Best of 2017

by Alexa Riley

  I nod.

  This time, I'm not carried out of the house. Mason takes my hand and walks me outside, down the stairs and towards the car that's waiting for us. I see Filippe standing in front of it.

  "Good to have you back, signorina Newton," he tells me as he opens the back door for me, and I give him a weak smile.

  I take one last look over my shoulder, and seeing my father alone like that hurts, I'm not going to lie. But I know I owe it to myself to see if there's a future in store for Mason and me.

  "Goodbye, Daddy," I say softly, then quickly look away and climb into the car. I can't stand looking into my father's hurt eyes.

  Mason climbs in after me, and I stare at my father's figure as we drive away. The tension in the car is palpable, but neither of us says a word.

  After a while, Mason's hand finds mine, and our fingers intertwine. We're still not talking as I lean my head against his shoulder, and let myself slowly drift off to sleep.

  For the first time in a week, I'm not plagued by nightmares, and I sleep the whole way to the airport, and most of the plane ride home.

  Home. Because that's what Mason's house is to me now, and hopefully, for a long time to come.

  CHAPTER NINETEEN

  CARA

  PRESENT TIME

  He's claimed my last hole, just like I knew he would. And now I belong to him completely.

  Neither of us has said the words yet, confessed how we feel about one another. I can feel them on the tip of my tongue, hanging above us in the hot room, just waiting to spill from our mouths. But something's stopping me.

  Mason's hands are caressing my skin, sliding down my back. My spine tingles from his touch and I lean into his palm, desperate for more.

  I can't believe I'm back here, can't believe he came to get me. My dad's going to kill me... and I don't give a shit. This is where I belong, and I've never been more sure about that in my life. Lying in Mason's arms is where I should be.

  It takes us several minutes to calm down and he cuddles me close with his eyes close. Finally, he reaches for my hands and grunts at the sight of my ruined knuckles.

  "We have to take care of that," he says roughly. "Can't let it get infected."

  I nod, half-expecting the spell we're under to break, but it persists. The floor is covered with glass shards and Mason lifts me into his arms as if I weigh nothing, carrying me out of the bedroom. I curl up in his arms, naked and vulnerable, always feeling the fullness inside my ass. He's lodged the plug in there firmly, and as he carries me, his hand ventures down my back, toying with the crystal toy. I whimper and he chuckles.

  He carries me up into his studio. I can't look at the paintings, the torn canvases are too painful for me right now. Mason notices, and throws a white sheet over their ruined surface. He sits me down on the floor and returns a moment later with some antiseptic and bandages.

  He makes me stretch out my hands, and I whimper at the pain in my fingers. I shouldn't have smashed that mirror, but fuck, I needed to. I needed to show Mason how much he meant to me, how badly I wanted him. I needed him to know we belong together.

  Mason cleans my cuts gently, the antiseptic making me hiss when it stings my wounds.

  "It's okay, sweetheart," he tells me gently. "Shhh, I'm only making it better."

  "I know," I reply weakly, offering him a brave smile - as brave as I can muster at the late time of night, when I'm sleepy and tired and so fucking full.

  "Good girl," Mason praises me. "Only a few fingers left."

  He wraps up my hands in the bandages, and the blood starts seeping through right away. Mason furrows his brows at that.

  "This isn't good," he tells me. "We should probably get you to a hospital, baby. See if you need stitches."

  I panic at the thought, crawling into his arms on the floor and pressing myself as close to him as I can possibly manage.

  "Don't leave me," I beg him. "Don't take me away. I'll be good, I promise."

  My voice is shaky and scared, and Mason seems surprised as he smoothes down my hair, pressing a sweet kiss against my forehead.

  "Okay, I won't," he promises. "But we do need to talk, Cara."

  My body tenses in his arms and I wait rigidly as he gets up. He digs around an old wardrobe in the corner of the room and comes back with several pillows and thick blankets.

  "I sleep here sometimes," he explains as he settles them on the floor.

  It's late summer now, and it's cooling down. We burrow ourselves in the softness of the blankets and he pulls me tightly against his chest, my breasts pressed against his hard pecs.

  I look up at him, his eyes already on mine. Once again, I'm reminded of how painfully handsome the man is as he reaches between my legs again. I mewl when he pushes the plug deeper inside me.

  "Does it hurt?" he asks me gently, and I shake my head no. "Good. Keep it in a while longer. I like knowing my cum's trapped inside you, baby."

  I blush at his words and try to look away, but Mason won't let me. He keeps his gaze locked on mine as he begins to talk.

  "I think I should tell you something," he says simply.

  "What is it?" I'm scared.

  "The garden," he says roughly. "Remember the garden? The walled-in one."

  I nod, my heart pounding. The secret garden. Is he finally about to tell me what happened there?

  "It was built for someone," Mason says.

  His eyes are clear, his voice strong, but I can hear the vulnerability in his tone.

  "A little girl. She was... she used to live here," he continues. "Her name was Olivia. She was my daughter."

  My whole body tightens in his arms, but it only makes him hold on to me harder, like an anchor. Like he needs me to stay afloat in this mess we've made for ourselves.

  "I didn't know you had a daughter," I say softly.

  "Not many people do," he says. "Except for Filippe, and of course, Luca."

  "Is she his sister?" I ask.

  "She was."

  Mason touches my bottom lip, his finger sliding into my mouth. I lick him because it's an instinct, because I want to taste him, fill all of my senses with him. He groans.

  "What happened?" I want to know.

  "Car accident." His voice is devoid of emotion. "Her mother was driving her to kindergarten when a trucker hit them. The back of the car, it was smashed. She died on the spot. She was four years old."

  I don't even know what to say, but my eyes fill with tears nonetheless. We look at each other for a long time.

  "I'm so sorry, Sir," I say softly.

  "Don't." His voice is rough, scaring me. "Don't call me that right now."

  I reach for his face and he turns to the side. I pull myself higher and kiss him. Soft, sweet. Promising him a future and hoping he understands what I'm trying to convey.

  His lips are rigid against mine, cold and unrelenting. I push my way through the barrier he's trying to create between us.

  This whole summer, our whole relationship, has been about him breaking me - making me submit. But maybe Mason's the broken one out of the two of us.

  "Kiss me," I whisper against his lips. "Let me make it better."

  He sighs and his lips part. I take advantage of it, pushing my tongue into his mouth and whispering against his lips.

  "It's okay, Mason. It's okay. I know it hurts. It'll get better. I'll make it better."

  His bottom lip is trembling and I bite down on it.

  "Mason," I whisper. "I'm so sorry, Mason."

  A single groan leaves his lips and then he's on me, climbing on top of me and caging me underneath his strong body.

  "You've already made it better," he says roughly. "You... you made me love you."

  I giggle, though my heart is pounding.

  "So it's my fault then?" I tease him, and he grins.

  "Yes." He nuzzles my neck. "All your fucking fault, sweetheart."

  I wrap my legs around him and he settles against my body. I can feel the tension inside him slowly seeping awa
y, falling through the cracks his tragic past made in him. He's getting better. And I'll help him heal.

  "Cara mia," he mutters against my ear. "I love you, Cara. I really fucking do."

  I bite his neck and I lick my response into his skin, making him groan.

  "Say it back," he demands, and I laugh again.

  "Make me."

  He raises his eyebrows. In a second, his hand is on my ass, and he toys with the plug. In an out, swirling it in my ass so I feel his cum inside me. I gasp, and I can't stop myself from moaning his name.

  "What was that, baby?" he asks me roughly.

  "I..." I mewl. "I love you."

  "And what else?"

  "And I'm yours, Mason."

  "Good," he coos, pulling the plug out and making me gasp as I feel his cum spill from my hole. "That's all I ever wanted, sweetheart."

  WE DON'T COME out of the studio until midday the next day. We stop in our respective bedrooms to get dressed, and Mason holds my hand as we walk down the stairs and into the dining room. I stop in my tracks when we walk in.

  Luca's sitting at the dining room table, digging into a plate of eggs Benedict.

  "Good morning," Mason says formally, and Luca looks up from his meal.

  "Morning," he replies stiffly.

  I stand there, frozen to the spot.

  "What is he doing here?" I ask, my voice shaky.

  "Leaving," Mason promises me.

  He leaves a fleeting kiss against my cheek just as Luca gets up from his chair and approaches me. Instinctively, I hide behind Mason, his strong body protecting me from his stepson.

  "I just want to apologize," Luca says, looking into my eyes. "I never meant to hurt you, Cara. I just... I was fucking drunk. I wanted to scare you."

  "You did a good job," I hiss.

  He laughs bitterly.

  "I fucked up," he admits. "More than once. But I'm hoping we can make things better, since it seems like you're here to stay."

  Mason grunts at that and I stand prouder behind him.

  "Maybe," I say doubtfully, and Luca flashes his brilliant smile at me.

  "I'm leaving for school today," he lets me know. "I'll be back for the holidays."

  I don't reply, but my eyes follow him around the room carefully, as if I'm anticipating another attack on either me or Mason.

  "Oh, and Cara?"

  He looks over his shoulder on the way out, and bores his eyes into mine.

  "Always knew you were perfect for the old man," he grins. "I never would have touched you."

  With that, he leaves the room. Mason turns around and kisses me gently, tucking a strand of hair behind my ear.

  "Sorry I didn't warn you about him," he says, and I give him a look that speaks volumes. "I should have, I know. We're... trying to make things better. Luca found his mom a while ago."

  "His... and Olivia's mom?" I ask tentatively.

  Mason looks away at the mention of her name, but he doesn't flinch like he did yesterday.

  "Yes," he says. "She's remarried. Won't talk to either of us."

  I look at the door Luca's disappeared out of and wonder what it must be like to lose both his parents that way. He really is alone.

  A sudden urge awakens inside me and I look at Mason desperately.

  "Do you think I could make a phone call?" I ask him.

  "Of course, sweetheart," he nods. As an afterthought, he adds, "Your dad?"

  I nod.

  He takes my hand and leads me into his study. He shows me to the phone in his office and then leaves quietly, giving me some much-needed privacy.

  I hesitate with my hand positioned over the phone for ages before finally picking it up. I type in dad's number with shaky numbers.

  The phone rings and rings and rings. I'm almost sure he isn't going to answer.

  But then, I hear someone pick it up, and my dad's frazzled voice greets me.

  "Hello?"

  I take a sharp intake of air, wondering if he knows if it's me. He's quiet for a long time, listening to me breathing.

  "Cara?" he finally says.

  His voice is shaky and filled with so much sadness it breaks my heart. I think back to the time we lost mom, to how well dad took care of me. How he always tried to make things better for me, for us. He was a great father.

  "Hi, dad," I say softly into the phone.

  He breathes a sigh of relief, and for a moment, I think he's going to cry. But instead, he laughs. A sound I know so well it makes me smile in response.

  "Hi," he says, and his voice is calmer. "Hi, sweetie."

  I don't know why, but I sob. Only once, but enough to make my dad worry.

  "Oh, honey," he says softly. "We're going to make things right."

  "Okay," I reply in a small voice.

  "Maybe not today," dad jokes, and I giggle through the few tears that have escaped my eyes. "But soon. I'll... I'll come to terms with it."

  "Will you come visit me?" I ask.

  "Of course," he promises. "All the time."

  "And..." I let the sentence hang in the air.

  "And what, honey?"

  "And you still love me, right?"

  "Cara," he says simply. "Always. I promise you that."

  I look up to find Mason standing in the doorway, his concerned eyes following my motions. I smile, and he smiles back.

  "Good," I say into the phone. "That's good, dad."

  CHAPTER TWENTY

  MASON

  1 MONTH LATER

  I crawl closer to him. I'm only wearing a nightie, nothing else. Not panties, not a bra.

  I crawl onto his lap, straddling him. My heart is beating a million times per minute, and I've no idea why I'm doing this. I just want his pain to leave his body.

  "Cara..." he breathes a warning down my neck, leaning back so his torso isn't touching mine.

  But the breath against my neck is enough for my nipples to harden, and I'm thankful the room is dark apart from the lamp on my bedside table. I don't want him to see how fiercely I'm blushing.

  "Cara, you need to move," he tells me, his voice rough and strained. "If you don't, you won't be able to get away from me."

  I take his hands gently and put them on my hips, and he groans out loud. I need him close. Need him touching me. Need him inside me.

  "Please," I breathe. "I just need to feel safe. Can you help me?"

  "Jesus," he groans when I grind my naked hips against his crotch.

  I can feel him getting hard under me.

  Mason’s hands push my nightie up, until it's above my hips. He doesn't look down at my naked pussy, instead focusing his eyes on mine, making it impossible for me to look away.

  "Fuck," he breathes. "You're impossible to resist, cara mia."

  "So don't resist," I tell him. "Just give in."

  He hesitates, but only for a second. In the next moment, he's got his fingers wrapped up in my blonde mane of hair, pulling my head back.

  "Strip," he orders me in a raspy voice.

  I blush and try to look away, but he makes my head stay in place.

  "I said strip," he repeats.

  My hands shake as they leave his shoulders, going to my hips. In one swift motion, I pull my pink lacy nightie over the top of my head. It lands in a heap on the floor and I'm left exposed, my breasts tightening in the cool air of the room and my pussy dripping on Mason’s pants.

  "Fucking hell," he breathes, and finally, his eyes roam my body. "I keep forgetting you’re fucking perfect, cara mia. So perfect."

  I try to shield my body with my hands, suddenly feeling shy, but he gently pries them away, admiring my body with lust-filled eyes.

  "Do you want to fuck me?" I ask him.

  "No," he groans, thrusting his hips against mine. "I don’t, Cara. I want to make love to you, baby. Is that okay?”

  I take a moment for the rush of the moment to wash over me, and finally nod. "Please," I beg him. "Show me what it feels like."

  Mason is up in a second, lifting me off t
he bed and placing me gently on my back. He climbs on top of me, and I feel shy as I'm stark naked and he's still fully clothed.

  "Do you ever touch yourself, Cara?" he asks me roughly, and I tremble.

  He’s never asked me that before.

  I nod.

  "Show me," he orders me. "Show me how you touch yourself, princess."

  My fingers don't obey my mind, which is shouting for me to stop. Instead, they follow an instinct of my body, roaming down my thighs and between my legs. I press my index finger against my clit and Mason grabs my hips as I moan.

  "You like that?" he asks me as I circle the little bundle of nerves. "You like feeling yourself get wet, baby?"

  I nod, moaning. He's holding my hips down with one hand, while the other goes to his neck and pulling off the tie he's wearing. My eyes glaze over, but he won't let me stop touching myself.

  My fingers leave my clit, and he stops holding me down, his palm smacking my pussy hard.

  "Fuck," I yelp. "Don't..."

  "Don't?" he asks me, his hand lingering on my pussy and making me gasp. "Remember who's in charge here, cara mia. Tell me."

  I look at him with my eyes wide, and his finger parts my pussy lips, making me arch my back with neediness.

  "Tell me who owns this pussy," he orders me, circling my clit with his thumb. My eyes are glazing over.

  "Y-you," I stutter over the word. "You do..."

  With a groan, he gets off of me, pulling off his shirt and then his trousers. He stands before me in his boxers, his cock straining against the fabric and begging to be released.

  "Go on, Cara," he tells me slowly. "Play with my cock."

  I crawl over to the edge of the bed, slowly reaching for his ass. He thrusts his hips into my hands, and I look him in the eye when I pull down his boxers. His dick springs free and I moan at the sight of him, just like I always do.

  Mason’s hands wrap in my hair again, making me look down.

  "Do you want it?" he asks me, like he's talking to a pet. "You want a taste, sweetheart?"

  I nod, moaning low in my throat. He doesn't even have to push inside my mouth, I lean closer by myself.

  Slowly, I lick the tip of his dick, and Mason groans with pleasure.

  "Fucking shit," he tells me, his fingers tightening in my hair. "More, baby. Show me how good you lick."