Jackson Valley Shifters Complete Series: Bear Shifter Romance

by Candace Ayers

  Heather was stung by his words. On the one hand, it was a relief that she wouldn’t have to leave without saying goodbye to Chloe, but it was also utterly gut-wrenching to realize that Tanner was clearly so unattracted to her, with no romantic intentions whatsoever. The sentiment she’d been flattered by in the letter, had read over and over again, had pinned her wild dreams on, had been written by a ten-year-old girl.

  “I need some time to think. I’m not… I’m not sure about this, Tanner.” Heather looked desolate. He’d seen her face crumple at his revelation, and he wanted to find some way to comfort her, but had no idea what to do without scaring her off with the intensity of his real feelings— feelings that even he found frightening. Better to keep her at a distance, at least for now.

  “I understand. Please think about it, though. Both Chloe and I would love to have you stay with us.” Tanner cursed himself silently, why did he have to sound so wooden?

  Heather stood up. She smiled at him, tightly and briefly. There seemed to be nothing more to say. He was a nice man. He was being polite, and perhaps he was right. Maybe it could work. Maybe she could stay, looking after Chloe, living here among the fresh air and wild landscape of Jackson. There would be a freedom in that for her, away from the mayhem of New York, far away from the empty shell of a life she’d lived before, the cloying world of Bertram and AyerCooke.

  “Heather, wait.” Tanner moved to block the doorway. “I’m saying this all wrong.” He reached out his hand, placing it on her upper arm. He held her that way, at a distance, while she kept her eyes on his chest. She didn’t dare look up and risk him seeing the disappointment and defeat in her eyes.

  Tanner hadn’t anticipated the reaction he would feel when touching her. His nerves went haywire, energy pulsed through him, hot and urgent. His senses focused sharply in on her, and he became hyper-aware of her soft lips and their cupid bow curve at the top, the light smattering of freckles that danced about her nose and cheekbones, the thick curve of her eyebrows, and the lustrous waves of hair that fell down her back and around her shoulders.

  “Heather, look at me.” His voice came out hoarse and broken. It was his tone, not his command, which made Heather look up. She met his brown eyes, noticing for the first time the golden flecks around the iris and their look of burning intensity, so at odds with what he’d been saying a moment ago.

  Tanner lowered his head down to meet hers. She drew back by an inch, confused as to what he was doing. The hesitation on her part should have been enough to stop Tanner, to bring him back to reality. But despite the confusion in Heather’s eyes, he saw his own lust reciprocated. He closed the space between them, pressing his lips sweetly against hers.

  Heather broke the kiss first, taking a step backward. He let her, dropping his hand from her arm. They stayed like that for a heartbeat, neither of them breathing.

  “Tanner, I should—” He didn’t let her finish the sentence. He thrust his fingers deep into her hair, twining its strands around his fingers, pulling her forward by the back of her head. His lips dove down to meet hers, forcefully this time, pushing his mouth hungrily, deeper into the sweet taste of her mouth, molding her lush lips to his.

  Heather reached her hands around his waist, drawing them upward and clinging onto his broad back to push their bodies closer together. At her willingness, Tanner delved his tongue into her mouth, caressing hers in a motion that melted her insides and sent sensations shooting throughout her body all the way to the tips of her toes.

  Tanner reached his hands down toward her backside, greedily grabbing her flesh, thrusting her toward him. His body kept urging him onward, seeking satisfaction in Heather’s warm, sweet scent and her softness. Heather groaned softly against his mouth, and Tanner felt a familiar sensation growing in the pit of his stomach. He was about to turn. His bear wanted to claim her.

  Shit, Tanner mentally swore. He couldn’t let this happen. Not here, not now. He dragged his lips away from hers, with effort. His whole chest ached as he caught his breath. He took a few steps back, holding out an arm to warn her not to come any closer.

  “Heather—I’m sorry, I can’t—” he gasped.

  “No, I’m sorry. That shouldn’t have happened.” Heather fought to reclaim her sanity, her head spinning from the intensity of the kiss, and the visceral reaction of Tanner just now. What the hell had just happened? She turned and left without looking back at him. This time Tanner didn’t stop her.

  12

  “Well, well, well. If it isn’t my lucky night. Two Holt boys in one room,” Kellie Lane drawled, pushing her cleavage up on the bar and smiling seductively at Tanner, “What can I do you for?”

  “Just a beer. Thanks, Kellie,” Tanner replied, trying to keep his response polite. After the kiss with Heather, he’d felt restless and irritable, so he’d come to Jake’s Place, the seediest bar in Jackson Hole, where his brother would be the musical act tonight.

  “Your brother’s out back,” she continued as she flipped the lid off the bottle, “Want me to fetch him?”

  “Nope. I’ll wait. Thanks.” Tanner knew his brother got stage fright before a show, any show, no matter if it was the same tired bar he’d played at for the last five years.

  He didn’t have to wait long. His brother’s hulking figure could be seen weaving his way through the small tables that populated the barroom. He was roughly the same size as Tanner, but his features were lighter—blonde hair, blue eyes, and most people thought he had a slightly more cheerful and child-like countenance than Tanner, who was the older of the two.

  “Nice surprise to see you here, bro. What’s the occasion?” Derek Holt grinned, and came to sit down on the adjacent bar stool.

  “Advice,” Tanner deadpanned.

  His brother laughed loudly, “Tanner Holt coming to me for advice? We’re in dire straits, people.”

  “You don’t need advice, Tanner, you need a good woman,” Kellie interrupted, pushing a double whisky Derek’s way. She winked at Tanner and then sashayed away to serve another customer.

  “My problem exactly,” Tanner muttered under his breath.

  “You got women trouble?” asked Derek, “You’ve come to the right place.” He gestured around the bar. There were quite a few women gathered together at various tables, all glancing quite obviously over at the two men.

  “Not that kind of trouble.” Tanner took a sip of beer. It was cold and refreshing, and he felt himself start to relax. He’d come to Jake’s Place lots of times in the past to pick up women. It was easy. There were plenty of women who’d happily keep him company for a night then disappear in the morning before Chloe woke up. It was the ones that wanted more who occasionally caused him headaches. Kellie Lane was one such woman.

  “Let’s grab a table,” Tanner said, aware that Kellie could easily eavesdrop on their conversation.

  “Sure.” Derek looked sidelong at his brother. He’d never seen Tanner like this. Well, apart from the night when he’d discovered Chloe’s mother-to-be at his door.

  Tanner took a long sip of his beer, “I think I’ve found my mate.” Someone on the makeshift stage dropped the cymbals of a drum set. They clattered to the floor making an ungodly racket. Tanner smirked. It perfectly exemplified his feelings.

  “Mate? Shit. That’s big, bro.” Derek raised his eyebrows, waiting for more details.

  “Yeah. Feels big.” Tanner ran his hands through his hair and stared at the beer mat. “Chloe actually sent off for her, through one of those mail order bride things.”

  “What? She’s ten. How the hell’d she do that?” Derek exclaimed.

  “Internet. I’m putting in a child lock or something on that thing next week. Anyway, a woman came. Heather. The moment I saw her, my bear took over.” He glanced up at his brother’s worried face, “Not like that. I just had to run it out. But it was instantaneous. I had no control.”

  His brother looked at him with understanding. Derek had yet to find a mate, but he understood what his brother meant.
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  “Have you thought about telling her?” Derek tentatively suggested.

  “Are you kidding? Derek, she’s an angel. You should see her—she’s this perfect, beautiful angel. She’ll hate me.” Tanner had vowed never to reveal that side of himself to anyone, not even Chloe. She had no idea who her father really was.

  “But if she’s your mate, then it won’t matter,” Derek argued.

  “Where you hear that?” retorted Tanner.

  “I’ve thought about it, that’s all. Your true mate wouldn’t reject you—it wouldn’t work like that—otherwise, how would we breed?” Derek reasoned. He had waited years to meet his mate. It was maybe the one thing that gave him hope. He knew that he and Tanner were the loneliest guys in Jackson Hole. At least Tanner had Chloe. He had no one. Just a horrible secret, a fledging career, and an expensive drinking habit.

  “I don’t know about that. It’s a good thought, bro, but if you’re wrong, and I lose her…. If you met her, you’d realize. She’s amazing—beautiful, curvy, her hair…she’s incredible with Chloe, too. That girl’s eyes light up whenever she’s around. I’ve never seen anything like it.” Tanner could have gone on all night, but he stopped on seeing the longing in his brother’s eyes.

  “Sounds like you struck gold, brother. Don’t let you be the problem.” Derek drained his whisky and motioned to Kellie at the bar to bring him another.

  “Easier said than done. I don’t know how to handle this at all.” Tanner looked imploringly at his brother, half-hoping that he’d have some answers.

  “Well,” Derek was aware he wasn’t anything close to an expert, but he tried to think of something constructive to say, “have you been nice, you know, treated her well?”

  “I don’t think so, not really. I was just kind of shocked, and I haven’t really known what to say to her. We kissed.” He drained the last of his beer, and stared down the empty bottleneck.

  “That’s a start. What happened after?”

  “I came here,” Tanner replied shortly.

  “You just left?” Derek asked disbelievingly, “What kind of dumb-ass move is that?”

  “My bear was coming out,” Tanner growled back in reply.

  “She doesn’t know that!”

  “Jesus, Derek, I was looking for advice, not a ball-busting.” Tanner felt totally lost, truly out of his depth.

  His and Derek’s upbringing had been a far cry from ideal, and he supposed this was one of those times when that kind of thing showed, when you had to man up and tell your mate how you felt about her, when you had to trust that the two of you collided for a reason, and when you had to grab the chance, while you could.

  “I’m sorry. Truth is, I don’t know anything about this stuff. But you should tell her who you really you are. Otherwise, you don’t have a hope in hell, brother.” Derek smiled as Kellie approached with a drinks tray.

  “Bought you a whisky and a beer.” Kellie winked at Tanner and he nodded his thanks in return. “I was thinking, you and me, we should do something later this week. I got nights off.”

  “Err, sure.” Tanner kicked himself as the words came out and tried to call Kellie back to tell her that he was busy on the ranch this week, but she’d already left.

  “Smooth, brother,” quipped Derek.

  “Shut it. She’ll forget,” Tanner replied, only half-believing it himself.

  “I’d happily take that bullet for you,” Derek laughed loudly at his own joke.

  “Really? Kellie?” Tanner raised his eyebrows.

  “Yeah, really. I haven’t got a hope in hell of meeting a mate. I got nothing waiting for me but lonely nights, empty sex, and emptier bottles. I’m not complaining, it’s just the truth of it. I could do worse than Kellie.” He downed his second whisky. “You might want to think about that before you freeze out that woman of yours.”

  Derek stood up and left the table, slapping his brother on the back and slinging a leather jacket over his shoulder. Tanner watched him go.

  13

  Heather sat luxuriating in the warm breeze, watching a hawk swoop, dip, and soar across the sky as if putting on a performance for the diners. She was seated on the patio of The Rusty Parrot Lodge, Jackson Hole’s one and only four-star restaurant. The view was breathtakingly beautiful. The patio looked out onto the Grand Teton mountain range. The snowy peaks glittered in the sun, which was rapidly making its descent as the evening approached.

  Tanner had gone to speak to the chef, an old friend of his. Heather was amazed how many people he knew in Jackson Hole. Everywhere they went, he was greeted enthusiastically. Many people went out of their way to show him fresh produce at the various market stands they’d passed or new stock at the hunting store; mothers wanted to show-off their babies and ask about Chloe. Tanner was patient and warm in every exchange, and Heather was pleasantly surprised to see him so relaxed and at ease.

  When she’d woken up this morning, she’d come downstairs to discover a different man from the one she kissed last night. She’d been dreading seeing him again, so embarrassed about the kiss they’d shared and his swift exit from the house right after. She needn’t have worried. He had been making pancakes for her and Chloe when she saw him, and he treated her with warmth and grace. He’d asked her if she wanted to come and see the town with him. She’d hesitated, but ultimately agreed after Chloe had joined in and insisted that she went. It was only later, when Tanner had left the room and Josiah came in asking where Tanner was because they had a busy day ahead, that she realized that he was going out of his way to make her feel at home. Whatever she felt for him, and whatever he didn’t feel for her, she appreciated the sacrifice and happily climbed into his Chevy Silverado, ready to spend the day in his company.

  “Okay, so, the chef’s doing something special for us, no idea what it’s going to be, but I know it’s going to be good,” Tanner smiled down at her and took his seat.

  “Great. How do you know him?” Heather suddenly felt nervous. They had spent the entire day in each other’s company, but it had been full of sightseeing and activity. Now that it was just the two of them, Heather couldn’t help but notice, once again, his broad chest, thick, defined biceps, and how the t-shirt he wore stretched over them, accentuating them, and how attracted she was to him.

  “Actually, he tried to teach me how to cook,” Tanner grinned, “Not that any of it stuck.”

  “What? You had a chef teach you, and you still didn’t learn anything?” Heather had to laugh, “Okay, there’s really no help for you, Tanner Holt.”

  The atmosphere changed as she finished her words. Tanner looked at her intently, his eyes soft on hers, and she felt her stomach flip over in response.

  “I like the way my name sounds on your lips.” He leaned forward and with his thumb he gently skated her bottom lip. Slowly removing his hand, he leaned back in his chair again, watching her. Heather blushed and looked down at her napkin and cutlery, trying to hide the smile spreading across her face.

  On sensing her obvious discomfort, Tanner changed tactics. “How do you like Jackson Hole so far?”

  “I love it!” Heather exclaimed, “It’s so beautiful, so wild and peaceful all at the same time. You’re lucky to live here. Is it where you grew up?”

  The spark that had been in Tanner’s eyes visibly dimmed, and there was a pause before he responded, “No. I grew up in Wilkes. my brother and I moved here a while ago.”

  Heather was perceptive enough to realize that she should drop the subject, but she was amazed there had been no mention of a brother, especially considering his brother lived in Jackson Hole.

  “Are you close with him, your brother?” she asked tentatively.

  “Yeah, we’re close. I saw him last night.”

  The night after they’d kissed. She’d wondered where he’d gone, but it certainly hadn’t been her place to ask.

  “Oh.” She could feel herself reddening.

  “He plays at a bar in town. He’s good. Talented guy,” Tanner tried to
put her at ease. He knew family was going to come up; he just never felt prepared to talk too much about his.

  “Does he get along with Chloe?” Heather asked, feeling that this would be more comfortable territory. She was right; Tanner perceptibly relaxed.

  “Yeah, she loves him. He doesn’t come around to the house too often, but they get along great when he does.”

  A waiter arrived with a bottle of red wine and proceeded to fill up their glasses. Heather was glad for the drink; her nerves weren’t receding in the slightest.

  “What about her mom? Where is she, if you don’t mind me asking?” Heather took a fortifying sip of the wine.

  “No, I don’t. Sadly, she passed away. Chloe never met her. She died in childbirth.”

  “I’m so sorry, Tanner. That’s awful.” Heather felt a wave of compassion for the man. What a horrible thing to happen. It would explain why he’d never married. How could anyone ever recover from that kind of heartbreak? She could imagine the two of them, excited to start a family and making plans to raise their children in that beautiful ranch. It also explained his reluctance to let the kiss continue last night. It may have been years since she passed away, but some people never let go. Some people held on forever. Her own father had done the same thing, unable to find comfort in the arms of another woman after her mother died.

  “Yeah, apparently, Chloe’s found it difficult without a mom.” He smiled at Heather, sharing the humor around her arrival. “What about you? What about your life in New York?”

  Heather sighed and smiled at Tanner. She honestly didn’t know where to begin. None of it seemed to paint her in a particularly attractive light.

  “Well, I was engaged to a man. My father’s business partner. The relationship ended when my father passed away a few months ago.”