Thirty and a Half Excuses
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“Don’t you see?” he pleaded. “If I don’t run for this senate seat, my parents will ruin you. There won’t be any us because you’ll be in prison. Not to mention what they plan on doing to Violet and Mike.”
My fingers dug into his arm, holding onto him for dear life. “Then I’ll do what I have to do to be with you. I’ll follow their rules.”
He gave me a bitter smile. “You think you can pretend you don’t know Neely Kate and live with it? You can ignore someone who needs help? It will eat you up inside. Why do you think I was so messed up before I met you?”
“Joe, there has to be a way!”
He leaned his forehead against mine. “I wish there was.” He kissed me lightly. “This is the only thing I can do to protect you, and for once I’m man enough to do it. The irony is that I’m losing you in the process.”
I showed him the ring, frantic for him to listen to me. “You asked me to marry you. That means something, Joe.”
“Of course it means something. Losing you is like losing a part of myself.” His voice broke again and he kissed me in desperation and grief.
I clung to him, kissing him back and trying to show him how much I needed him.
How could I live without him?
He lifted his head, and took a deep breath. “No.” He pried his hands from my neck then slid me off his lap and stood. “I’m just making this harder for both of us.”
Still in shock, I followed him to my room. He grabbed the bag he kept in my closet, opening drawers and shoving the clothes he kept at my house into his duffel.
How could this be happening?
“Joe, please.” I grabbed his hand, but he shook it off.
Although his face hardened, he ignored me, stepping around me when I tried to block his path. “Joe, stop! Please. We can figure something out. We’ll go somewhere together. We’ll run away, go somewhere your parents will never find us.”
He froze, the features on his face softening.
Encouraged, I looped my arms around his neck, pressing my body against his. “We can go anywhere. How about we live on a beach where we can live in our swimsuits? Me half-naked all the time. You’d like that.” I tried to give him a saucy smile, a difficult task when he was breaking my heart.
His body relaxed into mine, and he closed his eyes.
I lifted my mouth to his, and he wrapped his arms around my waist, pulling me to him as he kissed me with urgency. One of his hands buried in the hair at the nape of my neck, tilting my head back to give him better access.
I reached under his shirt, my hands skimming up his back and his hold on me tightened. “I don’t want to lose you, Joe.”
I had said the wrong thing. He froze, horror on his face. His arms dropped, and he tried to break loose of my hold.
I held on tight. “You keep saying I’m the best thing that’s ever happened to you. If that’s true, then why aren’t you fighting for me?”
“Don’t you see that I am? I’m fighting so you don’t lose you. If I let you become the person my mother wants you to be, not only will you resent me for it, but you will no longer be the woman I love.” A sad smile covered his face. “I don’t want you to change.” He gently pried my hands from his back. “One day you’ll thank me for this.”
He picked his bag up off my bed. I couldn’t imagine never waking up with him again. Or just cuddling on the sofa watching TV. Or making love with him. I couldn’t imagine a life without him. “What do you want from me, Joe?”
Joe stopped in front of me. “I want you to move on with your life. I want you to be happy.”
“Happy? How can you expect me to be happy without you?”
“Promise me you’ll try.”
I refused to answer. He was really going to do this. And I was going to let him.
I reached for my ring and started to tug it over my knuckle.
His hand covered mine. “No. I don’t want it back. I bought it for you, Rose. It’s yours.” He tilted my face up to his. “I want to look at you one last time.”
“I’m bruised and swollen. I don’t even have on makeup. This is how you want to remember me?”
He tried to smile, but his chin quivered. “You’re beautiful. Yes, this is how I want to remember you, just like this. Brave and strong and willing to stand up for what you believe in. Don’t ever let anyone change you to be what they need. Me included, Rose.” He leaned down and placed a gentle kiss on my lips, then headed for the door.
“So that’s it?” I asked, my voice breaking as I followed him into the living room. “It’s over, just like that?”
He opened the front door and held it open, turning around to look at me. “It was over from the beginning. I’ve just been waiting for my past to catch up to me.” He pressed his lips together and swallowed, tears filling his eyes. “Goodbye, Rose.”
I stood in disbelief as I watched my world walk out the door.
Thirty-One and a Half Regrets release January 9, 2014
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Acknowledgments
Thank you to my critique partner, Trisha Leigh, who helped me smooth out some minor tweaks that produced major impact. Also thanks to my slew of beta readers who so willing and eagerly offered their opinion. I was nervous about releasing this book and you made it easier. But I would be remiss if I don’t mention Rhonda Cowsert. She’s a faithful beta reader, whose insight is invaluable. I trust her judgment and opinion above all others.
Thank you to my children who endure Mommy getting lost in her plothead when she gets sucked into a story. Hopefully, one day they will understand.
Thank you to all my readers who love Rose and beg me for more. May we have many more Rose Gardner Mysteries together.
About the Author
Denise Grover Swank was born in Kansas City, Missouri and lived in the area until she was nineteen. Then she became a nomadic gypsy, living in five cities, four states and ten houses over the course of ten years before she moved back to her roots. She speaks English and smattering of Spanish and Chinese which she learned through an intensive Nick Jr. immersion period. Her hobbies include witty Facebook comments (in her own mind) and dancing in her kitchen with her children. (Quite badly if you believe her offspring.) Hidden talents include the gift of justification and the ability to drink massive amounts of caffeine and still fall asleep within two minutes. Her lack of the sense of smell allows her to perform many unspeakable tasks. She has six children and hasn’t lost her sanity. Or so she leads you to believe.
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Table of Contents
Thirty and a Half Excuses
Chapter One
Chapter Two
Chapter Three
Chapter Four
Chapter Five
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Chapter Six
Chapter Seven
Chapter Eight
Chapter Nine
Chapter Ten
Chapter Eleven
Chapter Twelve
Chapter Thirteen
Chapter Fourteen
Chapter Fifteen
Chapter Sixteen
Chapter Seventeen
Chapter Eighteen
Chapter Nineteen
Chapter Twenty
Chapter Twenty-One
Chapter Twenty-Two
Chapter Twenty-Three
Chapter Twenty-Four
Chapter Twenty-Five
Chapter Twenty-Six
Chapter Twenty-Seven
Chapter Twenty-Eight
Other books by Denise Grover Swank:
Acknowledgments
About the Author
Table of Contents
Thirty and a Half Excuses
Chapter One
Chapter Two
Chapter Three
Chapter Four
Chapter Five
Chapter Six
Chapter Seven
Chapter Eight
Chapter Nine
Chapter Ten
Chapter Eleven
Chapter Twelve
Chapter Thirteen
Chapter Fourteen
Chapter Fifteen
Chapter Sixteen
Chapter Seventeen
Chapter Eighteen
Chapter Nineteen
Chapter Twenty
Chapter Twenty-One
Chapter Twenty-Two
Chapter Twenty-Three
Chapter Twenty-Four
Chapter Twenty-Five
Chapter Twenty-Six
Chapter Twenty-Seven
Chapter Twenty-Eight
Other books by Denise Grover Swank:
Acknowledgments
About the Author
Table of Contents
Thirty and a Half Excuses
Chapter One
Chapter Two
Chapter Three
Chapter Four
Chapter Five
Chapter Six
Chapter Seven
Chapter Eight
Chapter Nine
Chapter Ten
Chapter Eleven
Chapter Twelve
Chapter Thirteen
Chapter Fourteen
Chapter Fifteen
Chapter Sixteen
Chapter Seventeen
Chapter Eighteen
Chapter Nineteen
Chapter Twenty
Chapter Twenty-One
Chapter Twenty-Two
Chapter Twenty-Three
Chapter Twenty-Four
Chapter Twenty-Five
Chapter Twenty-Six
Chapter Twenty-Seven
Chapter Twenty-Eight
Other books by Denise Grover Swank:
Acknowledgments
About the Author