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Raney

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by Clyde Edgerton


  Now if we do talk about sex in a counseling session, I won’t know what to say. Charles is the one who sets things up, as I said. He figures out the time and place and we just do it. Usually in bed where it’s supposed to be done of course. There was that one time on the rug. That was certainly different. And it did make me feel kind of brazen or whatever the word is. I guess if Charles and me did talk about it, I could say that I didn’t mind that on the rug and it would be all right with me if we did it in there again. I kind of liked the way the rug felt on my back.

  Oh well, maybe I can suggest it sometime. That’s what all these E.R.A. people are starting to say: that women can do about whatever they want to. Cosmopolitan. My Lord. But I would feel very unnatural taking over the man’s position like they talk about. I just couldn’t do it.

  PART THREE

  The Feed Room

  I

  Dr. Bridges agreed for us to stop therapy after seven sessions and see how things go for a while. We don’t stay mad so long at a time as we did and we’re able to say how we feel better than we were before.

  I’ve got a new part time job.

  Daddy’s store—the Hope Road General Store—is at the intersection of Crossville and Hope Roads. It’s a normal general store with a porch on the front and a feed room built onto the side and three gas pumps out front. Daddy’s had it as long as I can remember. When I was little I used to go with him out there some nights and help. I’d wait on a few people while he watched and he’d let me make price signs with crayons and meat wrapping paper. And I would go into the feed room where the feed sacks were as big as me and tight as ticks and smelled musky and I’d climb up on them and crawl around until Daddy came in and got me and we started home.

  I stopped in yesterday morning when I was coming back from the dentist. I walked in and stood just inside the door.

  In the back, behind the stove, was Uncle Nate’s wicker bottom chair—with the little flat navy blue pillow. It hit me all of a sudden that I could take Uncle Nate’s place—in a way. I had been thinking about doing some part time work. Daddy gives Charles and me money—he insists. I hate to keep taking it, but he won’t talk about it, or else goes on and on about how he don’t want us to have the same hard times that him and Mama had when they started out.

  The store definitely needs a woman. First of all, right in the middle of the bread section—which is just inside the door—is this great big minnow tank which they don’t keep cleaned out good. The water’s so muddy you could drive a fence post down in it. And it smells. Who’s going to want to buy a loaf of bread standing there beside that mudhole with several dead suffocated minnows floating on top?

  The thing to do is clean that thing up and move it to the back where the overalls and water buckets and wash tubs and stuff like that is. Then we could put a sign up in the bread section saying MINNOW TANK IN BACK.

  Sneeds Perry, who as I said is running the place, will sit with a toothpick in his mouth watching the air move while the floor fills up with cigarette butts and the bottle cap holder on the drink box gets so full that your bottle cap just plings down onto the floor and rolls up under something.

  But Sneeds is generally nice. That’s why I think I could work with him. And Daddy said the other day that it was going to be hard to find part time help to take Uncle Nate’s place. I could take care of the stuff inside while Sneeds pumps gas. Like I say, this all hit me out of the clear blue. It seemed like just the thing to do.

  Sneeds was working on a radio that was sitting on a shelf over behind the cash register. He had the front off and was doing something to it with a screw driver.

  I spoke to him. He looked over his shoulder and said, “Howdy, Raney.” Then I walked along the canned and boxed food aisles. Some of the food had just about disappeared under dust: there were cans of corn that could grow corn.

  Then there are all those shelves built into the front windows. They’re so stuffed you can’t see out. Or in. There are hats and boots and oil cans all stuck in there. And combs and handkerchiefs on these dusty cardboard displays. I figured I could have all that cleaned out and windexed in a afternoon. Just that little bit of work would change the whole atmosphere.

  I knew I’d be a real asset to the place and if Sneeds and Daddy and Charles all said okay, I’d be in.

  I walked over to the cash register and said, “Sneeds, you need a woman’s touch around this place.”

  “That’s for sure,” he says. He put down his screw driver, turned around and shifted his toothpick. “What you got in mind?” Sneeds always wears a little black toboggin, engineer boots, rolled up dungarees, and a flannel shirt—summer or winter.

  “Well, if I worked in here part time for a while I could have this place looking real nice. What I mean is I got some ideas about moving things around, you know: rearranging a bit. To help sales go up. Then too, when you have to go out and pump gas I could stay in here and watch things.”

  “Fine with me,” he says. “I’ll tell you there’s plenty of woman’s work around here and like I always said: a woman’s work is for a woman. I hate it. Talk to your Daddy.”

  I’ll say he hates it. “Then it’d be all right with you?”

  “Sure.”

  That was easy enough. So I drove to Mama’s and Daddy’s. Daddy’s truck was out front. He was in the kitchen drinking a cup of coffee and eating a piece of pound cake like he’s done just about every day of his life.

  “Afternoon,” he says. “Where you been?”

  “I’ve been to the dentist. Fourteen dollars—just for a cleaning. Listen daddy, I’ve got a idea: why don’t I start working at the store?”

  “What’s the matter with you, honey? You don’t need a job.”

  “Daddy, it would just be part time. That store is a mess. And with Uncle Nate gone now—you need somebody part time. If I move a few things around in there and get it cleaned up, you’ll do a better business. I guarantee it.”

  “Honey, don’t nothing much but farmers come in there. We sell more cigarettes, drinks, chicken wire, fence posts, and such than anything else. No need to try to make it into something that won’t have no market.”

  “I don’t mean change it. I mean make it better. That fish tank stuck in the bread section is just awful. It ought to be moved to the back. The place needs a woman’s touch. All I want to do is go in there a few afternoons a week after I get the housework done. It’d give me a chance to talk to people and make a little spending money.” Daddy didn’t say anything. “Don’t you think it’d be all right, Mama?”

  “Well, I don’t know. Maybe. Until you all start thinking about raising a family.” She was drying the last dinner dish.

  “Now, honey,” said Daddy, “I told you not to worry about money for a while. You know I don’t want you going through the troubles me and your mama had.”

  “Daddy, I’m getting bored at home. I need a place to work—part time at least.”

  Daddy stuck the last piece of cake in his mouth and put down his fork. “I’m not so sure it’ll be as much fun as you think it will,” he said with his mouth full of cake, losing a couple of crumbs; “but if you’ve got your mind set on it, go ahead. I’ll tell you what, try it for one week and then let me know what you think.”

  I hugged his neck and told him to brush the crumbs off his chin.

  Next, Charles.

  It was Friday, so Charles had cooked: pork chops, new potatoes, and some early turnip salet Aunt Flossie had brought by. He’s been cooking on Friday nights because he says it helps him unwind from the library.

  “Charles, this pork chop is delicious,” I said. “I declare, we’re going to have to open you up a restaurant.”

  “Thanks.”

  “Listen, Charles, not to change the subject, but I want to work at Daddy’s store. Full time.” (I figured I’d give myself room to compromise down to three-fourths and finally to half time.)

  “Raney, we don’t need the money. Your father said he’d help us get on our fee
t. You know he wouldn’t want you working at that store.”

  “He said it would be fine. I asked him this afternoon.”

  Charles sat there looking at me and chewing on a piece of pork chop long after it was chewed up. “Your daddy said okay?”

  “He sure did. You’re so cute.”

  “Raney, you’d get tired of it. Why do you want to work at that store?”

  “It needs a woman’s touch. And it’d be fun. I stopped in there this afternoon and that’s exactly what it needs—a woman’s touch. That place could be fixed up real nice, so housewives would enjoy shopping in there. That minnow tank had two dead minnows in it and there’s Sneeds Perry working on a radio; and most of the time he’s sitting out by the front door, leaning up against the side of the building with a toothpick in his mouth, counting to see which is most that day: Fords or Chevrolets.”

  “Raney, you can’t just walk in there and change that place around. And you know what kind of people go in there all the time.”

  “No, I don’t,” I said. “What kind of people go in there all the time?”

  “Well, housewives don’t—much. They go to the Piggly Wiggly in Bethel.”

  “What kind of people do go in there then?”

  “A bunch of men who . . . who stand around and spit on the floor.”

  “Charles, there are three oil cans with dirt in the bottom over by the stove for people to spit in.”

  “It’s not the clientele you should be around all day.”

  “Please tell me what that is supposed to mean.”

  “What it means is: the people who hang around that store are a bunch of rednecks—in the truest sense.”

  “Charles, Uncle Nate used to work out there, and my own flesh and blood daddy happens to own it, and he ‘hangs around’ out there.”

  “Look, Raney, it would never work. It would never work. I just don’t want you stuck in that store all day. Especially with Sneeds Perry.”

  “Charles Shepherd, you’ve got to be kidding. Sneeds is as harmless as a flea. The main reason Daddy has him there is Sneeds knows everybody and has a real easy way about him with the customers. It’s his cousin Sam that causes all the problems. And he’s honest. That’s what I’ve heard Daddy say. And for heaven’s sake, he’s got rotten teeth and wears the same clothes all the time.” (The thing is, I’ve never actually smelled Sneeds. Daddy says he has just three shirts and that he’ll wear them for two or three days each and then he’ll wear this sweater one day—the day he’s getting the shirts cleaned. Then he starts over again. But he’s never actually smelled as far as I could ever tell.) “I’ll tell you what, Charles: if you’re so worried, I’ll work just three-fourths time.”

  “Raney, we don’t need the money.”

  “I’m getting bored staying home and I don’t feel right about keeping on taking handouts from Daddy, Charles.”

  Charles chews for a while. “Your Daddy wouldn’t be happy unless he was helping us out.”

  “Maybe so, but that’s off the subject. . . .”

  “Raney, I don’t think—”

  “Okay, okay, okay. Half time—but then I might as well not be working at all. Half time; I’ll do it half time.”

  Charles chewed some more. “Go ahead. I don’t want to be the one to stop you. But don’t say I didn’t warn you.”

  “Warn me about what?”

  “You won’t like it.”

  “I bet I will.”

  While Charles cleaned up after supper, he left the strainer out of the sink and the water turned on, but I was so happy about him saying yes about me working, I didn’t say anything about it. But I do need to mention it next time. In marriage counseling we talked about how you shouldn’t carry around little grudges because they grow bigger and uglier while you carry them around. Next time he leaves the strainer out, I’ll mention it.

  II

  The subject of me working came up at Sunday dinner at Mama’s just before I went to work on Monday. Aunt Naomi, Aunt Flossie, Norris, and Mary Faye were there, and so was Preacher Gordon. Mama invites him about twice a year. I like him a lot but Charles seems a little less certain.

  Preacher Gordon asked the blessing of course—a right long one—and we started passing the food around. While he helped his plate, Preacher Gordon talked about the family that had come down during the invitation that morning. They transferred their letter and rededicated their lives to Christ—except for their teenage son. His hair was about dragging the floor. They were from Maryland, I think. Moved here to work at the new G.E. plant. Charles has been going to church more regular lately and was there that morning. The secret is not to ask him to go. He’s also been talking to Mr. Ford and Mr. Clawson after the service about fishing in their ponds. I told him if they said okay to be sure to ask them to go with him when he went. You can tell they like the attention Charles gives them about fishing.

  Aunt Naomi, while she’s passing the cornbread, says, “What’s this I hear about you working at the store, Raney?”

  I wondered, from the tone of her voice, what she was getting at. “That’s right,” I said. “Part time, for a while anyway. I was getting bored at home and that store needs a woman’s touch, inside at least.”

  “I been bored at home plenty times myself,” says Aunt Naomi. “But you know, when you think about it, there’s more than enough to do around a house—if it’s done right I mean—to keep a body busy.”

  “It sure is,” I said. “But Charles helps me.”

  “Well, you know, I mean stuff a woman needs to do.” Aunt Naomi was salting her mashed potatoes.

  Norris took Mary Faye’s biscuit. She grabbed at it and Mama made him give it back.

  “I think a man can do anything a woman can do in the home,” said Charles. “As long as the woman will turn loose and let him.” Charles looked at me and squinted his eyes.

  “That’s fine and good,” says Aunt Naomi. “I agree there is a place for a husband in the home—helping out some, but. . . .” She looked around and settled on Preacher Gordon. “I mean some of this getting out of our places is what you preached about that Sunday, Preacher Gordon—Charles, I don’t think you were there—about all that’s going on out in society these days.”

  “Well,” Preacher Gordon said. He laughed. “That’s right, but Raney said ‘part time.’ She’s probably not considering leaving the home full time, especially if she and Charles decide to have some little ones.”

  “I have a question for you about that,” says Charles.

  “Sure,” says Preacher Gordon.

  Mama says, “Now I want us to enjoy our dinner. Maybe we ought to talk about something else.”

  There was a pause.

  “These biscuits are delicious, Doris,” said Preacher Gordon. “And everything else. MMMummm.”

  “He’s just going to ask a question,” says Aunt Flossie.

  “I think it’s all right to talk about it,” I said.

  “I just hate to talk about politics at the dinner table,” says Mama.

  “This ain’t politics, Mama,” I said.

  “Well, whatever.”

  “What’s your question?” asks Aunt Flossie.

  “I was wondering,” says Charles to Preacher Gordon, “suppose Raney and I had a full time job each, and a baby. Not that we will, but suppose. I’m just wondering how you relate that set-up to the scriptures, Mr. Gordon? Or do you?”

  “Well, I’ll be happy to talk about that,” said Preacher Gordon. “And to also give some indication of how—”

  “You didn’t get the pickle dish, did you?” says Aunt Naomi, handing the pickle dish to Preacher Gordon. She was across from him.

  “Yes, I did. I don’t care for any—well, maybe I’ll take one of these.”

  “They’re the sweet. Do you like the sweet?”

  “Oh, yes. And to, ah, give some indication, Charles, of how I go about answering a question like that for myself.”

  “Dill is my favorite,” says Aunt Naomi.
r />   I hadn’t thought about Charles and me both working and having a baby all at the same time, but if something happened to Daddy. . . . Charles does not make a very big salary at the college. So I was interested in what Preacher Gordon had to say. I had missed that sermon too, I think. It must have been the Sunday we left after Sunday School to go to Williamsburg. Charles had insisted we leave after Sunday School.

  “First I go to the Bible,” says Preacher Gordon. “I have to either find a direct answer itself or a firm foundation for an answer which I would hope I could find in the life of Jesus. It’s surprising how much territory the parables and the Sermon on the Mount cover. Then, of course, there are the letters of Paul and so forth.”

  “So how would you relate this hypothetical case I just mentioned to the scriptures?” asks Charles.

  “Doris, did you put lemon in the tea?” says Aunt Naomi.

  “Naomi, let him finish,” said Aunt Flossie.

  “Yes, I did,” said Mama. “Did you want lemon in your tea, Preacher Gordon?”

  “Oh, yes. I’ve got some, I believe.”

  “I just couldn’t see any,” says Aunt Naomi. “Oh, there it is, under your ice. Oh my, there’s mine too! Doris, you must have put the lemon in first, then the ice.”

  “That’s the way I always do it,” said Mama. “That way it gets mixed in with—”

  “Wait a minute!” I practically shouted. “I want to hear this about working. I never thought about it being in the Bible.”

  “Simply put,” said Preacher Gordon, and wiped his mouth, “I believe the scripture is quite clear on this. The man is the head of the household, the breadwinner so to speak, and the woman is the natural mother of course, whose principal responsibility is to the home itself: especially the raising up of the children under God’s word and laws. And then too we understand, or I understand, from the Old Testament that Adam was made by God, in the image of God, for God, and that Eve was made by God, from the man, for the man.”

 

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