Repair Me

by Melissa Phillips

  “I’ll pick you up around 8:30, sound good?” I could hear in her voice that she was beyond thrilled that she had talked me into going 2 weekends in a row. It had been months since I had agreed to go out with Natalia and now I was promising to go again. That was really not like me.

  “Yes, I guess so.” I fought with myself with Anthony's words from the previous weekend, but Anthony was gone, just like Natalia said. Reassuring myself, I knew after a year, Anthony never missed any of his business trips and never once came home early.

  It was already 7 o’clock so I started searching through my clothes and came across a black halter top dress that Natalia gave me months ago. I would have never dreamed of even daring to wear it before. Tonight I felt like a rebel though. The back dropped low enough to expose my bare skin. I paired it with animal printed black and white stilettos. As I slipped it over my body, I watched myself in the full length mirror and was happy with the way it worked with my curves. I looked amazing. The dress was beyond form fitting and Anthony would've killed me, literally, if he found me wearing this to a bar.

  “Holy shit, girl, you look fucking awesome!” Natalia yelled out the window when I stepped out the door. She let out a loud whistle while I made my way to the passenger door. Causing my cheeks to burn, I pushed my finger to my lips, signaling for her to lower her voice in my quiet neighborhood. “I knew you’d work that dress one day.”

  “Hmm thanks. If only Anthony knew.” I smiled at Natalia as I climbed into her tall Yukon. The vehicle sure didn't match her body, but it was identical to her personality.

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  CJ’s was packed again and Natalia pushed her tiny elbows through the crowd until we met the guys at the front table. “Hey baby.” Scott pulled her into his arms. “Avery, holy shit your out again.” Trying to cover my over exposed body, I crossed my arms over my chest.

  “Yeah I couldn’t turn Natalia’s invitation down. You guys were awesome.” I blushed.

  Natalia continued snuggling up with Scott, as he wrapped his long arms around her tiny waist. I looked around the bar as the three of us sat alone at the table. It was a similar crowd from the previous weekend and began wondering if they were just normal. As I thought before, I assumed many of them were college students just having a good time and adoring The Pits.

  Trying to keep my thoughts from worry, I tried to promise myself not to think of Anthony. I merely smiled and watched over the other people. I spot Vince and Justin in the corner throwing darts with two other guys. Justin was jumping on Vince's back as he threw the dart with a terrible throw. Justin was half the size of Vince, so Vince shrugged him off and they both laughed.

  I noticed the sparkling blue eyes hit my face across the room as I glanced over the crowd. Davien shot me a soft grin when I caught his eye, then winked with notice. I knew I wasn’t seeing things, but the looks he gave, left me wondering. He shook his head when I tried to look in the opposite direction and heat rose to my cheeks. I tried to focus my eyes in the other end of the bar. Davien was the man I needed to stay far away from. Being the center man, brought the attention from every woman in the building,. He was bad, he was a slut, he was sexy and he was everything I wanted. But Davien was the man I was determined to avoid. I wanted nothing to do with his fame or the wild life he was living.

  “We’re hitting the stage in about twenty minutes, want something to drink, Avery?” Scott yelled over the background music. “Beer, mixed drink, shots?”

  “Surprise me.” I couldn’t believe what I had said but they both exchanged looks with disbelief. “I mean what ever your getting I guess.”

  Before Scott could leave for the bar a young waitress stopped at out table and looked at Natalia. “Are you Avery?” She spoke over the noise. I could tell she was in a hurry and a large crowd was waiting for her services.

  Natalia pointed at me. “No that’s Avery, what’s up?” She questioned.

  The lady dropped a large shot glass with another small shot glass in the middle. “This is yours.” Then she sat a blue drink next to the shot. “Anything else guys?”

  Natalia shook her head and the waitress left the table seeming to be annoyed. “Drink up.” Scott laughed as he lift his beer .“Cheers to a good night out.”

  I picked my glass up and examined it. When I looked up I noticed those same two bright blue eyes watching my every move. He licked his lips and continued staring my way. He was covered in flirtatious girls, grabbing at his arms, but he seemed to ignore each one as he eyed me. It made me sick to my stomach to watch a man drowned in women and I was sure he had slept with most of them. If not all. Possibly many at the same time. He definitely came across as a man with plenty of experience and dropped women like nothing. He had the bad boy image with the pretty boy looks. The mixture was dangerous.

  I was happy I had a faithful man that I trusted. He repeatedly told me that he had no desire to be with another woman. He was satisfied with me and only me. I felt secure with his words, his trust, his devotion to me. I didn't agree with everything he didn't but I managed to push things to side on many occasions. It was something he would grow out of eventually. Like he said, when I grow up.

  Before I gave it a second thought, I threw the shot down my throat. Leaving a trail of burning liquid falling down my chest. “Wheeew.” I reached for my blue drink and washed away the heat. It had been awhile since I did shots and I knew it was gonna hit me hard and fast!

  “Thanks for the shot, Scott, but I don’t think I needed that quite yet.” I giggled as I straightened my posture in the chair hoping my dress wasn't exposing anything I didn't need to show.

  “I know, but I guess Davien didn’t.” My eyes widened, wishing I had never looked his way. Of course he bought me a drink, of course that’s why he was watching my every move. Obviously he found amusement in watching the innocent girl get drunk.

  “We’re hitting the stage in about 20 minutes, Scott.” I looked over my shoulder and Davien was at the table already and was holding the back of my chair. Speak of the devil. Scott nodded his head to the reminder. “How is your drink, Avery?” Davien spoke with a guilty voice. He looked amazing once again with natural, exotic features. He was bold and never seemed to be embarrassed. The bad boy looked dangerous, with a devilish grin to his gorgeous face.

  “I wasn’t quite ready for shots yet, but thanks.” I replied to the most sexy looking man. Anthony was extremely attractive, well kept and he had a body like an athlete, but Davien put him to shame. The way he used his eyes and naughty grin had me squirming in my seat.

  He held his hand out. “Can I have a dance before we hit the stage?” I was surprised he was talking to me. When I was caught off guard I looked around the table, looking for words. Natalia shot dirty looks my way, warning me that I better go before she kicked my ass. “C’mon just one dance. I need it for good luck.” Was this a game? A game that the guys at CJ's played on the innocent, not as attractive girls? Or was this just Davien's game? The man was just covered in gorgeous women who were more than willing to dance with him all night.

  Before I could answer, he pulled my hand as I jumped from my chair then guided me to the small area for dancing. Over the the loud speakers I recognized one of my favorite songs, 'Love Somebody' by Maroon 5, when it started playing. His hand was strong, very strong in fact, but the skin around his fingers was soft. Yet the pads to his fingers were slightly ruff, most likely from his use of the guitar. I wanted to pull away from him, but my body was stuck to his hand.

  When we reached the area that he led us to, he pulled my lower back until my stomach rest against his waist. He held me tight as we moved with the song. I held onto his well defined biceps and kept my distance far enough so he couldn’t feel my racing heart. The women around us gave me looks of all sorts. Some women rolled their eyes in disgust, other women watching as they wished they were in my place. I wondered how many of these same women had been in these arms, having the exact feelings at one time.

  “You okay?” He questi
oned as his eyes looked down to meet mine and adding a half grin to show a one sided dimple that I had never noticed before. “You look embarrassed to be seen dancing with me.” The devilish look took over his face again.

  He knew he was hot and of course he knew that all of the ladies wanted to him and he was more than willing to flirt with each one. I shook my head, showing him a nervous smile. Trying to calm me, he reached his hands from my waist and pulled my hands from his arms. He lift my hands over his head and wrapped them securely around his neck, pulling me tight against his chest. I could stay here forever. I could smell every styling product from his hair, the body wash he used and the light cologne he had splashed. He was amazing and the next two minutes he would hold me in his arms. I rest my head on his shoulder and exhaled slowly with relief.

  Davien lowered his hands back around my waist. This time leaving his thumbs out and his fingers fell under the fabric from the low dip in the back of my dress. My breathing quickened when I felt his hands touch my unexposed skin. I could hear a soft moan from his chest when he placed his hands in place. Or at least I felt the moan. His lips came closer to my side, leaving me wondering if he was daring to kiss me. Like Natalia told me previously, it was all an act, but I was thinking at that very moment I was willing to play a part in this act. He began softly whispering the words from the song to my ear. I could hear his voice well enough to make out the words but he kept it private, personal time he gave to me alone. He sounded amazing, better than I had ever heard him on stage. His words became romantic and he made the lyrics sound like he was telling the story.

  Listening to the perfect words from Davien's lips caused my breathing to pick up and my hands were trembling around him. Adam Levine told the story about a man wanting to fall in love, yet scared. Words that would’ve made me beg for his love if I was single. But I wasn’t. I had a boyfriend, he was out of town but just this one moment I tried to forget about him. The feeling of being in another mans arms was unbelievable. I continued reminding myself that he spent many moments with many other women doing this exact thing. Most likely on a daily basis.

  The whispers continued as he sang to my ear. The private moment that only we could hear, just Davien and me. He made my cheeks warm as his lips brushed against my ear. I squirmed as his mouth caressed against me. When certain words caused his lips to open and close, I almost felt like he was kissing my earlobe. I knew he wasn't, but I pretended for one minute, just one minute that I cherished with no one knowing, I felt like we were alone, just the two of us, holding each other tightly. I felt like he was mine as he sang a personal song of love to me. Like Anthony didn't exist.

  The truth was that I was just another woman on another night. This was his way of thanking his fans for coming out. More than anything, I had no desire to be with him. Right? The sound over the speaker interrupted our song with announcement of Davien’s show. I began assuming that they had a normal announcement of the show each night. “The Pits will be on stage in the next few minutes, so grab your drink and let’s get the show started.” The announcement interrupted the song, but he continued singing anyways.

  His eyes were closed loosely and he eventually pulled away and slowly opened his eyes. “Thanks, Avery, I needed that.” He smiled. “Thanks again for coming out.”

  “I really liked the song, Davien,... one of my favorites.” I smiled with a wide grin.

  “Yeah me too. That's why I requested them to play it while we danced.” Within seconds he was walking me back to the table and taking a sip from his beer before running up the stairs to the stage. Scott followed him to the stage that was covered in black walls and the soft blue lights that faced towards The Pits.

  He had actually requested that song and assumed I would dance with him? If he paid attention to the lyrics, which I assumed he did since he sang it, then why would he choose to dance with me? He knew I had a boyfriend and he knew that most of the crowd here was single. Reality hit me, truth hit me, Anthony's existence hit me. “Oh my god, Avery, I think he’s got the hots for you.” No he doesn't, I told myself

  “Stop, I have a boyfriend, Natalia, and anyways the man could have any woman in the building if he wanted. Why would he want the simple Avery that is already taken when he had all of these?” I said waving my finger over the crowd.

  Natalia continued giving me a dirty smile then her eyes moved to the stage to focus on Scott. The guys looked amazing just like last time. Vince was stepping behind the drums his long, well groomed brown hair was left down and he ran his fingers through it. Clean cut Justin was picking his bass guitar from its stand and nodding his head to his fellow band members. Scott was always eager to hit the stage. Natalia always said he got a high from it.

  Davien left the wooden stool to the side as he approached the front center of the stage. I just had this mans fingers around my waist. He made my heart race, my palms sweat and he left me feeling special for those couple of minutes with him. “How’s everyone doin' tonight?” Davien screamed to the crowd. All of the girls screamed and clapped including Natalia who dropped from her chair and jump with enthusiasm.

  Scott hit his guitar and the first few notes came from the song. Every female voice grew louder as they immediately recognized the song. Justin and Vince joined the song and Davien pulled the mic from its stand. We sat at the closest table to the front, same as last week. It was set to the side, but the view was perfect.

  Davien began singing the light rock song as his band played in the background. Once again his voice was delicious enough to make any woman weak. Most girls pushed their way through the crowd until they were close to the stage. I could immediately tell that he adored the attention from them as he bent closer, causing a smaller distance between himself and his fans. He was hot and he knew how to work his crowd. He left each one satisfied or they at least believed so. He continued the light song to his adoring fans.

  The song eventually ended and Davien stepped to the rest of the band to instruct them on what song was next. As the bar waited, I saw the look on Justin's face as he was surprised of Davien's choice. Scott shrugged his shoulders and nodded his head. The guys played the song until Davien joined it and I recognized the song by One Direction 'Kiss You'. Davien stood up and scanned the bar as he sang. His eyes fell on me and he nodded his head up as if he was directing me to come to him. I ignored it, promising myself that he was really looking at the table behind us. I just had my time with him. “He wants you up there, Avery.” Natalia shoved her hands at me across the table. I pulled back and looked back at Davien who was grinning between his words. He shook his head with amusement then nodded once more. This time Natalia walked to my side and pulled me through the crowd, demanding me to come closer.

  I yelled at her through my clenched jaws. She left me embarrassed and blushing. Every person in the bar watched us as we made our way from the table to the front stage. Once we hit the area just in front of the stage I could feel the heat coming from the band. The stage was only 3 steps off the ground but Davien seemed to tower over us. Scott was smiling down at Natalia as she moved to my back and gently pushed me closer to The Pits.

  Davien's grin grew wider and he dropped to one knee as he continued singing the song. He rest his body at the very edge of the platform and it was very obvious that his attention was directed towards me and only me. My eyes were on fire when he focused all of his attention. His hand holding the mic rested his elbow on his bent knee and he reached his free hand out, ordering me to hold it. I let my shaky hand out slowly and he gently grabbed tightly. I could feel the vibrations of his voice as he sang. They vibrated from his hand, through my fingers, up my arm and down my spine until I felt heat between my thighs. He was controlling my every thought at the moment. He was intimidating, he was gorgeous, he was unbelievably everything any woman would dream of. He was everything I needed to avoid, but I couldn't.

  His fingers laced through mine as he pulled me closer. Sitting on one knee he continued holding me in place. He was looking dee
p into my eyes and I had no idea how to look back. So I softly returned the same focus to his eyes. When the other band members grew quiet, he sang the last few words quietly away from the mic so that only the two of us could hear. He kissed the top of my hand and freed me. He stood up and returned to his band as if our intimate moment had never happened. The music turned into a louder tune and Natalia guided us back to the table.

  The same waitress from earlier returned to the table once again with another shot. This time including one for Natalia also. After the next half hour we realized that we were being served new shots every 10 minutes. “Damn I’m gonna be wasted before I leave here tonight.” Natalia laughed over the music.

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  Six shots later The Pits had made their way off the stage and gathering their things from the table. The crowd at CJ’s was thinning out when the guys were done. Scott immediately grabbed onto Natalia’s waist and pulled her in the air to meet his lips. “You were fucking awesome, Scott.” She told Scott.

  The two quieter guys of the group, Vince and Justin, finished their warm beers as they gossiped about some of the fans in the bar. They both had girls that took turns flirting with the guys and many exchanging numbers in hopes.

  As I looked around the room I noticed the jealously in my heart when I watched Davien. He was once again covered in overly flirtatious girls. He autographed bare chests and many girls put their feet on his lap, lifting their dress high enough for him to sign their upper thighs. He enjoyed the attention and laughed with each one. Davien's look on each girl, caused him to act like they were the first obscene girl he had ever met. I tried my hardest to look the other way He wasn’t mine and I was already taken, but something made me jealous and I couldn’t stop the feeling.

  Justin stood from his chair, waving his hand high in the air as he tried to grab Davien’s attention. “C’mon, ass. We’re leaving.”