Green Mountain Collection 1

by Marie Force

  “But Will isn’t interested in her,” Hannah said. “He never has been.”

  “That doesn’t seem to matter to her, does it?”

  Hannah took a sip from her mug as she processed this intriguing new information. “Tell me this, oh wise one . . . Who is Colton getting busy with?”

  “Colton is getting busy? That’s news to me!”

  Hannah shared what she’d learned from Ella and Charley earlier in the day.

  “He really shaved off his beard?”

  “And cut his hair.”

  “Will said he’s had the beard since high school.” Cameron’s blue eyes widened with dismay. “Wait! The beard picture is all over the syrup bottles! It’s part of the corporate identity!”

  “How could he do this to us?” Hannah asked, amused.

  “I know, right? He’s not thinking about me or the website. That’s for sure. I’m not taking all new pictures of him just because he decided to change his look for a woman.”

  “More importantly, who is this mystery woman?”

  “I’ll keep my eyes and ears open.”

  “You’re going to be an excellent addition to the Abbott family, Cameron.”

  “Oh don’t jinx me. We just moved in together. If Will hears I’m making plans to change my name, he might kick me out.”

  “No, he wouldn’t. He’s crazy about you, and you have to know it’s only a matter of time before he proposes.”

  Cameron frowned as she looked down at her coffee.

  “You don’t want to marry him?”

  “It’s not that. I love him so much. You know that.”

  “Then what is it?” Hannah asked, trying not to panic on Will’s behalf. She’d never seen her brother as happy as he’d been since he met Cam.

  “I’m not a big fan of marriage in general. From everything I’ve seen, it just messes up a perfectly good thing.”

  “That’s not always true. My parents are going strong at thirty-six years. My grandparents were happily married for fifty-four years before my grandmother died. And . . .” Hannah took a breath as her heart slowed to a crawl when she thought of the journals waiting for her at home. “The six years I was married to Caleb were the happiest of my life.”

  Cameron blew out a deep breath. “I’m so sorry, Hannah. It was thoughtless of me to crack on marriage to you of all people.”

  “Don’t say that. I hate when people feel like they have to watch what they say around me, especially people I’m close to, and I hope you and I are going to be close.”

  “I hope so, too,” Cameron said softly. “And you make a compelling case for marriage. I’ve just never pictured myself married. I don’t know why, but I don’t see it for me.”

  “That was before you met Will Abbott and fell head over heels for a traditional kind of guy who’s going to want the wife and two-point-five kids.”

  “What am I supposed to do with half a kid?” she asked with a smile.

  “You guys will figure it out.”

  “Anyway, enough about me. We’re supposed to be talking about you and your retreat and all my incredibly awesome ideas for promoting it.” Cameron opened a binder and pulled out several papers that she laid flat in front of Hannah. In the center of each page was a proposed logo.

  Hannah’s eyes gravitated to the one that included a picture of Caleb in uniform over the simple words Capt. Caleb M. Guthrie Memorial Retreat. She ran her fingers over the picture of his chiseled face, looking like the fierce and focused warrior he became after he joined the army.

  “This isn’t how I remember him,” Hannah said, staring at his familiar face. “For most of the time we were together, he had long curly hair down to his shoulders and a goatee he grew every winter and shaved off in the spring. I’ll never forget the first time I saw him after the big army haircut. I barely recognized him without all the hair.”

  She glanced at the other logos, one of which included a photograph of her big Victorian and another that featured Butler Mountain, but her gaze kept returning to the photo of Caleb. “This is the one,” she said, running her finger over his face. “I want him present in this entire project.”

  “That’s my favorite one, too. I hope you don’t mind that Will shared the photo with me.”

  “Of course not. I really appreciate all you’re doing to help me with this. I could never do it without you.”

  “Sure, you could. I’m just making it easier.” They went over some rough plans for a website that included a registration function that would be totally automated as well as a Facebook page that Cameron was prepared to launch as soon as Hannah chose the logo. “The next big question is how soon do you want to roll it out?”

  “To be honest, I thought it would take a lot longer to put all the pieces together. I can’t believe how much you got done when you were getting ready to move.”

  “I had a lot of sleepless nights where I could either work or freak out about how I was totally upending my life for a man. I chose to work.”

  Hannah smiled even as a thousand emotions churned through her all at once.

  “We don’t know each other all that well, Hannah, but even I can tell you’re not yourself today. Is everything okay?”

  God, she wanted to tell someone about the journals she’d found and who better than the one person in her life who hadn’t known him? Who hadn’t known her with him. “Things have been a bit strange lately,” she said hesitantly.

  “Because of Homer?”

  “For one thing.” Hannah appreciated that Cameron gave her a moment of silence to collect her thoughts. “This past winter was a tough one for some reason. I was very out of sorts for much of it.”

  “Any particular reason?”

  “None that I can think of other than all of a sudden I’m tired of being a grief-stricken widow. It’s like the load of grief has become too heavy to tote around or something. Naturally, I feel guilty for even thinking that way. Who am I to say there’s a time limit on grief, and I’ve reached it?”

  “I was nine when someone told me my mother died giving birth to me.”

  Startled by the confession, Hannah met Cameron’s gaze across the table, waiting to see what she would say next.

  “A nanny told me, of all people. She thought I knew, and felt terrible when she realized I didn’t. My father was so furious. I’ve never seen him that mad before or since. He fired her on the spot, which made me feel awful for her. It wasn’t her fault that no one had told me. I was a disaster for years after that. The thought that my mother had lost her life because of me . . .” Cameron shook her head as if it was still too big to understand all this time later. “I went totally off the deep end emotionally. It took years of therapy before I accepted it wasn’t my fault, and the worst thing I could do was sacrifice the life she’d given up so much for. I know all about how heavy that load becomes when you haul it around long enough.”

  “Thank you for sharing that with me. It helps to know someone understands how difficult it is to be stuck on Pause for so long. Things are changing all around me, and even though I’m not entirely sure I’m ready to press Play and go for broke, at least I’m not on Pause anymore.”

  “Leaving Pause means leaving the comfort zone that’s kept you safe for all this time, too.”

  Nodding in agreement, Hannah fiddled with her spoon. “This morning I went through the boxes they sent home from Iraq after Caleb died. They’ve sat in one of the spare bedrooms for years. On the way over here, I was asking myself why now. Why after all this time did I decide to open them?”

  “Why do you think?”

  “Because I’m ready now, or I thought I was until I found his journals from Iraq.”

  “Oh God, Hannah. Did you read them?”

  “Not yet. I looked at one of them, but I didn’t really have time to dive in.”

  “Are you going to?”

  “I don’t know. I’ve only just started seeing Nolan—”

  “Wait! You’re actually seeing Nolan now?”r />
  “I figured you would’ve heard that already, as well connected as you are in my family.”

  “I hadn’t heard a word! I took it as a good sign that he was there with you the night Homer died, but I hadn’t heard there was more to it than that. I’m so happy for you. He seems like a really great guy.”

  “He is . . .”

  “But?”

  Sighing, she said, “I worry I’m going to hurt him if it turns out I’m really not ready for a new relationship.”

  “Take it slow. Baby steps.”

  “That was the plan.”

  “Was?”

  Megan stopped at their table. “Do you want anything else?”

  Startled by her sudden appearance, the two women shook their heads.

  She slapped the check on the table and started to walk away, but didn’t get far before she whirled around to zero in on Cameron. “I don’t know what makes you so special, but there are a lot of people in this town who care about him, and we won’t appreciate it if you hurt him by leaving whenever you get tired of slumming in Vermont.”

  Aghast, Cameron stared at Megan. “You don’t need to worry about him.” She spoke in a low, calm tone, but the flush that appeared on her cheeks indicated she wasn’t as calm as she appeared. “I’ll take good care of him. And I’m sorry you feel that Vermont equates to slumming, but I think it’s quite beautiful, and I plan to be very, very happy here for a very long time.”

  Clearly infuriated by Cameron’s gentle dressing down, Megan turned and stormed off.

  “That was freaking amazing,” Hannah said, awestruck. “How did you come up with that so fast? I would’ve thought of that two hours from now and been pissed with myself for not thinking of it in the moment.”

  “I’ve given some consideration to what I might say to her when she finally confronted me. I was ready for her.”

  “I’d say so! I’m impressed. I can’t believe Hunter actually likes her. What’s wrong with him?”

  “He must see something in her the rest of us don’t.”

  “I need to have a conversation with him.”

  “I want to go back to the conversation we were having before we were rudely interrupted by what’s her name. You said taking it slow was the plan. What did that mean?”

  “He kissed me, and I kissed him back. And I liked it. A lot.”

  Cameron’s smile stretched widely across her face. “What’s wrong with that?”

  “I said I was ready to press Play. I didn’t say I was ready for Fast Forward.”

  “Want to know what I think?”

  The slightly calculating look on Cameron’s face made Hannah nervous. “Um, I guess so . . .”

  Laughing, Cameron said, “You pressed Play a while ago. Probably during the tough winter, and once you take that first step forward, it’s tough to hit Rewind and go back.”

  “Isn’t that what I’d be doing by reading Caleb’s journals? Especially now?”

  “Maybe for a short time, but the train has left the station, Hannah. You’re moving forward whether you consciously want to or not. Life has this unbelievably maddening habit of going on even when we think it absolutely shouldn’t.”

  “That’s very true. For a long time after Caleb died, I wondered how it was possible that people around me were able to laugh or sing or listen to music or fall in love or enjoy anything that required emotions I no longer possessed.”

  “They were still there. They were just put away for a while until you were ready to feel them again.”

  Hannah had to admit that what Cameron said made a lot of sense.

  “How do you feel about Nolan?”

  “I feel good about Nolan,” she said with a smile. “I feel extremely good about Nolan.”

  “That’s the best news I’ve heard in a long time.”

  “How can you say that with all the good stuff that’s going on in your life recently?”

  “Because no one deserves to feel good about something or someone more than you do. From all accounts, your courage has been amazing.”

  “These accounts you speak of are overblown.”

  “Whatever you say. I believe them, not you.”

  Hannah saw Will come into the diner and press a finger to his lips, asking her not to tell Cameron he was coming.

  He swooped in and kissed Cameron’s neck, drawing a squeal of surprise from her.

  Hannah had never seen her brother so playful or animated around a woman.

  “Where did you come from?” Cameron asked.

  He bumped into her to get her to move over and let him in. The second he was seated, he put his arm around her. “Across the street at the office where you now supposedly work.”

  “I’m on a break. Hunter never said anything about punching a time clock.”

  “Very funny, but did you forget our plans to go shopping for a car to replace that toy of yours with something more Vermont-appropriate?”

  Cameron withdrew her cell phone and powered it up to check the time. “Wow, I had no idea it was so late. Hannah and I were very busy.”

  “Sure, you were.” He dropped his gaze to the page with Caleb’s photo. “Oh wow. Look at that.”

  “You haven’t seen it?” Hannah asked her brother.

  He shook his head as he continued to study the logo.

  “I wanted you to see it first in case it wasn’t what you wanted,” Cameron said to Hannah.

  “What do you think of it, Will?” Hannah asked.

  “I love it, although that picture isn’t really him to me.”

  Hannah smiled at him. “I said the same thing.”

  “The military photo sets the right tone for the retreat,” Will said. “That’s for sure.”

  “I haven’t spoken to Caleb’s family about this yet,” Hannah said. “What do you think they’ll say about it?”

  “If I had to guess, I’d say they’ll be honored on his behalf and proud of you for keeping his memory alive in such a meaningful way.”

  Will’s gruffly spoken words brought tears to the eyes of both women.

  Cameron fanned her face to keep the tears at bay. “Beautifully said.” She leaned her head on his shoulder as he pulled her in closer.

  Hannah nodded, unable to find the words to convey to her brother how much it meant to her to receive such a heartfelt endorsement.

  Will picked up their check. “Let me get this for two of my best girls.” He kissed Cameron’s forehead before he got up to walk over to where Megan waited with a big, welcoming smile for him.

  “Ugh.” Cameron twisted around in her seat. “Look at her. Pouring on the charm.”

  “You need to tell him what she said to you.”

  Cameron shrugged off the suggestion. “What does it matter? She’s no threat to me. If he were interested in her, he would’ve been with her years ago, right?”

  “True.”

  Cameron reached across the table for Hannah’s hand. “If you need a friend with you when you read Caleb’s journals, call me. I’ll come running.”

  Hannah squeezed Cameron’s hand. “Thank you for everything. I can totally see why my brother is crazy in love with you. I think I might be, too.”

  “She’s all mine, Hannah,” Will said. “Back off.”

  “Now, children, don’t fight,” Cameron said as they gathered their belongings and left the diner. “There’s plenty of me to go around.”

  CHAPTER 13

  We’re engaged! I’m so excited I can’t even breathe! That’s why he’s been acting so strange. He was nervous about the proposal. He asked me when we were on the porch swing at his grandmother’s house. It was perfect because he knows I love that house as much as he does! We’re going to get married right after graduation. Our life is going to be the most incredible adventure. I can’t wait!

  —From the diary of Hannah Abbott, age twenty-two

  As she followed Will and Cameron, Hannah saw Megan glare at the hand sitting possessively on Cameron’s lower back as Will guided her throug
h the door. If it was true that Hunter had feelings for Megan, he faced an uphill battle in getting her to redirect her affections.

  Outside, Will and Cameron had stopped short at the sight of Fred, the town moose, ambling toward Cameron’s bright red Mini Cooper, which was parked in front of the diner.

  “I swear to God, if he so much as looks at my car, I’m going to have him made into a very large purse,” Cameron muttered under her breath.

  “Don’t speak that way about Fred,” Will said in mock horror.

  “I thought it was bulls who had a thing for the color red,” Cameron said.

  “Apparently moose do, too,” Hannah said, trying desperately not to laugh as Fred came closer and closer to Cameron’s tiny car.

  “Do you think he’s still mad about me crashing into him?” Cameron asked, sounding nervous now.

  “He’s never been known to be particularly vindictive,” Will said, “but you did hit him awfully hard.”

  Cameron took a step back, and Will’s hands on her shoulders kept her from tripping over his size-thirteen boot. “Make him stop!”

  “Right,” Will said, laughing. “As if anyone tells Fred what to do.”

  “My insurance company will never cover a second mooseastrophy,” Cameron said. “I was lucky they covered the first one.”

  Hannah stepped forward. “Hi, Fred.”

  The moose’s large milk-chocolate eyes shifted from Cameron’s car to the hand Hannah held out to him.

  “You don’t want to hurt Cameron’s car, now do you? She didn’t mean to hit you.” As she spoke to the huge animal, she noticed a crowd had formed on the sidewalk in front of the diner and across the street on the porch at the store. “Why don’t you head on home now? Okay?”

  Fred seemed to think it over for a minute before he let out a big moo that launched Cameron right off her feet into Will’s arms. Fred pawed the ground with a giant hoof and then started slowly down Elm Street on his way out of town.

  “Oh my God,” Cameron said. “You’re a moose whisperer!”

  “Seriously, Han,” Will said. “That was awesome. I had no idea you and Fred were so close.”