The Black Sheep and the English Rose

by Donna Kauffman

  “But—”

  “I—this isn’t the life I chose for myself, Finn. It was chosen for me. And I’ve done my best by it, but with my current notoriety, I’m more hindrance to the good we do than a help. Yes, it will die down, but that won’t be anytime soon, and the Foundation needs to continue to operate if they’re going to benefit anybody.”

  “If people want help, they can bloody well get over it. You were one of the good guys, or haven’t they bothered to remember that?”

  She bussed his nose. “You’re very good for me, you know that?”

  “I—I just don’t want to see you pushed out. You’ve lost your future with MI-8, and now this. It’s not right that you get left with nothing.”

  She kissed him and smiled. “Hardly nothing, darling. And the truth is, I think I’ll be better served, too. I can still work behind the scenes, and, someday, if it’s determined I won’t be a gawking, gaping distraction, I’ll go back to being the face of the Foundation at certain events. But keeping a low profile and focusing on the work is my best bet.” She stopped herself, and looked at him. “But that’s not what I need to focus on right now, either. What idea did you have?”

  He hadn’t even had the chance to think it out, decide how feasible it might be. Or if she’d even be interested. “I was just thinking that if I’m going to be over here for a while, well, there are people in need everywhere.”

  “You mean…take on cases here?”

  “Possibly. Maybe your Foundation has people who come for help, but not the kind you can provide. Or I’ll put Rafe on it.”

  “No…no, I think I could be some help with that. You wouldn’t believe the requests that come in to us. Some are downright heartbreaking, but don’t fall under the purview of the kind of help we provide.”

  Finn grinned. “Well, it’s a start.” He slid down in the chair a little and tucked her in with him. “You wanna do some behind-the-scenes work for me?”

  She wiggled her eyebrows and traced a finger around his neckline. “Is that what we’re calling it now?”

  Finn barked a laugh. “Actually, I was serious. With the Foundation pushing you into a new role, and your work with MI-8 clearly at an end, I was thinking maybe you could team up with me.”

  She started to laugh, then stopped. “You’re serious, aren’t you?”

  “Very,” he said, the idea rapidly expanding in his mind as he really gave it credence. “We could work here when you want or need to be here, and, if you’re willing—” He broke off, realizing he was doing it again.

  “Willing to what?” she urged.

  “I promised myself I wouldn’t push.”

  She laughed outright.

  “I think I was just insulted,” he said in a mock wounded voice.

  “I should think not,” she said, as haughty as she got. “Your drive and determination is one of the main reasons I fell in love with you. If you hadn’t pushed, I’d have let myself walk away from the best thing that ever happened to me.”

  “Wait, back up. What did you just say?”

  “That if you hadn’t pushed me, I’d have—”

  “Before that.”

  She had to stop and think. Then the most delightful shade of pink stole into her cheeks. “See, and I promised myself I wouldn’t say that.”

  “Why on earth would you promise yourself that?”

  “Because these are highly emotional times, and when I said it, I wanted you to know that my judgment wasn’t clouded by being bombarded and worn out from all the chaos. I know I cling to you lately, but—”

  He framed her face and brought it close. “You’re the most nonclingy woman in the world. Physically, we fit, emotionally we fit, but it’s because we have our own minds, our own ideas. And I’m glad you told me. Because I love you, too, Felicity Jane Trent.”

  She broke out, then, in the brightest smile he’d seen from her in, well, maybe ever.

  “That felt pretty damn good,” he said, maybe a little more surprised than he’d thought he’d be.

  “Yeah, it kind of did.” She leaned in. “Perhaps we should head up to my suite and, you know, discuss the terms of this declaration.”

  “There are going to be terms?”

  “Oh, yes. Lengthy and quite detailed terms.”

  “Am I going to like them?”

  She wiggled down in his lap. “Oh, I believe you’re going to like them a lot.”

  “You know, don’t tell Rafe or Mac, but when it comes to being a fully rounded team player, you really have it all over them.”

  She laughed. “Ah, now I have leverage.”

  He stood, and swung her up in his arms, then slid her directly over his shoulder, clamping her legs to his chest. “Good, you’ll need it.”

  He grabbed a canvas tote he’d stashed in a corner back when he’d arrived. He’d felt kind of silly then, but it had been an impulse to bring it along. Now he was glad he had.

  “What on earth is that?” she asked, craning her neck around to the side.

  He stuck his hand in the bag and pulled out a familiar blue plastic bag.

  “Is that the same bag? From our plane ride west?”

  “It is.” He handed it back to her, then strode from the room and headed to their bedroom.

  He heard the plastic rustle; then she giggled. “Good call. I love chocolate sauce, you know. And honey. I didn’t know we shared the sweet tooth.”

  “I’m not so sure it was teeth I was thinking about, so much as tongue.”

  She wriggled a little, and he picked up the pace.

  “But…what on earth is the set of children’s paint brushes for?”

  He grinned. “Arts and crafts.”

  She laughed. And suddenly, life was pretty damn perfect.

  Epilogue

  It was just past dawn when they finally arrived back at Dalton Downs. Hard to believe he’d been in England for almost six weeks. But, although there would be continued involvement, possibly years’ worth, Felicity no longer had to be available to her governing body on a moment’s notice. “Come on,” he said, “I want to show you something before everybody gets up and starts the welcome home festivities.”

  He walked her into the main house, through the central rooms, then down the gallery along the back and through the far back door. He never used this one, despite the fact that it wasn’t far from his personal library, where he relaxed in the evening. He’d left specific instructions on what he wanted, and he didn’t doubt for a second that his partners hadn’t let him down.

  She opened the door, and gasped. “Oh.” She walked out onto the cobblestone patio he’d requested be laid, complete with the white wrought-iron table and chairs set just to the far side. Across from that was a thickly padded chaise, perfect for reading. Opposite that, he’d strung a wide hammock. And surrounding all of it were richly tilled flower beds, presently empty. She spun around, and into his arms. “My garden.”

  “Well, it will be. I thought maybe you’d want to grow your own flowers, but we can have them put in if—”

  She’d learned the best way to quiet him, too. She kissed him long and passionately, which, considering how they’d spent most of their private flight over, was surprisingly vigorous.

  “It’s so lovely,” she said, her voice choked. “No one has ever done anything like that. It’s—” She spun around again, and he wrapped his arms around her waist and pulled her back against him as she took it all in again.

  He’d done for others his whole life, and yet he thought that moment might have been one of the most gratifying yet. Sometimes, doing something for the ones who didn’t expect it was more satisfying than helping the ones who did. “Everyone needs to know they’re loved,” he said, pressing his lips to her hair.

  She covered his hands with hers and squeezed them. “I don’t know what to say.”

  “Say you’ll give up some of that chaise time to lie in the hammock with me. I know that’s a bit of a deviation from your place, but—”

  “B
ut my place was just for me. This place is for us.”

  He turned her around then. “I hope you feel that way about all of Dalton Downs.”

  “You’ve made this place a home. I know Trent Hall is cold and hollow in comparison—”

  “Well, when we’re over there, we can work on changing that. If you want.”

  She threw her arms around him, and he was just spinning her around as people started spilling out of the house, onto the patio.

  “Oh, sure, sure, sneak in like thieves in the middle of the night, without a thought to your family,” Mac mock scolded.

  “Ignore him,” Kate said, right behind him.

  Rafe and Elena followed, bearing platters of food and tea. “I got a message from John and Julia,” he said as he put his platter down on the table. “They’re taking a trip to Japan. He has business interests there, and they both said they wanted some time alone.”

  “I can’t say as I blame them,” Finn said. “But I’m still disappointed they didn’t take us up on the offer to stay here.”

  “I hope Reese can put work aside at least for a little while,” Felicity said.

  “Oh, they didn’t turn you down,” Rafe countered. “They just delayed their acceptance. In fact, he said he wanted to discuss some…possibilities with us when they get back.”

  Felicity and Finn exchanged looks, as did everyone else. “Well, that could be interesting.”

  Elena poured cups of tea for Kate and Felicity and coffee for the rest of them and passed them around.

  Finn lifted his before taking a sip. “We started as a team of three best friends. We’ve grown and we’ve grown up.” He looked to Felicity, Mac looked to Kate, and Rafe to Elena; then they all looked to each other and raised their cups and mugs. “Rafe and Mac, you saved my life when I was young. I guess we saved each other. And from that bond, Trinity was eventually born. And we became a family in every way that means anything.” He shifted his toast toward Kate, then Elena, and finally Felicity. “Now we have the chance to make that family into something meaningful beyond just us. Maybe even outlasting us. Taking what we’ve learned the hard way, and doing something even better with it.”

  “Hear, hear,” Rafe said, and took a drink.

  “Hear, hear,” Kate, Mac, and Elena intoned, and followed suit.

  “Hear, hear, indeed,” Felicity said quietly, from her perch on Finn’s lap.

  “Home,” Finn said, pulling her close. “Finally, we’re all truly home.”

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  The last chord died away and Marko heard the almost noiseless click of a piano lid closing. The woman who had been playing so beautifully sighed as she put the sheets of music in order before she rose, pushing back the padded bench with a faint scrape. He heard the faint miaou of Severin’s cat, following her mistress about the adjoining chamber. Silk skirts rustled over polished floors. Then Severin swept through the double doors that led to her bedroom and stopped, her lips parting with surprise.

  “What are you doing here?”

  “Waiting for you.”

  Severin glided past the bed upon which he lay to her mirror-topped dresser. “I do not remember inviting you.” She began to take down her hair, looking at his reflection in the silvery glass, her back to him.

  “No, you didn’t.”

  “Then how did you get in?”

  Marko shrugged. He was quite at his ease stretched out upon her featherbed, luxuriously so, in fact. He rolled to his side, bracing himself with one arm and letting the other rest upon his hip. “Through the front door.”

  “Hmm. Unusual for you.”

  “What do you mean?”

  Severin gave an unladylike snort. “You’re a great one for trellises and balconies. Ever the romantic hero.”

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  “Oh? I did not notice,” Severin said, turning to face him. She put her hands on her hips and looked him over.

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  “Boots in the bed?” she murmured. “How uncivilized of you.”

  “I could not very well strip, Severin. You might have screamed.”

  She permitted herself a small smile. “I don’t think so. I’ve seen you naked before.”

  He remembered that night with chagrin. “Yes, but—nothing happened.”

  Her amber eyes glowed with amusement. “You wanted something to happen. But I was not ready.”

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  The hand on her wrist was beautiful, large and strong, and male. A sinewed forearm, the shirt cuffs turned back, led to shoulders that blocked her view of the salon. Broad shoulders, but sculpted beneath the fine linen shirt, no cravat, and a waistcoat with the top two buttons undone. A torso she suddenly ached to draw.

  She couldn’t see his face against the dim light of the chandelier. He was sitting on the chaise, leaning over her, saying something. The deep voice was rough velvet.

  “I’ve seen your work.”

  She pushed away the haze clouding her thoughts, unable or unwilling to concentrate as a ribbon of fear unfurled deep in her chest. “You have.” It was more of a statement than a question. Her artist’s eye traced his body, a sculpture that was large-boned, long-limbed, but elegantly made. Like nothing she had ever seen in real life. More like a hallucination or a bronze at the Victoria and Albert Museum.

  “It’s magnificent.”

  He was so close that she could detect his scent, the ocean, sun, and something else. Languorousness seeping into her bones, her words were slow to come. “I must have misunderstood.” She heard herself laugh, the sound throaty and low. “Most of the critics, not to mention the friends of my late and beloved husband, aren’t that generous in their praise.”

  “You’re bitter.”

  The blue-gray smoke combined in the air between them. “How discerning of you, sir. Whoever you are.” The metallic taste in her mouth stung as a flare of panic flickered in her chest.

  She tried to sit up and couldn’t. Although he wasn’t touching her, she instantly felt caged by his body limned in the shadows of the alcove. Closing her eyes, she tried to shut him out, following the shapes and patterns her imagination conjured. A stream distorted by sunlight. A face shattered into geometric planes. A rough-hewn mountain range. She was only vaguely conscious now of the low and constant sounds of strangers humming in the background.

  Then the hand skated down her arm and a jolt of awareness pulled her back. And all she could do was focus on his touch, as compelling as the opium in her bloodstream, the calloused fingers moving slowly over the sensitive skin of her wrist before he pressed one finger into her bare palm. A shiver traveled from the top of her spine to the tip of her womb.

  She opened her eyes. What if he is o
ne of them? The thought crawled out the thick morass that was her reality. She wanted to move, to run, but she couldn’t, held down by a force of nature invading her senses. The urge, out of nowhere, was contradictory and overwhelming, to reach up and loop her arms around his neck, then trace the hard muscles and warm skin of this man’s body. First to feel and then to draw him.

  “What’s in that head of yours, Helena? In your mind’s eye?” The low gravel voice mesmerized and she’d barely registered that he knew her name. His hard fingers traced a sensual pattern on her palm, the fine veins of her wrist.

  From under heavy lids, she strained to discern his features. He was so close she could track the cadence of his breathing, the rise and fall of his chest. “What I see?” Her breath was shallow and the words cost her some effort. “Inspiration? You think this is where it comes from?” She gestured to the small blue pipe with her free hand. “Not from here, not from this.”

  “Then from where?” The dark voice led her on, as surely as if he’d leaned closer, his lips hot on the curve of her neck. Beneath the heaviness of her limbs, she felt an unfamiliar need, a tightening in her chest that was equal parts desire and dread.

  “Most people believe I’m mad.” It was more of a whisper than a statement.

  “Why?”

  She shook her head against the enveloping, smothering cushions. “Because of what I do and how I do it.” Explaining anything more would not help, even if she could.

  “I saw your entries in the Salon des Refuses in Paris.” He cupped her cheek, sketching her ear, the slope of her shoulder. Her insides turned liquid and her skin hot.

  Desire coursed through her, foreign and frightening, desire for this stranger whose face she couldn’t see. His voice and his body, the here and now that could blot out the terror that hovered in the air around her. From far away she watched herself as, with leaden arms, she reached up to pull him down toward her. His muscles were granite beneath her hands.

  Her blood rushed and she breathed in his scent. “You’re what I need,” she murmured. “To escape, just for a little while…”