The Billionaire's Bride: A Fake Marriage Romance
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“Or shoplifting,” he says with a smile I can almost hear in his deep voice.
“Hey!”
“Yeah, I still remember the story, from that little speech you gave at the start of the class.”
“But that was so long ago. I can't believe you remember.”
“Six years ago,” he says.
“Wow. I really can't believe you remember that,” I say. “That's kind of my point, though. I grew up poor. I’ve seen that desperation firsthand. You can't blame me for shoplifting for my little sister, who was starving at home. If I had money when I was seventeen, and a sister who could eat whatever she wanted at home, I wouldn't have done it in the first place. There would’ve been no need.
“So, all things being the same, I would’ve had less incentive to do it. I wouldn't have taken that risk.
“Now, there would always be that one person who’d commit crimes for the hell of it, regardless of his finances, but let's just leave him out of it for now.” I realize I’m droning on and I’m starting to feel self-conscious about it. I look back at Seth, waiting for some kind of reaction.
“Okay,” Seth says. “So that guy who has money is just an asshole who goes around committing crimes for fun. Nice. Thank you. Good to know that's what you think about me,” he says sarcastically. After a couple awkward seconds, he laughs. “I’m not that easily offended. I’m an ex-con, remember?”
I laugh with relief. I don't know if I’ll ever learn to distinguish whether Seth is being serious or just delivering dry humor with a deadpan expression. But I’m glad he's interested enough to listen and make jokes about it.
“Okay, so, even if that one guy who has money gets arrested, he can hire a big, expensive team of attorneys, unlike most people. That means he's less likely to get sent to prison.”
“I see,” Seth says.
“So what was a guy like you doing in prison?” I repeat my original question.
“You’re not too far off the mark, actually. It was drug possession...kind of.”
“Kind of?”
“Yeah. My friend wanted to buy some coke, so we went to his dealer’s place. We got there and suddenly the cops were all over us. There were gunshots… Anyway, that's how they got me.”
“That's horrible. You barely did anything.” My heart aches for Seth, having committed no crime, yet paying for it anyway.
Sure, there were a thousand better things he could've done with all his money and free time, but he didn't commit a crime.
It's not fair. I actually committed a crime, and I never got arrested for it.
“It's okay. It was a long time ago,” he says nonchalantly.
“Your friend, he got arrested, too?”
“No. He died before they had a chance to arrest him,” Seth says, his voice tinged with sadness.
“Oh no, I’m so sorry.”
“This brings us to the attorneys part, right?”
“Yeah,” I say softly.
I feel him hurting and I almost don't want him to continue replaying the worst moments of his life just to sate my curiosity. At the same time, after everything he's done to me, I think I’m entitled to some answers.
I mean, I know he's trying to protect me, but did he really need to be such an asshole about it? The fake job offer, the phone confiscation, the hours-long lock-up…
I get that he means well and I’m actually warming up to him—I wouldn’t have slept with him otherwise; I’ve never been into casual sex. But the way he just took away my freedom still grates me.
“Well, you’re right,” he says. “My parents did have the money to get me out of trouble, but they cared more about what people thought of them than about what was happening to me. I tried to explain to them what had really happened, but they wouldn’t even listen. They told me they didn’t want to have anything to do with me anymore.”
“That must’ve been rough.” I’m honestly taken aback. I thought rich people led easy lives with no problems. But despite his wealthy background, Seth has obviously led a tougher life than I have.
“Yeah, I have to admit that hurt more than the part where I actually got sent to prison. But it’s all good now. I served my two-year sentence, and now I’m in a good place,” he says.
“How’s your relationship with your parents now?”
“They’re dead,” he says curtly.
“Oh…” My voice trails off as I rack my brain for something to say. Should I say the usual sympathetic words, considering he might hate their guts still?
“I’m sorry,” I finally say.
“That’s okay.”
“Did you ever talk to them again?”
“After I got arrested?”
“Yeah.”
“We had one conversation, in which they told me to fuck off, basically. And then I never heard from them again, right up until the day I got a phone call from the cops, telling me they had died in a car accident.”
“Oh.”
“Before you say you’re sorry again, I really don’t care. They threw me away. Even if they were still alive today, I wouldn’t want to have anything to do with them. So it doesn’t really matter to me if they’re dead or alive.”
“Do you have any family besides them?” I try to change the subject, maybe get him to talk about a beloved brother, sister, or even close cousin. The mood is getting a little too heavy.
“No,” Seth says.
Damn, I curse quietly. Now I have to be the one to come up with something happier to talk about.
“I didn’t have a very happy childhood either, but I had my sister Emily and she made me feel less alone.”
Geez. Good job moving on to a lighter topic of conversation there.
“That’s nice. You’re close?” Seth asks.
“Yeah. We used to share an apartment. Now she lives in Seattle, and I don’t see her as much.”
Seth remains quiet.
I start to think about Emily, and how much I want to see her. I wonder if she’s already showing. I wonder if she has that pregnancy glow. I wonder if she’s having morning sickness and all the other pregnancy symptoms.
More than anything, I want to share these moments with her, but I don’t know if that’s possible, now that I’m Seth’s prisoner.
It’s a long shot, but I need to ask him.
“Seth, do you think...” I take a deep breath and pause. Do I really want to ask this question now, when he has just given me back my phone? Maybe I should wait a few days. But the question has already sunk itself into my brain and I can’t get it out now. So I ask, “Remember when you said I could go to Seattle?”
Seth stays quiet for a few seconds before saying yes.
“Did you ever mean to let me go at the time?”
“No.” His muscles grow tense; I can feel it in his arms that are wrapped around me. He doesn’t like where this discussion is going, but it’s too late to change course now. I’m going full steam ahead.
“Do you think you could let me go now? I won’t try to tell anyone or run away. I’ll come straight back here.”
“I can’t let you do that.”
I don’t have to turn around to know that he was speaking through gritted teeth.
“When are you going to let me do that?”
When he stays quiet, my suspicions rise. My heart starts to pound in my chest. Surely, he doesn’t mean to keep me locked up here forever, does he?
“Seth, you are going to let me go at some point, right?” I ask.
“Yeah. Like I told you. When it’s safe,” he answers tersely.
“When is it going to be safe?”
Seth says nothing.
“Can I at least ask my sister to visit here? I really miss her.”
“You’ll only put her in danger, and I know you don’t want that.” He sounds brusque, annoyed.
“So I can never see my sister again?” I wiggle out of his arms and turn around to look at him.
As I expected, Seth has a frown on his face. His eyebrows are ta
ut, his lips a thin line. The muscles in his neck and jaw are strained as he opens his mouth. “That’s not what I said.”
“But you don’t know when it’s going to be safe, so it’s all the same, right?”
He sighs deeply, like it’s a big inconvenience for him to let me know what my fate is going to be. This is my future we’re talking about. I have a right to know.
“Get out,” I say. If he doesn’t want to tell me what I need to know, then I don’t want him here.
Seth stares piercingly at me, as if offended by the notion that I dare to tell him to do anything.
“Get out,” I repeat. “I want you out of here.”
He refuses to budge, but doesn’t say anything. He just continues to scrutinize me with his penetrating gaze.
I raise my voice. “You can’t lock me up here and expect me to just lie down and take whatever you do to me. You can’t keep me here forever. I’d rather die than let you force me to stay here forever.”
“You don’t know what you’re talking about,” he says.
“You keep saying that, but you never tell me anything, so how am I supposed to know?” I shout at the top of my lungs. I’ve been holding in my anger for weeks, and now it seems I can no longer keep it bottled up. “Damn it, Seth! I have things that I want to do, goals that I want to achieve. I have a life out there!”
“Your old life doesn’t exist anymore. I’m sorry, but that’s the truth.”
“Fuck you!” I yell out. I don’t usually drop the F-bomb, but I feel like it’s justified here. I can’t even stand to look at him anymore. “Just get out, okay? I need to be alone.
Without a word, Seth gets out of my bed. He never took off his clothes, so he zips up his pants and then he’s done dressing up. He walks out and slams the door behind him.
Damn it. It makes me feel so used now, knowing he just intends to imprison me here forever, without telling me anything. When was he even going to tell me that he’s not planning on ever letting me out?
I thought things were bad when I was trapped in a relationship with Fred. I was so giddy when I met Seth, thinking he’s the perfect man, with his wealth and taste and good looks, but now I see him as the monster he truly is.
One thing is for certain. Since there’s no chance of Seth ever letting me leave, I have to run away.
Seth
I glance at the plate of French toast Alice has made for breakfast this morning. Ana has just placed it on my desk and left my office again.
Alice was so pissed off at me last night, I didn’t think it was a good idea to join her for breakfast. To be honest, I didn’t even expect her to cook at all this morning. The last time she got mad, she staged a strike, so I was expecting her to do the same thing again.
She said she needed space. Since all the space she has is now that bedroom, I thought I should just let her have that, at least. I’ve taken everything else away from her, after all.
She was right. There was nothing I could say to refute anything she said.
Too bad. I was really enjoying the time I spent with her. I felt like she was finally trying to get to know me.
The questions she asked were pretty personal, but I didn’t mind it. I actually liked that she was curious about me. For the longest time, things seemed one-sided. I know she wants me—she probably feels the same connection that I do—but that was the first time she showed some interest in my life.
The conversation reminded me of a difficult time in my life. I try not to think about those hard days because it doesn’t accomplish anything, although I’m content with how my life has turned out.
It sounds callous, but I honestly don’t care that my parents died. I didn’t say that just to make Alice feel better about having asked the question.
In fact, if my parents hadn’t died, I wouldn’t be living such a privileged life.
When I got out of prison, I had to work for Walter to survive. I blamed my parents a lot at the time; they could’ve helped me out, but instead I had to resort to doing work that was illegal, back-breakingly exhausting, and violent. I couldn’t see a way out, especially because my criminal record meant that my job prospects were forever ruined.
When I saw the guy who got shot at the asparagus farm, my brain went haywire. I didn’t want to continue working for people who’d kill their workers for needing medical attention. By no means am I a moral paragon, but that shit was just wrong.
Yes, I’m technically an ex-con, but I’m not down for that kind of mindless violence.
I was sure that eventually I was going to do something they didn’t like, and then I’d be the next one to get killed.
Or they’d order me to kill an innocent guy, which would be just as bad. What kind of a life would I lead, with that kind of guilt hanging over me? How would I even sleep? No, I’d rather do anything else.
But I had no other option. I could work for Walter, or I could just live on the streets. I was racking my brain, trying to come up with something—anything—that could earn me money.
Which just proves that Alice’s insight about crime is right. I’m living proof.
When I had money, it never even occurred to me to do anything remotely criminal. Then I became poor and desperate, and suddenly those crimes didn’t seem so crazy anymore. They seemed perfectly normal. I was definitely willing to take more risks.
When I was thinking about quitting Walter’s crew, my plan was to approach some of the other guys from prison. I knew they were also running illegal operations—like I said, there aren’t many employment opportunities for ex-cons—but anything had to be better than working for Walter.
Right in the middle of my internal turmoil, my phone rang.
It was the cops, calling to notify me—my parents’ next of kin—of the accident. I was shocked, but ultimately I didn’t care. They were already dead to me anyway, even when they were still alive.
A few days later, I got another phone call from the family lawyer. He told me I had inherited all my parents’ assets, including their properties, a few million dollars in cash, and the law firm.
At the time I got arrested, I was actually doing quite well learning the ropes of the family business. I had gotten my law degree and I was being given more and more responsibilities within the firm. Things were looking good. My future was bright.
Then I lost it all after the arrest, only to gain it all back when my parents died. Lose some, gain some, I guess.
Immediately, I told Walter I quit, then dropped out of his radar as I started going to the law firm in the city.
Things actually went pretty well there, by many standards. If I were just a successful lawyer in the city, I could’ve courted Alice the way she deserves to be courted, but I’m not.
Maybe I should’ve stayed put where I was, instead of getting myself into trouble like I’m doing now.
Shit.
I’ve wanted Alice since I first laid eyes on her, and I’ve always admired her dedication to her craft, but this is something else.
This is the first time it has ever entered my thought that going back to the city could be a better option than staying here, continuing my life’s work.
I want Alice even more, now that I’ve already had her. I can't get enough of her.
Her stay here was mostly about duty and obligation at first, but now, it's about my all-consuming desire to possess her. Now, I want to keep Alice, even in the unlikely event that all threat to her could be eliminated.
I realize I can’t let her leave now, no matter what.
Alice
I knock on Seth’s door. Unlike the last time, there’s no hesitation or anxiety; all my other emotions have been eclipsed by anger.
How dare he steal my whole life, take away all the years I still have in front of me? Who does that?
I wait for, like, twenty seconds and still get no reply from inside. Instead, all I hear is the low murmur of male conversation.
With impatience, I turn the handle and push the door open. Inside
, Seth is sitting in his usual swivel chair, facing me, and Raphael is across the desk from him. Both of them stare at me with eyes wide and jaws slack, not expecting the intrusion.
Well, they can get used to all kinds of intrusions from me.
Or…wait. Actually, no. They shouldn’t get used to more intrusions from me, because I’ll be gone soon. Goodbye, boys.
“I didn’t see you at lunch.” I look straight into Seth’s blue eyes as I march across the office.
“I thought you needed space,” he says, looking like he doesn’t understand why I’m so worked up.
Of course I’m all worked up, asshole, you gave me a life sentence, when I’ve committed no crime.
“I have something I want to discuss with you.” I put my hands on top of the glass surface of the desk. It feels cool and hard under my fingers.
“Do you… Like, do you need some privacy, guys?” Raphael asks as he strains his neck to look up at me, flicking his gaze between the two of us.
I ignore him, focusing all my anger at Seth.
“Guys? It’s a little awkward here for me,” Raphael whines.
“Shut up,” Seth barks.
“Okay,” Raphael says. “I actually prefer to stay and watch anyway.”
“What is it that you want to discuss, Alice?” Seth asks, ignoring his friend.
“I’m here to get my phone. You agreed to give it back to me yesterday.”
Without saying a word, Seth pulls a drawer open and takes out my phone. It looks smaller than I remember, unfamiliar after not seeing it for only a few days.
I take it from Seth’s hand before he changes his mind. My hand comes into contact with his, and the light graze sends my nerve endings wild. My body remembers his exhilarating touch and it wants more, but I’m not listening to it. Not anymore.
I’m on a mission here.
“And I need to go shop for ingredients,” I say.
“Anthony can do all the shopping for you.”
“No, he can’t,” I insist. “Do you think he pays attention to what kind of cream I want, or what percent I want the milk to be, or what substitutes to get if I can’t get the exact ingredients I want?”