Manage Me (Toven's Circus #1)

by Marlowe Fox

  As we are heading down the elevator, making our way towards the venue when, “Sexual Hallucination” by In This Moment, starts playing on my phone.

  Knowing its Jaden, I answer “Hi, my Love,” I grin.

  “I hear your cheating on me with pussies.” He grinds out and I can’t help but laugh.

  “Awe Cookie, you know I love your cock way too much to give it up.”

  “I’m not fucking joking, Beauty.” He growls.

  “Jaden, you cannot be fucking serious right now. What the hell do you think we were doing, having a rug munching buffet?” I’m pissed he doesn’t trust me, even with a couple females. “Jesus, we were laying on the bed laughing our asses off. Ashton had her pants stuck around her knees. We were just laughing and having fun. You need to chill the fuck out. I don’t fucking cheat, I never have and I never will, especially on you, you fucking ass!” I hang up as he starts to apologize. I need some time to settle down, so when the elevator stops at our floor, I tell the girls to go along without me, and I will be to the show soon.

  Chapter 40

  Jaden

  I know I am an asshole. I should have known Ryker was fucking with me, but it was a long fucking day of answering questions and trying to dodge shit about my personal life. Despite telling them beforehand that personal questions are off limits they always try to sneak them in, catching you off guard. So when Ryker told me he walked in on the girl laying half naked on the bed together, jealousy, fear, and anger surged through me. And what do irrational men do when they are scared? We lash out at the woman we love.

  Groveling is what I need to do and we have only thirty minutes until we hit the stage. Fuck, I am an asshole. I kick out at a stack of drum cases sending them scattering to the floor with a thundering crash. When Ryan the sound tech for Toven’s Circus comes up to help me restack them, I get an idea.

  “Hey Ryan, can I add something to the set?” I ask, sending Ryan’s face into a nasty twist.

  “Fuck no, Jaden. You know we can just add shit to the set without a sound check to make sure everything is set right.”

  “What if we add it right before the acoustic part? It will just me and my acoustic guitar and everything will already be set up for it.” I persist and he just looks at me like he’d like to choke me out. “Come on Ryan, I was a dick to Nell and need to grovel.”

  He snorts out a laugh, and says, “Fine asshole, but only because I like Nell. She deserves better than you, ya know?”

  “Wow thanks, FuckMunch! But yeah, I know that.” He slaps me on the shoulder before heading away. I know Nell deserves so much more than me, but I am too selfish and in love with her to leave her alone. I am going to give her everything that I have, anything that she wants, every part of me, and hope that’s enough. I grab the lyrics to the song I’ve been writing for her and head out of the area.

  Chapter 41

  Nell

  I make it backstage ten minutes after the band starts, so I can avoid talking to Jaden for a little longer. I stand in the left wing like always, watching my guy pour himself into the audience. He isn’t as relaxed tonight as he usually is and I know that’s because I am angry with him. So when I catch his eyes, I send him a soft smile, which he returns, and I see him become more fluid as he makes his way around the stage.

  I check out Finn behind the drum set. His jaw is clinched so tight it looks painful and his eyes are super glued to the swaying Ashton in front of him. She looks beautiful and I’m beyond thrilled that Finn has obviously taken notice, although he doesn’t look happy about it. During a break between songs, she pulls off the leather jacket, just as Finn is taking a swig from his trusty bottle of Jack. Causing him to choke, spewing whiskey all over his kit, and we have to pause the show until he can breathe again. He proceed to break 6 sticks over the next 4 songs and looks as angry as a starving gorilla. I almost feel bad for the guy, it’s not that I don’t like Finn, I love the big lug, but I was Team Ashton and the dude needed this.

  When the main set ended, the stage goes dark and the band clears off, but tonight Jaden stays out by himself, a roadie hands him his acoustic guitar.

  “What is he doing?” I lean over asking Finn.

  “Fuck you.” He snaps causing me to laugh as he grabs Ashton’s arm and drags her back for some privacy. Guess he figured out who the mastermind behind all this was. Jaden’s voice calling my name distracts my attention from Finn and Ashton arguing.

  “Hey Beauty? Nell? Can you come out here on stage with me? Please?” He pleads into the mic. He sits on a tall stool, his guitar resting on his strong thigh, and talking into a mic held in a stand in front of him. A single spotlight is focused on him making everything else pitch black but he is starring me square in the eyes, like he can sense them even in the darkness. I hand my violin to Ryker and creep out on the stage toward him, seeing a stool sitting beside him, I hop onto it.

  “I am sorry I was dick to you.” He whispers leaning forward taking my face in his free hand, bumping our foreheads together. “I have no excuse for acting the way I did and I can’t promise it won’t happen again because I get a little crazy at the thought of losing you, but I promise to try. I promise you, Beauty, I will always try to be better for you.”

  I don’t say anything. I just lean up and brush his lips with mine. Once again forgetting there are thousands of people watching. We really need to stop with the public make-out moments. We slowly detangle ourselves, laughing at the fans going ape shits over our PDA.

  Jaden leans back to the mic to address them with a chuckle, “I would apologize, but I think you guys get why I can’t keep my hands of my woman.” More cheering and yelling from the crowd. “So this is a song that I have been working on for Nell, it’s not entirely done yet but I was a raging asshole to her earlier and I need some brownie points to get back in her good graces.” I just roll my eyes and laugh at him.

  He swivels on his stool, adjusting the mic so he can face me, before he starts to play softly. He shoots me right in the center with his best panty melting smirk then opens his mouth to pour out his soul at my feet.

  Pull it out

  Rip it out

  It’s yours to take

  It’s yours to keep

  You crawled inside my walls

  Crawled inside my heart

  Curled up tight

  I’ll keep you warm

  I’ll keep you safe

  I’ll keep you coming, Baby

  I’ll keep you screaming my name

  You are all I crave

  Everything I need

  Together our hearts beat

  They beat for each other

  Stronger together

  Better together

  You crawled inside my walls

  Crawled inside my heart

  Curled up tight

  I’ll keep you warm

  I’ll keep you safe

  I’ll keep you coming, Baby

  I’ll keep you screaming my name

  You are mine

  I am yours

  A promise I will forever keep

  A promise I will never break

  As the song comes to an end, tears are streaking down my cheeks and he is reaching into his pocket, as I sit in stunned silence. A roadie runs up freeing Jaden of the guitar as he turns to me. What the hell is he up to?

  The crowd is so loud that Jaden doesn’t even attempt to say anything as he hold up the little red box. The little box that most woman would love their man to hold up to them but I stare at it in complete terror. Jaden pops the lid and inside is a ring. Shit, he cannot be purposing right now!? But he’s not on one knee and surprisingly the ring is not some enormous cold diamond but a band of sliver with a layer of black inlayed through the middle.

  As he tugs me in tight for a hug, he grabs the mic, as it’s the only way I’m going to hear him over the crowd, “Hey, I need everyone to settle down a minute, so I can talk to my girl, can you do that for me?” He asks patiently and slowly the crowds calms. Keepin
g the mic, he looks me, and says, “First, I am not purposing to you, yet. I won’t purpose to you just to get myself out of trouble, this is a promise ring. A promise that I hope you will accept. Second, I once told you, I love you further than the moon and to the farthermost stars, so when I saw this ring today, I knew it was perfect, as that black section is a meteorite. It’s not a diamond or a precious gem but its only thing I could buy that has seen the expanse of space that would counter the amount of love that I have for you. I love you more that life, Beauty.” He finishes and lowers his lips to mine.

  Holy shit, my heart is about to hammer out of my chest and all I can do I watch while Jaden pulls out the ring and puts it on my left finger. I feel a smile spread across my face and look up to meet his grin but before I can say anything, someone barrels into us, wrapping us in a hug, and a recognize Ryker’s laugh, followed by Ashton, and Finn’s. We detangle ourselves and Jaden grabs the mic from the stand as a roadie brings me my violin, and the rest of the band settles in for our acoustic set.

  “Hey, you guys still here?” Jaden jokes to the crowd. “Here’s some advice guys, don’t propose just cause you’re in trouble with your girl. That’s a dick move.” He laughs and starts strumming the opening licks of the first song of the set.

  Chapter 42

  Jaden

  The last fans got their stuff signed and pictures taken. I’m anxious to find Nell, since she disappeared after the acoustic set was done but I had a text waiting for me after the show ended.

  Beauty: Meet me in our suite when you are done.☺ Hope you’re ready…<3

  Those three words had my cock hard; twitching and impatient to spend the rest of the evening buried deep in my woman.

  The fans were shooed out and I high tail my ass out of there towards the elevators that would take me to my girl. I open the door to our suite and soft piano music washes over me. My heart starts pounding in anticipation and excitement pulses through me as I look around the dark candlelit rooms.

  “Beauty?” I call out.

  “In the kitchen.” She replies.

  I turn the corner and see my Beauty, perched on the counter, feet dangling and I stop dead in my tracks as I take my time taking her in. Tall black “Fuck Me” heels adorn her feet, and sheer black stockings hug her long legs stopping just above her knees, where they attach to black garters. The garters disappear under a royal blue lace and silk skirt. It matches royal blue corset hugs her curves and pushes her perfect tits up and together like an offering for me to bite and devour.

  “Bite?” She asks holding out a piece of pineapple but my mind is still on the breast offering. If I was thinking clearly, I would know she is taunting me but am lost in her. Even standing just a few feet away and unable to touch her, she steals my breath and my heart. I wanted to propose to her tonight. I wanted to claim her as mine in front of all those people. I had my grandmother’s ring in my pocket but the panic in her eyes at the end of the song made me stop. It was stupid to think that she would marry me when she can’t even bring herself to say she loves me. Just as my mind starts down the tunnel of depression, Nell brings the piece of pineapple to her lips and bites into it. Juice dribbles off her chin and into her offering. And just like that, the tunnel is gone and my raging beast is back in control.

  “Hi” Nell smirks around her fruit.

  “Whatcha up too, Beauty?” I ask stepping over to lean against island bar between us. My babe wants to play, then I’m willing to indulge her, for now.

  The candlelight dances in her eyes and across her skin, I drink in every inch of her, knowing I’ll never be satisfied, that I will always want her everything. “I just thought that we should talk.” She says softly, she eyes full of happiness.

  “Talk, huh?” I ask rubbing my hand over the scruff of my jaw. Nell’s eyes focus on my movement, I know my scruff is a weakness of hers. “If this is how you dress up to talk, then we should have more talks, Beauty.” I reach out for some fruit from the platter on the lower counter in front of me. Drawing a strawberry to my mouth slowly before taking a bite. Nell chews on her lips watching me. She craves me as much as I crave her. I don’t see that ever changing.

  “What do you want to talk about?” I ask.

  She smirks and hops down off her counter, slinking her way toward me and leaning forward on the counter. My eyes sink from her eyes downward by their own volition or maybe it’s because the 6 inches of cleavage calling my name. Saliva pools in my mouth and I am seconds away from drooling. My cock starts to throb like it has its own heartbeat. Has there ever been a woman so perfect?

  With a finger on my chin, Nell tilts my head up, then clears her throat when my eyes refuse to follow. “Nope, I’m not going to apologize for objectifying you right now.” I mumble. Making her giggle.

  “I kinda like when you objectify me.” She purrs inching closer, “But right now, I think you are hungry.”

  “Food is the last thing on my fucking mind right now.” I grumble looking up at her like she’s lost it but again she just giggles.

  “I wasn’t talking about food…” She says, then sweeps the fruit platter to the floor with her arm and hops her ass onto it before grabbing my shirt collar, dragging me around between her knees. With a feral growl I attack her mouth. She tastes sweet from the fruit and I dive into her before following the juicy trail down, plastering my face into her glorious cleavage; sucking and licking up every inch of her skin.

  I grab onto the top of her corset ripping the two cups apart, sending the little hooks pinging all over the place, spilling her breasts into my wanting hands. Massaging and tweaking her nipples as she leans back on her hands to allow me full access to her exposed flesh. I head down to nuzzle each mound against my cheek, before I lick and suck at her sensitive skin.

  Chapter 43

  Nell

  Leaning my head back, I pant and let out a moan.

  Biting my lip, his pinches my nipples hard, making my release a gasp. I feel myself building, I've never climaxed without penetration before but before I get too lost, Jaden starts to descend down my torso. He draws circles around my navel, nipping at the edge, making a groan escape from deep within my throat.

  Standing up straight, he jerks my ass to the edge of the counter and flipping up the tiny skirt to check what’s underneath. “Mmm, naked pussy, my favorite.” He smirks and wiggles his eyebrows. “Are you wet for me, Nell?” He rests his hand across my center, his palm at my opening as he gently massages my entire mound. My back arches and a mewing purrs though my lips.

  He lowers to his knees, leaving as he pushes my leg wide, hooking one over his shoulder. Calloused fingertips brush the soft skin around my inner thigh causing tingle bunnies to erupt all over. He leans down to my wet center and while maintaining eye contact, brushes his nose along my outer lips and inhales deep, closing his eyes. "Mmm you smell amazing. This scent alone has my cock hammering to get out."

  Moaning at his warm breath tickles along my skin, I'm thrown quickly to the edge, and know I won't last long. When he kisses and nibbles just below my opening, lapping up the liquid seeping out. With his tongue lax, he licks slowly from my opening to my clit, before sucking the tight little bud between his lips and humming. I can't hold on any longer, I’m gone like a rocket.

  "Oh shit!! Jaden, I can't, I'm, I'm coming!" I cry, as he dives face first into my roaring heat. I cum harder with him feasting on me. I drop my legs to the surface of the counter top incapable of holding them up anymore. I grab onto his hair making sure he doesn't go anywhere as my mind explodes with flashes of light and my body constricts and releases into bliss.

  As I lay floating in the afterglow, Jaden is busy. I feel his tugging at my skirt then hear a tearing, more tugging and tearing but this time at the corset.

  “I really loved that outfit.” I mumble as I feel his scruffy face graze my stomach, causing the butterflies to throw a fit. My hands are still tangled in his hair as I caress and love on him.

  “I liked it a lot, too, cl
early.” He grins up at me then starts kissing his way back down to my center, pushing my legs up again. “Hold these.” He grunts and I have little choice but to oblige.

  He large hands cover my ass cheeks, using his thumbs lightly massage my tightest hole. His tongue reaches out, circling with the tip then flattening for a long slow lick from my puckered star, across my soaked opening, and up to my clit circling and sucking it into his wet mouth. Shivers emanate through me as I ride his mouth, and when his slick warm finger pushes against my tightest entrance, I relax pushing against him.

  “Good girl” he praises. Softly touching my folds and circling my entrance, with his other hand.