The Emotional Wound Thesaurus: A Writer's Guide to Psychological Trauma

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by Becca Puglisi


  Enjoying online interaction and relationships because they allow one to feel more confident

  Feeling guilty putting time and money into one’s own interests if one is also responsible for others

  Catering to a child’s every desire to avoid being like one’s own parents

  Seeking help to overcome real or perceived weaknesses via books, courses, or mentors

  Always making time for people no matter what

  Offering small kindnesses (notes, gifts, favors, etc.) to let people know they are valued

  Deep loyalty for close friends who show they care

  Making new memories by doing things one didn’t get to do growing up

  Nurturing one’s interests and refusing to feel guilty about doing so

  Noticing and memorizing details about others (to show them they matter)

  Always keeping one’s promises

  PERSONALITY TRAITS THAT MAY FORM

  Attributes: Ambitious, appreciative, cooperative, courteous, empathetic, friendly, generous, honorable, industrious, kind, loyal, obedient, persistent, supportive, unselfish

  Flaws: Cowardly, inflexible, insecure, irrational, jealous, judgmental, martyr, needy, obsessive, oversensitive, self-indulgent, subservient, timid, weak-willed, workaholic

  TRIGGERS THAT MIGHT AGGRAVATE THIS WOUND

  Conversations with a parent who discusses their own accomplishments, needs, etc.

  Asking for something and being turned down for no good reason

  A scenario where a parent has forgotten something important (serving a food one always hated or is allergic to, not remembering a career change or break-up, etc.)

  A friend or family member failing to come through when one needs help or support

  Someone forgetting a promise they made

  OPPORTUNITIES TO FACE OR OVERCOME THIS WOUND

  Realizing that one is in a domineering relationship and must get out or lose all sense of identity

  Wanting to develop a gift or talent that others don’t recognize or care about

  A health crisis or tragedy where one must become one’s own advocate

  Wanting to do something altruistic but having to convince people to support the idea

  Taking on a leadership role where the well-being of others depends on one’s success

  Realizing that one’s child is self-serving or spoiled because one always put their desires first

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  WITNESSING VIOLENCE AT A YOUNG AGE

  EXAMPLES

  Seeing domestic violence

  Witnessing a crime, such as a mugging, a brutal fight, or a murder

  Being present during a home invasion

  Discovering a suicide

  Witnessing a friend being assaulted by a parent, sibling, or person in authority

  Being present during a terrorist attack (and the aftermath)

  Witnessing the sexual assault of a sibling or friend, a parent, etc.

  Watching a peer or adult torture an animal

  Being taken hostage and having to watch captors abuse other victims

  Seeing atrocities committed against people of a religion, race, or group

  Being forced to attend violent rituals as part of a cult

  Being present during a horrific traffic accident, including the aftermath

  Being present during a firearm mishandling that results in grave injury or death

  Being taken from one’s family and forced into slavery

  Being a child solider

  Witnessing police brutality

  BASIC NEEDS OFTEN COMPROMISED BY THIS WOUND: Physiological needs, safety and security, love and belonging, esteem and recognition, self-actualization

  FALSE BELIEFS THAT COULD BE EMBRACED

  If you don’t want to be a victim, hit first.

  Love can be used against you.

  I can’t protect anyone because I’m weak.

  People respect strength.

  The system is broken and can’t protect anyone.

  The world is a cruel place filled with people who are inherently evil.

  THE CHARACTER MAY FEAR…

  Becoming a target of violence

  That a loved one may be killed

  Being abandoned

  Isolation

  Responsibility

  Being separated from a loved one

  Trusting people and letting them get close

  Specific organizations, races, religions, groups, or people that were involved

  POSSIBLE RESPONSES AND RESULTS

  Anxiety issues

  Difficulty sleeping

  PTSD symptoms (panic attacks, depression, flashbacks, etc.)

  Stomachaches or headaches

  Pulling away from people; becoming uncommunicative or withdrawn

  Needing to be in control (e.g., through manipulating others to get what one wants)

  Bed-wetting and behavior problems (if the character is still young)

  An increased level of aggression

  Solving problems with physical violence

  Becoming a juvenile delinquent

  Difficulty connecting to other people, especially peers

  Distrust or cynicism of authority and police (if one blames the system)

  Holes in one’s memory

  Difficulty relaxing

  Eyeing unknown situations with mistrust

  Resisting change

  Adopting biases (e.g., believing that weak people deserve what they get)

  Preferring to stay close to home

  Becoming safety-conscious

  Overreacting to perceived threats

  Committing crimes as an adult

  Being desensitized to violence

  Growing anxious or mistrustful around strangers

  Being hesitant to engage in any situation where one isn’t directly involved

  Refusing to watch the news or listen to news reports

  Choosing travel destinations carefully

  Projecting one’s fears about violence onto others, especially one’s children

  Becoming a helicopter parent

  Monitoring the games, shows, and activities one’s children are exposed to

  Being protective of the people one cares about

  Advocating against violence

  PERSONALITY TRAITS THAT MAY FORM

  Attributes: Alert, analytical, cautious, courageous, empathetic, honorable, just, loyal, nurturing, passionate, proactive, protective, resourceful, responsible, socially aware

  Flaws: Antisocial, apathetic, confrontational, controlling, cowardly, cruel, dishonest, evasive, evil, hostile, impulsive, inflexible, inhibited, insecure, irrational, irresponsible

  TRIGGERS THAT MIGHT AGGRAVATE THIS WOUND

  Sensory triggers linked to one’s trauma (seeing a weapon or bruises, hearing screams, etc.)

  Overhearing a news report of a similar violent event that has taken place

  One’s child being hurt in an accident, in a fight at school, etc.

  Visiting one’s parents (if one witnessed or was a victim of domestic abuse)

  The sight of blood or tears

  OPPORTUNITIES TO FACE OR OVERCOME THIS WOUND

  Discovering one’s child is being bullied or abused

  Being trapped in a violent relationship and needing to get out

  Being incarcerated and realizing one is heading for a point of no return

  Being forced into a situation where one must engage in violence to survive or protect another

  Assaulting someone and injuring them far more than one meant to

  Being victimized and knowing it will continue if one doesn’t do something

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  TRAUMATIC EVENTS

  A CHILD DYING ON ONE’S WATCH

  NOTES: In most cases of a child dying in one’s care—either one’s own child or another person’s son or daughter—those in charge blame themselves regardless of whether they were at fault or not. But in ca
ses where the caregiver was even accidentally to blame, the weight of responsibility and regret can be crippling. To explore this kind of wound further, this entry will focus on cases where the caregiver may have unintentionally contributed to a child’s death but isn’t legally liable. For information on losing a son or daughter due to factors completely out of one’s control, see THE DEATH OF ONE’S CHILD.

  EXAMPLES: A child dying due to…

  Them being given food that contained a known allergen

  Ingesting poison or medicine that wasn’t put away properly

  A cord or paper bag causing strangulation

  An accidental shooting while playing with a parent’s gun

  A car backing over them

  A maintenance hazard one hadn’t gotten around to fixing (a broken railing, a window that doesn’t lock, etc.)

  A house fire that started with one’s lit cigarette or a space heater that was left on

  A car accident where one was at fault

  One denying a diagnosis of a communicable disease (like pneumonia) and accidentally infecting the child with it

  Drowning while playing with friends in one’s pool

  BASIC NEEDS OFTEN COMPROMISED BY THIS WOUND: Love and belonging, esteem and recognition, self-actualization

  FALSE BELIEFS THAT COULD BE EMBRACED

  I can’t be responsible for the life of another.

  I’m untrustworthy and irresponsible.

  I’m a terrible parent.

  This wouldn’t have happened on someone else’s watch.

  I don’t deserve forgiveness.

  I can’t keep my loved ones safe.

  I am a danger to everyone around me. People are better off without me in their lives.

  THE CHARACTER MAY FEAR…

  Being responsible for someone else

  Rejection by those who are unable to forgive

  The judgment of others

  Being deemed an unfit parent and having their other children taken away

  Whatever caused the child’s death (water, driving, heights, etc.)

  POSSIBLE RESPONSES AND RESULTS

  Falling into a deep depression

  Sleeping too much or not at all

  Being unable to stop crying, or being emotionally sensitive

  Quitting one’s job and activities

  Shirking one’s commitments

  Withdrawing emotionally from the other children in one’s charge

  Avoiding children and places where they gather

  Becoming defensive; blaming others out of a need to prove one wasn’t responsible

  Becoming obsessive or compulsive in an effort to not miss anything again

  Being overprotective and overly strict with one’s remaining charges

  Experiencing panic attacks when those in one’s charge are out of sight or unable to be reached

  Withdrawing from others out of shame and guilt

  Not opening up to others

  Becoming a hermit

  Contemplating or attempting suicide

  Self-medicating

  Becoming obsessed with the deceased child; being unable to let go or move forward

  Engaging in self-destructive behaviors due to self-loathing

  A reluctance to go out, meet people, or make new friends

  Moving to a new house, city, or state in an effort to distance oneself from what happened

  Creating a memorial

  Making a donation of the child’s clothing or toys so others may benefit from them

  Calling a friend, pastor, therapist, or hotline for help

  Attending a group meeting for parents who have lost children

  PERSONALITY TRAITS THAT MAY FORM

  Attributes: Alert, cautious, cooperative, meticulous, observant, private, proactive, protective, responsible

  Flaws: Addictive, callous, cynical, evasive, fussy, humorless, inhibited, insecure, irrational, irresponsible, morbid, needy, nervous, obsessive, possessive, resentful, self-destructive, temperamental, uncommunicative, withdrawn

  TRIGGERS THAT MIGHT AGGRAVATE THIS WOUND

  Being thrust into a situation where one must watch over someone else’s child

  Having to attend other events (such as a birthday party) with one’s surviving charges

  Discovering forgotten artwork or gifts from the deceased child

  Being in a situation or at a similar place where the event occurred

  Having to buy gifts for other children, such as at Christmas or for a bar mitzvah

  Milestones associated with the deceased child (birthdays, developmental stages that would have been reached, etc.)

  Mentions of the deceased child’s name

  Losing a job opportunity (as a nanny, babysitter, etc.) when the potential employer learns about the child who died on one’s watch

  OPPORTUNITIES TO FACE OR OVERCOME THIS WOUND

  Seeing another adult accidentally endanger a child, and finally accepting that it can happen to anyone

  Experiencing fallout (a divorce due to one’s inability to cope, a rift in the community, being sued, etc.) and knowing one needs help to process the guilt and pain

  Being forgiven by the child’s parents and recognizing the need to forgive oneself

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  A HOUSE FIRE

  EXAMPLES: One’s home catching fire due to…

  Faulty wiring

  A lightning strike

  A grease fire in the kitchen

  Unattended food burning on the stove

  Space heaters being left on

  A dirty chimney

  Careless smokers

  A child playing with matches

  Flammable liquids igniting

  A candle left burning near a curtain

  Frayed Christmas tree lights

  Arson

  Forest fires or wildfires

  An elderly family member who suffers from dementia leaving the stove on

  BASIC NEEDS OFTEN COMPROMISED BY THIS WOUND: Physiological needs, safety and security

  FALSE BELIEFS THAT COULD BE EMBRACED

  I can’t be trusted with anything important (if one feels at fault).

  I can’t trust important things to anyone but me (if one is not at fault).

  It’s better not to get attached to anyone or anything.

  I can’t ever be truly safe.

  If I stay in one place long enough, something bad will inevitably happen.

  Through meticulous planning, I can keep something like this from happening again.

  I must cling tightly to my loved ones to keep them safe.

  THE CHARACTER MAY FEAR…

  Fire

  Losing irreplaceable heirlooms or sentimental items

  Making another huge mistake that has serious consequences

  Being responsible for the death of a loved one

  Not being able to ensure the safety of loved ones

  Their children suffering prolonged trauma from the event

  POSSIBLE RESPONSES AND RESULTS

  Obsessively checking one’s new residence for anything that could cause another fire to start

  Moving often, so as not to become attached to a home

  Renting rather than owning so someone else will be responsible for the premises

  Overreaching one’s budget and buying a nicer place in the hopes it will be safer

  Only purchasing functional items that can easily be replaced

  Disdaining materialism; becoming stingy

  Hoarding material items to compensate for what was lost

  Avoiding situations that make one responsible for the lives of others, such as hosting sleepovers (if the fire was one’s fault)

  Withdrawing from others out of guilt or shame

  Micromanaging others (if the fault was someone else’s)

  Smothering loved ones out of a fear of losing them

  Going overboard in regard to fire safety (buying only fire-retardant clothing, downloading apps that test the ai
r quality in one’s house and send updates via text message, etc.)

  Avoiding open flames (candles, a fire in the fireplace, etc.)

  Giving up smoking

  Always sleeping with the bedroom door open so one will wake immediately if something’s wrong

  Checking the house and family members throughout the night

  Keeping mementos and documents elsewhere (in a safety deposit box, for example)

  Adhering to healthy fire-safety practices (changing smoke detector batteries frequently, creating an evacuation plan, etc.)

  Joining a fire department as a volunteer

  Appreciating one’s blessings, knowing they can be taken away without warning

  PERSONALITY TRAITS THAT MAY FORM

  Attributes: Affectionate, alert, analytical, appreciative, cautious, grateful, meticulous, nurturing, simple, thrifty

  Flaws: Apathetic, callous, fussy, humorless, morbid, needy, obsessive, pessimistic, possessive, stingy, ungrateful, withdrawn, worrywart

  TRIGGERS THAT MIGHT AGGRAVATE THIS WOUND

  Sensory input associated with the fire (the smell of smoke, a fire’s crackle, flickering firelight, etc.)

  Not being able to find a beloved heirloom, then realizing it must have been lost in the fire

  A fire truck screaming by

  The sight of fire hazards in someone’s home (exposed wiring, cigarettes left burning, etc.)

  A fire alarm going off while cooking

  Seeing one’s child trying to play with matches

  A fire breaking out elsewhere that endangers a loved one (e.g., at a child’s school or spouse’s office)

  OPPORTUNITIES TO FACE OR OVERCOME THIS WOUND

  Being caught in a building where a fire has started and needing to get oneself and others to safety

  A forest fire threatening one’s community

  A forced evacuation (caused by a flood, earthquake, or other disaster) where one must leave everything behind

  Seeing a son or daughter exhibiting abnormal fears related to fire and realizing it’s due to one’s phobic response to the event

  RETURN TO THE TABLE OF CONTENTS

 

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