I climbed under the covers next to him and immediately felt his arm wrapping around me. He kissed me tenderly on my cheek as our fingers laced together. Not only did I feel safe, but I also had a sense of relief. This wasn’t just a guy who was helping me cope. All of a sudden I’d met someone who was literally sweeping me off my feet. It was a little scary, considering how we’d only known each other like this for less than a week, though I couldn’t deny the mutual attraction, nor could I ignore that it was happening.
The room was quiet for a few minutes, and it gave me time to reflect on everything that had gotten me to this point. I knew I was over-thinking it all, looking for a way out before I could allow myself to be a victim again. Trying to shake off my fears was getting easier, but I hadn’t mastered it quite yet.
Even though I knew it was time to go to sleep, I turned around and faced Jax. In the dim lit room I could see that his eyes were closed. “Jax, are you awake?”
“No,” he answered.
I leaned forward and pressed my lips against his. When I pulled away his eyes were finally open. My lips drug over his, and he began to reciprocate. I made sure to initiate my tongue going into his mouth, and even the way I controlled the movements. Jax ran his hands up until he was holding the back of my head, but he never pulled me or held me in a certain position. When I began to feel things in other parts of my body, I knew it was time to stop. Jax stalled us this time, leaving his lips to linger over mine. “Woman, you’re making me crazy.”
“I know, I’m sorry. I can’t help it. You make me a little crazy too. I’ve never…never mind, it’s silly.”
“No, tell me.” His hot breath only reminded me that his lips were there for the taking.
I left one more chaste kiss. “If I tell you I need you to promise you’ll go to bed.”
Jax sucked in my bottom lip and then let it go to answer. “I’ll behave. I promise.”
I wanted to laugh at myself for being so shy. This guy had seen most of my naked body. Pretending that hadn’t happened was silly, but important for me to differentiate my real life from my the one I portray at the club. “You make me want things, Jax; things I haven’t wanted in a long time. I don’t know what it is, but I can’t stop myself. If I’m too clingy just tell me. It’s been a long time since I’ve gotten involved with someone.”
“Wait.” He paused. “I know it’s late and we need sleep, but did you just admit that we’re involved? Is that what one little kiss does?”
“Maybe. Is it too soon to label it? I mean, aren’t we basically seeing each other?”
Jax pulled me closer and gently kissed me. “I guess we are, though I need to admit something to you.”
“What?” I was worried.
“The friendship thing feels real nice. I’d like for it to stay that way too. It’s nice getting to know you before things are too complicated to take the time to. It means a lot that you trust me. I never realized it before, but with you it’s different. Maybe I’m just different after getting my heart broken, or maybe I’m learning that there were things I did all wrong the first time. No matter what it is I want you to know that I want to do things right with you. I already know you’ll be worth the wait.”
“You need to stop talking now before I ruin this for the both of us. Let’s close our eyes and pretend that things aren’t steaming up in this bed.”
“Woman, I’ve been hard for twenty minutes. You need to either fart or burp or something to turn me off.”
I stole one more kiss and flipped around so my back was against him. “Goodnight, Jax. If you’d be so kind as to tell the Jaxinator to stand down I’d appreciate it. There will be no farting coming from my side of the bed. I’d like to think that I still have my dignity when it comes to being a lady. I want to make sure you still want me when I’m ready for it to happen.”
When I closed my eyes I felt content. Jax remained holding me, ensuring me of his presence. Our kisses had left me with a smile on my face, and thinking of what was to come. I didn’t want to go too fast, but I was already wondering when we’d be together again. The weekend couldn’t come soon enough.
Chapter 21
Jax
Finally being able to kiss Amber was like watching the ball drop at New Years. It felt explosive, as if nothing could top it. Taking her back to my bed was also a highlight of my early morning, and when the alarm went off I certainly didn’t want to crawl out of bed to go to work, not when there was someone so stunning nestled up against me. After maneuvering my way off the mattress, I brushed my teeth and got dressed, all the while stealing little peeks at her beauty. Just as I put on my second boot she stirred in the bed. “Hey. Are you leaving for work?”
“Yeah.” I rushed over to kiss her, but she covered her face.
“Jax, I have bad breath.”
I tugged down the covers, even though she fought me. “I’m not leaving until you kiss me goodbye.”
Amber puckered her lips up tightly.
“You look like a fish. Come on. Give it to me straight. Stink and all.”
Her hands came up and covered her face. She was strong, but I was able to pull them off. “Jax, I’m gross.”
“You’re hot.” I leaned forward and kissed her, letting my mouth stay against hers. When I pulled away I watched her eyes gradually open back up. This woman was making me crazy. I kissed her forehead. “Do you feel any better?”
She shrugged. “I know I’m safe here, but I probably shouldn’t have run to you so late. I feel embarrassed.”
“I don’t know if you haven’t noticed it yet, but I’m not opposed to sexy, distraught women showing up on the ground outside of my castle. I even like the way you make me wait, because every time you give me a new inch it gets even better.”
“Then I think I should go home and wait to see you on Friday.”
Hearing that was difficult. I wished she could stay. “You could always come back later tonight.”
“Jax, baby steps.”
“You’re going to have to keep reminding me. This is all new territory for me.”
“I guess women just line up and spread their legs for the quarterback don’t they?”
I couldn’t lie about it. “Yeah. It’s a hard life. To be chosen is a great achievement. My golden cock is unforgettable.”
Amber laughed and looked away. “I don’t want to hear anymore. I’m sorry I asked.”
“Seriously, I’m always safe. No matter what crazy shit Jake and I got into, we were always safe. I never even slipped with Reese, not once. It’s like a construction worker. You should never go in a building without your safety helmet. You never know what’s in there waiting for you.”
“You really do tell it like it is, Jax Mitchell.”
“What’s your last name?” This was important.
“Bolero, why? Are you planning on adding me to your little black book? I’ll have you know I’m still undecided.” Her ornery smirk let me know she was teasing me, otherwise I would have panicked.
“When I carve our initials into the tree later, I wanted to get the letters right.”
She shoved me and started laughing. “You’re relentless.”
“You’re delicious.”
She cocked her head to the side as she sat up. “You haven’t tasted me.”
I honestly couldn’t believe that it came from her mouth. Still, I wasn’t wasting an opportunity to let her know my intentions. “I will, hopefully soon, and it will be the best fucking thing I’ve ever had in my life. I bet your pussy tastes like honeysuckle. My dick’s getting hard just thinking about it.”
I could tell I was getting to her. Her gaze was heavy, and she was taking extra long to think of a comeback. I knew she was sitting there silently picturing me being between her legs.
When she remained speechless, I took it upon myself to keep going. I mean, I was lying there hard as a rock, so it couldn’t make it any worse. “Does it turn you on at all when I talk about wanting to taste you?”
She nodded slowly, never taking those baby blues off of me. I watched her lick her lips before answering directly. “Yes.”
“I bet you’re going to be so wet. You’re like a virgin, having gone so long without attention.” I leaned in and whispered in her ear. “Don’t worry. I’ll take my time, savoring every inch of you first. I don’t want to miss out on any spot that makes you beg for more.”
Amber let me trace two fingers down her throat toward her breasts. She was wearing my white t-shirt and a bra. I wanted so badly to see her tits. She threw her body back on the bed and watched me touching her ever so gently. “Don’t stop.”
I could feel her trembling underneath of me as I positioned myself to the side of her. With just my fingers I circled where I thought her perky nipples would have been under the fabric. Amber arched her body and let out a little cry. It was very obvious I was the first man to touch in her a very long time. She could hardly control herself, and I knew that’s why she’d pushed me away all the times before. Amber knew that if she let me in she wouldn’t be able to stop herself, on account of being so hungry for it. I was no expert, but could tell when a woman craved to be touched. Though afraid, it was obvious Amber was at her breaking point. She knew what she needed, and also that I was there to give it to her. “I need to get to work before my cousin comes looking for me.” I didn’t stop caressing her as I spoke.
“So I guess this is goodbye until I see you on Friday?” She inquired.
“It’s only a few days. I’m sure we’ll make it.”
She took my hand and held it still over her chest. I could feel her heart beating underneath. “What is it about you that makes me feel so alive again?”
With her hand over mine, I moved it down towards her abdomen as I leaned forward for another kiss. When she didn’t stop me I continued traveling until I felt the elastic of her panties. I went slower, making sure she wasn’t about to freak out. Then I was there, the palm of my hand cupping her pussy. It felt so warm overtop the fabric, and I could only imagine what was waiting inside. I hadn’t meant to groan, but it slipped out. Our eyes caught and she was smiling. At the same time I noticed that she wasn’t making me move my hand. “You give blue-balls it’s name.”
Amber giggled and pushed on my hand, as if to remind me what she was allowing me to do. This was a big step for her; one I didn’t want to take for granted. “It’s not that I don’t want you, Jax. I just need to make sure I’m ready. We just started this thing between us. I know we’re adults, but for me I need to take it slow. Kissing you was a huge accomplishment for me. It was the first step to taking back my life. I know you probably don’t understand.”
She was wrong. I did understand. I understood that some asshole took away something that she may never get back. I was glad the fucker was locked up because if I ever met him I’d kill him with my bare hands. There’s no reason in this world to put your hands on a woman, especially one as sweet as Amber. If he cared at all about her he would have wanted to know about her family and her past. He would have inquired about what she was running from and help her cope, instead of taking her to an abandoned house for a quick fuck. All I could hope was that he was being ass raped by a big gang lord in prison. He sure as hell deserved a lot worse.
I pulled my hand away and held it up in the air. “This is me understanding. I’m not great at it, so you might have to keep reminding me, but I promise I will obey. You’re the gate keeper, and I’m just trying to earn my way into those panties. I know you won’t give me the prize, but at least I’ll be halfway there.”
She laughed and shoved me all the way down, flipping us so she was straddling my body. All of a sudden I felt her grind against me. My hard cock was very apparent and her little moans let me know she was aware of the situation. I put my hands on both sides of her ass and moved so she’d do it again. After two times she leaned down and started kissing me. The faster she rocked the more my cock responded. Amber sat up and let me touch her breasts over the t-shirt. I squeezed them both, pinching her nipples the best I could. It was very obvious that she was turned on, and with only a little bit of clothing between us I knew it was only a matter of time before dry humping became something way more intense. “Don’t stop,” I pleaded. It felt too good. I hadn’t done this shit since middle school, but it was amazing with her. “Oh, Christ, I might cum.” Admitting it wasn’t the hard part. Seeing her smile was what was difficult. Determination came over her face as she bit down on her bottom lip and started swaying her body as if music were playing. Her rhythm was natural, giving her a sexy advantage to make me lose control. “We should stop,” she said as she kept going at it, grinding me ferociously. She was like a wild cat, riding through the jungle to stomp on her prey. I brought one hand up and reached it between her legs, moving it forward and back to cause friction. Amber moaned again, this time louder, while closing her eyes. Then I felt her legs locking around my hips. My hand was instantly captured and held by her muscles down there. I rubbed harder, where I knew her clit was. She rocked against me, crying out, making it impossible to hold in what I wanted to generously give her. Then I lost control. I felt my load filling my shorts and I didn’t even care. It may not have been as good as real pussy, but this was damn near close. Amber’s breathing was heavy when she fell down on top of my body. I was still trying to recover from my own bought of whatever the hell had just happened between us. At the same time we both started laughing. “We’ll that was different,” I announced.
She looked up into my eyes with a smile on her face. “I’m sorry. I couldn’t help myself. It’s been so long since I’ve been touched. You could say I’m a little sensitive.”
“I guess I can’t touch you when we stay at your parent’s house.”
“After what we just did, I don’t know how to answer that.”
“I feel like I’m fourteen. How embarrassing.” She slid off of me.
I sat up and patted on my shorts. “Yeah, that’s never happened. I swear. You just got to me big time. Holding out is fucking hard. I can’t exactly jerk-off when you’re in my bed, so I wasn’t prepared.”
We laughed again together, and it felt good to know she didn’t think I was some sick pervert. “Jax, can I ask you a question? I’m okay if the answer is no, I think I just want to make things clear before we take it any further.”
I lifted up her chin and kissed her softly before answering. “You can ask me anything you want.”
“Well, I haven’t been interested in anyone for a long time.”
“You’re interested in me?” I teased. It was obvious she was.
“You know I am. I still can’t believe we just dry humped. It’s so embarrassing.”
“It’s our secret. Trust me, I don’t want anyone knowing that I enjoyed that.” I could tell from her grin that she did too.
“I just don’t want to get carried away if you have no intentions of getting involved in something other than sex. I mean, I know we said we’d be friends, but it’s obviously changed now. I’m not into dating lots of people at once. I’m having enough problems opening up to one, and I’m not normally jealous, but you have a lot of unsettled feelings for your ex.”
I knew what she was getting at, so I placed my finger over her lips. “Amber stop talking. I’ve been single for months. I’m not in love with Reese. That I’m positive of.”
“How do you know?”
“Because when I’m with you I never think about her. That’s the truth. You make me see that she wasn’t the right girl for me. I’m not saying I’m ready to confess my undying love, but I can already tell I’m going to fall hard for you, or I’ll just always be hard around you, I can’t quite determine the difference yet,” I taunted. I wasn’t into talking about feelings, so that was the best answer she was going to get.
“I want to know where this is going between us, Jax. You make me want things. It’s crazy how I can’t stay away from you.”
“You make me wants things too.” Admitting that wasn’t hard with
Amber. She was the first girl that I was making an effort to be with. This was a new venture for me. “I’m willing to give you a chance, if you promise to be patient with me. I might freak out a couple times before I can get to the point where I’m comfortable with everything.”
“Then I guess it’s settled,” She kissed me one more time. “We’re going to have to become a couple to figure out where it’s going.”
“I can tell you where it’s going to end up.” I pointed to the mattress. “Right in this bed.”
Even though I was going to hear Noah’s shit, I pulled Amber into my arms and held her tightly. She couldn’t know how happy it made me feel to know she was willing to give me a chance.
“Or my bed,” she added.
“Or the couch, or the floor, or the shower. I could keep going if you’re still unsure.”
“Let’s just go day to day. We could wake up tomorrow and hate each other. It happens.”
“Yeah, I’m like a little puppy. Once I hump you’re leg once we’re best friends for life.”
When I got up to dress for work, and clean up the sticky mess in my shorts, I did it knowing Amber was still in my bed. I liked her being there, and that’s when I knew that this conquest had become so much more. She’d lassoed me up and put her hooks in me in less than a week. That’s why I knew I was a goner.
Chapter 22
Amber
It was important for me to take a step back and evaluate how I’d gotten to the point of trusting Jax so easily. I wondered if I had some desperate need to latch onto him because it had been so long since I’d given myself the opportunity to bond with someone. Perhaps it was the fact that he was bending over backwards to impress me, which I felt was genuine on his part. No matter what the case I was falling for him already.
After going home that morning, I went about my normal schedule, consumed with thoughts of what happened between us. It may have seemed juvenile for some, but it was the farthest I’d gone in a very long time. Jax made me feel comfortable. With every touch sparked an awakening. It was gratifying.
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