Official Girl 3

by Charmanie Saquea

  Kamil put Neicey in the backseat of my car while I hopped in the passenger seat. “Me and Lakey will follow y’all,” he said.

  I looked over at my brother who was sitting in the driver’s side. “Mack—“ I said, but he cut me off.

  “I already know nigga. Traffic laws don’t even exist to a nigga right now,” he said speeding away.

  I looked in the backseat and looked at Neicey. I felt my blood boiling all over again. I’m just happy this shit is finally over with.

  Reneice

  I woke up to the sound of a monitor beeping. I looked around and noticed I was in the hospital. How the hell did I get here? I tried to sit up but I was too weak.

  “I don’t think that’s a good idea,” I heard my dad say. I looked at him and he looked like he hadn’t had any sleep.

  I was about to say something but two well-dressed men walked into the room. “Ms. Peake, I’m Officer Zaluchi and this is my partner Officer Calvin. We have a few questions to ask you, if you don’t mind,” the tall one with ocean blue eyes said.

  “Is that really necessary right now?” my dad asked. “She just woke up.”

  “Yes, we would like to get it out the way,” Officer Calvin said.

  “Ms. Peake, do you remember what happened?” Officer Zaluchi asked.

  Not really in the mood for this I just shook my head no.

  He looked at me like he didn’t believe me. “Do you know who did this or who would have a motive to do this?” he asked.

  I just shook my head again hoping he would get the hint and leave.

  “Alright Ms. Peake, if you do seem to remember anything please give us a call,” he said, trying to hand me a card but my dad took it instead.

  “We’ll call,” he said.

  The officers left, then it was just me and my dad. “You know I’m not calling them right?” he said, coming to adjust the bed so I was sitting up some.

  I nodded my head, “I know.”

  In walked Mykell with his shirt off and a bandage on his shoulder. He walked over to me and tried to kiss me but I turned my head. He looked at me funny then went to sit down in a chair by my dad.

  It’s crazy because I was begging for him to come and save me but now that I’m looking at him, I feel like he’s the enemy. I’m starting to feel like all this shit is his fault. No doubt I love him, but I feel like all the shit I have been through wasn’t even worth it.

  “Where are my kids?” I asked breaking the silence.

  “At home sleep,” he said.

  I just looked at him. I was starting to wonder if I spoke too soon when I said I wanted to be in a relationship with him again.

  A doctor walked in the room during our intense staring battle.

  “Hello Ms. Peake, I’m Doctor Martin. How are you feeling?”

  “Horrible.” I kept it short.

  “I bet, you have a dislocated shoulder, a few cracked ribs, your right eye is swollen so much that you can barely open it, you have a lot of bruises, and you were dehydrated and famished when you got here so I understand why you would feel that way.”

  Hearing all that, part of me wished I would have died in that room. I heard Mykell asking him some questions but I just zoned out.

  Chapter 1 8

  Ramone

  I didn’t want to leave my Ladybug down there in Florida but I trust and know she’s in good hands down there with Mykell and Lakey. I called every other day to check on her. But now I have other issues that I need to take care, one of them being Le’Lani. Lately she’s been acting real funny, she’s either sleeping all day, snapping on me or Ranyla or she’s gone all day. I got a feeling she’s pregnant.

  She’s been gone for two hours so I decided to call her and see where she’s at. Her phone rang four times before she answered. “Hello?” she answered.

  “Yo where the fuck you at?” I yelled.

  The line got quiet, I had to look at the phone to make sure she didn’t hang up. “You not gon say shit?”

  “I’ll be there in a minute,” she said before hanging up.

  I just shook my head. Something was up with her ass and I was about to find out but that shit would have to wait because my son was on his way over. I went to Ranyla’s room to check on her and she was knocked out. She reminded me so much of Ladybug and Amyricale. I bent down and kissed her forehead and headed out her room. By the time I reached the bottom of the stairs, somebody was knocking on the door.

  I opened the door for Keiyari and Carmen. He ran up and started punching me in my legs and I picked him up and tossed him in the air, our little routine we did every time we saw each other.

  “Where Ny Ny and Lani?” he asked.

  “Why, you don’t want to see me?” I asked tickling him.

  Carmen laughed. “He made me rush all the way over here because he bought Ranyla and Lani something,” she said handing me his bags.

  “Is that right?” I asked.

  “Yup,” he giggled.

  I looked up to see Lani pulling in the driveway on the side of Carmen’s car. She got out with bags of food in her hand.

  “Hey Carmen, he lil man,” she said kissing Keiyari’s cheek.

  “Lani, I got something for you!” he said excitedly.

  “Really? What you get me?” she asked smiling.

  “It’s a surprise.”

  “Oh I love surprises,” she smiled before walking in the house.

  “I’ll be here to pick him up Sunday at 8:00,” Carmen said before kissing Keiyari and leaving.

  I went in the house in search of my fiancé, it was time for us to talk. I put Keiyari down on the couch and turned on cartoons for him. I found Lani in the kitchen putting food away and getting ready to start dinner.

  I walked up behind her and put my hands on her hips that looked like they were spreading. “Yo wanna tell me where you been all day? I missed you.”

  She turned around to face me. “I went to the mall and did a little shopping then I went to the store for dinner,” she said looking at me.

  “Aight, I got something I want you to do for me though,” I said kissing her neck.

  “What?”

  “Hold up, I’ll be back,” I said walking upstairs to our room. I went straight to our bathroom and got the pregnancy test I bought earlier.

  I walked back into the kitchen. “Here,” I said handing her the pregnancy test.

  “Are you serious?” she asked taking it.

  “Why wouldn’t I be?” I asked looking at her.

  “I can promise you that I’m not pregnant but if you want me to take it I will,” she said, walking towards the downstairs bathroom.

  I heard Ranyla whining so I went upstairs to get her. “Hey baby girl, I see you finally woke up.”

  She just looked at me and smiled. She had a mouth full of teeth and was saying little words here and there. “Guess who’s here to see you?” I said walking into the living room.

  She got so happy when she saw her brother. “Hey Ny Ny, look it’s SpongeBob.” Keiyari said.

  “Pongebod,” she said trying to talk. I just stood back and watched my kids. I loved the relationship that they have. It reminds me of how close Ladybug and I are. I went to the bathroom to check on Lani. I opened the door to her looking like she just seen a damn ghost.

  “Well?” I asked dying from anticipation.

  “It’s positive,” she said with tears in her eyes.

  I just took her in my arms and held her tight. “It’s going to be okay baby. Don’t worry.”

  I rubbed her back as she sobbed in my chest.

  Lani

  I cannot believe this. This just can’t be happening to me, not like this. I needed somebody to talk to. I hate that Neicey is all the way in Florida especially at a time like this.

  I knocked on the door and waited for somebody to answer. I gasped when the door opened. The sight before me had me weak in the knees. The fine specimen was standing before me with nothing on but basketball shorts and I almost forgot why I
was here.

  “Wassup ma?” Zamier asked pulling me in for a hug.

  I inhaled his scent and he smelled just like Guilty Gucci cologne.

  “Thanks for letting me stop by.” I smiled.

  “No problem. You said it was important, so wassup.”

  I took a deep breath. “Umm I’m pregnant,” I said just coming right out and saying it.

  His facial expression went from shocked to concern in a matter of seconds.

  “Is it mines?” he asked the question I’ve been dreading to hear since I found out.

  Alright so I haven’t been honest. Yes I have been sleeping with Zamier since me and Ramone broke up. In the beginning it was just a harmless friendship then one night things got a little heavy and one thing lead to another. What should have only happened one time ended up happening on several occasions. I would be lying if I said I didn’t enjoy it. I know I should feel bad or some type of regrets but I don’t. I have a man at home that I love, no doubt about it, but at the time I was hurt and wanted him to feel the same pain I felt.

  Now I dragged a real good person and friend in the middle of my bullshit.

  “Honestly, I don’t know. I just took the test yesterday so I‘m not sure how far along I am or if I even want to keep it.”

  I noticed him tense up at the last part. He looked at me with sad eyes. “Look Le’Lani, I know you and ya boy back together and want to work things out. I respect that, I really do but it’s a chance that this baby might be mine which means I don’t want you getting an abortion. I’m pretty sure yo boy would feel the same way. If we find out later on down the line that this baby is mine, I’ll take it and raise it. I know this might cause some problems in yo relationship be you gotta think about how I feel,” he said sincerely.

  I just looked in his eyes and understood where he came from. I don’t have anyone to blame for this but myself. Even though we haven’t slept together since before I left for Florida I still feel like shit about this whole situation.

  “Alright, I’m going to make a doctor’s appointment to find out how far along I am and we’ll go from there,” I said getting up to leave.

  “Thanks for understanding,” he said hugging me.

  Once in my car I released the breath I didn’t even realize I was holding. One thing I know for certain is that no matter who the daddy is, this baby is a part of me and I wouldn’t feel right getting rid of it. I made my bed so I gotta be woman enough to lay in it.

  Chapter 1 9

  Mykell

  To say that a nigga is stressed out would be an understatement. Once again it was a damn strain on me and Neicey’s relationship. It seems like all that shit we said before she got kidnapped was never was even said. She’s been real distant lately, not just from me but from the kids also. Amyricale will try to reach for her and Neicey will walk right past her like she’s not even there. I haven’t seen her like this since she fell into that deep depression when she was raped and beaten the first time.

  If it wasn’t for Lakey and that nigga Kamil helping me with the kids, I don’t know what I would do. Kamil and I decided to put our differences aside and be men. This wasn’t the time to be going at each other’s throats with Neicey being the way she was. The bruises and swelling were gone, she wasn’t using crutches anymore and her shoulder was better but that was nothing because the emotional scars and pain was still there.

  Lakey thought it would be a good idea to take the kids to Disney World since they haven’t been yet since we’ve been in Florida. I tried to get Neicey to come with us so she could get some fresh air and have some fun, but she refused.

  “This was a good idea man. I don’t know why I didn’t think of this,” I said as we pulled up in Magic Kingdom.

  “Look daddy!” Romell said excitedly.

  I looked back and smiled at my kids back there looking like triplets. Amyricale was in her car seat making spit bubbles. I don’t care if she was too young get on any of the rides, wherever I went, my princess went.

  While MJ and Romell ran wild from ride to ride, Lakey and I followed close behind them with Amyricale in her stroller.

  “So what’s up man, how she doing?” Lakey asked.

  I just shook my head. “Not good man. I’m just scared she’s going to end up like the last time,” I said being honest.

  “I understand, shit. This shit she’s been through would drive most muthafuckas crazy. She’s a strong woman though, I’ll give her that,” Lakey said.

  “I know, I just feel like if she never would have met me, none of this shit would have happened to her.”

  “Man chill on that. I’ve known Snook all my life and I can tell you right now that her lil ass is happy with you. Wherever somebody mentions your name she gets this sparkle in her eyes. She loves you and it’s not hard to tell,” Lakey said

  “I feel like we just need to get away for a while. Just me and her, get to know each other again and remind each other why we fell for each other in the first place,” I said bringing my thoughts to life.

  “Then do that, go away to Jamaica or the Bahamas or something.”

  I just nodded my head in agreement. That didn’t sound like too bad of a plan.

  “Dad, I think Fat Fat is sick,” MJ said running to me.

  “I ran over to Romell and he looked like he was ready to throw up. Right when I was about to pick him up, he turned his head and let everything up.

  “Alright lil man, looks like we’re going to have to cut this trip short,” I said carrying him back to the car. It was fun while it lasted.

  Reneice

  I feel real fucking worthless right now. I don’t understand how much more God wants me to hurt and suffer. I’m only 24 years old and I’ve been raped not once but twice, and beaten to the point where I was barely recognizable, not once but twice. My life was not supposed to be like this. It seems like I just can’t catch a fucking break. On top of that, I’m pregnant with a baby that’s a product of rape. I don’t want people walking around feeling like they have to feel sorry for me. I just know this is not the plan God had for me. This is it, I don’t want to live anymore.

  I walked in the closet and pulled out a shoe box that held my nickel plated .45. I stood in front of the big mirror on my dresser and watched as the tears fell. I loaded a bullet into the chamber and cocked the gun before placing it to my head. Lord, forgive me for what I’m about to do. I just can’t take it anymore, watch over my kids and Mykell, and protect them, I silently prayed. Just when I was about to pull the trigger, the door to the bedroom opened.

  “What the fuck yo!” Mykell yelled. He rushed over to me and tried to take the gun from me but I wouldn’t let it go.

  “Let it go Reneice!” he yelled. We wrestled with it for a few before I finally gave up and ran to the bathroom. I slammed and locked the door before turning to the cabinets to find some pills I could take.

  Bang Bang Bang! “Open the fucking door Neicey!” he yelled. I ignored him and grabbed the bottle of ibuprofen. I poured a handful into my hand. Before I could even put them to my mouth, the door came crashing down.

  BOOM!

  Mykell slapped the pills out my hand. “Ahhhh!” I screamed.

  He grabbed me by my collar. “Really Reneice? That’s how you gon do it? Shit is that serious that you trynna off yourself!” he yelled with tears in his eyes.

  I just broke down and cried in his chest. “Just let me die Kell, please, just let me die,” I cried.

  He slid to the ground with me in his arms. He rocked me back and forth as we both cried. I had finally reached my breaking point.

  “Y’all okay?” MJ asked walking into the bathroom looking confused.

  I was crying so hard I couldn’t even answer him.

  “Yea man, just go watch yo brother and sister till I get down there,” Mykell spoke with a shaky voice.

  “I just want to be happy Mykell, is that too much to ask for?” I cried.

  I cried so much that I eventually felt my eyes getting h
eavy. The last thing I remembered was Mykell carrying me to the bed and laying me down in his arms until I drifted off to sleep.

  Lakey

  When I got the phone call from Mykell telling me what Neicey tried to do, I almost broke down. I knew she was hurting but I didn’t think it was that bad that she would try to commit suicide. That don’t even sound like her to do something like that. I told Mykell that I would be by to pick up the kids so they could stay with me for a little while. He agreed because he didn’t want them to see her like that and I don’t blame him.

  “Thanks again man, I really appreciate this,” Mykell said as I grabbed the kid’s bag.

  “Man you don’t have to thank me, that’s what family is for. I’ll keep them for as long as you need me to,” I said picking up Amyricale’s car seat.

  “Alright, I’ll call to check on them later. She’s upstairs sleeping now so Imma let her get some rest before we talk about this shit.”

  “Alright, stay up man.”

  “I’ll try,” he said looking hurt. “MJ, Romell, y’all be good.”

  “Alright dad,” they said.

  I’ll be sure to say a special prayer for my Snook tonight, I thought as I got the kids settled in my truck.

  Chapter 20

  Ramone

  I was happy as hell when I found out that Lani was pregnant again. At first she wasn’t but she finally warmed up to the idea.

  Lani was downstairs cooking breakfast while I was in the shower. When I got out, I heard her phone ringing. I went to see who it was when I noticed she had a missed call and a text message from a Zamier. Who the fuck is that? I thought as I clicked on the message.

  Zamier: Wassup ma? I tried calling you but I figured you were busy. Call me or stop by so we can talk about the baby situation and so we can figure out what we gon do.