NOT SO Innocent (Bay Falls High Book 4)
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I swallowed hard. “What is happening right now?”
I looked at Ash.
Hil and Uly looked back at Ash too.
He stood like he always did.
So tall, his face so beautiful… the ink on arms reflecting from the street lights.
“There is no choice to make now,” Ash said. “There is no all or nothing. There’s only reality, angel.”
“And what is reality?”
Ash slowly walked toward me.
I was now boxed in by Them.
“This is reality,” Ash said.
He made a fist with his right hand and held it at shoulder level.
Hil then did the same and put it to Ash’s fist.
I slowly looked toward Uly.
He shook his head.
“Uly?” I asked.
“Doll,” he whispered.
He stuck out his left fist, hitting both Ash and Hil’s fists. He curled his lip, pissed off that he did so.
“You’re staying, Belle,” Ash said. “There’s no running. There’s no hiding.”
“And I’ll swallow it down, beauty,” Hil whispered. He leaned toward me. “I’ll share you for a little bit. But that’s it. Okay? A little bit. Just stay.”
Heat and chills surged through my entire body.
“So that’s it, doll,” Uly said. “You want answers? They’re right here. We’ll call it a trade. We’ll give you us… in exchange… for you.”
“All of you, Belle,” Hil said.
My eyes moved to Ash.
“You get us,” he said. “Nothing hidden.”
“And I just have to stay,” I said. “And stay close to you. Stay close to Them. The ones I was told to stay away from. To run away from. The ones I was told to just leave for good from…”
“Yeah,” Ash said.
“Fuck yeah,” Hil said.
“Fucking hell yeah,” Uly said.
My eyes scanned right to left… from the amber eyes to the icy gray eyes to the dark brown eyes.
What was I doing there?
All I needed to do was sit down in the car and drive away.
Their fists were all still touching.
Waiting for me to say something.
Instead, I slowly sat down.
I looked at my feet.
Swing them around. Step on the pedal… GO.
Instead, I reached back.
And then I stood back up.
I put my hand to Hil’s chest and shoved him back.
“I need a cigarette,” I whispered.
“Let me get you a light, doll,” Uly said.
A second later there was a spark and a small flame flickered from Hil’s lighter.
He looked at Uly and grinned.
Uly’s lip curled high into the air.
I walked by Hil right into the middle of the quiet street.
I turned and Ash was right behind me.
I blew smoke into his face and he didn’t flinch.
“There is no choice, angel,” he said.
I took another drag of the cigarette and then dropped it at his feet.
A waste of a cigarette, but I had a point to make.
The cigarette burned.
I laughed out loud.
I had done something crazy.
I brought Them back together.
And I wasn’t sure what that meant.
And I knew I was going to find out what that meant.
But now it was simple.
They were Them.
And now they were mine.
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“This is fucking insane,” Taylor said as she walked into the water. “You’re sure this is okay?”
“Go swim,” I said. “I’ll give you some clothes. I told you to bring a bathing suit.”
“I forgot the bottoms,” she said. “Sorry. At least I’m wearing my top. In case you don’t remember, life is a little crazy back where you used to be from.”
I squinted my eyes.
Fucking bitch.
She peeled her shirt up over her head and tossed it aside.
Her boobs filled her bright green bathing suit top… and then some. She had zero confidence in herself except for her chest. So I couldn’t hate her too much for wearing a size too small, just for effect.
I stepped toward Taylor and towered over her as she stood on the third step down into the pool.
“I heard about your taco baby,” I said.
“So funny,” she said.
“Maybe if you closed your legs once in a while you could catch your breath and figure things out.”
“What’s the fun in that?” Taylor asked. “Like you haven’t been fooling around with all these rich guys, right?”
“I’m good.”
“I’m sure you are,” she said. “Get them to take you to the fanciest places. Buy expensive gifts. Drive them crazy to get some of that trailer park ass…”
We both snorted and laughed.
“That’s horrible to say,” Grace said.
“But she’s right,” I said. “They love it. I’m like a… thing… you know? I’m so different.”
“Wait a second,” Sarah said. “So Taylor is right? You’ve been…”
I shrugged my shoulders.
“Fake, rich slut,” Taylor said.
She walked into the water and Sarah grabbed my wrist. “Hey. Talk to me. You didn’t mention about guys.”
“There are no guys,” I said to Sarah. “You know me. I’m not that…”
I felt my mouth wanting to stop talking. Stop lying.
I wasn’t even sure if I was lying or not.
I hadn’t done anything with Them.
Other than kissing.
But really was kissing three guys that big of a deal?
They all knew about each other. So it wasn’t like I was sneaking around.
Plus, the whole East vs. West thing seemed to be serious enough that Uly and Hil and Ash said they were going to find a way to exist near each other. For my sake. Just as long as I gave to them what they gave to me.
And even that… those lines were drawn in the sand but not crossed yet.
Taylor swam toward the waterfall and cove.
Grace sat down at the edge of the pool and slowly dipped her feet into the water.
“Of course the water is perfect,” she said. “Belle, this place is fucking amazing.”
“I agree,” I said. “But it’s not all a dream here. Believe me.”
“Better than home, right?” Grace asked.
“I guess so.”
Sarah slipped her hand into mine and we walked toward the beach.
Far enough away from the pool but not quite on the sand.
“Okay, so what’s really going on here?” Sarah asked.
“Everything and nothing at once.”
“Meaning?”
“My mother wanted me to leave,” I said. “But… she got a new job and a new man. And when I wouldn’t leave here, she got pissed at me. So now I feel all kinds of amazing guilt over that.”
“What does the doctor think?”
“Jo? She’s… she’s something else. She’s a cold bitch, Sarah. But in a loving way. I don’t know.”
“So why stay?” Sarah asked. “I mean, the house, the pool, the ocean, the comfort… but that’s not you.”
“I have this writing class I love,” I said. “And the woman who runs it… she’s really into what I’m doing. I might have a chance to do something with it.”
“Really? That’s exciting.”
“I just don’t know if I can handle seeing my mother do the same stuff,” I said. “I kind of wanted to go somewhere myself and start over. But I need m
oney to do that. Who would have thought, right? I’m living in a mansion for free but have no money. And going back… I don’t know. Everything with Gray…”
Sarah swallowed hard. “I know it doesn’t mean shit to you. Nor should it. But he feels like shit over it.”
“He should.”
“He does.”
“Good.”
“You kind of… I don’t know, Belle. I blame your mother for it, but you kind of always wanted to have an image, you know?”
“Oh?”
“Nothing bad,” Sarah said. “I never said anything, so maybe it’s my fault too. But you always wanted to be above what your mother was. Which is awesome. I just never understood why you were so worried about… it.”
“It… meaning what happened with Danny.”
“Yeah. You loved him. He loved you. Everyone knows you two were together. So what? You kind of painted yourself as this innocent and pure girl.”
“And now you decide to bring that up? Why does it matter now?”
“It doesn’t,” Sarah said. “I just hate the idea that… you know… that stupid red V on your locker…”
“Stupid?”
“You know what I mean.”
“No, I don’t. What’s stupid about it?”
“I… the whole situation, Belle. That he did that. That you ended up leaving after that happened. I know it was more about your mother. And Gray is such a dick.”
“Why? Is he asking about me?” I asked.
“Not really,” Sarah said. “Forget I said anything. Sorry. I just… I miss having you there every day. But I get why you’re here. And I’m glad we didn’t forget about each other.”
“Yeah, me too,” I said.
There was something off about Sarah.
I opened my mouth to cross that line but then I heard someone sniffle.
Then someone clapped.
Sarah looked over my shoulder and her eyes went wide.
“Please tell me they’re going to start tongue fucking soon.”
I turned my head.
“Who the fuck is that?” Sarah whispered.
I answered with one word.
“Them.”
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