by Hazel Gower
I need…oh…I need to…” I could barely speak I was so desperate with need.
“I know, little bit,” Stephan panted out.
He eased his body from mine and rested his head in the crook of my neck. He pistoned into me and his teeth scraped my neck and then he nibbled on my ear.
Holy crap. Who knew having my ear being nibbled on would shoot fiery desire straight to my core. I exploded, holding Stephan tight as a wave so strong washed over me and I smashed into a million pieces.
“Stephan,” I yelled, as my orgasm consumed me and bliss unlike anything I’d ever felt settled over me.
Stephan pumped into me a couple more times grunting his own release and coming to rest on top of me. I liked his weight, it added pressure to my already euphoric state.
“That was amazing,” I whispered. “I didn’t know it could be like that.”
“You’re amazing, Jade. I love you.”
I should tell him I love him back, but I didn’t want to tell him after he’d just taken my virginity. I wanted to tell him and have him know I meant it. I closed my eyes and basked in bliss.
*****
Stephan
I was on cloud fucking nine. It wasn’t because Jade had sex with me, well it helped, it was because she’d given me her virginity. I knew what it meant to her. I knew she wouldn’t have given it to me if she didn’t love me.
Over the last two weeks Jade had come out of her shell. She was cooking in the kitchen, dancing and singing. She hugged me, not me initiating everything. It was like she turned eighteen and knew she was free, she could go and do what she liked. DoCS didn’t have a thing to do with her anymore, she was legal.
When she’d waited for me outside my class on Friday I almost danced with joy. Finally she was accepting we were a couple, or so I thought until she said the words no man ever wants to hear, ‘we need to talk’. I almost pissed my pants. What the fuck? How the hell did I go from such a high to shaking in my shoes. Jade had never been so forward. I heard the determination in her voice.
I’d freaked myself out the whole drive to the park. When we’d sat on a park bench I’d asked what she wanted to talk about. When she told me it was about our future and what she was doing next year I’d relaxed and then gotten pissed. Had she not listened to a word I’d told her. I’d said we would be together forever. I friggin’ tattooed her name on chest. What the fuck more did she want?
I stopped acting like a pussy and told it to her straight. We would be together no matter what. We would be going to the same university. She was my soul mate, my one and I wasn’t leaving her…ever. Jade seemed to like it when I took charge and I liked being in charge.
Glancing over at her as I drove us to the Newcastle University Campus, I smiled seeing her rosy cheeks, puffy lips, and bright happy eyes. She looked gorgeous. The I’ve just had sex look suited her. I’d woken this morning to Jade’s back snuggled up to me rubbing her arse against me. I couldn’t help myself. My hand moved down from her waist, my fingers finding her clit, and I began rubbing circles around it. She’d moaned rotating her hips.
I lined my cock up to her entrance and slid it back and forth teasing her nether lips. Delving a finger into her core I tested her wetness. “Holy shit, Jade, you’re soaking wet.”
“It’s all your fault. Since meeting you I’ve turned into a horny mess. I was never attracted to anyone like I am to you.”
I didn’t say anything. Pulling my finger out of her I pushed my dick home. She felt fucking amazing as her walls clenched around me. I was feeling unbreakable, on a high from her words. I’d worked hard to get her attention and to get her to give being together another chance. Now I was so close to getting her to admit to her feelings for me I could feel it. Chuckling at my thoughts because I sure could feel something right now, and it was causing me to sweat with the strain of not letting go and coming without her having her fulfilment.
I caressed her breasts and leaned in and kissed up and down her neck as my cock thrust in and out of her. Her sighs and moans drove me crazy. Jade tilted her head giving me better access and her hands came up and held my head to her neck.
“I love your mouth,” her voice a breathless pant. Well that was a start, at least she loved something about me.
Easing up on my elbow I turned her head and took her lips with mine. I grabbed her leg and hiked it up helping me to sink deeper. She held it up and I glided my hand down, thrumming her clit with my fingers. The pads of my fingers touched where we joined and I devoured her, taking everything she was willing to give and more. Pressing down on her clit I circled it and plucked the bud between my fingers.
Her mouth tore from mine and she panted to catch her breath. “Yes, yes. I’m going to come,” she groaned out.
Sucking on her neck I wanted to leave my mark. I wanted everyone to know she was mine. She was taken. Driving my hips up I plunged into her and nibbled on her ear, driving her crazy. Her hand came to rest on mine and she screamed, digging her nails into my hand as she shattered around me, her pussy quivering before it squeezed me tight milking me. Thrusting into her one last time I came hard with a grunt.
Slipping out of her I turned her and hugged her before I took her mouth in a kiss. I loved this woman. She’d overcome so much in her short life. I was proud she was mine.
We laid in bed for a while cuddling and basking in our bliss. My alarm went off reminding me we had things to do and I’d reluctantly gotten out of bed pulling her with me. We showered, which turned into another round of making love. By the time we got out and dressed we were late for our tour of the university.
Pulling into a car park at the advised spot on campus, I turned the car off. “When you looked more into the two universities what did you think?”
“They both had the courses I want to do, but at the moment I’m leaning toward Griffith University in Labrador the Gold Coast. It’s a bigger campus and I like the idea of starting over in another state. Today though may change my mind.”
I got out of the car and came around to her side as she opened her door, got out, shutting it behind her. I locked the car, slipped my fingers through hers, and we walked hand in hand to the campus.
*****
Jade
Newcastle University was all right, nothing stuck out to me. I got a chance to speak to an early childhood learning teacher and I wasn’t blown away. I figured if I was going to move away and follow Stephan to a university, it needed to be amazing or at least great enough to get me excited.
Today, Stephan and I were going to go look around Newcastle. “Where are you taking me first?”
“I thought we’d go check out the beaches and then maybe the shops?”
“Sounds good.”
Stephan drove toward where the beach was. I gazed out the window looking at the houses and the town. There was a range of homes, but most of the ones we drove by were like the ones I lived in from my childhood, I didn’t think it looked like a good neighborhood.
I groaned as I realized how I sounded—like a snob. Stephan and Reed Creek with its clean streets and well-kept houses was brushing off on me and raising my expectations. Before I moved to Reed Creek I would have been happy with Newcastle, but now I couldn’t help but compare it.
Turning eighteen had given me options I didn’t have before. I could move anywhere I wanted and didn’t need a guardian. I was classed as a young adult. I could sign my own notes and make my own decisions. I didn’t have to stay where I didn’t want to anymore. I had choices and I could finally be the one to choose which way I went. I think those two reasons were why I was being so picky. The university and town would be where I lived for the next four years. I wanted to love it.
Stephan took us to two different beaches and again I didn’t think they were any better than the ones in Sydney or Reed Creek. The shops weren’t any better either.
We tried the nightlife and even though I hadn’t been out much I hated it. Brand and the rest of the security intervened twice and in the
end Stephan and I both went back to the hotel on the same page. Newcastle University was out.
Chapter Sixteen
Jade
Stephan had booked flights for us to the Gold Coast for a week after our disaster in Newcastle and I was hoping for better in Labrador the Gold Coast. Derick was coming with us to the Gold Coast and I was happy. Stephan and Derick were close and I knew neither wanted to live far from each other.
I’d never been on a plane before and was super nervous. Derick wasn’t making it any better.
“Sis, planes are safe, well unless you get a crazy on it who wants to kill everyone, but what are the chances of that?”
“Oh my God, I’m going to die, my luck sucks.” I turned and walked toward an airport exit.
Derick laughed and followed. “This flight is only a couple of hours. If we crash Stephan would look out for you. He’d even put the oxygen mask on you first, though you’re supposed to do yourself first. They always show you—”
Stephan whacked his brother behind the head. “Shut it, idiot.” He turned to me pulling me close. “Don’t listen to him, little bit, he’s just being an arse.”
I still wasn’t convinced and planted my feet into the airport carpet. They called first class again for our flight and I frantically looked around.
Stephan sighed and almost picked me up to drag me to the gate. “I’m not driving over twelve hours, so get out your ticket now, Jade.”
At the use of my name I knew Stephan meant business. Groaning, I shuffled my feet and gave my tickets to the flight attendant. She scanned it, and glancing behind me I saw Brand, Royce, David, Owen, Rex, and the two new guys, but I couldn’t remember their names.
I walked through the checkpoint with Stephan and Derick following behind me. Our seats were at the front and a lot bigger and spacious than I thought. Glancing behind me I groaned and for once was grateful to Stephan for his money. The seats behind were smaller and I stood and looked further back to see in the very back they were crammed in like sardines.
I sat back in my seat and grabbed Stephan’s hand. “Thank you.”
Stephan brought our joined hands up and kissed mine. “For what?”
“This. Everything. I appreciate what you do for me. I want you to know. So thank you. I’m super glad right now I’m not sitting back there with all the other sardines crammed in the plane.”
I debated for a moment if I should tell him I love him, but I didn’t want him to think I loved him for his money. I didn’t. As much as I would hate it I’d still love him if we were stuck back with all the squished people flying.
Stephan leaned over and kissed me helping do my seatbelt. “I love you too.”
I hadn’t said those words but if Stephan thought that’s what I said I’d let him.
The flight attendant came and stood at the front of the plane and explained the safety plans. I watched terrified, scared to miss anything. I barely felt the plane moving I was so focused on the pretty blonde.
When the flight attendant was done the pilot came over the intercom. I clenched Stephan’s hand tight as the plane picked up speed while my other hand had a death grip on the chair arm. The whole plane seemed to shake as it lifted off the ground and I thought for a moment that I was going to die.
“I love you,” I croaked out before I sank my face into Stephan’s shoulder. I did something I hadn’t done in many years, if ever, I prayed. “Dear God, let me live. Please let me live. Please, God.” My ears popped and closed my eyes.
Stephan’s hand came and rubbed my back soothing me. “I know you do.”
Hey, the wanker. He didn’t. I’d never told him. Lifting my head I glared at him. “Really? I’m scared to death and blurt out I love you and you came back with that?”
He shrugged his shoulders. “You didn’t tell me anything I didn’t know.”
I let his hand go and leaned back in my own chair. “I haven’t told you before and I know it was a shitty time to say it but how do you know?”
He shrugged again, which totally pissed me off. “If you didn’t love me you’d never have come back to me. You’d never put up with me, you would have run.”
I opened my mouth but he put his hand up.
“You’ve been through a lot in your life, Jade. I knew as soon as you turned eighteen if you didn’t love me you would have gone back to your old neighborhood and friends and left me. I’m sure your friends or Jess’s mother would have happily taken you in. You stuck around though.”
I sat there gawking at him. How had he figured it out before me? As he spoke, everything he said clicked into place.
“You could have gotten a restraining order on me from day one. You know how to do them, you have three others on friends of your mother. Even when you had one on me you didn’t change schools or go back to your old school and friends, which would have been a lot easier. You wouldn’t have acted so hurt with everything that happened if you didn’t love me. You even love my family. That’s why you were so hesitant to forgive my mum and brother.”
“How?” Everything he said was true and I hadn’t even noticed.
“It took me time to figure it out and my family helped me. My mum was so hurt you wouldn’t go out or do things with her, but when I asked her she told me she understood. It would be hard for you because you put your trust in us and we let you down like everyone else important in your life. You loved us but were scared we’d break you again. Brand told me I had broken you. When he explained it, I saw what I’d done. You were coming out of your shell and we broke you because we gave you things you thought you’d never have.”
I could feel the tears running down my cheeks as I stared, stunned, at Stephan. Everything he said was true. It made me wonder. “Why do you love me? I haven’t done anything special for you to fall for me.”
“How the hell could you say that? You have given me so much. I have learned so much.” He raised his hand, stroking my cheek, brushing away my tears. “Before you I didn’t know what love was. You’ve shown me. Jade, you love people unconditionally, even people who don’t deserve your love, like your grandfather and mother. You cleaned your grandpa’s house and cooked his meals. I bet you even did his washing.”
I had. I did everything I could to show him I wasn’t useless and I could help him. I’d done the same for my mother. She never cooked, cleaned, or washed anything, I did it all. I had wondered once if she thought fairies came in and cleaned after her parties and so on.
“My mum loved me in her own way. My Grandpa was so used to being alone.”
“No. Jade, don’t you see that even now you’re finding the good in them where there was none to begin with. You’re giving them a second chance. Neither deserved all the chances you gave them. You taught me I take the love of my family for granted—my commitments to friend also. You do it in slight ways though so we almost don’t notice. Like, going to rugby practice knowing I would follow you. You didn’t once get cranky when I’d been with my friends, you’ve even said I should go out with them. You let my mum take over and treat you like her own personal doll. I know she bought you things you’d never worn before and wouldn’t have if she hadn’t gotten it for you. Then there is me. You have accommodated me with everything. Like now. We are on the way to a university I want to go to. You’d follow me anywhere. I know you didn’t like Newcastle, but you knew I wouldn’t either. You could go anywhere you wanted, but you’re here right now with me.”
Stephan leaned in and kissed me. I let him. I was in a daze. How did he know all these things? I hadn’t even figured out most of them. I opened my mouth and tangled my tongue with his. Closing my eyes I let my passion for Stephan overtake everything. My brain felt like it was going a million miles an hour, it had just been blown up.
Stephan eased from me and I stared in front of me into space thinking over everything he’d told me. I still didn’t feel like I’d given him any reason to love me, I had no money and no family. All I could give him was my heart and showing him how much I lo
ved him.
The flight attendant came and gave us food and offered us drinks. I took the wines. I needed them. I got a book out and pretended to read. Every now and then I would look at Stephan, but mostly I stared blankly at the book and thought everything through.
I was surprised when the pilot came over the intercom to tell us we were landing and the time on the Gold Coast. I had decided some things though. I was going to make sure Stephan knew I loved him. I was going to tell his family too.
*****
Stephan
The plane landed and I was getting worried about Jade, even Derick was staying quiet cos he could see something was up. Even as we got off the plane Jade seemed to be in her own world. Crap, maybe I should have kept my mouth shut. I was shocked though, she’d finally said she loved me out loud. I came back with a smart comment and then felt guilty. When she’d asked I told her. I thought it might help to keep her mind off the flight, but it worked too well.
We waited at the carousel with a trolley for our luggage. Jade’s pink luggage came around first and as I went for it she grabbed it, struggling with the heavy cases my mother had helped her pack. Taking them from her I shook my head and placed them on the trolley. “Why did you get them? Derick and I are right here.”
“I can pick up suitcases. I wanted to help.” She nibbled on her bottom lip and I honed in on the nervous reaction.
Nodding to my brother I knew he’d get I was telling him to watch for our luggage. I gathered Jade against me. “Thanks for your help, little bit. Derick and I can take it from here.” I leaned down brushing my lips over hers. “I love you.”
“I love you too.”
My heart soared when she said the words back for the first time. I couldn’t wait until we could get to the hotel and I could hold her.
Derick grabbed our suitcases.
“Thanks, bro.”
“It’s cool. Let’s go. I ordered hired cars and the guy said he’d meet us at the very end of the left side. So come on.”