When wrong feels so right

by Mia Ford

  I didn’t know why I didn’t do this more. It was perfect, but I got caught so much in my days and nights sometimes that I felt like I was running on auto pilot. This was gorgeous with a crisp breeze and what was looking to be a beautiful sunset. I pointed it out to Riley before chasing after Ella to spin her in my arms. I told her to look at the orange sky and she squealed to run to the water again. I told her that she could hold my hand since it was getting dark and Ella compromised with me for a change.

  Riley walked along beside us, taking in the beauty quietly. I looked at her to see something of a dazed expression on her face as we walked, making her gorgeous. We paused near the edge of the waves and looked on as the light disappeared in a swirl of vibrant colors. When it was dark, I allowed Ella a few minutes to run before taking her upstairs for a bath.

  Riley looked on through the routine, seeming to take mental notes of everything. I brushed Ella’s hair and got her into PJ’s before she had her last snack. The beach always made her hungry, and we enjoyed the sliced apples as well. I settled her into bed and read her one book when she asked Riley to read the second one to her.

  Riley sat down on the mattress while I moved to the seat in the corner to watch. Her voice lifted and dropped with each of the characters, making me look bad. Ella seemed to enjoy both equally as she curled up with a soft smile. She closed her eyes at the end of the book and Riley kissed her cheek before standing up. I kissed Ella’s hair and whispered that I loved her before turning on some soft music and closing her door.

  “I am taking her to the beach every night,” I murmured as I paused and looked at Riley. “Want to see the gym? I was going to lift for a bit.”

  She seemed to consider the question before nodding.

  “I finished my project today. Why not?” She told me that she was going to change into something appropriate and hurried through the gate down the stairs as I walked into my room. I changed into work out shorts, leaving my torso bare since I knew that I’d sweat heavily. I also hoped that it would get to Riley just a little. I walked down to the kitchen to get two bottles of water, seeing movement out of the corner of my eye.

  Riley walked in, wearing fitted workout pants and a tight tank top. The outfit highlighted every single one of her curves as we stared at each other for a moment. I offered her a water and led the way to the stairs, hoping that she’d follow me. The gym was my Zen at the end of a long, busy day and I never invited anyone into this aspect of my life. I opened the door, and she followed me into the expansive room with a gasp.

  “You weren’t kidding about having everything, were you?” She asked as I shook my head. I turned the monitor up full blast and asked her what she liked to listen to in the gym. Riley told me that anything was fine, and I found a rock station, leaving it low enough to talk and hear the monitor. She went to one of the three treadmills while I went to the weights, keeping an eye on her. I started out heavy and she turned the machine on to a brisk walk as I checked out her tight little ass. I felt like such a pervert, but Riley had a great body.

  We chatted about the beach and how much it worked to wear Ella out. She asked me about our favorite foods to make in the future. I noticed that Riley was looking at me in the mirror here and there as she started to run lightly, causing her perfect breasts to move with her hips as I tried to focus on what I was doing. I thought that she was the perfect woman and wished that I wasn’t her employer right now.

  Riley ran for a good hour and sweat dampened the hair around her face as she breathed in. She stopped the machine and took a long drink of the water. I lifted the bar into place and sat up to do the same, flexing my abs as she watched me. I knew that I could let this go for a while, but it was strong, and I thought that we should confront the attraction.

  “Riley,” I told her as I stood to walk over to her. “I am attracted to you and I think you’re aware of that, if not feeling the same way about me.” I glanced down to see hard nipples against her shit, longing to suck the sweat from them as she blushed a deep red.

  “You’re my boss, Nathan.” Her voice was low, and I pressed my lips together.

  “I know. I also know that I am not seeing anyone and haven’t had any desire to since meeting you.” Her eyes widened, and I stepped a bit closer. “I can keep a handle on things between us and it can be as casual or heavy as you’re comfortable with in time. I just can’t deny myself anymore.”

  “I don’t want Ella to end up hurt,” she told me as I nodded with a serious expression on her face.

  “She won’t be. I wouldn’t take anything out on you if things didn’t work out. I’d keep you on as her nanny and make that work.” I stared into her eyes. “Are you seeing anyone?”

  “I’m not. I’ve been so busy,” she admitted as I smiled. Even more reason this could work. “I don’t want to lose my job or Ella. Are you sure about this, Nathan? I don’t know if I’m enough for a man like you.”

  The words made a low rage fill me and I took a moment to approach her, cupping her face gently.

  “I think you’re pretty perfect so far. Part of the reason I want this is watching you with Ella. She’s crazy about you and you nurture her.” I looked at her lips before brushing my lips against hers as she sucked her breath in. “I want to benefit as well and claim you.” I kissed her again, harder this time as she slipped her hands around my body. One traced my abdominal muscles to my muscled chest, making me shiver as I licked her lower lip slowly. My cock was rock hard, and I felt her part her lips. She tasted like sweet sweat and wine as I slid my tongue into her mouth, sweeping it gently. Fuck she tasted good. I felt her tilt her head to meet me, our tongues dancing together as desire surged through me. I let one hand move slowly down the side of her body, stroking the skin near her breast as she trembled against my fingers.

  I’ve slept with my fair share of women. I was dating a lot before I met Brenda and thought that I loved her and having Ella changed that even more. I went out and fucked women I met at bars, but it was never anything more than that. I felt something different about Riley and I knew I wouldn’t risk any of this if that wasn’t the case.

  I moved my thumb under her heavy breast, stroking the soft skin underneath as she moaned against me. I wanted to feel her ass in my hand, pulling her against me so I could show her how hard I was for her. She locked one arm around my neck and pulled me closer, making my cock press against her stomach. Riley whimpered, and I rocked slowly against her, unable to stop myself.

  I wanted to carry her to my bed and undress her slowly. I wanted to kiss her senseless before I sucked the soft skin of her neck in my mouth, making her moan my name. I’d taste every inch of her breasts, focusing on her nipples as I felt how wet I was making her. I wondered what she’d sound like when she came for me.

  Riley cried out as she pressed closer to me, so close to wanting to let go.

  “What would this mean?” She asked as I kissed her face, tasting her sweat.

  “I don’t sleep around when it’s something like this. You’d be it for me.” I promised as I moved to her jaw, nibbling gently.

  Chapter 9: Riley

  My senses were overloaded as his mouth moved over my skin. My nipples ached for his touch and my thighs were on fire. I hadn’t slept with a man for a while and it wasn’t that memorable. Nathan promised sin and pleasure with his lips and the teasing touch of his hand. I held him, one hand in his damp hair and the other around his neck as his tongue stroked mine firmly.

  Emery would tell me to go for it if I were to ask her. She had a great marriage that began this same way and encouraged such things like this, but I was aware of how much it might mess things up. It could also blossom into something that could bring us together and I gripped his hair tightly as he groaned. It could be amazing, would be amazing to feel him inside of me either way.

  Nathan backed me up, lowering me to a wide weight bench as he asked me to sit down. I did, giving my shaking legs a break.

  “I want to touch you, Riley. Can I?” H
is eyes pleaded with me and I stared up at him. I didn’t know just how he meant but I wanted it. I nodded. “Take your shirt off.” I blushed but slipped the tank top off, leaving only a thin cotton sports bra. It left little to the imagination, and he dropped before me, looking into my eyes as he stroked me with his thumb. My nipples pressed forward for more as I felt something dampen my pants.

  Holy shit. This was hot.

  Nathan slipped the strap of my bra to my shoulder, baring me to him. His hands cupped me, stroking me as he squeezed gently.

  “Nathan. That feels so good.” I felt my need for him deep inside and moaned as he pinched me. He sat in front of me, leaning down to take me into his mouth as I slipped a hand in his hair to jerk him closer. This man was stunning, and he wanted to worship my body. I closed my eyes and gave myself to the sensations as my pussy grew wet and tender. He bit and sucked, licking me as I moaned. I felt something deep inside of me shift as I gasped. “Nathan, I think I’m going to come.”

  “Do it. I’ll lick you clean afterward.” His words made me weak, and I tightened my hold in his hair. He moved to the other nipple, teasing it with his lips and teeth as I felt pressure ready to blow. I dropped my head back and rocked gently as heat filled me and I exploded.

  “God… it’s never felt like that. What are you doing to me?” I moaned as he wrapped an arm around me to hold me up.

  “This is meant to be, Riley.” Nathan told me as he pressed his lips between my chest, licking softly. “Can I take your pants off?”

  I dropped back on the bench and lifted my hips to allow him access. He pulled them down along with the thong that I wore underneath, spreading me wide as I moaned in embarrassment. Nathan moved over me, kissing down my stomach as I anticipated what he was going to do next. His mouth moved down slowly before I felt his tongue on my pussy, jerking against him. I cried out, the sound echoing in the room. I’d never look at any gym the same much less this one. He licked me, drenching me before he started sucking me into his mouth and I grabbed his hair again. “I was meant to fuck you,” he told me, crossing so many boundaries that my head started to spin. I didn’t care. I raised my hips, offering him more as he stroked my clit with his fingertip.

  He teased me, his tongue joining in as I cried out his name. A finger slid inside of me as he sucked my clit into his mouth and I felt another orgasm coming. Nathan fucked me gently with his finger, stroking every part of me before he bit gently on my swollen nub. I moved against him, needing this release as I lost sight of who I was.

  I came as he bit harder, dragging his finger against my walls. It was a cry of his name and a tremor that shook my entire body. I stilled as we heard Ella over the monitor and Nathan licked me softly as he listened. She murmured a few times and went quiet as I slumped against the bench.

  “She’ll sleep. She dreams sometimes. Come to my bed where I can do more with you.” He urged me as I stared down at him.

  “Is this the right thing to do?” I asked as his eyes darkened, meeting mine.

  “I’ve never felt this way about a woman. At this point, I am too far gone to care but I’ll respect your wishes.” His words were hoarse, and I breathed in deeply. I’d give this man anything in this moment and I closed my eyes.

  “Yes, take me to your room.” I grabbed at my clothes and he lifted me easily. Nathan rushed me to the living room and up the stairs as I laughed softly, swept away by the moment. He entered his room, and I gasped at the size of it, complete with a fireplace against one wall and a huge TV on the other. “Does it get cold here ever?” I asked breathlessly as he laughed.

  “It’s a mood enhancer. Just a gas fireplace that does nothing for the temperature that far away.” He assured me, reaching for a remote on the table and pointing it that direction. The flames came on, licking the fake wood as it cast an amber light over the dark room. It was gorgeous, and I settled back into the mattress as I watched, turning to look at him. “See? Like it?”

  “I do,” I replied as he leaned in to kiss me, my taste all around his lips. I moaned at the hotness of it and pulled him closer, wrapping my legs around him to draw him closer. Nathan complied, rocking into my bare cleft with just the shorts on as I cried out. “I want you, but I don’t want to mess this up.”

  “I haven’t had a woman in my bed since my wife, Riley. I don’t do this ever if that meant anything to you.” He kissed me again after speaking and I slid my tongue against his as all my willpower faded. I rocked up against him before slipping my hand into his shorts to find him long and thick. He was going to hurt so good and I gripped him between us, stroking him. “Fuck, Riley. That feels so good. I want to come but I want it to be in you if that’s what you want. I have condoms here.” I wondered why if I was the first woman that was in this room. Did he use them with his wife? If so, they must be old.

  “You do?” I asked as he pulled up to look at me, his face pained with pleasure.

  “I wanted to be safe in case I ended up here with someone. I didn’t know the right amount of time to wait and most people would think this is too quick. I just feel something for you.” His eyes were sincere as I gripped him tighter, still moving my hand.

  “I believe you,” I assured him as he kissed me again. I knew that with his looks, Nathan had to have something of a past. He was gorgeous. He was also formerly married and the father to a child that he adored and that spoke volumes to me. That, or I was just too far gone at this point to care. Nathan moved back, kicking off the shorts as I took him on. My pussy throbbed with need and I sucked in my breath. “Did you go shirtless down there to seduce me?”

  “I thought you might like the view. I don’t mind that it put ideas into your head at all.” He dropped on the bed beside me and reached into a drawer for a strip of condoms, dropping them on the bed. He looked like a kid at Christmas with something sincere in his eyes as he gazed down at me, my hand still wrapped around him. He covered my hand with his and stroked with me, tight and slow. I felt my thighs dripping with need as he locked eyes with me, so confident and sexy that I was ready to combust. We did this for a few moments, slow and steady as his face creased steadily. He looked like he wanted to devour me.

  Nathan let go, removing my hand before he reached over to tear a package off.

  “You’re not a virgin?” I shook my head though I was hardly experienced either. “I don’t want to hurt you.” I looked at his cock with a raised eyebrow as he laughed. “This is going to fit perfectly, Riley. You’re going to milk me dry when I come for you.” I shivered as he tore it open, sheathing himself before crawling between my legs. His skin was hot, still damp with sweat from the workout and everything that happened after. He smelled manly and rugged and I reached up to scrape his chest with my nails. Nathan glanced down, easing himself into me as I gripped his back and moaned his name. “Fucking heaven.” This was different from the formal and somewhat aloof man that I met at the interview. Was that really only a few days ago? This version was raw and clear in his needs and wants.

  I felt him slide all the way and pause so I could adjust to him. He filled me, stretched me with a delicious pressure as I stared at him. Nathan slid back and then back inside as I rocked against him, needing him. He pressed his body over mine, kissing me as we moved together. He was sweet and controlling with sex all at once. I loved it.

  Neither of us lasted long before we were coming. It was me who came first which prompted him. His face twisted as he jerked inside of me, my body gripping him tightly as he groaned my name. It was erotic, and I moved my muscles tighter around him as he hissed, stilling.

  “You’re not a virgin. That’s for sure. You are perfect.” He dropped beside me as I breathed in, looking around. “We forgot the water downstairs.”

  “We did,” I agreed as I let my body sink into the bed.

  “I’ll grab it. Stay here,” Nathan told me as I smiled at him. He left the room, and I looked around slowly. The room was simple and clean with a few pictures in a collage on the wall to my left. Ther
e were two nightstands on either side of the bed that held a few pictures of Ella growing up. She was beautiful. There was one of her with a woman as a little baby and I wondered if that was his wife. She was pretty but cold looking. Ella looked a little like her but mostly like Nathan. She had his smile.

  I heard footsteps and Nathan came back in.

  “She’s out. I think that it will be a quiet night.” He handed me a bottle and took the other side of the bed as he swallowed most of his.

  “Good.” I sipped mine and reflected on what just happened. I still had my doubts about this, but I felt too good to worry about it now. Nathan dropped back against his pillows and looked at me. “What?”

  “Are you going to sleep in here with me?” I smiled at the question. Sex was one thing but sleeping together was intimate in a different way. That would be cuddling and warmth, waking up and having sex again if we had time. That would be continuing this.

  “Do you want me to?” I asked as he pressed his lips together.

  “I haven’t held a woman in a long time and I would like to do it with you. I told you this is different.”