Breaking Through The Wall (Guarded Hearts)

by Ashley Piscitelli

We had been trying to listen to music the entire drive, but with Carter and Jason wanting rock, and Maddy and me trying to convince them to let us listen to country, we ended up shutting it off. As we got closer to Jason’s house, I was getting more and more nervous.

  What if his dad didn’t like me? What if he didn’t think I was right for him? I felt Jason put his hand on my leg and, when I looked up he shot me a reassuring smile. He could be so sweet, when he wasn’t being an ass.

  We got out of the car and said our goodbyes to Carter and Mads. When we walked into his house no one was home. At least I could fix myself up, before his dad got home. I followed J into his room and waited for him to show me to wherever I was sleeping.

  He looked over at me with a confused look on his face. “Aren’t you gonna put your stuff down?”

  I was staying in here? With him? “I didn’t think I was staying with you.”

  “Are you nuts? There is no way you are sleeping in any bed in this house that isn’t mine.”

  He walked over and crushed his mouth to mine, turned me around, kicked the door shut with his foot, and backed me up toward the bed. I was not going to have sex with him here! His dad could walk in and hear us! “J, stop.”

  He pulled back to look at me. “Listen, I get that you’re trying to be respectful and shit, but there is no way we are spending this break together and not having sex. I think it’s cute, but I am not Carter, babe.”

  He pushed me back onto the bed and before I could object, he had my sundress around my waist. He started to kiss my panty line and any objection I had disappeared. I had no experience before Jason, but I have to say that he is amazing when it comes to this stuff. I hate to think it’s because he has done it so often, but that is probably the case.

  He starts to slide my underwear down and I am already squirming. He spreads my legs and makes his way up my body, stopping and kissing me with so much fire that it takes my breath away. He pulls me up with him, lifting my dress off of me in one quick move.

  I reach for the hem of his shirt and lift it off of him. I start kissing his well-defined chest; nipping and licking the way that I know drives him crazy. God, I love him.

  I love him. Shit, I’m officially screwed.

  Jason

  I can’t believe she thought I would be able to go this whole break without touching her. Half of the time, I couldn’t even go ten minutes. I laid her back down and stood up to take off my shorts and boxers. Seeing her laying in my old room like this, was crazy; I never brought girls back here. My dad was always weird whenever I had tried to so I just started going to their houses, or cars, or the locker room; hell, any room that had a door.

  I knew that my dad would be home soon and I didn’t have long with her. I loved doing foreplay and things with her because she was always so responsive. Today though I was going to need to get her there quick.

  I bent my head down and her scent filled my nostrils; she smelled so fucking amazing all the time. I licked my tongue up the length of her and felt her jerk beneath me. I grabbed her hips and held her steady so that she couldn’t move. I rested my one forearm across her stomach so that I could free up one of my hands.

  When I moved my mouth up to her clit and inserted two fingers into her, she let out a moan. I knew Nicole well enough now that I knew she was close. She was always so quick, which is why I usually liked to tease her. There wasn’t anytime for that today. I started moving my fingers fast and sucking on her clit at the same time. She screamed my name when she came and, I have to say, it was the most beautiful fucking sound I had ever heard.

  I sat up and sunk myself deep into her without giving her anytime to recover. I put my hands back on her hips and used the leverage to slam myself into her even harder.

  “God, J! That feels so good!”

  She moved her hands up to her tits and started to play with her nipples. Just the sight of her doing that pushed me over the edge, and I emptied myself into her. When I collapsed beside her onto the bed, she moved to rest her head on my chest.

  “I have to tell you, at the risk of inflating your ego, you are so good at that.”

  I laughed. “At which part?”

  “All of it, but especially the foreplay. It’s crazy how worked up you can get me and how fast you can get me there.”

  “Thanks babe that’s good to know, because unlike the sex part, I haven’t done that very much.”

  She looked up at me in disbelief. “Why is that?”

  I didn’t know how this was going to come out, but I have never held my tongue before. “Because half of the girls I have been with, I wouldn’t even touch with my finger much less my mouth. They are dirty and easy. Any girl that let’s any dude that comes along do her, is not someone I want my mouth near.”

  She started to laugh and I pulled her closer to me. It was in moments like this that my running instinct kicked in. It was personal and emotional and everything I had thought I never wanted. I heard the front door shut and sat up. “That would be my dad. We need to get dressed.”

  Watching Nicole jump up and try to put herself together that fast was hysterical. She was so frantic and at one point, she tried to put her bra on backwards. I laughed and got up to get dressed. I doubt my dad even knew we were here yet; it’s not like my car was in the driveway.

  “How do I look?”

  I looked up at her and she looked gorgeous. I could tell she was nervous and I was too. “You look perfect, babe. Come on.”

  When we walked into the kitchen, my dad looked up and the shock on his face was obvious. I had texted him that I was bringing a girl home, but knowing him, he probably thought I was joking.

  “Dad, this is Nicole; Nicole, this is my dad, Paul.”

  After he was done staring at her like an idiot, he closed the couple steps between us. “It’s nice to meet you, Nicole.”

  “You too, Mr. Smith.”

  “Don’t call me Mr. Smith; just Paul is fine.”

  He walked into the living room and I heard the TV turn on. That actually went better than I had expected. When I looked down at Nic, I could see that she thought something was wrong. “Hey, you did fine. He is really antisocial, so don’t expect too much. This is kind of why I never thought to invite you here.”

  “It’s fine, J. Are you sure it isn’t me though?”

  “No it isn’t. Now come on, let’s go sit down.

  We went into the living room and sat on the couch. “Dad, Carter invited us over for dinner tomorrow. What do you say?”

  He turns to look at me like I have five heads. “Mike knows less about cooking than I do. Why would we go there for dinner?”

  This should be fun. “Carter’s fiancée, Madison, is going to be cooking a big dinner for them.”

  His eyes got huge and I could tell he was shocked. “His fiancée?”

  “Yeah, they just got engaged about three months ago. She is great.”

  “You kids have all lost your damn minds. If you want to go there, I guess we will.”

  With that, he turned back to the TV. I glanced at Nicole and I could tell she was uncomfortable. I didn’t know what to do at this point; this is what I was afraid would happen.

  “Hey, do you want to go for a walk?”

  She looked up at me and smiled, silently thanking me for saving her. “Yeah, sure.”

  Once we were out of the house, I was finally able to relax. “Listen, before you say anything, the way my dad was had absolutely nothing to do with you, Nic. He lost it after my mom left and he never really got it back. If you want to stay at Carter’s, I really wouldn’t blame you.”

  She pulled me to a stop and turned to face me. Her hands ran up my chest, ending at my neck. “I am not going anywhere, J, so stop trying to give me an out.”

  She was finally starting to break down the wall I had built years ago and I knew she was telling the truth when she said things like that. Nicole was absolutely nothing like my mother and the sooner I accepted that the better. I bet my head down to kis
s her and enjoyed the fact that she was mine.

  Nicole

  I have to say, that when we got to Carter’s house for Thanksgiving dinner I was really impressed. I knew Maddy could cook from all of the dinners we had together, but she really went all out. Carter introduced me to his dad and brother. I had to laugh when Jason smacked Anthony on the back of the head for staring at my boobs.

  His response was even better, though. He had turned to Carter and said, “Every college brochure Dad gives me has these ugly nerdy chicks on the front. If they put the two of you on there, enrollment would double.”

  That earned him smacks and things thrown at him from just about everyone. I went into the kitchen to talk to Mads and see if she needed any help.

  “Hey, girl!” She ran over and gave me a hug, and I laughed at how perfect she looked in this role. She had her hair in a neat little pony tail with an apron and oven mitts on. “So, how is everything?”

  I was so glad I had someone to talk to, because I really didn’t know what to do. “I feel like he hates me, Mads. I mean, he can barely stand to look at me; it’s like I repulse him.”

  “Carter told me last night about how Jason’s dad could be. I know it has to be hard. Has he said anything about it?”

  “He has been great; better than he has ever been! I think, in some strange way, this is helping him to see that he doesn’t want to end up like his dad. I just wish that things were different and he wasn’t so against me from the start.”

  She gave me a hug that I really needed right now; things had been so tense last night. Thank God Jason had a TV in his room, because at least that provided us with an escape.

  “Hey, listen, you are only going to be there tonight and tomorrow night. Then Saturday, we are all staying in Myrtle Beach together!”

  “I know, I can’t wait. I hope it is nice enough to go on the beach.”

  Dinner was amazing, or at least the food was. Jason’s dad mumbled and grumbled through the whole thing, while Carter’s dad was great. He talked to me about school and my family, and seemed like he was really interested to get to know me. Maddy got really lucky with him, while I got scrooge’s evil twin.

  By the time we got back to Jason’s house, it was after ten and I was completely exhausted. I went into the room and J told me he would be there in a minute. I got changed in pajamas and opened the door to go brush my teeth.

  “No, Dad, you need to lay off. She doesn’t deserve the way you are treating her!”

  I knew I shouldn’t be listening, but I couldn’t help myself.

  “Son, you need to understand I am only trying to protect you.”

  “Protect me from what? Being happy? Not spending every day alone and miserable like you are? Whether you want to believe it or not, not every girl out there is like Mom. It took me a long time to learn that, mainly because you have been filling my head with all of this bullshit since she left. Nicole makes me happy, and if you can’t appreciate that, the least you could do is respect it.”

  I heard his footsteps and scrambled back to my bag to pretend I was getting my toothbrush out. When he came in and closed the door, I looked up at him and could tell he was fuming. “You ok?”

  “Yeah, did you, uh…did you hear any of that?”

  I should probably tell him I did, but the look in his eyes was begging me to say I didn’t. “Hear what?”

  He walked over and wrapped his arms around me, bending down to place a kiss on my neck. “Nothing. I’ll get changed and see you in a minute, ok?”

  I nodded my head and went to the bathroom. What he said to his dad really meant a lot to me. It was validating every fear that I had that his dad could influence him to leave me. I wished that he was ready for me to tell him I loved him, because I wanted to say it so bad.

  Jason

  As soon as Nicole had gone off to the bedroom, my dad had started in on me. Warning me she was going to break my heart, and asking me over and over again why I changed the plan. It pissed me off so bad, because he hadn’t even given her the chance she deserved. Granted, it took me about nine months to give her a real chance, but I expected more from him.

  Coming home and seeing how my dad was when I was actually happy, was an eye opener. I didn’t want to end up like him; sad, alone, and mad at the world. Nic came back in and crawled under the covers with me. For the first time ever, I was content with just being able to hold her; without having sex. This is the type of shit that Carter would talk about and I would tell him he was gay for.

  Everything is so different when it means something, though. My dad was so convinced that this was just something built on sex, and I was determined to prove him wrong.

  I had every intention of keeping Nicole out of the house as much as I could today. We were leaving tomorrow for Myrtle Beach, and the less time we spent with my dad the better. Carter had asked me if I wanted to hang out with him and Maddy, but I told them no.

  Nicole and I spent the day walking the trails at the park, seeing a movie, and going out to dinner. My dad had poker night with his friends tonight, so I figured he would be gone by the time we got home.

  When we walked in, all five of them were sitting at the poker table in the living room. “Hey Dad, I thought you were going out for poker.”

  “We were, but Johnny got sick and cancelled on us, so I said I would do it here. You want to join? There is room for one more.”

  I knew what he was trying to do; divide and conquer. He would get me to play with them and they could all talk to me about how nice it is not having a woman around. “No, I’m kind of tired. Nic, do you want to play?”

  Her head snapped up and she shot me a look. “No, I’m…”

  “Oh, come on, hunni! I haven’t won in a few weeks you will help me out.” Sam one of my dad’s friends, yelled from inside.

  “No, sorry guys, I don’t have any cash on me, anyway.”

  “I can cover you, babe.”

  She shot me the death glare, before turning back to my dad and his friends. “Ok, I guess so.”

  They all made room for her at the table, and I was holding out hope that maybe this would help my dad get more comfortable with her.

  I explained all of the basics of Texas Hold Em’ to her and told her to let me know if she had any questions. She folded the first couple of hands, but after that, she actually started to win.

  By the end of the game, it was just Nicole and my dad left. The last card had just flipped and Nicole bet a ten dollar chip. My dad looked up at her, pushed his whole pile of chips in, and said, “I’m all in.”

  I couldn’t see her cards, so I had no idea what she had in her hand or what she was going to do. She looked back at me, smiled, and pushed her whole pile in too. My dad laid his cards down and looked up at her, “Four aces, sweetheart.” He went to reach for the pile, but she stopped him.

  “If I’m not mistaken…” She put her cards down on the table face up. “…a royal flush beats four of a kind.”

  Holy shit, she actually won? The shock on my dad’s face was priceless. Nicole collected her winnings, then we headed off to my room. Once we got in the door, I backed her against the door and kissed her.

  “How the hell did you do that?”

  “It wasn’t my first time playing.”

  “So, then why the hell did you have me explain all the rules?”

  “So that everyone else thought I was a beginner and underestimated me. Besides, even if they did know I have a really good poker face.”

  I kissed her again, this time lifting her up by her ass. She instinctively wrapped her legs around me and I carried her over to the bed. We had each other undressed and were back on the bed at lightning speed.

  “J, your dad is right down the hall.”

  I flipped her over onto her stomach, grabbed my pillow and handed it to her. “Bite down on that if you need to, babe.” I thrust myself into her and started pumping so fast and hard that she was screaming into the pillow. I had never had a girl effect me the way t
hat she does. It’s like I can’t wait another minute to have her or I will explode.

  I grabbed her hair and pulled it back making her back arch, and hearing her moan deeper into the pillow. I knew she liked it when I did that, even though the feminist inside her told her that she shouldn’t.

  I knew I was getting close, so I reached my hand down and found her clit. I started rubbing it in fast frenzied circles and soon felt her pussy squeezing my dick. Once that happened, I was gone. I emptied myself inside of her and laid down next to her. I have to say that it made me happy and proud in a way that I had been the only man she was ever with. I knew she was mine in every way.

  Chapter 8

  Nicole

  We didn’t even get a chance to say goodbye to Jason’s dad before we left today. He was already gone when we had left the house and hadn’t been back since. I asked J if it had been a bad idea that I beat his dad last night and he said not to worry about it. I was happy to finally be leaving, and so excited for our mini vacation.

  When we got to the hotel, I was surprised at how nice it was. I started hysterically laughing when Carter was talking to the lady at the front desk and telling them that we didn’t want rooms next to each other. Jason had whispered to me that Carter knew about the wedding and didn’t want us overshadowing him.

  In Maddy’s eyes, though, I don’t think that would have ever been possible. We all went upstairs and made plans to go to the hotel’s pool for the day, because it was too cold to go on the beach and enjoy it. I slipped on my bikini and was finishing tying it up as I was walking out of the bathroom. Jason was sitting on the bed waiting for me, but when he saw me I couldn’t tell if he was happy or mad.

  “What the heck is that thing?”

  “It’s a bikini, J. What the hell? You even said you wanted to get me in one.”

  “Yeah, I wanted to see you in one; not have every guy there going home and whack off to the image of you in it. You need to change into something more than four little triangles.”

  I slipped on my flip flops and pretended I was going toward my suitcase. Then I sprinted for the door and ran down the hallway to the elevator. I heard him yell my name, but I just kept going. As the elevator door was closing I saw him running and just missing me.