Infraction

by Rachel Van Dyken

  Chapter Thirty-Five KINSEY My dad didn’t look like himself. He was more pale than normal, and his lips were drawn back against his teeth like he was having trouble sucking in air and couldn’t quite get enough moisture in his mouth to lick them—or maybe he was just so exhausted he didn’t want to bother. What I was looking at was not my father. It was a shell. And in that moment. I wanted for him to have that peace. I wanted for him to be free. I wanted for him to let go. Because my father was gone. Amazing how death sneaks up on a person, how it changes even the shell of the body, making the person unrecognizable, maybe it’s the fact that the soul’s finally releasing its tendrils around the human heart, maybe it’s the soul that gives up first and realizes that this was never the plan, to live with sickness—but to live free from it. Dad smiled up at us. “Anyone bring any cookies?” Harley handed over the plate and winked. “You keep this one, son.” Dad grabbed a cookie and lifted it to his

  Chapter Thirty-Six MILLER “Something’s been bothering me,” Ben said in a casual tone. “Wanna know what it is?” “I’m sure you’re going to tell me regardless, so go ahead.” I took a seat and offered him a polite smile as I leaned down and folded my hands to keep from doing something stupid like grabbing his and crying like a little boy over the fact that the woman I loved was losing her dad and the only thing I could do about it was watch. “You talked with Kinsey and Jax, naturally they talk to their mom, and their mom talks to me.” He shrugged. “We’re talkers.” “Everyone but Jax.” “Hah!” He laughed. “He’s more of a thinker.” He took a deep breath. “Your mom . . . Kinsey says she died suddenly.” I’d literally only talked to Kinsey about my mom a handful of times. Suddenly guilty, I nodded. “Did you ever mourn, son?” I shook my head. “No, but I’m getting better.” “Not good enough. Not for me. Not for her. It’s okay to hurt here.” He touched his chest. “And to remember them here.” He point

  Chapter Thirty-Seven JAX Miller and Kinsey went to grab a bite to eat while I made sure my mom had everything she needed for the night. She refused to leave his side. I didn’t blame her, couldn’t blame her since I wanted to do the same thing. But according to my dad, I had rough practices and an even tougher game later that week, and since I made a promise to win and stop getting into fights, I knew it was time to go. I held Harley’s hand and walked her all the way to my car. I wasn’t sure what to say. Words seemed so . . . inappropriate in this kind of situation. Thank you for making cookies for my dying dad didn’t quite cut it either. Thanks for holding my hand when all I wanted to do was break. Thanks for being you. Thanks for not running away. I clamped my lips together the entire ride back to my apartment. Not even thinking that she might want to go home. Thankfully, Harley didn’t protest. Simply dropped her purse onto the countertop of my pristine granite and then reached for my

  Chapter Thirty-Eight MILLER Preseason Game 2 San Francisco vs. Bellevue Home Turf Favored Team: Bellevue Bucks Coach stomped into the locker room, took one look around, and cleared his throat. “Men, normally I wouldn’t be giving a speech before a preseason game, and if I did, it would center around playing your heart out to secure a spot with this program. But today, after this last week, I feel like some words are warranted.” He turned his attention to Jax. “When one of us hurts, all of us hurts, that’s what brotherhood is about, we suffer together, we stand together, so when we walk out there, I want to see unity, I want the world to know what type of team they’re cheering for. This goes beyond football. This, men, is life. You never know who may be watching, who may need to see their heroes stand tall. Play like heroes today, and you’ll win.” Nobody made eye contact. Probably because it was one of the best speeches any of us had ever heard, and every damn one of us had tears in our

  Chapter Thirty-Nine KINSEY His kisses were like a drug. His hands, possessive, just the way they’d always been since that first time. When his tongue circled around my belly button, I almost kicked him in the face. “You’re beautiful.” Miller’s mouth covered mine. “So beautiful.” “You sure you’re not too sore? You did get hit a lot today.” “You’re worth it.” He winced a bit as he hovered over me. “Nope!” I crawled out from underneath him and walked naked all the way over to the shower, turned on the hot water, and pointed. “In, now.” “Bossy,” he grumbled, standing up and sliding off his pants until all I saw was mocha-kissed skin and abs, so many abs I was dizzy. “See something you like?” “Somethings.” I shrugged. “Plural.” He stopped in front of me. My hands found his chest and then he was kissing me against the wall, lifting me into the shower, teasing my tongue with his. Hot water pelted against my back, wetting my hair as pieces stuck to my face. “Love you.” His head fell as he nuzz

  Epilogue MILLER The funeral was three weeks later. Not one. Three. I’d like to think that he fought a little bit harder because he wanted to see grandchildren. Cancer had spread everywhere until it was impossible for him to breathe without help. And when it was time. We were all with him. Even Sanchez and Em. The team was in the waiting room. My family. Six years ago, I’d lost my family, I’d lost everything. And now? I had around eighty people I called brother, a few I called sister, several I called friends. One I would soon call fiancée. I cried. I had promised him I’d let myself. I cried for him. I cried for my mom. I cried for Kinsey and Jax. I cried for me. For all those times I held the tears in for fear of looking weak in front of my dad, for fear that once I let go I wouldn’t stop. And when dirt was thrown onto his casket. I smiled. Because he was at peace. “Cheers.” Jax walked up with a bottle of whiskey and seven shot glasses, each of us took one and waited for him to pour. O

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  About the Author Photo © 2014 Lauren Watson Perry, Perrywinkle Photography Rachel Van Dyken is a New York Times, Wall Street Journal, and USA Today bestselling author. When she’s not writing about hot hunks for her Regency romance or New Adult fiction books, Rachel is dreaming up new hunks. (The more hunks, the merrier!) While Rachel writes a lot, she also makes sure she enjoys the finer things in life—like The Bachelor and strong coffee. Rachel lives in Idaho with her husband, son, and two boxers. Fans can follow her writing journey at www.RachelVanDykenAuthor.com and www.facebook.com/rachelvandyken.

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  Contents

  Prologue MILLER

  Chapter One KINSEY

  Chapter Two MILLER

  Chapter Three KINSEY

  Chapter Four MILLER

  Chapter Five JAX

  Chapter Six KINSEY

  Chapter Seven MILLER

  Chapter Eight JAX

  Chapter Nine KINSEY

  Chapter Ten MILLER

  Chapter Eleven KINSEY

  Chapter Twelve MILLER

  Chapter Thirteen KINSEY

  Chapter Fourteen MILLER

  Chapter Fifteen KINSEY

  Chapter Sixteen MILLER

  Chapter Seventeen JAX

  Chapter Eighteen KINSEY

  Chapter Nineteen MILLER

  Chapter Twenty KINSEY

  Chapter Twenty-One MILLER

  Chapter Twenty-Two MILLER

  Chapter Twenty-Three JAX

  Chapter Twenty-Four KINSEY

  Chapter Twenty-Five MILLER

  Chapter Twenty-Six KINSEY

  Chapter Twenty-Seven MILLER

  Chapter Twenty-Eight JAX

  Chapter Twenty-Nine KINSEY

  Chapter Thirty MILLER

  Chapter Thirty-One KINSEY

  Chapter Thirty-Two JAX

  Chapter Thirty-Three KINSEY

  Chapter Thirty-Four MILLER

  Chapter Thirty-Five KINSEY

  Chapter Thirty-Six MILLER

  Chapter Thirty-Seven JAX

  Chapter Thirty-Eight MILLER

  Chapter Thirty-Nine KINSEY

  Epilogue MILLER

  Acknowledgments

  About the Author

  Prologue

  MILLER

  “Our secret, right?” Her worried gaze was not setting me at ease, not in the least. Already my body rejected the idea of keeping secrets, especially from her brother, my best friend, the first-string quarterback for the Bucks, the guy I was supposed to block for and catch balls from—the same one who, years ago, had locked his sister in their house so she missed prom. That dude.

  “Right.” She licked her lips, shuffled out of the bedroom, and snuck back onto the couch. My body felt her absence.

  I shouldn’t have kissed her.

  She shouldn’t have kissed me back.

  And she sure as hell shouldn’t have crawled onto me.

  Damn it, I sure as hell shouldn’t have let her!

  Maybe it was me. My fault. Maybe I was still torn up over the fact that my childhood best friend—the girl I thought I was still in love with—was currently engaged to Sanchez, our wide receiver and basically the only guy in the universe who was hard to hate despite being a cocky shit.

  I slammed the pillow with both hands and then shoved it to the floor.

  Kinsey crept back into the bedroom. “Sorry, I forgot my um . . .” She pointed to the floor, blushing, and then smacked herself on the forehead. “Underwear. I had underwear. I can’t find them. We need to find my underwear, Miller!” A sheet flew into the air, followed by a throw pillow.

  I dodged. “Stop panicking.” Why, why did she have to be so gorgeous?

  I tossed the remainder of the sheets while she looked under the bed. Jax had texted that he was coming by to talk to me, and if he found her in my bedroom, there would be bloodshed and absolutely no words shared between us. The guy literally told me that he would poison any guy from the team who dated her, and when I called his bluff, he showed me the search history on his phone for graphic ways to get away with murder. The guy was either psychotic or just really took his sister’s sex life way too seriously—or both.

  Well done, Miller, get traded to the Bucks, and after the first championship season you decide to fuck Jax’s sister! Stellar plan!

  “Found them!” she shouted triumphantly, thrusting a lacy pair of panties into the air like a trophy while my body went rock hard over the graphic images those panties conjured up. Images of my hands on her body, my mouth sucking her dry. I gulped. Yeah, I was getting poisoned today. No doubt about it. Especially since the moment I stepped toward her, Jax’s voice filled the large penthouse.

  “Miller, you in your room? Where’s Kins?”

  She hid on the other side of the bed while I quickly met him at my bedroom door. “Kins? Hell if I know, maybe you should put a bell on her? Better yet, one of those tracking collars they give dogs?”

  “Good plan.” He rol
led his eyes. “Look, I know you were up late last night getting drunk off your ass.” It was my turn to roll my eyes. We won the championship. THE championship. Of course I’d gotten drunk off my ass. “But, I have a favor to ask.”

  “Sure.” I shrugged, mouth dry. I’d do anything to get him out of my room. “Whatever you want, man, it’s yours.”

  “Great.” He sighed in relief. “It’s just, one of Kinsey’s exes moved back and the guy’s bad news—so I need your help.”

  “Want me to kill him?” I offered, completely on board with the idea but pissed at myself for thinking I had some sort of stake or claim on a girl that days ago I wasn’t even pining over or thinking about.

  God, she smelled good.

  “Miller?”

  “Huh? Yes?” I blinked. Shit, what else had he said?

  “Anyway, I think if we just pack her shit, things will go faster.”

  “Faster,” I repeated slowly.

  Jax leaned in. “You still drunk, man?”

  On his sister? Hell yeah, I was. “Nope, totally stone-cold sober.” And hard, still hard. That too.

  “Our grandma’s been missing her anyways, so this is the perfect plan. I just don’t have time to pack up all her crap and try to convince her it’s a good idea.”

  “Am I the packer or the talker?” I tried not to flinch when he stared me down like I was on medication.

  “Dude, that’s the favor. Seriously, not drunk, not even a little bit? You guys are close. Convince my crazy sister to go to Europe for the summer so I don’t have to worry about that little shit getting into her head while we’re training for the preseason.”

  I gulped. “What makes you think she’d listen to me?”