The Complete Poems of A R Ammons, Volume 1

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by A. R. Ammons


  6110(though I like brooks

  better than diamonds)

  (no wonder things work in and

  out so well together because

  if they didn’t they wouldn’t

  6115work long)

  (the mind wishes to design other works)

  that so much should come

  to nothing, an abundance!

  so much design be dust!

  6120at-onceness

  startles marveling

  my head, the

  skull grown

  brittle thin,

  6125I hold it

  in my hand:

  it is the world

  to me: I

  turn it some

  6130as if

  it were a

  precious object:

  but it is

  mainly hollow

  6135without longitude

  or latitude,

  good for lolling

  and wobbling

  when I

  6140open a book

  to a strict or

  famous verse

  My Father Used to Tell of an

  My father used to tell of an

  old lady so old

  6145they ran her down and knocked

  her in the head with

  a lightered knot

  to bury her (then

  there was another

  6150one so old

  she dried up and turned

  to something good to eat)

  what my father enjoyed

  most—in terms of pure,

  6155high pleasure—was

  scaring things: I remember

  one day he and

  I were coming up in Aunt

  Lottie’s yard

  6160when there were these

  ducks ambling

  along in the morning sun,

  a few drakes, hens, and a string of

  ducklings,

  6165and my father took off his

  strawhat and

  shot it spinning out sailing in

  a fast curving glide over the

  ducks so they

  6170thought they were being

  swooped by a hawk,

  and they just, it looked

  like, hunkered down on their

  rearends and slid all the

  6175way like they were

  greased right under the house

  (in those days houses

  were built up off the ground)

  my father laughed the purest,

  6180highest laughter

  till he bent over

  thinking about those

  ducks sliding under

  there over nothing

  6185my father, if you could rise

  up to where he was at, knew

  how to get fun straight

  out of things

  he was a legend

  6190in my lifetime

  I remember when he was so

  strong he could carry me and

  my sister, one leaning to

  each shoulder, with our

  6195feet in the big wooden slop bucket:

  he died with not a leg

  to stand on

  yesterday afternoon it snowed &

  I scribbled: “more

  6200uncertain (showery) glory,

  flurries and sunshine, the

  ground dry because as the

  flakes melt on touch the sun

  gives the moisture back to

  6205the wind, also uncertain, the

  flakes steeply or widely

  rising almost as much as

  falling but so thin-scattered,

  so fine hardly

  6210more than an uninformed

  bluster—really nice, the

  sun cracking stark bright off

  one cloudhead and plunging

  paling and dissolving like a

  6215flake into a new blue summit”

  today’s spanking bright blue

  (gold willows and green evergreens)

  and chilly, a

  little fresh-windy, great day for a walk

  Arm’s Length Renders One

  6220Arm’s length renders one

  helpless

  (stiff and loud)

  where one cannot intimately

  and warmly tickle tits

  6225or drive to bust

  balls

  one must seek

  out the subtleties

  and rapid

  6230adjustments, suggestions, and

  speed of the middle way,

  using the extreme only as a

  total realization of

  potential (punch in face):

  6235spring drought,

  no significant

  precipitation for ten days at

  least, has persuaded the

  brook down to a wink here

  6240and there (lust or

  rebellion) and

  the ground has cracked as if

  to swallow birds or fire,

  not seed: it’s warming up

  6245this morning, to 40, but

  forecast for tomorrow is

  cold, blusters, and snow flurries:

  the poem hangs

  on like winter,

  6250words flying out and dropping

  to greet

  the leftover flurries and

  chills:

  night before last was 19 but

  6255nothing was killed, just hit

  scorched with the blahs:

  one Sunday when I was

  eleven my father and

  I found the “mineral”

  6260spring back

  below the Hinson Field in

  the woods

  and we sat down where

  the little hill fell away

  6265toward the swamp and talked:

  I carved my father’s

  initials and my own in

  a treetrunk and 1937:

  I would not want to see that

  6270work again

  I’m the Type

  I’m the type

  FARM BOY MAKES GOOD

  (not farming)

  or, with more development tho

  6275still very commonly,

  Redneck Kid Grows Up On

  Farm Goes Through Depression

  But Thanks To Being In

  Big War Goes To College

  6280Gets Big Job Making

  Big Money

  (relatively speaking)

  so that I am not much of a

  person after all and

  6285do not need be, the

  lineations of the type

  include egregious individuality

  broaden lineation or

  replicate included space

  6290because of last fall’s

  late bloom-thinning

  the forsythia is

  this year not a

  golden bulwark but a

  6295yellow sprinkle bush

  when the wind blows through

  my round yew

  it changes direction so many

  times to get round the branches

  6300and needle leaves

  it wears itself out

  half way through:

  eventually, though, demolished

  smooth, really put together,

  6305it floats on through and out,

  a massive, indifferent

  tranquility available to give

  substance to quick turns or

  swerves

  6310REDNECK FARM BOY WRITE GOOD

  (doesn’t sell much)

  WRITE VERY GOOD

  (but misses

  farm, etc., also other rednecks)

  6315MAKE NO MONEY

  BUT

  WRITE NICE

  (tries hard)

  (misses the mules and cows,

  6320hogs and chickens, misses

  the rain making little

  rivers, well-figured with

&n
bsp; tributaries, through the

  sand yard)

  6325REDNECK UNDERSTAND OTHERS

  WRITE A LOT

  (books too good

  to sell, leave on

  shelf in bookstore)

  6330REDNECK START TO SOUND LIKE

  INDIAN

  him remember Indian burial

  mounds in woods, sandy pine woods,

  also used to plow up arrowheads

  6335and not think much of it

  HIM REDNECK

  OPERATE UNDER TOTEM

  WASP

  (barefoot all summer)

  6340(get hookworm)

  (pale neck)

  Snow Showed a Full Range

  Snow showed a full range

  today, showers at six

  this morning with

  6345the temperature falling

  through sleet and grainy,

  gritty, and, now, dusty

  snow

  a tying-off action with

  6350cold striking, congealing, the

  last skirts of action

  the lawn is whiter than green

  the hemlocks hold touchy sprays

  No Matter

  No matter

  6355how

  driving

  fast or

  dense

  (to speak of

  6360whited air, indeed, the lake

  was wiped out, and the

  opposite ridge’s

  fields,

  house-clusters, dairy barns

  6365and silos

  fell under) the flakes all

  afternoon,

  the ground would take no

  steady impression

  6370and the highway not stay wet:

  big icicles hung off the

  car like the brocade and

  strings of epaulets but

  the temperature held just

  6375where an outflash of sun

  would thaw them loose

  so the sun and clouds

  needled sewing and unsewing

  the white sheets

  6380dyeing and bleaching

  so it snowed and snowed

  the wind blew and the

  flakes flew

  and it added up to a

  6385passing

  the lily shoots

  hold scoops and sloops of

  snow

  (keeps off the grass)

  6390and the hairy hollyhock’s

  young leaves and the hairy

  green tongues of oriental poppy

  had the right way to

  hold snow so it would last

  6395fluffed up on stiff hairs

  (hairy tongues)

  I hope winter will not

  end like a Beethoven symphony

  with big bams and

  6400flurries into June but that

  it will ease off

  like something by Debussy

  so you hardly miss it

  It’s So Dry the Brook, Down

  It’s so dry the brook, down

  6405to nearly nothing to do

  falls as if asleep, coasting,

  between ledge spills

  (some old men walk sloped

  forward in a stumble-run,

  6410the regular, keyed rhythm

  surpassed

  into a soothing high dance)

  spray churned from the

  commotion of a slight ledge

  6415spill, though, can sprinkle

  overhanging branches

  so they freeze loaded in cold

  weather, big ice nodes and

  chunks interweaving branches so

  6420as to ride in hard

  high separation

  from the central rush,

  melt lasting from one cold spell

  to the next

  6425there is by the gorge

  a slope so steep

  no one interferes with its

  brush and trees

  (unshaken by height chills)

  6430nature is not a

  palimpsest there but a clear book

  vine

  limber enough to move

  entangles a high branch

  6435which, snapping off,

  sways, held, in the

  great tree’s

  windy shoals

  that which rising

  6440takes over can break

  down and, no longer

  to be let go, no longer uphold

  nature’s message is, for

  the special reader,

  6445though clear, sometimes written

  as on a tablet underwater,

  the message will blur and

  seem to run but

  declare itself in a smooth

  6450moment to great attention

  Today Will Beat Anything

  Today will beat anything:

  a full day of clarity

  up to seventy: but

  still no rain

  6455(bright skies starving skies)

  and the last precipitation

  which was snow, though it

  fell blanking out the

  world, all but the very

  6460immediate, had no effect on

  the ground, a dampening that

  did not close up the

  cracks, riffles of snow on

  the lawn quickly evaporating:

  6465I declare I started to get

  out the hose and commence

  to water, because that

  fertilizer I had the young

  man sprinkle about

  6470the hedges and under the trees

  has been lying out there feed-dry

  for two weeks:

  when you consider how

  dry it is

  6475it’s amazing the brook still

  runs, clips, brook-brisk: the

  ground must be holding

  at a height plenty:

  it is so odd, upon waking

  6480from a nap, to think that

  one’s body, including the

  back of one’s hand, one’s

  fingernails, the calves

  and ankles, the face, these

  6485things one’s own, are also

  implicated and will die,

  too, with one, each

  its going away

  oneself I sing,

  6490a person apart,

  shoved aside,

  silenced

  cross references

  seems the bushes are being

  6495sprayed from a distance green

  will the universe become

  forever dark:

  once in a lifetime

  Sight Can Go Quickly, Aerial, Where

  Sight can go quickly, aerial, where

  6500feet can go not at all

  scale clouds out of

  prison windows,

  splash from heights into lakes

  (not drowning, not even

  6505getting wet)

  from high boughs can

  spot rescue in the hills

  though marshlands intervene

  oh, sight! sight!

  6510how light you make us

  and how heavy!

  say now

  pay later

  spring drought’s good for being

  6515bad for molds

  and fluffy funguses that leap

  snarl-red in dampness or gross blue:

  good for giving the roots

  of young sprouts occasion to

  6520lengthen into the soil and

  be ready for rain when it

  comes: good probably

  for slowing and toughening

  growth so it can better

  6525resist frost

  sure to be back: good

  for killing off anything

  too much or too weak: good

  for getting early pollen

  6530up into the atmosphere:

  if butterflies wrote letters

 
of recommendation their wings

  would crack: ripples on brooks

  don’t advise or recommend

  6535other ripples, and shale spills

  to and finds alignment with

  brook flow

  supposed to go to 80

  today, probably did:

  6540the early tulips, three

  scarlet-velvet red, opened

  this morning just in

  time to be rained in by

  a trivial shower: all

  6545that negligible

  clouding up and passing over!

  These Days Most

  These days most

  any brown stick

  sprouts a green tip

  6550how could you, walking in the mts,

  be as big as the mts: only by

  wandering: aimlessness

  is as big as mts

  The Cardinal, Slanted Watershed

  The cardinal, slanted watershed,

  6555in sprouting treebranch

  singly singing

  and some small bird, grayish

  with yellowish back feathers,

  dipples and dabbles in the

  6560hemlock boughs, flies almost

  hard-still into the willowy

  withery boughs and hangs

  softly on:

  the delicate greenworm haunts

  6565terminal tips

  unseasonably this

  unseasonably thatmy

  tendency

  to exaggerate

  6570has

  vastly diminished

  why, a lady along the way

  inquires, is your motor running

  so fast:

  6575and I say, is there nothing

  to catch or flee:

  she says, you’re too slow now,

  anyway, aren’t you, to catch anything

  fine: and whatever has not

  6580already overtaken you is

  not coming:

  madam, I say, I am not

  frail and

 

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