Electric Chaos (Controlled Chaos Book 1)
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Table of Contents
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14
Chapter 15
Chapter 16
Chapter 17
Chapter 18
Chapter 20
Chapter 21
Chapter 22
Chapter 23
Chapter 24
Chapter 25
Chapter 26
Chapter 27
Chapter 28
Chapter 29
Chapter 30
ElectricChaos
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Chapter1
Katy
“Janie,canyoucomeoverhereand finishupwiththisclientforme?”
OnceJanietakesthemeasuringtape,Ipul myphonefrommypocketandreadthetext thatcameinfromKellan.
Kellan:Betherein10
Katy:Ok,comethroughtheback
Kellanistheleadguitarplayerfor ControlledChaosandmybestfriend.We havebeenbestfriendssincesecondgrade, whenhestoppedanotherboyfrompicking onme.
WhenIwasalittlegirl,likeal little girlsIdreamedofmyweddingday.Ihadit allplannedoutinmyhead,howeverlife nevergoesasplanned.Whenwestarted
ourfreshmanyearofhighschool,Iknew thatIwasinlovewithKellanandthatI wantedtobewithhimforever,howeverI soonrealizedthathedidn’tfeelthesame aboutme.EachtimeIsawhimwithanother girl,alittlepieceofmedied.
Afteraboutayearofthis,IdecidedthatI wantedtokeepmybestfriendmorethanI wantedaromanticrelationship,soIpushed thosefeelingstothebackandpretended likenothinghadchangedbetweenus,even thoughdeepdown,everythinghad
changed.
Now,IamtheownerofThorns.It’sa clothingboutique.Icreateclothesthatare amixoffiftiesrockabil yandpunkrock.I amalsoinchargeofcreatingalltheoutfits forthemembersofthealternativerock bandControlledChaos.
Lookingdownatmyphoneagain,Iseethe text…
Kellan:K
Ican’tletthemcomeinthroughthefront doorwhenthereareclientsinthestore.
Overthelastyeartheyhavereal ytakenoff andtheyarenowonthismajortour.
I’malreadyinthebackroom,whenthey arrive.Ihavetheclothesalreadylaidoutfor themtotryon.
Kellanisthefirstonetoreachme.
“HeyKat.”
“Heyyourself,”Isay,asheleansin andplacesakissonmycheek.
Theotherguyssoonfollowsuit.Ihandeach onetheiroutfits.
“Trytheseon.Onceyouhavethem on,Iwil checkthefittomakesure everythingisgood,theninabouttwo weeks,theywil beready.”
“Youknowthefitwillbeperfectas usual,”Danestates.
Ismileandturntoleavejustastheyallstart todroptheirclothes.Igivethemabout
fifteenminutes,beforere-enteringthe room.
Holdingmypinsout,Isay,“ok,whois first?”Iwigglemyeyebrowsupanddown, justforshow.Theyallbustoutlaughing, butasusual,Maddoxisthefirstinfrontof me.
“Ok,Katykat,doyourthing.”Ismile atthenickname.IhaveknownMaddox almostaslongasIhaveKellan.“Justwatch thepreciousgoods.”
Shrugging,Ismirk,“youknowIcan’t guaranteeanything.”Then,notabletohold mylaughterinanymore,Icrackup.
Iquicklyfinishupwithallthecorrections.
Onceeveryoneisfinished,Istepbackoutof theroomsotheycangetdressed.When thedooropens,Iwalkwiththemtothe backdoor.WheneveryonebutKel anhas exited,Iturntohim.
“So,youcomingtotheshow
tonight?”
“Idon’tknow.MeandColtare
supposedtogoouttonight.”
Hecruncheshiseyebrows,beforesaying,
“so,you’restil datingthatdouche.”
It’snotreallyaquestion,andIknowKellan hasneverlikedColt.“He’snotadoucheand yeahwe’restilltogether.”
Leaningdown,hekissesmycheekagain, thensays,“youknowyouarealwaysonthe listifyoueverwanttocometoanyshow andIcanalwaysaddaplusoneifyouwant tobringthedouche.”
Ismileathim,“yeah,Iknow.Youreallyare thebest.”
Ileanupontiptoeandkisshischeek beforewatchingthemleave.
Iclosethedoorandgobackintotheroom, grabbingalltheclothestheyjusttriedon.I takethemtotheboxesIhaveonthe counter,quicklyfoldthemandcloseupthe boxes.Theywil begoinghomewithme,so
Icanfinishthestitchingandhavethem readybytheirshowinVegas.
Chapter2
Katy
Atseven,Icloseupshopandhead home.Coltissupposedtopickmeupat nine.WhenIgethome,Itosstheboxesinto myextraroom;whichIcallmystitching room,thenheadtomybedroom.Itakea quickshowerandputononeofthedresses Icreated.It’ssome.It’slightbluelacewith athinlayerofsilkunderneath.It’slightand fun.Iloveit!Ipairitwithsomesilverankle boots.
Ipilemyhairupontopofmyheadandadd someteardropearrings.Igivemyselfalight smokyeye,andapplysomelightpeach lipstick.Givingmyselfonelastlook,Ihead intomylivingroomtowaitforColt.
AtninethirtyIrealizeheisn’tcoming.I havetextedandcal edhimrepeatedly,with noanswer.IamsopissedoffthatIcan’t
evenseestraight.Grabbingmyphone,Itext Kellan.
Me:Mynamestil onthelist?
Kellan:Always.DoIneedtoadda plusone?
Me:NopejustmeandI’monmy
way.
Irunintomyroom,throwmydressoff, grabmyblackskinnyjeans,withtheholes inthelegs,throwonahotpinktank,slide myfeetintomyasskickingcombatboots, andtakeoffmyearrings.Igrabamakeup wipeandremovemymakeup.Iquickly reapplyadarkeye,andredlipstick.ThenI grabmyleatherjacketandwalkoutthe frontdoor.
WhenIgettotheshow,Igotothe backentrance.WhenIreachthesecurity,I givemynameandhehandsmeapassandI steppasthim.
Onceinside,Iwalktowardwhereal the peoplearegathered.IknowControlled
Chaoshasn’twentonyet,butIamnotsure exactlywheretheirroomis.However,from allthehalf-dressedgirlsstandinginthehal , IknowIamintherightplace.Iwalktothe frontoftheline,untilIgettothedoorthat hastheirnameonit,Iagaingivemyname tothesecurityguy,showhimmypassand oncehefindsmyname,quicklyletsme pass.
Walkingthroughthedoor,Ibracemyself forwhatImightsee.Thisisn’tthefirst showIhavebeentoo,andlet’sjustsay, afterIwalkedinonMaddoxfuckingagirl andRyker,godresthissoul,gettingablow job,Ilearnedtoneverunderestimatewhat youmightsee.
Luckily,therearen’tanygirlsinhereyet.
Lookingaround,IfindKellanstandingwith hisbacktome.Iwalkovertohimandslide myhandacrosshisass.“Heybigguy,you freelater?”
Thelookonhisfacewhenheturnsaround, hasmelaughingoutloud.“Ohman!The
lookonyourfaceKellan…itwaspriceless.”I sayasIdoubleoverfrommylaughter.
Hesmirksatme,beforesaying,“youdon’t wanttoplaythisgamewithmeKat.You’l lose.”
Ihavenodoubtinthat.Ikeepmymaskin placeasIanswer,“nogirlcancompetewith amanwhorelikeyou.”
Heislookingatmewithasmileonhisface, butoncethesmiledrops,Iknowhecansee allthehurtinsideme.“Whatdidthe douchedonow?”
“Idon’twanttotalkaboutColtright now.Ijustwanttowatchtheshowand forgetabouthimforalittlewhile.”
“Fine,butwhentheshowisover,you wil tel meeverythingandImean everything.Notjustsomeofit.”
Ishakemyheadno.“Youwillwanttospend timewithyourfans,”andImakeairquotes aroundthewordfans.“Iknowyouguys.
Youwil needtoburnoffalltheenergy
fromtheshowandhonestlythereisn’t muchtotel .Justhimbeingajerk.”
“Idon’tneedgroupies,Ihaveyou.”
IknowhemeansashisbestfriendbutI can’thelpbutfeelthebutterfliesinmy stomach.ThesameonesIalwaysgetwhenI amwithhim.
“Fine,ifyou’resure.”
Iwatchasthehairandmake-uppeople comeoveranddotouchupsonalltheguys.
ThenIhear,“you’reupguys.”
IgiveKellanakissonthecheek,andtell him,“crushit!I’llbeinthefrontrowand backherewhenyougetdone.”
ThenIturnandheadtowardmyseat.I knowIcouldstaybackstageandwatchthe showfromtherebutIliketheful effectof theshowandIcan’tgetthatfrom backstage.
Ijustmakeittomyseat,whenthe lightsgooutandthebigscreenlightsup andstartsplayingvideoclips.
Chapter3
Kellan
IamabouttogoonandallIcanthink aboutisKaty.Ineedtobefocusedonthe showbuthell,eversinceIgothertext,she wasal Icouldthinkabout.WhenIreceived thetextfromKaty,Iknewthatdouchehad donesomething.Whensheshoweduphere andactedasifeverythingwasfine,Isawin hereyesthateverythingwasn’tfine.Katy hasbeenmybestfriendsinceforever.Ican readherlikenooneelse.
Ialsohavebeensecretlyinlovewithher sincewewerejuniors.Since,Ichosenotto actonmyfeelingsforher,afraidIwould messthingsupandloseher,Inowhaveto watchherwithothermenandeachtimeit gutsmemore.
Shedoesn’tknowthatIdon’twantanyone butherandshecan’tknow.Itwil messup
ourwholerelationshipandIcan’thavethat.
SheistheonlypersonIhave,otherthanthe otherbandmembers,whoknowsmeinside andoutandIdon’thavetopretendtobe someoneI’mnot.
Sheiseverythingtome,buteverytime anotherguyhurtsher,itmakesmewantto claimherthatmuchmore.Ican’tstand Colt.Iwishshewouldseehimforwhathe reallyis,butshe’sblindtoit.
“Dude,areyouok?”Maddoxsaysas heshouldersme.
“Yeah.I’mgood.”
“Good,nowlet’sgiveonhel ofa show.”
Pushingeverythingtothebackofmymind, Itrytofocussolelyontheshowwe’re abouttoputon.
Whenthelightsgodown,Kanemakeshis waytohisdrums,Jaspergrabshisbassfrom oneoftheroadies,Danetakeshisguitar fromPete,oneofourstagecrew,andIgrab
mybabyfromanother.Takingmyplaceon stage,Igetready.WhenIhearKanestartto poundoutthebeattoChaos,Iclosemy eyesandletthemusicrunthroughme.
WhenthelightscomeonandMaddox beginstosing,Iamcompletelylostinthe music.ThelightsarebrightandIcan’tsee morethanafewrowsout,butIknowKaty isthereandshe’swatching.
Halfwaythroughtheshow,Istartmyguitar rifetoWithoutYou.WithoutYouisasong wewroteforourbassguitarplayerand friendwhopassedawaytwoyearsagofrom adrugoverdose.It’sapainfulsongbutone everyonecanrelatetoatthesametime.I lovethissongandhateitatthesametime.
Rykerhadbeenachildhoodfriendand whenwestartedbecomingmorepopular helostsightofwhatwasimportantandgot hungupondrugs,onlynoonenoticeduntil itwastoolate.
Lookingback,IregretthatIdidn’tnotice thesmallthings.Iguessinaway,wealllost
sightofwhatwasimportant.Wewereal to focusedonthedrugs,girlsandpopularity.
Endingthesong,IwalkovertotheScott oneofourroadiesbehindthestageand switchoutmyguitars,grabbingmyother baby,IremovemyshirtandtossittoScott asIputmystrapovermyhead.Idon’t removemyshirtjustforthegirlsbutalso becauseitisextremelyhotuphereunder thelights.
Walkingbackout,Maddoxissaying somethingtothecrowd,andwhateveritis, hasthemscreaming.Whenheturnsback aroundandseesme,hesmirksbefore saying,“wellladies,lookslikestringsover hereisstrippingforyoutonight.”
Ijustsmirkbackathim.Iknowexactlywhat heisdoing.Goingtomymic,Isay,“wel someonehasto,sinceyou’renot.Besides, I’mthebestlookingoneanyways.”
There’salotofscreaming,thenasusual, Maddoxripshisshirtupandoverhishead, baringhischestforal tosee.Webothhave
tattoosalloverourbodybutheisslightly morebuiltthanme.Iworkoutbutnotlike hedoes.
“Now,now,nowboys.Everyone
knowsthatIamthesexiestoneinthis group.”Kanesays.
Thereisalotmorescreaming.
“No,no,no.Iamthesexiestone.”
Jaspersays.
Again,thereisalotofscreaming.
Maddoxsmilesbeforeturningbackaround andwefinishtheshow.Iwalkoffstage, handmyguitartoScottandheadbackto ourroom.IneedtoshowerandfindKaty.
Chapter4
Kellan
Walkingintothedressingroom,Ifind KatysittingonthecouchtalkingtoJasper.
She’ssmilingandlaughingatsomethinghe said.Shelookssocarefreeandhappy.Ifeel thejealousyrisingup.She’smineandthat smileandlaugharemine.
Fuck!!!No!!!She’snotmine.Irunmy fingersthroughmyhairandoncemy emotionsareincheck,Iheadtowardher.
WhenIreachher,Iholdmyhandoutand say,“comeon.Weneedtotalk.”
Takingherhand,Ipullherupandleadher towardourbus.Iknowitwillbesometime beforetheguysgeton.Theywil stay behindtosignshitandgetsomegirlsfor thenight.
Climbingontothebus,wesitonthecouch.
“Tel mewhathappened.”
Shesighs,thensays,“rememberItoldyou weweresupposedtogoouttonight?”
Ishakemyheadyes.“Wel ,Igothome,got dressedandwaitedforhimtoshow,buthe didn’t.Hedidn’tcal ,textoranythingand whenItextedhimandcal edhim,hedidn’t answer.Hejustdidn’tshow.So,Igotpissed andtextedyou.”
“Whenareyougoingtoseewhata pieceofshitheis?YoualwaysdothisKat.
Youpicktheworstguysyoucanfindto date.”
Shedropsherhead,thensays,“Iknow.I guessIjustattractthecrapguys.”
Iputmyfingerunderherchinandlifther face,soIcanlookherintheeyes.God, thosebeautifulgreeneyes.“Look,youare beautifulandanyguywouldbeproudto haveyou.Youjustneedtofindoneyoucan beproudtohavetoo.Don’tletanyonetel you,youcan’tdoanybetter,becausebabe, youcanhaveyourpickofguys.”
“That’ssweetofyouandifyou
weren’tmybestfriend,Imightjustbelieve you.Youdon’thavetosaythingsyoudon’t meanjustbecausewearefriends.”
Thiswoman,neverbelievesmewhe
nItel herthatsheisbeautiful.Itdrivesmenuts.
“I’mnotsayingthatjustbecausewe’re friends.I’msayingthatbecauseit’strue.”
Katyisfreakinggorgeous.Betweenher glassgreeneyes,longbrownhairand curvesthatwouldsendanymantohis knees,shehasapersonalitythat’soutof thisworld.Shedoesn’tseeal theguysstare atherwhenshewalksby,butIdo.
Feelingtheurgetokissher,Igetupand walktothefridge.“Wantadrink?”
“Sure,whatchagot?”
“Wehavealittlebitofeverything.
Alcohol,coke,water?”
“Iwil takejustawater,Iguess.I drovesoIprobablyshouldn’tdrink.”
Igrabherabottleofwater,pouracokefor meandsitbackdownbesideher.
“Wanttoplayagame?”
“Whatgame?”
“PS4?”
“Ok,butwhatgame?”
“MXvsATV?’
Shejumpsinherseat.Iknowthat’soneof herfavoritegames.
“Yes,let’splay.”
Wearestil playing,whentheguysclimb ontothebusafewhourslater.Hearinggirls giggling,Iturn.Maddoxhastwogirls,Kane andJasperhaveoneeach,andDane doesn’tappeartohaveanyone.Turning backtoKaty,Isay,“wanttogetoutof here?”
Shehasn’tnoticedthegirlsyet,butshewil .
“WhyyouafraidIwil kickyourassagain?”
Atthatmoment,agirlgiggles.Katyturns andlooksatthem,thenbacktome.“Yeah, it’slate,Iprobablyshouldbegoing.”