The Hand That Holds Me ((The Forever Mine Series) Book 1)

by H. J. Marshall

  I grabbed my throbbing cock in my hand and rubbed it up and down her sensitive clit, wetting myself with her release. Bending down to kiss her, I wanted her to taste how sweet she was as I slowly pushed inside of her in one smooth stroke.

  We both gasped at the connection. Her eyes were wide and her mouth stretched into an “O”, letting me know she felt all eight inches filling her small, tight pussy. She was so hot and wet, I felt like I was going to come any second, just like a teenage boy.

  She was smaller than anyone I had ever been with and I would say she was a virgin if I didn’t know for sure she wasn’t. Her slick channel squeezed me, causing spots to appear in my eyes. It had never been like this before. So hot, so wet, so perfect.

  She rocked her hips letting me know she was ready for more, as I pulled back and thrust into her with more force than before. It was taking everything I had not to pound her into the mattress. I wanted, no, I needed this to be perfect for her.

  She wrapped her legs around my waist, her arms around my neck, and reached up kissing me with the same rhythm that I was driving into her. She was meeting me thrust for thrust and her tight pussy was beginning to flutter, letting me know she was about to come again.

  “You feel so amazing baby. You pussy is made for me. Do you feel how perfect my cock fits into you?” I added a harder thrust causing her to cry out and throw her head back.

  “You are mine Maddie.”

  “I’m yours Lucas. Only yours.”

  “Come for me baby. Come around this thick cock.”

  “Oh God, Lucas. I’m. I’ve never… I’m, I’m…”

  “Come Maddie! Now!” I thrust into her faster and harder, feeling her getting wetter and wetter with each stroke.

  “Lucas! LUCAS!” she screamed as her entire body convulsed under me, squeezing me so hard I came with a strangled roar on my lips.

  “Maddie!” I yelled into her neck as my cock continued to pump inside her.

  We finally slowed our movements and I rolled over on my back and pulled her into the crook of my arm. I couldn’t seem to get close enough to her.

  I wanted to bask in the glow that blanketed us. That perfect moment, after experiencing the most amazing sex of my life with the one person who completes me.

  She leaned up and kissed me. “I love you, Lucas.”

  “I love you too. So much.” I responded, as I kissed her again.

  After a few minutes, we untangled ourselves and I showed her where the bathroom was. She spotted my soaking tub and let me know she was taking a bubble bath tomorrow as she giggled.

  Maddie giggled. She was always so serious, and to see her like this… her hair a mess from our love making, her lips swollen from our kisses and her naked body on display… was nirvana to me. She was the other half to my soul and I craved forever with her.

  I woke up the next morning to the sun shining through the blinds and Maddie curled up next to me. Life was perfect. I leaned over and kissed her gently on the top of her head before crawling out of bed and heading to the kitchen to start the coffee.

  I didn’t want to wake her. She’d told me she had always had trouble sleeping. Chronic insomnia is what she was diagnosed with when she was ten.

  At first Lisa and Joe thought is was Sara’s death that led to Maddie having trouble sleeping but after some tests, determined she was just one of those people who had trouble sleeping. Maddie joked with me that it was how she was able to complete her school’s required reading list before graduation.

  As I waited for the pot to finish brewing, I thought about what the future would hold for us.

  Would she still want to spend weekends here?

  Would be bring our kids here for the summer?

  Would she forgive me for deceiving her about Jason?

  That was the million-dollar question, wasn’t it? Would Maddie forgive me for hiding my relationship with Jason and his connection to MSJ Media? How would she react when she met Jason and found out she’s her own boss? That she’s been a millionaire since the day she turned twenty-one?

  I was so lost in thought, drinking my coffee on the back deck, that I didn’t hear the door open and her walk out to sit with me. I looked up, and she smiled brighter than the morning sun.

  “Good morning, baby.” I stood up and kissed her, slowly and gently.

  “Good morning.” She purred as she set linked her arms around my neck and deepened the kiss.

  I pulled back from her and gazed into her eyes. “Did you sleep well?”

  “It can’t remember the last time I slept so deeply. I feel amazing this morning! Look, no coffee, yet.” She smiled up at me.

  “Sit down and enjoy the view while I get you a cup. Would you like some breakfast?”

  “I can cook breakfast.” She said and started to get up from her chair.

  “Sit, baby. Let me make you something to eat after I get your coffee. I want to pamper you this weekend. I can grab your Kindle if you want to read while I get our food.”

  “I would love to finish the new Harper Sloan book I started the other day. I was just getting to the good part and I was kind of hoping to finish it this weekend,” she replied sheepishly.

  “I’ll be right back. I love you Maddie” Kissing her, I turned to head inside.

  She was on the deck under the umbrella enjoying her coffee and clicking through her story when her phone chimed from its spot, charging on the counter. I’d never spy on her or check her phone without her permission, but I can’t help but see that someone named Josh has text her asking if she was free to hook up tonight.

  What the FUCK! Who the hell is Josh and why would he be texting her for a booty call? Was she still seeing someone while we have been together?

  I took a couple of deep breaths in and out, trying to get my temper under control. I knew Maddie would never be unfaithful to me. We’ve talked, texted or spent every night together since the day she accepted the job offer over lunch. She wouldn’t have had time to see anyone else.

  I was being crazy.

  I took the tray of breakfast out to the deck, along with her phone, so we can eat and discuss who the hell Josh was and why he thought it was okay to text her for sex when we were together.

  Maddie was mine.

  As we snacked on fresh fruit, yogurt, bagels and eggs, I willed my temper and over active imagination to stop running crazy images through my head. All I could see was some faceless man with his hands all over Maddie, tasting her, giving her pleasure.

  “You phone chimed while I was in the kitchen. I didn’t know if it might be Caroline so I brought it out for you.” I slid her phone in front of her coffee.

  She picked it up and punched in her security code, unlocking it and pulling up her text messages. She looked at the last received text, her face blushing and her eyes getting slightly wider. Maddie tried to school her expressions and it made me nervous.

  Did she still want this Josh guy?

  What was he to her?

  Did she ever love him like she loved me?

  Her nervous eyes glanced over to mine as she responded to the message and closed her phone.

  “Is everything okay?”

  “Yes. It was a friend of mine asking to meet up tonight but I told them I was out of town and unavailable to meet them.”

  She neglected to say who wanted to meet her.

  “That’s nice. Is it anyone you’ve told me about?”

  “Yeah, it’s just… I don’t know how to say this without it sounding bad.” She conceded on a huff. She wanted to tell me but was afraid of my reaction.

  I picked her up and sat her in my lap, her legs straddling me. I wanted her to know that I was here for her and I trusted her to tell me what she needed to. I wouldn’t be mad unless she told me she loved him, too.

  Then I would fight for her. I would move heaven and hell for her.

  She was twisting her hands in her lap but didn’t break eye contact with me as she began to explain. “I have a friend, a guy, that from time
to time, we, well…we meet up. We dated a long time ago and stayed best friends after we broke up. When neither of us is seeing someone, we, occasionally…hook up. It has been months and months since I have been with him like that. We agreed to not have the “benefits” part of the relationship anymore. I guess he was trying to change my mind.”

  “Do you want to be with him? You can tell me the truth.” Please say no.

  “Of course not. I love you Lucas. Just you. Josh has always been someone safe I could go for affection and companionship without fearing commitment. He already knew I wouldn’t commit to him so he was okay with the arrangement.”

  “Does he know about me? About us?” I squeezed her hips as she straddled my lap, her hot center pressed up against my growing erection.

  “I just told him I was in a relationship. That it’s serious and that part of our friendship is over. I told him I loved you. I never said that to him so he knows how serious I am about you. I promise, Lucas. I only want you.” She leaned in and kissed me slowly, easing her tongue against my lips, opening my mouth to her.

  She was in control of this situation and since I knew about her friend, I could relax knowing she told him about me. If he tried to take her from me, there would be hell to pay.

  Maddie slowly rocked against my hardening cock, bringing it to life with her kisses and moist pussy that I could feel through her panties and my boxers. I slid my hand down and pushed her drenched panties to the side, felt her slick lips and throbbing clit, and pushed two fingers inside her moist heat.

  She groaned and deepened the kiss as she began to ride my fingers. Her juices flowed down my hand and began to soak my boxers.

  “I need to be inside of you.”

  “Yes. Please hurry Lucas.” She moaned as she reached into my boxers and pulled my hard cock out, positioning it at her soaked entrance, moving her panties to the side to slide into her.

  With a single thrust upwards, I impaled her on my length and urged her with my hands to ride me. I forced her up and down on my thick shaft, as I thrust up, bouncing her faster and faster.

  Her tits were swaying under her t-shirt, her nipples showing through the thin material. I pulled her shirt up and sucked the pert bud into my mouth as she rode my throbbing length. The groan she released let me know she was enjoying my touch, my caress.

  I reached down and strummed her clit with my thumb, causing her already tight pussy to constrict like a fist around my manhood, making me thrust faster and harder.

  She looked like a cowgirl bouncing up and down on my cock with her perfect tits exposed to the sunny day. I grabbed her hair in my hand and pulled her back head back, causing her to arch back.

  I rubbed her clit faster and with a groan. “Come on, Maddie. You know you want this thick cock spurting inside you while you come. Give me what I want and soak my cock with your juices.” As I pulled her back to me, I licked my way up her neck and nipped at her sensitive neck.

  Maddie began to ride me faster, seeking her orgasm and determined to bring me with her. Her amazing pussy tightened and fluttered causing my balls to draw up. I was going to explode inside of her.

  Marking her as mine.

  “I coming Lucas. Oh god! I’m coming!” as her body went tight and convulsed threatening to cut off blood flow to my cock. The force of her orgasm brought mine on, groaning into her neck with each pulse of my cock.

  I thought last night was amazing, but this was on another level.

  Primal. A claiming of each other.

  I also loved that she rode me out in the open for anyone to see. Not that anyone can look on this balcony from any angle but the house. I would never allow someone to see Maddie in a vulnerable position.

  I would definitely never let another man see her pleasure. That is for my eyes alone.

  “I love you baby”

  “I love you too, Lucas. Maybe I should go clean up.”

  “Don’t. I like that I am still leaking out from your beautiful pussy. The thought of a part of me inside of you makes me hard.”

  “Okay.” She kissed me and climbed off my lap and into her chair to sip her now-cold coffee.

  “Let me get us a fresh cup and we can figure out our day. Sound good?”

  “Sounds perfect.”

  It was perfect. We spent the rest of the weekend making love in every room of the house, christening the spaces with our love and desire.

  Sunday afternoon came too fast and before I knew it, I was dropping Maddie off at her apartment and kissing her goodnight. I hated that she wouldn’t be waking up in my arms in the morning and I wouldn’t be able to sink into her perfect pussy tonight.

  She said she wanted to spend some time with Caroline tonight and get a good night sleep before she headed into contract signing tomorrow. I knew she was nervous and eager to get the actual program started and be finished with all the logistical and legal headaches.

  I wished she wouldn’t push herself so hard, but she’s like Jason in that regard…all hard work and determination.

  Now to get them in the same room without her running from both of us.

  I woke up Monday morning with a renewed energy I hadn’t had in a while. I didn’t sleep as well as I did with Lucas this weekend but I was able to get some solid hours last night. Maybe sleeping next to Lucas was the reason I slept so well. I finally felt safe, cherished, loved.

  I padded into the kitchen to find Caroline already awake and making us cups of coffee. I was glad were able to have some alone time last night. I had been so busy with work and Lucas and she had been at the bar with so many shifts that we’ve hardly seen each other over the last few weeks.

  “Good morning, sunshine.” Caroline smiled as she set a plate of donuts down on the table and took her seat across from me.

  “Good morning. I didn’t expect to see you this morning. What has you up so early?”

  “I wanted to make sure you had a nutritious breakfast before you started your day.” She smirked at me as she handed me a blueberry cake donut from the bakery across the street

  “Thanks for the sugar rush but, really what has you up this early? The sun has barely risen and you didn’t say you had anything happening this morning.” For her to be up this early meant she either hadn’t been to sleep or something woke her. Caroline can sleep through anything.

  “I got a weird friend request last night on Facebook after you went to bed and it has been bothering me. I was hoping you could look at it and tell me I’m not imagining things. I think it may be Andrew, or someone pretending to be him.” She said to me with tears in her eyes.

  I went over and pulled her into a hug, letting her tears fall without asking questions. She’s been very vague about what happened to Andrew and his family for years. I knew she was heartbroken over him and if she could get some closure, maybe she would be willing to look for love again. She has such an amazing heart that I hated to see her so sad.

  She hands me her phone and I pulled up her friend requests.

  “It’s the first one, Gabriel Andrews. We have no friends in common, this picture is dark and doesn’t really show his face but, in my heart, I think it’s him. Am I imagining things Maddie? I see him everywhere I go. His face still haunts me. Why can’t I move past him? Why can’t I tell my heart to stop loving him?” she cried into her hands, her body shaking with sobs.

  “You never told me what happened with you two and now is not the time to get into that conversation. My question to you is this: What makes you think this is him? Besides the name, his first and this guy’s last, what makes you feel it is your Andrew making contact after all these years?”

  “Gabriel was his older brother’s name. He died when Andrew was seven and he used to talk to me about him. Something in my heart says it’s him but I don’t want to imagine things. That’s why I asked you to look.”

  “I’d say accept his request and you can always block him later if your gut is wrong. If he’s just some perv trying to gather friends, you delete him. Problem solv
ed.”

  “You’re right. I guess I got all worked up over nothing…”

  “You being upset isn’t nothing. One day, very soon, you and I are going to talk about what happened with you guys. The whole story. Maybe it will help to tell someone else what happened. A fresh pair of eyes to look at it. I want to help you get past him so you can love again. You deserve so much love, Caroline.”

  “Speaking of love, how is Lucas? We talked about a lot last night but you didn’t tell me how your weekend went. How was his lake house?”

  “It was wonderful. He wants you to come up with us one weekend and hang out. You would love it. His house sits right on the lake and has the most amazing deck with a huge hot tub.”

  I blushed at the memory of Lucas and I making love in the hot tub on our last night there. He had turned the lanterns on and had some slow music playing. We sipped on wine, laughed, talked, and stargazed until our wandering hands led us into exploring each other’s bodies under the stars. It was the perfect end to a wonderful weekend that I looked forward to repeating many times in the future.

  “Love looks good on you, Maddie. I am so happy for you guys.” She hugged me with a smile on her face.

  “Love feels good too. I’ve got to get cleaned up. My first meeting is at 8 and if I play my cards right and traffic is on my side, I can be done by lunch so I can surprise Lucas. He thinks I have appointments until three o’clock but a few emailed me with requests for earlier times so I shuffled a few things around.” I wagged my eyebrows at her as I gave her one last hug and floated down the hallway to get dressed.

  I finished up with the day’s contract signings a little after eleven and headed straight for the office. I was eager to see Lucas and go over the additional sponsors I had managed to secure. A few of our partners were excited about the program and had passed the word on to others, resulting in sponsorship and additional resources that would help us grow and expand into other areas of the city and, hopefully one day, the entire state.