Hard love - Love, belonging, differences

by Edit Torma

  - And also, I don’t know what will be later.

  - I don’t believe it! You’re conducting yourself like I would have sex with somebody else!

  - I nor know why I feel like this but it very upset me… Just let’s sleeping separately, then I will invent what to do!

  - OK, I’ll do what you want, just let this your stupidity over alt last!

  Heni was sleeping on the sofa, Laurence in the bedroom. But they were only trying to sleep. The man was considering about why his wife ticked off so much like this, only because he almost kissed a girl. Anybody doesn’t shout with her husband becauseof this and she also wasn’t even ready sleping with him! And also, she didn’t know what will be after this???

  Heni was also considering about why this thing shocked her so much like this and about how she will get over this. They lived like a dream couple till then, they loved each other os much, they almost didn’t even look at anyobody else! This was simply too big change! Altough, they didn’t hav much time for each other nowadays, mainly Laurence didn’t have much time for Heni, so it still didn’t hapen so suddenly. But she was very disappointed int hat girl who she used to pity so much and who she used to want to help till then int he same time when she was also disappiointed in her husband, as an addition, they were who almost became a couple!

  Heni already felt like she was disappointed in herself. How could she expert her anger to her husband because of her own naivety that she was so sure of Lucy was a decent girl who needed help?! She was hoping the man nor was sleeping because of how she treated him that day, while she was going upstairs and softly opened the door and went into the bedroom in order to don’t wake him up if he was sleeping. She lied next to him and Laurence embraced her.

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  - I’m so happy about you changed your mind!

  - I’m sorry, I conducted myself so stupidly! I was just disappointed in Lucy and you at the same time, as an addition… - the man kissed her what interrupted her in speaking.

  - You don’t have to explain yourself. I didn’t even think you will forgive so soon like this.

  - There’s nothing to forgive.

  - But that girl almost succeeded to seduce me. But it came into my mind in time that you are who I love; you were who I wanted to kiss, just we hardly have time for each other and she was who was there happen to be then. You could have reason to believe that I don’t love you anymore because we have hardly met nowadays so I didn’t say enough times that I’m still in love with you – he was stroking Heni’s face.

  - Me too. I love only you already for many years – she was stroking the man’s chest, then she kissed Laurence and they began kissing. They didn’t do it for a long time till then.

  Lucy was offended for a while because Laurence rejected her and treated her that way, and she was disappointed because they weren’t going to meet anymore. Later she was laughing while telling the event to her friends.

  - It isn’t even a man! I pushed to him, I, a girl, who is thirty-five years younger than him, as an addition, that time when he hardly had time for his wife too so he could be totally sharp-set, but in spite of these, he hardly moved in on me! – she said during sitting in her room, on her bed, when she was having a pajamas-party.

  - His wife nor too much older than you so he could already get to it… Although if he really doesn’t have too much time for her… - the blonde girl said who was sitting on the carpet.

  - While he is so many guy in everything, It’s loss. But this is his problem if he doesn’t take advantage of being with young girls.

  - I think you’re just disappointed because he didn’t want you! – the brunette girl, who was sitting next to the blonde one, played jokes on Lucy.

  - I don’t care about this one man, there are a lot of handsome guys too, they surely won’t pass me up!

  - But I think it’s pretty romantic that he is so faithful with his wife like this! – the blonde girl was eulogizing.

  - I will immediately vomit! – the brunette one was laughing, Lucy was laughing with her.

  - The essence was that I succeeded to meet a world-famous move star, who, as an addition, looks pretty good! – she said proudly.

  - Well, you have really queer taste. He could be your father…

  - Yeah, easily – the blonde girl said.

  - I don’t care! Mature, manly men are who interest me!

  The filming was a success, and when the movie came out in cinemas, the audience well received this too. A san addition, they also nominated Laurence for Oscar for the second time in his life. He took Heni with him to The Oscars, and she was very exciting about taking part in an event like this. She was wearing a very youthful, pink dress what reached to her knees.

  - What am I doing here? I’m even not a star – she was embarrassed in the car during they were going to there. She felt the situation very awkward and was already regret having gone there.

  - Other people also take their partner there.

  - But almost every world-star’s spouse is a star.

  - Who aren’t star, their husbands and wives also come – Laurence was trying to calm her down – And they won’t even know you aren’t actress; you’re at least as nice as them. Anybody can’t know every actress in the world.

  - OK – Heni was sighing and became a bit calmer but she was still trembling by being excited. And when they arrived and they had to get out of the car to the red carpet, before the large number of people and cameras, she was at least as tight as before. She was trying to invent something in order to doesn’t have to go but anything didn’t came into her mind and also, she hadn’t enough time to invent any objection. She felt like she will even faint out of the car but she gathered strength. She knew that the attention’s going to aimed at Laurence, not at her, and also, she was hearing that his fans were shouting his name but she has never been in a so spectacular situation like this, at any so huge event like this. She was trembling while she set on the red carpet with Laurence, with holding each other’s hand. The man was giving some autograph and Heni was only standing next to him and she was feeling herself completely unnecessary. She felt she must run away. As an addition, they were constantly taking photos of Laurence and she also got into some pictures and she became even more nervous because of this. She was already also afraid of they notice in these pictures how much embarrassed she was. As an addition, they could notice this already there and they may take some photos of her, specially, by herself, to guffaw at her and put it to the net. There wasn’t too much thing what was parting her from fainting. She was standing about with troubled, forced smiling next to her husband, with clutching his hand, just like she was hanging on to him. It was surely visible on her that she wasn’t an experienced actress who has been any kind of awards ceremony – came into her mind. But they were maybe believing she was still in the beginning of her career, that this was why it was her first one and this was the reason of she was so excited like this – she was trying to calm herself down. What if some of them knew that she was a nobody – she got afraid after it. Or they weren’t sure in they were well remembering that she wasn’t a celebrity but then, when they were seeing what way she was conducting herself at an event like this, it has already clicked for them. But she couldn’t stop being excited, she couldn’t concealing this either. If only because this, while these were why she shouldn’t doing this. She was looking forward to they can sit down to their places and when this moment came and she could mingle with the large number of people, a lot o tension was over in her. The others just began becoming excited then, when they announced the nominated movies’ titles and was producing their trailers on the huge screen, than announced the winner. They were playing back the trailers of the best director’s movies too, and announced their name too, then the winner’s name. They did these with the best female co-stars too, the Oscar-winner came out from them too, then it was the best male co-star’s turn. Heni began keeping her fingers crossed for Laurence just then. They were excited while took each othe
r’s hand and they were holding their breath while waiting whose name will they say.

  - And the Oscar goes to Laurence Fishburne – Selena Gomez said on the stage, in long, blue dress. Heni’s heart almost jumped out of her. Laurence happily went to the stage and received his life’s first Oscar award. Heni was happy about the man’s happiness. He really deserved it, mainly with that he was in hospital while the others could get ready for the filming normally, with complete vigor. But she got afraid because it came into her mind in the next moment that they maybe knew that she is his wife and they may shoot her too but came into her mind that there wasn’t too much chance for this. The film camera caught Heni exactly in time, when she already succeeded to calm down. Heni noticed it and she could hardly move. She was wondering for a while, and then it came into her mind that they could see that they came there together and that they were sitting next to each other. She was so tight that sometimes couldn’t even properly think. It was a huge experience for her that her husband just won his first Oscar in his life and she was taking part in a awards ceremony for the first time in her life.

  - Thank you for the director, Steven Spielberg and everybody who trusted in me that I could take part in the movie in spite of my special situation and thank you for my beautiful wife, Heni who heartened me by her many visits so I could get ready for this role in the hospital too – Laurence said. Heni was surprised and happy about he mentioned her too and she was shyly smiling when the TV camera was shooting her again.

  - We can say to this that you carried that lot of working to extremes but it was worth the trouble – Heni said with laughing when they were already celebrating Laurence.

  - And his talent was also necessary to this! – Tom completed it with smiling.

  - We’ve knew it before too how talented he is – Heni was smiling too.

  - We could really celebrate Heni too. I still haven’t even tell everybody that she set up a foundation for those teenager girls who feel unrequited love towards a star – Heni explained to Tom and to Laurence’s other friends too why these girls needed money.

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  People soon began to know the strange foundation Heni set up and also, some offers already have come before they began to advertise it more than till then. Heni only has put a text to the net about the foundation till then but after she appeared on The Oscars with her famous husband, who won an award as the best male co-star as an addition, they began to pay attention to her. Although, not positively. They wrote things like the middle-aged movie-star’s wife was looking next to him like a teen girl, in that little-girlish dress, as an addition; she was looking even more little than she was, so the height difference was seeming to be even striker between them than it was. These remarks nor was aimed at Heni, only as at Laurence’s wife, that his wife was looking next to him like she would be his foster child. They wrote that it was a very bizarre sight that far from trying make the almost thirty years of age difference between us less visible, her wife seemed even younger than her age. The reason of they picked up on Heni, was the odd sight, and also this was the reason of they noticed how much uncomfortable she was feeling, it was how much visible that she hasn’t get to the celebrities’’ events. They also remarked how much rare it was between world stars that somebody’s partner wasn’t even famus and that Laurence was a special participant of this event also because her wife was famous at most by that foundation.

  - I thought that this will be… - Heni said during sitting on the sofa in the living-room after they read these remarks they found partly on the net, partly in news.

  - They’ll see how much famous you will be when your foundation will start more.

  - What if you were who was in the commercial? In the end you’re actor and we wouldn’t have to pay anything in this case.

  - You know that we don’t have to bother about money too much. And it would seem to be pretty odd if I encouraged people to the offering for those who aren’t as lucky as my wife…

  - We’ve already talked about this when we were talking about why I am who set up this foundation. Those girls need a bit of hope because they could become totally depressed at the end.

  - It still seems to be pretty bizarre to me.

  - Maybe you’re right. So what do you think, who should speak in the commercial?

  - In the end it could be even you. You don’t even have to put on airs because you also went through this.

  - I??? – Heni was laughing – My head already totally trembles when somebody takes a photo about me! In this case it’s at least possible to solve it so it wouldn’t be visible but… - she was laughing again – It’s absurdity for me! I have too much stage fright.

  - Anyway it’s necessary to make a change in this if you want to be stay a famous actor’s wife in the future too.

  - I know, I’m sorry about that so big scandal what was because of what way I was conducting myself at The Oscars.

  - I wouldn’t name it scandal. But you could choose a more adult-like dress too.

  - You still didn’t say it me when I chosen it.

  - I didn’t know that you were going to look in this next to me like a little teenager. I’ve looked at the photos and they’re right.

  - OK, I nor knew it!

  - If that age difference wasn’t what was even striker than usual, they maybe nor noticed how much excited you were.

  - I constantly take shame to you because of the big age difference and because you’re star and I’m not…

  - I’m sorry if I was rough, it wasn’t your fault either… But I’ve got an idea. Try to shoot some recording about yourself till this stage fright will be over enough so it wouldn’t be visible.

  - It still would be a problem to employ an actor for this.

  - No. Just there is your chance to be a bit braver.

  - I’m not enough good to you that way like this?

  - I just wanted to say you shouldn’t hide this so much beauty you have.

  - OK, you maybe see me this way but it’s only your opinion.

  - You still haven’t look at what things they write on the net about you? There are some photos they took of us when we were together, mainly at The Oscars and other photos by paparazzos and they have praised your beauty on the basis of these.

  - But not a lot of people. And I still have been showed.

  - If you appeared in a commercial too, surely more people praised you.

  - You aren’t such a jealous man! – Heni laughed.

  - I’m proud of I have a so beautiful wife like this and I want to show her to the world – then he kissed her.

  - OK, I’ll do it for your sake but if it will take too long time to me to reach not to be so excited, I’ll employ an actor.

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  Heni got the hang of practice at home with their film camera faster than she thought and she agreed to speak in the commercial. Laurence was right, sympathy was visible on Heni towards those girls who still were in that situation where Heni was a long time ago, because of Laurence, and the script was convincing too. The commercial was success.

  - The nervous depression, feeling the despair and hopeless are in existence. More young girls suffer these than we would think. These can cause so much grief that many of them flee from it in the suicide. And I still haven’t even talked about that while this unrequited love lasts, how much this blocks these girls to found a family ever or even only experience mutual love. Some people suffer through a life by the person they love is almost surely never going to love them mutually and they can’t reach to personally see him either. These girls need psychiatrists’ and psychologists’ help what some of them can’t afford. And in that case if the treatment won’t work, let’s give them some hope; let’s give them a way out from suicide in order to can afford to at least travel there where they can be near them. An autograph already even can be a huge experience for them; they can feel better by this. It isn’t a question if they need our help too. The question is if we will help them.

  - Offer 1 percen
t of your tax to those girls whose heart got lost to they can experience life’s positive side too – a middle-aged actor finished it.

  More people offered money soon. Laurence was proud of her wife made this commercial too so well like this. She deserved not to live only in the shadow of her husband. She kept saying in vain that she was happy already before because he and the children were there for her. And she really was happy but then she gave the chance for others too, to come out of that situation she also suffered when she was a teenager.

  - Go now, you will be late! – Heni began to speak with laughing after a long, passionate kissing.

  - We have time for each other at last and now I have to go away again. As an addition, not eve our common child is beginning to go to school today – Laurence answered.

  - You were there at Langston’s and Montana’s first day too, in spite of fact that you were Gina’s husband. Delilah also deserves this.

  - But we don’t know when I will get a new role and we will hardly see each other then again. I’m going to come back two hours later, then we will make up for this stayed-away time too.

  - OK – Heni was smiling and they kissed each other again before Laurence left.

  Heni went into ht children’s room where she was happily enjoying in Loretta and in the little Laurence. The little Heni also came into her mind. She had to take her to the nursery school soon. Two years later she also will be a pupil. It was incredible to her that when she will be twenty-five years old, she already will be a schoolgirl’s mom. Then her phone began ringing.

  - Hallo? It’s Henrietta Fishburne.

  - It’s Adam Black, from the Star magazine. Have you got some minutes for me? – Heni looked at the clock. She still had a half an hour till setting to the nursery school.

  - Of course – what could he want? And how could he get her phone number?