. You see, she never actually realized she needed forgiving in the first place.” He gave a half smile at that. “And I would’ve said a leopard never changed its spots, but some things happened to Julieann that had a profound effect on her.”

  “What was that?”

  “She fell in love for the first time ever. With Ted.” He gave a tiny pause. “And she got cancer.”

  Sasha’s heart saddened for the woman. “Cancer?”

  “Yes, and she recovered but it made her look back on her life and see all the hurt she’d caused. Believe me, I know the woman my mother was in her younger years, and she would never have written that letter. Never.”

  Sasha knew he would never let himself be fooled by anything insincere. “I’m glad she changed for the better.”

  “Me, too.” Then his brows pulled together. “I guess for once my father was right and I was wrong. If Dad hadn’t convinced me to go, I’d probably have received the letter in the mail and not read it at all. I know for sure I wouldn’t have been so quick to forgive, but meeting Ted today convinced me he was genuine. And that the letter was, too.”

  “I liked Ted.”

  “Me, too. He’s much better than her previous husbands. There were five,” he said before she could ask. “And apart from Ted, they were all after my mother for the money she could get out of my father.”

  Sasha’s forehead creased. “Did your father just hand over money whenever she asked for it?”

  He shook his head. “No, it wasn’t quite like that. From the time I was seven she’d turn up here every couple of years until I was twelve, and insist on my staying with her and her current husband for a few days while they were in town.” His lips twisted. “Naturally she’d insist on being paid ‘expenses’ and then blow it all at the races.”

  Sasha listened with rising dismay. She was beginning to see why Nick had disliked his mother so much.

 
“My dad didn’t want to stop me from seeing her, but he would always ask me if I wanted to go. I thought he wanted me to, so I did.” He shrugged. “I’ve never told him the truth.”

  Her eyebrows rose. “Your father didn’t realize this? He just handed you over to a woman who had no respect for anyone or took no responsibility for anything?”

  “He thought he was doing the right thing. Besides, he told me years later he had someone keep an eye on me while I was away, and he thought I was having an okay time. She’d dump me on her parents, you see, while they went off to the races, so he thought I was getting to know my grandparents. They couldn’t have been less interested in me if they’d tried.”

  Oh, poor Nick. “What did you do when you were with them?”

  “Sit and watch television. I was miserable and couldn’t wait to get back home.” He took a shuddering breath. “It was only a few days, but it felt like a lifetime.”

  “And there would’ve always been the fear that you would never come back home again,” she said half to herself.

  A muscle began to throb in his cheek.

  She stared aghast. “Oh my God. That’s why you won’t let me redecorate this bedroom. This was your sanctuary whenever you returned home, wasn’t it?”

  He nodded with a taut jerk of his head. “Yes. I felt safe here. I still do. I used to imagine they would never get to me here.”

  Her heart constricted. “Oh, Nick. I’m sorry you had to go through all that.”

  “Hey, it wasn’t so bad,” he said, making light of it now.

  “Yes, it was.”

  A look of discomfort crossed his face. “Okay, so those times were bad, but I always made it back home and that’s the important thing.”

  She looked at Nick and something tumbled around in her chest. She could imagine him a little boy or a young teenager putting on a brave face, terrified of going with his mother and her latest new husband, not knowing if he would ever come back to those who loved him.

  The urge to hold him was strong and she stood up and went to stand between his legs, pulling his head against her breast in a comforting fashion. He didn’t resist, and they remained like that for a while.

  Only, suddenly, she wanted more tonight. She wanted to show him that this was their home and she was his wife and he had no need to fear being abandoned ever again.

  She turned his head up to her. “Let me make love to you, Nick.”

  His eyes flared with desire. “Yes, Sasha,” he said in a low, raspy voice. “I need you to love me tonight.”

  His words cut the air from her lungs.

  Love him?

  Oh God, she thought as she bent her head and began placing soft kisses down his cheek until she came to his mouth.

  She already did.

  Eight

  The next morning Sasha felt Nick’s lips on hers in a brief goodbye kiss, but she kept her eyes shut until she heard him leave the room. Then and only then did she carefully open them to a new morning and a new beginning, one where she knew she would have to be strong.

  She loved him.

  If it hadn’t been for all the smoke and mirrors caused by their forced marriage she’d probably have seen it coming. As it was, it had taken a private man like Nick to share his painful past with her to make her see what was truly in her heart.

  She’d never stopped loving him.

  She’d merely been convincing herself otherwise because it hurt too much to admit she loved a man who would never love her back. He couldn’t. He wasn’t the type of man to give up part of himself for love of a woman. Even now, she knew he didn’t love her. He liked her, and she was sure he liked her even more with each passing day, but there was no way she could tell him she loved him.

  He wouldn’t want to know.

  And his rejection of her would be far worse this time. They were adults now and their feelings ran deeper and more lasting, and to bring it out in the open would ruin any chance of a happy marriage between them.

  A marriage now based on friendship.

  Not love.

  No, she’d have to be happy with what she had. The alternative of a divorce, or of Nick feeling uncomfortable around her was too much to bear.

  Better to keep it a secret.

  Of course, for all her self-talk, when he returned home that night and kissed her hello, then took the stairs two at a time to go shower and change, Sasha’s heart skipped a beat as she realized something. This morning’s kiss before leaving for work had been the first time he’d kissed her goodbye.

  And now this?

  Things had definitely changed for the better between them. Perhaps one day …

  No, she dared not think it.

  “By the way,” he said over dinner later. “I’m happy for you to redecorate my old bedroom now.”

  She blinked. “You are?”

  “Yes. Give it a whole new look and turn it into a spare bedroom. Do whatever you want. You’re the expert. I don’t need it anymore.”

  Her insides turned soft. “No, you don’t, do you?”

  He seemed much more relaxed. “Sasha, I think it’s time we had some fun. Would you like to go to a party on Saturday night? Friends of mine are celebrating their fifth wedding anniversary.”

  She liked that he was asking her and not merely expecting her to go. More importantly it was as if he actually wanted to be with her.

  “I’d love to go to the party with you.”

  He flashed her a smile. “Good.”

  That smile made her senses spin and took her right through the week, especially when he continued to kiss her goodbye and hello every day. It was as if he truly considered her his real wife now.

  There were about fifty people at the party held at a gorgeous mansion overlooking the Parramatta River. Nick’s friends, Fiona and Boyd, were warm and friendly.

  “We’re so sorry we missed your wedding,” Fiona said. “We were overseas at the time but it was a nice surprise when we came back.”

  “Surprise?” Boyd laughingly choked. “I was totally shocked when Nick told me he was married. Who’d have thought the playboy would ever get married, let alone so quickly?” He got an elbow in the ribs by his wife. “I mean … well, you know what I mean.”

  “Yeah, Boyd, we know what you mean,” Nick teased and left it at that.

  Sasha was grateful Nick didn’t tell them the truth. She hadn’t cared at the wedding if everyone had known, but now it was a matter of pride.

  And a matter of love.

  Over the next hour Nick kept her by his side, not leaving her for a minute while they mixed with a small group of friends. They were laughing at something one of the wives said when suddenly a blonde beauty pushed through the group.

  “Darling!” she squealed, throwing her arms around Nick’s neck and hugging him. She leaned back and kissed him full on the mouth before saying, “Darling, I’m back. Aren’t you glad to see me?”

  There was dead silence in the group.

  Sasha swallowed hard as she looked at the beautiful blonde, then Nick, seeing the shock before a mask came down over his face.

  Effortlessly he extricated himself from the woman’s arms and slid his arm around Sasha’s waist and said, “Brenda, I’d like you to meet my wife.”

  The other woman gasped, her eyes darting in disbelief to Sasha and back. “Your wife?”

  “That’s what I said.”

  The blonde’s face began to crumble. “Oh, Nick, how could you!” she choked, spinning on her heels and racing out to the patio.

  The silence continued.

  Nick’s mouth tightened as he turned to Sasha. “I’d better go sort this out.”

  Sasha nodded. It was the right thing to do, the only decent thing to do, so why was she feeling uneasy about it all? He strode away, leaving an uncomfortable quiet.

  Then Fiona took matters into hand. “These things happen,” she said sympathetically, giving Sasha’s arm a pat.

  Sasha cleared her throat. “Yes, they do.”

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nbsp; Then one of the men started talking about something else and the conversation started up again somewhat awkwardly, everyone no doubt wondering what was going on out there on the patio and none more than herself.

  She held her head high and determined to keep on doing so, but inside she was feeling less than certain. Who was Brenda, and how much had she and Nick meant to each other?

  It seemed forever before he returned. His jaw was clenched as he came up and slipped his arm around her waist again, pulling her close. “Right, I’m back where I belong now.”

  She knew he meant to comfort her but their relationship was such that she didn’t know which way the wind would blow. All this could be for show.

  She winced. What was the matter with her? It was all for show.

  All at once Brenda appeared at the open doorway, tears streaming down her beautiful face as she gave a loud sob and ran through the room to the front door. Every pair of eyes watched her, then all those eyes seemed to turn and look at her and Nick.

  Sasha wanted to sink through the floor.

  “Let’s dance,” he rasped, taking her drink and handing it to Boyd. Then he led her toward an area set aside for dancing.

  He pulled her into his arms. “Don’t ask.”

  “Nick, I—”

  “Later. Right now I want to dance with my wife.”

  She kept quiet but as she looked into his angry blue eyes she had to wonder if there was a reason he had called her his wife.

  Was it to remind her that he was married to her?

  Or was it a reminder to himself?

  Thankfully by the time they’d finished their dance, the commotion Brenda had caused had receded into the background. Everyone had gone back to enjoying themselves and she was touched that some of the ladies seemed to be going out of their way to be nice to her.

  She just hoped it wasn’t from pity. She couldn’t bear that. Not when she’d seen so many others pity her mother over the years.

  They stayed at the party for an hour after that, more out of pride than not, Sasha knew. Once in the car, she couldn’t hold back any longer. She had to know.

  “Do you love her?”

  Nick’s hand stilled on the ignition key. “Of course not.”

  “She loves you.”