She Left Me Breathless

by Trin Denise

  Rachel’s expression softened as she looked at Sydney. “I had no right to do that and I’m sorry,” she whispered.

  “You had every right,” Sydney choked out between sobs.

  Rachel cupped Sydney’s face in her hand. “Please don’t go. I have spent too many years away from you and I can’t do it anymore. I don’t want to do it anymore,” she said, her eyes pleading. “I may not fully understand what you did but I know what a broken heart feels like because mine has never healed.”

  Sydney reached up and covered Rachel’s hand with her own. She brought it to her lips and kissed it. “When I first put this insane plan of mine together, I had tunnel vision so bad that nothing or anyone could make me see how crazy it was. I told myself that I was doing it for revenge and that I wanted you to hurt as bad as I had hurt for all these years. I couldn’t understand or accept why you wouldn’t stand up for us.”

  “Oh, Sydney, I did hurt, sweetheart,” Rachel said as she wiped the tears from Sydney’s cheek with her thumb. “You don’t need to tell me any of this.”

  “No, Rache, I do need to tell you this. I want to tell you the truth, a truth that I just recently realized. I was lying to myself. I never wanted revenge and I know I subconsciously thought ... I thought that if you were around, that maybe you would fall in love with me all over again and if you did, maybe we would finally have a chance for a life together.”

  Rachel thought her heart would break as she watched Sydney struggle to get the words out. The anguish and remorse that she was showing was almost more than Rachel could take. She cupped Sydney’s face between her hands. She kissed her softly on the lips. “I am in love with you, Sydney Welsh, and I always have been. I do want a life with you and I don’t care what anyone else thinks about it.”

  “Oh God,” Sydney cried as she wrapped her arms around Rachel’s waist and pulled her close. She felt like the weight of the world had just been lifted from her shoulders. She rested her forehead against Rachel’s, looking her in the eye. Try as she might, she couldn’t stop the onslaught of tears falling down her face.

  “I’ve always been in love with you, Rache. From the moment you opened your mouth I was mesmerized,” she said through a fresh rush of tears. “Other women have had my body but none of them ever had my heart. It’s always belonged to you and no one else and it will be yours until the day I die.”

  Edward watched Sydney and Rachel through the window and just as Sydney lowered her head to kiss Rachel, he snapped off several pictures using the camera in his cell phone. “You think you’re so damned smart, well we’ll just see about that,” he snarled under his breath. You don’t know who you’re dealing with bitch, but you’re gonna find out, he thought as he continued to take more pictures.

  “I need to make love with you and if I have to wait much longer, I’m going to die,” Sydney whispered in Rachel’s ear.

  “Oh no, sweetheart, I haven’t suffered all these years to have you up and die on me now,” Rachel said, sliding her hands beneath Sydney’s shirt.

  Sydney shivered and groaned at the same time when Rachel’s fingers softly grazed the side of her breasts.

  “Something wrong,” Rachel whispered against Sydney’s neck as she lightly kissed her way up to her ear.

  Sydney tossed her head back as warm tingling sensations spread throughout her entire body, ending with wet and throbbing pulsations between her legs. “I’m going to pass out,” she moaned as Rachel’s hands cupped both of her breasts, her thumbs making light teasing circles over her nipples.

  “I want to make love with you all night long and I guarantee you’re not going to pass out,” Rachel said, removing her hands from inside of Sydney’s shirt. She took Sydney’s hand in hers and pulled her toward the master bedroom.

  Sydney stopped walking. The quick move caused Rachel to spin around so that she was facing Sydney, their breasts now firmly pressed against each other.

  She looked into Rachel’s eyes and every ounce of love she felt for this woman poured out. When their lips met, all the years of pain and suffering and longing melted away. Sydney had never tasted such exquisiteness in her life and she wanted so, so much more. She was unable to stop the moan that escaped from her throat as Rachel’s lips parted, allowing her tongue to taste such divine sweetness.

  Without realizing how it happened, they found themselves standing next to Sydney’s bed.

  Sydney’s hands moved up and down Rachel’s body as if their sole purpose in life was to devour everything they touched. I need to see you, all of you,” Sydney said as she slowly unbuttoned the blouse and slid it off of Rachel’s shoulders. She let it drop to the floor without taking her eyes off of the woman standing in front of her. With skilled hands, she unfastened the button on Rachel’s jeans and slid them off of her hips and down to the floor.

  The way Sydney’s eyes caressed her skin as they traveled up Rachel’s body made her feel as if she were already completely naked.

  “You’re absolutely beautiful,” Sydney said, her voice husky with desire.

  “Thank you,” Rachel nervously laughed. She turned her head slightly to avoid Sydney’s eyes. She suddenly felt self-conscious, somewhat shy, and she knew Sydney could sense it.

  “Are you okay?” Sydney asked softly, her words confirming Rachel’s thoughts. “Rache? Look at me, please,” she said, cupping Rachel’s face with her hands and turning her head slightly so she could see Rachel’s eyes. “What’s wrong, baby?”

  “You’re going to think I’m stupid,” Rachel answered, her voice just above a whisper. “It’s just ... I ... I’ve never done this before. I mean, I have ... but—”

  “Not with a woman,” Sydney answered for her.

  Rachel nodded. “I ... I don’t know what to do,” she said, feeling her face flush as she said the words.

  Sydney’s expression softened as she watched many different emotions quickly flicker across Rachel’s face. “Yes, you do,” was all she said, pulling Rachel into her arms. “Just do what feels natural, touch me the way you want to be touched.”

  Rachel smiled. “I think I can handle that,” she said. She looked at Sydney’s mouth and unconsciously licked her lips. Her heart rate increased. Suddenly a long neglected fire coursed through her veins and she knew Sydney was the only one who could put it out. This new awareness fueled her in a way she never imagined and she wanted nothing more than to make love to the woman holding her. She wrapped her arms around Sydney’s neck, pulling her forward.

  Sydney lowered her head, devouring Rachel’s mouth. She groaned when she felt Rachel slip her tongue inside of her mouth. She slid her hands up along Rachel’s back, unhooked her bra, and slipped the straps over her shoulders. She tossed it off to the side as she ran her tongue along Rachel’s lower lip, before sucking it gently into her mouth.

  “You’re killing me,” Rachel groaned as she ran her hands up inside Sydney’s shirt and with more bravado than she thought she had, slid her fingers under the edge of Sydney’s bra. She pulled up, releasing Sydney’s breasts into her hands. “Damn,” she whispered. She had never felt anything so soft or wonderful in her life.

  “And you said you didn’t know what to do,” Sydney teased, her breath making Rachel shiver as she left a trail of kisses along Rachel’s collarbone. “We need to get you out of these,” Sydney said as she pushed Rachel’s panties off of her hips.

  “I think you’re a little overdressed as well,” Rachel said and pulled Sydney’s shirt over her head and then removed her bra.

  “I agree,” Sydney said and unfastened her pants. She slipped them and her panties off at the same time and tossed them on a chair next to the bed.

  Rachel shook her head as she looked at Sydney. “You take my breath away and I know for as long as I live, I’ll never get tired of looking at you,” she said, a lump forming in her throat. She was unable to stop the tears that fell onto her cheeks.

  “Oh sweetheart,” Sydney whispered as she laced Rachel’s fingers with hers. She pulled h
er close and kissed the tears away. She slipped her leg in between Rachel’s leg and felt her breath catch in her throat when Rachel’s desire for her coated her skin. She maneuvered them backward, all the while trailing kisses along Rachel’s neck, until they were at the head of the bed. She reached down, pulled back the covers, and then gently urged Rachel onto the bed.

  “Sweet Jesus,” Sydney groaned as she lowered herself down on top of Rachel, her thigh between Rachel’s legs and when Rachel’s skin fully touched hers, Sydney knew she had finally come home.

  “I want you so bad,” Rachel said, pulling Sydney’s mouth to hers. She nibbled Sydney’s lips as she ran her hands down Sydney’s back, cupping her ass with both hands. “Touch me, please,” Rachel pleaded, the throbbing in her groin so intense, she squeezed her legs together in order to get some relief, resulting in Sydney’s sharp intake of breath.

  “You’re so wet,” Sydney murmured as she used her leg to push Rachel’s legs apart. She positioned herself so that she was between them and then raised herself up onto her knees. She leaned forward, her hands on either side of Rachel’s head.

  Her shallow breath and tongue were hot and wet in Rachel’s ear as she whispered, “I’m going to touch and taste every single inch of your body until you beg me to stop.”

  “Please,” Rachel moaned. Sydney had awakened a craving inside of her that reached beyond anything she had ever experienced.

  Sydney laced her fingers with Rachel’s, she brought first one hand to her mouth, kissing the soft part of her wrist, and then her palm. She kissed the tip of each finger and then repeated it with Rachel’s other hand.

  Rachel watched as Sydney slowly sucked her pinky finger into her mouth. It was the most erotic and sensuous thing she had ever seen.

  “Mmm, you taste so good,” Sydney whispered against Rachel’s skin, her mouth, and tongue doing a seductive dance, trailing kisses down Rachel’s arm, across the soft skin just above her breasts and when her tongue grazed Rachel’s nipple, she nearly came undone. All those years of dreaming about this very moment seemed surreal, it was if time was standing still just for them—the universe as they knew it, had stopped.

  She pulled Rachel’s nipple fully into her mouth and nearly climaxed as she took each breast in her hands. She kissed her way over to Rachel’s other nipple. She groaned as she made circular motions, feeling it grow harder with each tantalizing lick. She smiled when she felt Rachel’s hands in her hair, trying to push her downward. She bit gently, eliciting an animalist groan from Rachel.

  She raised her head to look at Rachel, who’s eyes were now closed. “I will never get tired of looking at you,” she said, her eyes now looking at Rachel’s mouth. Her lips were swollen. They were too inviting and Sydney couldn’t resist the temptation. “God, Rache,” she groaned as their tongues met in a fiery battle.

  Sydney felt Rachel’s fingernails lightly rake over her back. She pulled Sydney down on top of her, their breast melding against each other, sending a new rush of waves of pleasure through Sydney’s body, ending with her desire for the woman in her arms, running down the inside of both of her thighs.

  “Baby, I swear to God, you’re driving me out of my mind,” Rachel panted.

  Sydney continued her tease, laying little kisses along Rachel’s skin as she worked her way down Rachel’s body, her hands blazing a trail for her mouth to follow. She ran her hand down along the inside of Rachel’s thigh, slowly moving toward what she sought most. She couldn’t stand the torture any longer. She had to touch her.

  She felt a tear slip silently down her cheek as her fingers found what they sought, covered in wetness that surpassed her wildest dreams. “You feel so good,” she said, laying her head against Rachel’s stomach.

  Rachel moaned, her groin pressing against Sydney’s fingers as she slid them back and forth across her clit. She heard Rachel’s deep intake of breath as she slowly entered her.

  Sydney’s breathing grew shallow, then urgent as she moved inside of Rachel. Every nerve ending in her body felt as if they were on fire, her senses screaming as she thrust deeper and with each rise of Rachel’s hips, she melted a little more.

  Without removing her fingers, she lowered her head, slowly running her tongue along the sides of Rachel’s clit.

  Rachel cried out as Sydney took her fully into her mouth, sucking and licking, her fingers and tongue finding a steady rhythm, and loving the taste, the smell, her mind reeling, knowing that Rachel was ready to explode.

  “Sydney,” Rachel cried out as her hips rose off the bed to meet Sydney’s thrusts, shudders coursing through her body as she climaxed, the orgasm rippling from a depth so deep, she thought she would collapse from sheer pleasure.

  “Sweet Jesus,” Rachel gasped, trying to catch her breath as she reached down, running her hand through Sydney’s hair. “I’ve never felt anything so good in my life,” she said huskily when Sydney, resting with her face against Rachel’s stomach, looked up and smiled at her.

  “I agree,” Sydney said as she kissed Rachel’s stomach. “I love you, Rache,”

  she said as she slowly removed her fingers.

  “I love you, too, baby. Come up here with me,” Rachel whispered.

  I will never stop loving her, Sydney thought as she moved to lie next to Rachel, her head on Rachel’s shoulder.

  Rachel used her index finger, tracing the lines of Sydney’s face. She turned slightly and gently kissed Sydney’s cheek, her eyes, and then softly kissed her lips. She felt a new arousal stir as she smelled and tasted her essence on Sydney’s mouth. I never dreamed it could or would be like this, she thought as she looked at Sydney’s beautiful face.

  She brought Sydney’s hand to her mouth and kissed her wrist and then her palm. She watched Sydney’s reaction and smiled as she ran her tongue between her fingers, causing Sydney to inhale deeply. She shifted slightly, turning so that she was facing Sydney. She lowered her head, groaning as she took Sydney’s nipple in her mouth, her hand roaming freely over Sydney’s curvaceous hips.

  She watched Sydney’s eyes as she slipped her hand between her legs. I’ve surely died and gone to heaven, she thought as her fingers were covered in so much wetness.

  “And you said you didn’t know what to do,” Sydney said again through a ragged breath as Rachel’s fingers moved back and forth over her clit. She was already so close to the edge that she knew it wouldn’t take much more.

  “I’m a fast learner,” Rachel smiled.

  “I’ll say,” Sydney said as her breathing turned into short quick gasps. “Please don’t stop,” she begged as she moved her hips urgently against Rachel’s hand.

  Never,” Rachel groaned as she felt Sydney’s body tense.

  “Oh God,” Sydney cried out against Rachel’s mouth as her body stiffened, the orgasm ripping through her body in waves. She collapsed back on the bed, gasping for air as she tried to slow her breathing down. She turned her head to look at Rachel. “I love you so much.”

  “And I will never get tired of hearing you say it,” Rachel said as she brushed several strands of damp hair from Sydney’s face and then laid her head on her chest.

  Sydney wrapped her arms around her and placed a kiss on her cheek.

  Within minutes, Rachel’s slow and steady breathing told her that she had fallen asleep and for the second time in less than an hour, she felt a tear slip down her cheek. She closed her eyes, thinking she was the luckiest woman on earth.

  Chapter 17

  Sydney opened her eyes. She glanced to her left, noticing that she was in bed alone. “Please tell me I didn’t dream last night and that I didn’t imagine it,” she said as she swung her legs over the side of the bed.

  “Damn,” she said as she got to her feet, feeling her muscles strain from the movement. “It wasn’t a dream,” she said, smiling as she slipped her robe on.

  She looked up at the ceiling. “Please forgive me for all the crazy shit I’ve done in my life.”

  The first thing she heard was l
aughter when she pushed the kitchen door open. Caitlyn, Rachel, and Edna were sitting at the table eating breakfast. Fred Rick was standing next to the table re-filling their coffee cups.

  For several seconds Sydney stood there watching them unnoticed.

  Rachel grabbed Fred Rick by the arm. “Will you please sit down and join us? You don’t need to keep waiting on us.”

  Fred Rick smiled at her and pulled out a chair. “I don’t mind if I do, Ms. Ashburn.”

  “And you can knock the formal crap off, too,” Rachel laughed.

  “Yes, ma’am, Ms. Rachel,” he said and chuckled at the look she gave him.

  “That goes for the ma’am crap, too,” she said.

  “Dang. You’re tough,” he laughed.

  Sydney decided to make her presence known. She walked over to the counter, grabbed herself a cup. “Just sit right where you are, I can get my own coffee,” she said, waving Fred Rick off with a wave of her hand, as she filled her cup. She glanced at Rachel and smiled. “Good morning.”

  “Yes it is, isn’t it,” Rachel said, a smile playing at the corners of her mouth. Sydney felt her face flush as she looked at Rachel’s eyes and as she attempted to take a drink of coffee, she choked. There was no mistaking the raw lust and desire she saw and felt as Rachel practically undressed her with her eyes.

  “You okay there, sport?” Fred Rick teased as he looked first at Sydney and then Rachel.

  Sydney shot him a look. “As for him, trust me.” She nodded at Fred Rick. “You haven’t seen anything yet,” she said, winking at her chef.

  Edna picked up the remote control lying on the table and clicked on the TV that was mounted on the wall on the opposite side of the room. On the screen was a picture of the building where Caitlyn had been held hostage along with a picture of Jackie and Maureen.