Colby (BBW Western Bear Shifter Romance) (Rodeo Bears Book 3)

by Becca Fanning

  “You look great,” Lisa said with a smirk. She floated into the hallway and Olivia gasped.

  “That is so not fair,” Olivia said, rolling her eyes. “We have the same dress. How come it looks so much better on you?”

  Lisa laughed. “It totally doesn’t,” she said, leaning in to look at her own reflection. Olivia watched as Lisa pouted and primped in front of the mirror. Kate had chosen blush pink strapless tulle gowns for the bridesmaids, and it was the most expensive dress Olivia had ever owned. She hadn’t exactly been thrilled at the choice, but Kate had always had perfect taste, and Olivia knew that the wedding would be beautiful.

  “And what about you, big guy?” Lisa cooed, leaning in to look at Max. He made a grumpy face, then turned and hid his face in Olivia’s neck. Lisa laughed.

  “He’s mad about having to wear this little tux,” Olivia said, straightening the diminutive jacket on her son. Max wriggled and twisted in her arms and Olivia groaned. “You are getting so heavy!” She said in a soft voice as she looked into Max’s golden-brown eyes.

  Max giggled. “Heavy,” he repeated, flailing his arms in the air.

  Olivia rolled her eyes. “Settle down,” she cooed into his ear. “Okay,” she said to Lisa. “Time to go. Finally.”

  In the car, Olivia strapped Max into his car seat, noting that the straps strained against his chest. “You’re getting so big,” she repeated in amazement. “You were supposed to fit in this until you turned five!”

  “Kids grow like weeds,” Lisa called from the front seat. “You know that, they always lie about how big they really get.”

  Olivia wrinkled her brow. “I don’t know,” she muttered. “He seems…..just too large, you know? I mean, I was a small baby, and I think Derek was a small baby, too.”

  “Olivia,” Lisa said in a warning tone. “You know we made a pact, no talking about Derek today.”

  Olivia blushed. “I know,” she mumbled. “Sorry.” She finished strapping Max into his car seat and slid into the passenger side. The day was humid and muggy, and Olivia was already anxious for the wedding to be over. Besides, it was hard not to think about Derek – he was a groomsman, after all.

  “I just wish he would leave me alone,” Olivia added after a few seconds. “I mean, he’s been calling me nonstop lately.” She let out a long sigh. “I wish he’d take the hint and drop off the face of the earth.”

  Lisa frowned. “But don’t you miss him?”

  Olivia sighed. “I’m still hurt over what he did,” she said softly. “But he hurt me too much, I couldn’t take him back. Not after I found out he was sleeping with that stupid slut he works with.”

  Lisa frowned. “He always seemed like a good guy to me.”

  “Good guys don’t cheat on their fiancées, especially not with a toddler at home,” Olivia snapped. She blushed hotly. “I’m sorry,” she added. “I didn’t mean to be such a bitch. He’s just such a jerk, and I feel like I let him get off easy. I never told anyone he cheated, aside from you.”

  Lisa pursed her lips. “Yeah, and he really tried to make himself look good. He’s been doing nothing but posting stupid things on Facebook about how brokenhearted he is.”

  Olivia slunk down low in the seat. “I bet,” she muttered. “And everyone falls for it, too. Because he’s that kind of guy.”

  Lisa eyed her sympathetically. “I could talk to him, if you want,” she offered. “I mean, at the wedding. Would that help?”

  Olivia shook her head. “Don’t,” she said. “I mean, unless you have to,” she added. “But don’t say anything about me. I don’t even want him to know that I’m thinking about him.”

  I wish Kate and Ben hated Derek, Olivia thought glumly. Maybe I should have told them the real reason we broke up. Just thinking about it made her shudder. Derek and Olivia had been high-school sweethearts. She’d thought that he was the love of her life, the only man that she was supposed to be with. But I guess I was wrong, a small voice inside her head chimed in. He didn’t want me at all. He couldn’t have wanted me that much, not after all the cheating.

  Olivia shifted in her seat, feeling discomforted. She hated thinking about the breakup – it had only been three months, and her left ring finger still felt too light without the ring – but it had been on her mind a lot lately. It seemed that some days, she could only remember the good. It was so much easier to remember Derek as the boy in high school who had brought her flowers when her cat died, or as the guy who taught her how to change the oil in her car.

  It wasn’t as much fun to think of Derek as the guy who stayed out all night cheating on his fiancée. Olivia shook her head. She knew that Derek was firmly in her past, but she wished that her heart would get the message.

  “I think I just hate being single,” Olivia mused out loud. She traced a pattern on the window with her fingertips. “I mean, it’s hard.” She wrinkled her nose. “It’s not that I miss Derek, exactly, but I can’t help but wish that I had someone around.”

  Lisa laughed. “So get a boyfriend,” she said. “It’s like the easiest thing in the world. You’re gorgeous, it wouldn’t exactly be difficult for you.”

  Olivia rolled her eyes. “You forget that I’m a single mom,” she said slowly. “Those words are like an instant deal breaker for ninety-nine percent of guys. And the other one percent…” She trailed off and wrinkled her nose. “They just seem desperate, or they have kids themselves.”

  “So a guy having a kid would be a turn-off for you?”

  Olivia blushed. “I mean, yeah, kind of. Being a mom to Max is hard enough. I’m not sure that I want any more kids, either. I love Max more than anything, I feel like if I had more children, I wouldn’t be able to give him as much attention.”

  Lisa laughed. “You’re too indulgent,” she said. “I’m sure you’d love your other kids just as much,” she added. “I mean, especially if they’re as cute as Max.”

  Olivia craned her neck and gazed at her sleeping son. He always looked so peaceful in the car – his thick brown hair was ruffling slightly in the breeze and even though he stayed inside most of the day, his skin had a rosy cast to it.

  “He’s perfect,” Olivia said with a happy sigh as Lisa pulled into the church parking lot. “Now if only the rest of the day would be as well.”

  The ceremony was beautiful. Olivia, Lisa, and two other pink-clad bridesmaids clutched their peony bouquets and watched as Kate and Ben said their custom-written vows. Olivia loved weddings; she thought they were always so romantic and fun. And even though she felt lonely about not having a date, she was still enjoying herself. That is, until Derek caught sight of her and tried to wink at her during the ceremony.

  At least they didn’t pair me with him, Olivia thought gratefully. Kate had paired all of the bridesmaids and groomsmen according to height, and luckily she had wound up at the front and Derek had been at the back of the group. As the recessional hymn started, Olivia took a deep breath and led the rest of the bridesmaids out of the church.

  Olivia handed Max to Kate’s mother during the photos. She could barely stay focused as the wedding photographer instructed her and the other bridesmaids to jump, smile, and swan around behind Kate. The groomsmen were posed just a few feet away, and Olivia felt a burning sensation in her chest every time she caught Derek staring at her. This was the most time she’d spent around him since she’d kicked him out of the house, and she was worried that somehow, she’d lose her resolve.

  “Ladies, that’s a wrap!” The photographer called with a smile. “You were all wonderful.”

  Kate linked her arm through Olivia’s as they walked towards the big barn where the reception was being held. It was decorated with twinkly, fairy-like lights and lots of flowers. Olivia closed her eyes and inhaled gratefully.

  “This is the most beautiful reception I’ve ever seen,” she said to Kate in amazement. “How did you plan all of this yourself?”

  Kate shrugged. “It wasn’t easy,” she said. “Ben was so not into planning.
But he approved of everything I picked, so…” she trailed off and shrugged. “It’s worth it, though,” she added in a confidential tone. “I mean, look at this place!”

  As Olivia reunited with Max and picked him up, she couldn’t help but wonder if she’d ever be as lucky as Kate had been. Kate and Ben were so obviously perfect for each other, in a way that she and Derek had never been. They’d all been friends in high school, and Kate and Ben had dated for almost ten years before they’d gotten engaged. They’d always had seemingly everything in common, and Olivia had never even seen them argue.

  As the couple opened the reception with a first dance, Olivia had to blink back tears. Kate looked so stunning in her dress, and Ben was so handsome. She hugged Max close to her torso and began to slowly waltz around in a circle, singing under her breath to her son.

  “Mommy,” Max said into Olivia’s neck. “Mommy, look!”

  Olivia blushed and opened her eyes just in time to see a burly man standing at the edge of the crowd. If Max hadn’t spoken, she would have crashed right into him. Olivia stumbled in her heels and almost fell, but the man reached down and grabbed her by the elbow just in time.

  “You maybe shouldn’t be on the dance floor,” the stranger teased. He had stunning golden-brown eyes and a gorgeous, chiseled face with just the faintest hint of scruff. “I mean, maybe you should be over there, instead,” he added, pointing towards a circle of overstuffed couches where the elderly guests were currently relaxing. “That looks pretty soft, you wouldn’t able to hurt yourself there.”

  Olivia’s blush turned bright red and she shifted Max from one hip to the other. “I’m fine,” she said softly. “Mostly just embarrassed.”

  The stranger laughed and looked down at her shoes. “I’m pretty sure you get a pass because of those crazy things,” he said, shaking his head with an amused gleam in his eye. “I can’t believe she made her bridesmaids wear those shoes.”

  Olivia glanced down at the silvery shoes strapped to her feet. She winced. “They’re pretty, at least,” she said. “You should have seen the shoes I had to wear at the last wedding I went to,” Olivia added. She rolled her eyes. “They were absolutely intolerable. I think the bride wanted to make all of her bridesmaids hobble around on purpose.”

  The guy threw his head back and laughed. It was a booming, jolly laugh that filled the barn. Olivia shivered in pleasure – she wasn’t sure that it was possible to be attracted to someone that she barely knew, but she had a hard time explaining her reaction to this guy.

  “So,” Olivia began shyly. Max started wriggling in her arms and she held him firmly, trying not to show her exasperation. “Are you a friend of Kate’s? Or Ben’s?”

  The guy laughed again, more politely this time. “It doesn’t matter,” he said, pointing towards a cutesy sign that read: “Pick a seat, not a side – it doesn’t matter when the knot is tied!”

  Olivia blushed. “I’m Olivia,” she said, offering her delicate hand.

  “Jackson,” the man growled in return. Olivia felt a chill of pleasure shoot up her spine when they touched hands. The man’s touch was firm and pleasurable, and his skin was surprisingly hot.

  “It’s nice to meet you, Olivia,” Jackson said. He smiled and showed a full mouth of bright white teeth. “And who is this little guy?” He smiled at Max.

  “He’s really shy,” Olivia said cautiously. “Don’t be offended if he-“ She stopped speaking and watched incredulously as Max grinned and shook his stubby fist in the air towards Jackson. “That’s weird,” she breathed in amazement. “He’s not usually very good with strangers. Good job, little guy,” Olivia said to Max. “His name is Max, by the way.”

  Jackson smiled. “That’s a great name,” he said.

  Olivia smiled back. It was odd – she hadn’t really talked to a guy like this in ages, and she’d been expecting it to be difficult. But talking with Jackson was the opposite of difficult; he was one of the sweetest guys that Olivia had ever met. She was shocked to realize how at ease she felt around him, almost like she could tell him anything.

  “Shall we sit?” Jackson steered them towards a table in the back of the barn. “Or do you need to go with the bridal party?”

  Olivia glanced around the room. Kate and Ben were still dancing, nestled in each other’s arms, and she didn’t see Lisa anywhere. The other two bridesmaids were sitting at a table together and drinking champagne.

  “I think I’m fine here,” Olivia said. “Kate is a pretty low-maintenance bride.”

  “Looks like it,” Jackson said politely. “So, do you know all of these people?”

  Olivia laughed. “Yeah,” she said. “We all went to high school together.” She blushed. “There’s another bridesmaid here somewhere – Lisa, the blonde one – she’s my roommate.”

  Jackson nodded. “And are you seeing anyone right now?”

  Olivia’s blush darkened to a reddish hue. “Um,” she said. “Well, no. Not really. I mean, it’s complicated, I…” She trailed off, suddenly intently focused on staring at Max as he squirmed around in the chair. “I was engaged,” she said, looking down at her left hand. “And it ended, but it was only a couple of months ago. I’m not really ready to date right now.” She swallowed. “I need to focus on being a good mom, and taking care of Max.”

  Jackson nodded. For once, there wasn’t a single trace of amusement on his handsome face. “I see,” he said slowly. “I’m sorry I’ve asked, if it’s made you uncomfortable.”

  Olivia licked her lips. “Not exactly,” she said. “It was just…well, it was ugly, and a lot of people here knew him.” She coughed. “I mean, he’s here, too. He’s one of the groomsmen.” She craned her neck and looked around the room for Derek’s close-cropped dark hair. “But I don’t see him anywhere,” she added. “Maybe that’s a good thing.”

  Jackson nodded. He winked at her. “Well, I certainly don’t mind,” he said in a jokey tone that made Olivia laugh. “I’m more than happy to have you all to myself.”

  Olivia smiled. Her fleeting discomfort melted away and she realized just how much she enjoyed being around Jackson. “Do you live around here?” Olivia waved her hand in the air. “Or did you have to fly in?”

  Jackson nodded. “I live just outside of town,” he said, stretching. “I’m a mover,” he added, flexing his arms. “If you couldn’t tell.” He winked at Olivia and she blushed again.

  “I work at dental office,” Olivia said suddenly. “I mean, I’m just a receptionist. But my boss wants me to train to be a dental hygienist.”

  “You should do that,” Jackson said. He nodded. “I wish that I’d done better in school, but truth be told, I’m one of those guys who just does better outdoors.” He yawned. “I always had a hard time being around too many people.”

  Olivia laughed. “I go crazy if I have to be alone,” she said. “That’s one of the reasons Lisa and I live together. I think I’d be so lonely without a roommate.”

  Jackson laughed. “Even with this little guy?” He reached over and ruffled Max’s hair. Olivia waited on the edge of her seat to see if her son would start screaming, but to her surprise and immense relief, he grinned right back at Jackson like they were old friends.

  “He’s a loud roommate, all right,” Olivia said. She rolled her eyes. “He won’t stop throwing these parties, and I have to pick up after him all the time,…” She started giggling at her own joke, reaching forward for a flute of champagne on the table. “I love him,” she added. “He’s the best part of my life.”

  “I bet it was hard for your fiancé to leave,” Jackson said.

  Olivia shifted in her chair. “Right,” she replied. “I’m sure it was.” She tried hard to keep her voice as neutral as possible. “Maybe he should have thought of that before he started stepping out.”