Bossman's List

by Ashlee Price

  His hand moved to rub my ass, and I moved my legs open a little more to show him the way.

  “Say my name, Camilla.”

  “Dammit, Zane!”

  He chuckled and told me that was not what he meant and I knew it. It wasn’t what he wanted, but he got me so frustrated. Couldn’t he see that he was driving me crazy?

  He was pushing me towards the desk. I bent down and wiggled my ass from side to side. It was what I wanted most and watching him pull his pants down was almost enough. It was the anticipation, because I knew what was coming next. He was going to give me all that I could handle and more.

  “Say it, Camilla!”

  “I love you, Zane!”

  He surged forward before I even knew that he was ready. I cried out, unable to stop myself when he pushed in so deep. I wasn’t prepared for him, and even though it wasn’t the first time that I’d been with him, my insides stretched like it was. I was careening on the edge one moment and sinking down the next. I gripped the side of the desk to anchor myself to the furniture as Zane started to really pound into me. One time was never enough for him.

  “You better be quiet, Doc. We don’t want everyone to know how unprofessional you are.”

  I would have answered if I could have, but the pleasure was too great. I was coming harder and harder, over and over again. It didn’t stop because he wouldn’t stop, and I finally had to beg for mercy. I couldn’t take anymore. My stomach was in knots from tightening up so much.

  “I’m never going to let you go, Camilla. Do you hear me? You’re mine.”

  The words were something that I’d heard before, but the way he said them with such conviction was hard to hear. There was more going on, and only when he pressed deep and filled me did I really think about it all. Everything that I’d planned to say, what I should have said, was running through my mind. Was it too late? Was I just too deep?

  He pulled away and I straightened up. It was hard to look at him as our juices ran down my inner thighs. It was hard to be his doctor when my body had just exploded for him on command. I was his, my body anyways, even if my mind wanted to refuse the facts.

  “I want to talk, Zane.”

  He didn’t like the sentiment, and he moved towards me like he was ready for round two. When I looked down, I realized that he was.

  “No, Zane. I’m being serious. I can’t do this anymore.”

  “I hardly touched you. You can’t be that sore already. I’ll be a little easier on you, if I must.”

  “No, this, Zane. I can’t do this anymore with you. Not ever again.”

  Chapter 3 – Maya

  “Hey, sleepyhead. Are you going to get up?”

  I moved up and opened my eyes. I woke up in the darkness of the room upstairs. I knew that it was my own room, and I was immediately saddened. The dream had been so real. I could have sworn that it was Dylan’s voice that I’d heard seconds ago.

  Rubbing my eyes, I looked at the clock and sighed to myself. Tyler was going to be home soon, and even though I hadn’t gone to the charity event the night before, I knew that I couldn’t let go of all of my responsibilities. We went to see his parents once a week, and tonight was the night. He was always on time, and if I didn’t get it together soon, I was going to make us late. He detested being late, and even though I didn’t care much about his moods, I didn’t want Tyler irked at me.

  The phone rang. I thought it was going to be Tyler reminding me that he would be there soon to pick me up, but it was actually Dylan.

  “Good morning, beautiful.”

  “How did you know that I’d just woken up?”

  “I could hear it in your voice. I wish I was there to wake up with you.”

  “Soon, Dylan.” I stopped when I realized what I’d said. Had I already made a decision that I wasn’t quite ready to say out loud? It appeared that I was closer to what I was going to do than I’d first thought. I was not torn about it after all.

  “I like the sound of that. When can I hold you again?”

  I’d told him about the dinner plans that I had, but I hadn’t told him who it was with. It was hard enough on Dylan knowing that I was married. I didn’t want to rub it in his face while I was at it. It just didn’t seem right. But now I was at a loss as to what to say.

  “I don’t know. I’ll be back in a little while, and if Tyler takes off to see Ivy like he’s been doing lately, I’ll just come down to the restaurant and see you. Maybe we can sleep for a couple of hours if that’s what you really want to do.”

  “I don’t want to hold you if there’s another choice. I want to make love to you until we both pass out, and then we can hold each other.”

  I had to laugh. No matter what kind of mood I was in and no matter what I had ahead of me, Dylan could always make me laugh and feel better. It was a knack that he had.

  “Soon, Dylan.”

  He sighed loudly and I knew that he was getting impatient with the way things were. He wanted me all of the time, and right now there wasn’t a way to do that. Right now I still had to pretend to be the good wife, and it was hard. I didn’t want to be torn between two men when my heart was very clear who it wanted. I was ready to move on to new love and see where it went with Dylan. The man loved me, and I was ready to be cherished for the rest of my life. I would never again have to question if I were loved.

  Dylan was upset with me, and I tried to soothe him with the reminder that I was most likely going to call him a bit later.

  “I don’t like having to wait to see what your husband has planned before we can figure something out. There are too many people in our relationship, Maya.”

  “I know, Dylan. That’s not always going to be the case.”

  “I hope not. I’m sick of sharing you already.”

  “I know, Dylan. I’m sorry. I don’t know what to do.”

  “We can talk about it later. Don’t you have a dinner party to go to?”

  “Yeah, I’m running late already.”

  “Go. Don’t want your husband mad at you because he has to wait.”

  There was bitterness in his voice that I hated to hear. “Please don’t be mad, Dylan. I’ll call you as soon as we’re done. I want to see you, be with you.”

  He didn’t answer for a time, and I had to wonder what he was thinking was going to happen that night. I wanted to reassure him, but it would have just made things worse. I don’t think anything I would have said then would have helped. I knew that it was hard for him because of Tyler, but it was a huge decision. I’d made it in my mind, what I wanted to do, but there was still something holding me back. I was sure that it was just fear. I was afraid of what would happen, or maybe I was just afraid of being happy.

  “I’m not mad, Maya. You told me what it was when we went out that first time. I just didn’t know that I was going to fall for you like this. It’s hard to think about you going anywhere with him.”

  “I’ll call you as soon as we get out of there and I’m alone, I promise.”

  “That’s all I’m going to get, so I’ll take it. I just don’t have to like it.”

  “I don’t like it either.”

  “Then change it, Maya.”

  He hung up after he said goodbye, but he didn’t even stay on long enough for me to say it back. I could tell that he was angry. It wasn’t hard to feel it even though he was so far away. It wasn’t as easy as he was making it out to be, and I had a feeling that he knew that. That was where the frustration came from. I felt it too, but it wasn’t the right time.

  The phone rang again, and I almost answered by saying his name. The split-second decision not to saved me a lot of grief, because it was my husband.

  “I’m waiting out front. Are you ready?”

  “No, Tyler, I’m going to be a few moments. I had a headache so I had to lie down for a while.”

  There was a long sigh. I knew that it was not what he wanted to hear. Tyler hated to be late for anything when it came to his parents. He was trying to live up to impo
ssible expectations.

  “Just get down here as soon as you can. You know that he doesn’t like to be kept waiting.”

  “Much like his son. I’ll hurry as fast as I can.”

  He hung up without saying anything else. I was close to tears. I was never going to make him happy. I’d tried for so many years, and even though we didn’t share a bed together, he was still willing to keep up the charade for his parents. It made him feel like he was in control, and more than likely it was to show his father that he could be a better man. If he only realized how alike they really were.

  Getting up, I moved slower than I should have. I no longer cared too much that he was waiting or that he was going to be upset. All I was thinking about was the biggest decision of my life. It had to be made soon, because this was going to be the last time that I played the dutiful wife. That part of my life was over.

  Chapter 4 – Zane

  “What do you mean, we can’t do this anymore? Are you talking about us being together?”

  I couldn’t believe what she was telling me. I’d gotten a small inkling when she’d mentioned getting rid of me as a client, but after what we’d just done? Did it really mean nothing to her? How could it not mean anything to her when I was so amazed by our lovemaking?

  “Yes, Zane.”

  She pulled her skirt down her long legs and I was distracted for a moment. My cock was still out and raging hard. It didn’t matter what kind of conversation we were having. That appendage was an idiot and didn’t take the hint. All it had to know was that she was right there and the smell of her need was still strong in the air. She was still wet.

  “We can’t keep doing this. I don’t think that I can see you anymore as your doctor. I have several colleagues that I think would be far better suited to your individual needs. It’s my fault for letting this get out of hand, but I want to put a stop to it. I can’t keep doing this when it’s so wrong.”

  “It’s not that easy.”

  “What isn’t?”

  “You can’t just get rid of me when you want to. I’ve bonded with you, and I’m not just your patient. How can you even think that? We’re so much more than that, Camilla. I know that you can feel it too. We’re so much more than just client and doctor.”

  I was getting upset, and even though I knew that I had to keep it together, it was almost impossible to do. Why was it so hard to hold it in when it came to Camilla?

  “I know that, Zane. We’re much more than that, and that’s the problem. It just isn’t right, and I can’t keep this up with a good conscience.”

  “Screw your conscience, Camilla. You’re not going to push me to the side like you did Jesse.”

  “How do you know about him?”

  “Let’s just say that you’re not as discreet as you would like to think you are. I wonder how many other patients you’ve accidentally gotten involved with in the past? I know I’m not the only one, but I’ll be your last. I don’t care who you’ve got your eye on, you’re mine now.”

  “I don’t want anyone else. I shouldn’t have taken advantage of you. I knew that you were vulnerable, and I should have been your doctor, not your lover.”

  I kind of grinned at her. The irony was thick, and I wished that she really knew what and who she was dealing with. She was making it out like I’d been victimized by her because she’d abused her power. Camilla was quick to forget that I was the one who’d made the first move. I was the one who’d thrown her over the desk in the first place. Maybe she needed another reminder of who I was. I didn’t need her permission.

  I pushed myself into my pants. I didn’t like the idea of her being anything but acquiescent when I wanted to have sex. But she wasn’t into it at the moment, and I was okay to wait. The next time that I gave her any, it was going to be right after she begged me, and not a second before that.

  “You’re going to be both, Camilla. You’re my doctor and my lover.”

  “No, I won’t, Zane. I have to draw a line somewhere, and we’ve already crossed it.”

  I zipped my pants up and pinned her against the desk again. The need to take her was certainly there, but I didn’t like the way she was looking at me. I wanted lust, not confusion and maybe a little fear. That was not at all what I wanted from Camilla when she looked at me.

  “There are no lines with us, Camilla. We were meant to be together, and I’m not going to let anything stand in our way, not even you.”

  “What are you going to do?”

  The fear was back in her eyes. She couldn’t imagine how much I hated to see it. I wasn’t threatening her, but if she was going to take it like that, maybe I should. I wanted her to really understand that she didn’t have a choice. I was going to have her. She was going to be mine forever. If I had to put things into perspective for her, I had no problem doing that. There wasn’t much I wouldn’t do to make her understand and accept it all. That would make both of our lives a whole lot easier.

  “I’m not going to do anything as long as this stays the same.”

  “What do you mean?”

  “You’re too smart to play stupid, Doc. As long as you keep seeing me and our sessions consist of this, everything will be fine. Life will go on the way it has, and I’ll make you come more than you thought was possible. That’s a promise, and I’ll want more, too. This once or twice a week is not at all what I want. I’m going to need it a lot more than this.”

  “What happens if I don’t go along with it, Zane? Then what?”

  It wasn’t an answer that I wanted to give her. Why did she have to be so hardheaded about it when I knew that her body was dying for more as we stood here and talked?

  “Then I’ll tell the world what kind of a doctor you really are. You’ll lose your license and your whole life will be over.”

  It summed it up real quick, but I hated to see her face fall and the wisp of a tear go to her eye. I didn’t want to make her cry, but it was about time that she realized what this was. This was our life, and I wasn’t going to let her ruin it with her morals and indecisiveness. I was sure enough for the both of us.

  “You would really do that, Zane? You would turn me in and ruin my reputation?”

  Taking her chin in my hand, I made her look at me, just so she could see that what I was saying was true. I was dead serious about it, and I wanted her to know it. “I’ll do anything to keep you, Camilla, anything. I know that you’ve heard that before, but I’m different. I’ll do whatever is necessary to keep you. There’s nothing that will keep me away from you, so just remember that. This is happening. You’re mine, whether you like it or not. If not now, you’ll eventually come to love me like I love you, and then you’ll see why it has to be this way.”

  “Please, Zane.”

  “Just tell me what you want, Camilla, and I’ll do it.”

  Part 7: Exposed

  Dr. Camilla is trying hard to hold everything in, but the blackmail by her patient and lover is enough to send her over the edge. She can’t take it anymore and she finally lets it all out. It’s like a weight off of her shoulders – but the listening ear is not who she expected.

  Tyler is strong, and he sees that she’s bothered. He pushes her to tell him, and because she really wants to get it off her chest, she does. Camilla just didn’t realize how good it was going to feel and how sweet Tyler was going to be. He cradles her in his arms to make her feel better and leans in for a kiss. Then her world turns even further upside down.

  Chapter 1 – Camilla

  “So what’s going on with you lately? You aren’t yourself, and I don’t think I’ve ever seen you ignore a guy like that giving you the eye.”

  I looked up to the guy she was talking about and I wasn’t impressed. Nothing impressed me anymore. Men were more trouble than they were worth. There was either no passion and just a friendship or something like what I had going on with Zane. We didn’t say much to each other, but the passion was there. In his case, there was far too much passion, and as soon as he wasn’t touchi
ng me, I could see how messed up it all was.

  “I’m not looking.”

  “So who are you dating?”

  I wanted to tell her about Zane. I wanted to tell someone everything that was going on, what was said, but then I would show the dirt on my own hands. He was a patient and he was off limits. The fact that he was stalking me and was now making my life very uncomfortable was just a testament to why I shouldn’t mess with my patients in the first place. I should have learned my lesson.

  “I’m not dating anyone.”

  “So why are you not worried about the hot guy at nine o’clock, then?”

  She was looking at him, and I was sure that it was because she wanted to go over there and see if he was looking at her. I wasn’t interested in anything, knowing that I couldn’t even deal with the relationship that I was in.

  “I’m just not. Why don’t you go over there and see if he wants to buy you a drink?”

  “It isn’t about that.”

  I smiled at her. It was cute that she was trying to play it off. “It’s fine, really. I’m just going to sit here and nurse this drink. I’m not going anywhere.”

  She looked unsure, but I was just happy that the concern for me was gone. I didn’t like having to lie to her, but I knew what she would say and I didn’t want to hear it. I knew that it was wrong. I didn’t need someone else telling me so.

  Watching her walk up to the table that she’d been trying to get me to pay attention to, I couldn’t help but see the slight look that came my way. He was interested in me, but I felt nothing. After I figured out a way to get rid of Zane, I wasn’t too sure that I was going to be jumping into anything for a while. Love and the like always seemed to get me in trouble. For a girl that had loved love, I wasn’t sure that I was choosing the best approach to sanity. I didn’t feel very sane.