Sinclair, Betsy, 13, 154, 253–54
Sinclair, Betsy (née Ross), 6–7, 334
Sinclair, George, 68
Sinclair, Heather, 13, 153–54, 245, 290
Sinclair, James, 5–6, 334
Sinclair, James George “Jimmy,” 7–8, 11, 86, 206
and Margaret, 35, 36, 59, 64
as parent, 13–14, 20–21, 93
political career, 11, 12, 16
Sinclair, Jan, 13, 59–60, 154, 193, 207, 237
Sinclair, Kathleen (née Bernard), 7, 8, 10–12, 59
and Margaret’s illness, 97, 158, 189, 230–31, 273
Sinclair, Lin, 13, 55, 154
Sinclair, Molly, 68
Sister Irene, 249
Skywriting (Pauley), 161–62
Smith, Selwyn, 262
Smith, Stuart, 117–18
smoking, 106, 291
Southam, Gro, 197, 303
Soviet Union, 75–78
Speakers’ Spotlight, 320–21, 324
Spock, Benjamin, 137
Stanworth, Phil, 21
Steinem, Gloria, 167
“Stopping by Woods on a Snowy Evening” (Frost), 259
Stornoway, 189–90
Streisand, Barbra, 43, 167–68
Studio 54, 167–68, 170, 180
24 Sussex Drive, 44
as family home, 91–92, 99–102, 105, 110, 123, 162–63
food at, 42, 70–71, 82–83
gardens, 80–81
renovation, 80, 91–92
security, 84–85
staff, 63, 69–71, 164
Swan, Bruce, 321–22
Tahiti, 23–26
Tanabe, Moichi, 194
Taylor, Elizabeth, 88, 150
therapy. See psychotherapy
Time magazine, 62, 159
Tito, Josip Broz, 133
Today Show, 160–61
Tofranil, 188
Traite de la Folie des Femmes Enceintes (Marcé), 361
tranquilizers, 98, 234
Trudeau, Alexandre Emmanuel (Sacha)
as adult, 148, 237, 245, 260
as baby, 95–96, 99, 100–101, 106
as child, 121, 163, 165, 198, 201–2
family, 331, 341, 342
and Margaret, 246, 330
and Margaret’s illness, 267, 268, 273, 295–96, 313, 321, 331
marriage to Zoë Bedos, 331
and Michel’s death, 247, 249
and Pierre, 250, 254, 255, 256–57
and Pierre’s death, 255, 257, 258
as teenager, 210–11
Trudeau, Andrée, 52, 57
Trudeau, Charles-Émile, 42–43, 67
Trudeau, Charles “Tip,” 52, 57
Trudeau, Ella-Grace, 341
Trudeau, Étienne, 160
Trudeau, Gala Simone, 341
Trudeau, Garry, 160
Trudeau, Grace Elliott, 48, 52, 68, 136–37
Trudeau, Justin Pierre James
as adult, 237, 260, 342–44
as baby, 81–82, 221
as child, 91–92, 95, 100, 121, 163, 196, 198, 201
family, 306, 341, 342
on Margaret, 185, 337–38
and Margaret’s illness, 234, 242, 296
and Michel’s death, 249
and Pierre’s death, 257, 258–59
Trudeau, Margaret Joan (née Sinclair). See also individual family members and friends
as actress, 118, 168, 170, 173–75, 262, 266, 286
arrests, 219–20, 309–12
and art, 80, 333
breakdown, 264–69, 347–48
as celebrity, 169–71, 174, 176, 178, 317
childhood, 1–2, 12–18
as cook, 69–71, 103, 204, 297, 306, 328
depressive episodes, 36, 38, 96–98, 111, 224–27, 261–62, 265–66
fainting episodes, 132–33, 257
film career, 173–75
financial concerns, 295–97
and French language, 52, 55, 63–64
friends, 288, 303, 335–37
as gardener, 80–81, 104–5, 212, 332
as grandmother, 306, 333, 334–35, 341, 344
as hippie, 21–23, 28–34, 35
hospitalizations, 119–22, 233–37
love/need for Pierre, 41, 99, 171, 198
manic episodes, 111–15, 119, 152–53, 157–59, 177–78, 227, 229–31, 264–65, 295
marriage to Fried, 206–7, 208–9, 224, 225, 228, 251
marriage to Pierre, 53–57, 59–60, 61–65
as mental health spokesperson, 321–30, 333
Michel’s death and, 247, 248, 250–54, 266, 287, 305–6
miscarriage, 223–24, 225
in Montreal, 302, 334–35
as mother, 99, 100, 125–26, 162–65, 191, 223
and music, 29, 287, 308
need for personal space, 73–74
need to please, 173, 286
in Ottawa, 41–42, 51, 183–85, 312–13
and parents, 13–14, 35, 36
as photographer, 139–40, 156–57, 169–70, 333
and poetry, 23, 31
and politics, 105–8, 111
pregnancy with Justin, 77–78, 79, 81
pregnancy with Kyle, 205, 206
pregnancy with Michel, 135–37
pregnancy with Sacha, 91, 92–93
as prime minister’s wife, 51–52, 56, 59, 71–73, 109–10, 137
progressive ideas, 71, 82, 106, 137
and religion, 54–55, 147–48
romance with Pierre, 24–26, 39–47, 50–53
as seamstress, 55, 163, 239
separation from Fried, 260–61
separation from Pierre, 155–56, 165–66, 169, 183–84, 198–99, 206
as skier, 62, 212, 231
as speaker, 107, 108, 137, 301, 320–21, 323–29
television career, 191–92, 203, 205, 207
at university, 20–23, 28
wardrobe, 55–56, 87–88, 111, 130–32, 133, 142, 151, 312
as wife, 62–65, 124, 128
Trudeau, Michel Charles-Émile, 244–45
as adult, 236, 237, 240–41
as baby, 137–38, 140, 141, 143
as child, 163, 186, 198, 201
death, 246–49
memorials, 251–54, 317
Trudeau, Pierre Elliott
athleticism, 45, 62, 64, 100, 109, 141, 147
attractiveness, 40, 41, 46, 133
background, 42–43, 52
character, 58–59, 108–9, 110, 136–37, 181, 337–38
death, 254–59
differences from Margaret, 57–59, 112, 156, 166, 198–99, 202–3
as father, 66–67, 95, 99, 101, 112, 126, 147, 163, 201–2, 209, 244–45, 304
frugality, 66, 67–69, 111, 185–86
generosity, 180–81
as husband, 65–67, 77–78, 88–89, 102, 110, 304
isolation, 43–44, 122
on Margaret, 26, 53–54, 137, 199, 256
and Margaret’s illness, 114–15, 119, 125–29, 152, 158
marriage difficulties, 65–66, 88–89, 126, 128–29, 146, 156, 186, 198, 202–3
Michel’s death and, 247, 249, 250–51, 254, 255
Morin-Heights cabin, 46, 209, 249, 342–44
political career, 43, 105–8, 179–80, 191, 205–6
as prime minister, 39, 40, 47–50, 172
Trudeau, Pierre Elliott (continued)
and religion, 136, 147, 165, 255
security concerns, 48, 50–51, 62, 84–87, 195–97
after separation/divorce, 165–67, 172, 210, 212
and Sinclair family, 46–48
supportiveness, 97–98, 99, 119, 123, 181
tastes and habits, 64–65, 68–69, 99, 101, 204
work habits, 101, 112–13
Trudeau, Pierre-Emmanuel (“little Pierre”), 334–35, 341, 342
Trudeau, Sacha. See Trudeau, Alexandre Emmanuel
Trudeau, Xavier James, 306, 341, 342
T
rudeau-Rouleau, Suzette, 52, 57
Turner, John, 39, 172
Uganda, 316–17
Unique Lives and Experiences, 234
United Nations
Commission on Human Rights, 318
Conference on Human Settlements (1976), 314
University of British Columbia Centre for Brain Health, 329
Valium, 98
valproic acid (Epival), 234, 238, 364
Vance, Grace, 150
Venezuela, 145–47
Verna (maid at 24 Sussex), 63, 70
Vincent, Yannick, 71, 164
Viot, Mme Jacques, 132
Vreeland, Diana, 167
Wabano Centre for Aboriginal Health (Ottawa), 249
Ward, Barbara, 314
Warhol, Andy, 167
War Measures Act, 48–49
Washington, D.C., 87, 150–51
Wasserman, Paul, 157
Wasserman, Richard and Lise, 167
water, 313–18
WaterCan, 315–18, 333
Weeds (TV series), 332
Wellbutrin, 239
Wieland, Joyce, 152–53
Wilson, Allan, 282–84
women, 304
in Africa, 315–17
mental illness and, 325–26, 328, 365
Women of Courage, 324
Wood, Ronnie, 157
Woodstock Festival, 92
woundology, 327–28
Yacoubi, Ahmed, 33–34
Yasmin Aga Khan, 157–58, 167
yoga, 307, 333
Zhou Enlai (Chou En-lai), 94
Zoran (fashion designer), 167
ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS
I would like to sincerely thank all those who helped me with my book. First of all, Caroline Moorehead and Lawrence Scanlan, for listening to my endless stories and crafting my voice into narrative. A special thanks to Ash for his devotion. To my BFF, Ann White, who separately helped me face all the trials and tribulations of this project (including some major grammatical corrections). Big thanks to my girls, who helped transcribe all my words, and to my beloved doctor, Colin Cameron, who took my hand and led me back to sanity. I am also grateful to Dr. Paul Grof and Dr. Shaila Misri for taking the time to read the manuscript and to contribute essays for the appendix.
I could not have done this book without the ever cheerful but so compassionate Iris Tupholme, my publisher, and her talented team at HarperCollins, including Neil Erickson, Rob Firing, Catherine MacGregor, Alexis Alchorn and Noelle Zitzer. My appreciation to my Quebec publisher, Flammarion, and particularly to Louise Loiselle and my translators, Claire Chabalier and Louise Chabalier. And of course, thanks to Kathy Gillespie, long in my inner circle, who brought her extensive expertise in photo reproduction and helped me sort, choose and get permission for all the memorable photos. Thanks to Michael Levine.
Without my family, I would have remained alone and lost forever. My deepest gratitude is for the love and support of my children: Justin, Sacha, Michel, Kyle and Ally—you are my everything.
Photo Section
1. My father (right) served in the Canadian Air Force in the Second World War as a flight lieutenant. They downed this German plane in Tunisia.
2. An early election campaign photo for my dad, who represented the riding of Vancouver North in the House of Commons. From left: Heather, Janet, me, Lin. Betsy would complete our family in 1951.
3. Me at age three, among the tulips on Parliament Hill. We lived in Ottawa for six years; my father was minister of fisheries from 1952 to 1957.
4. The “brawling Sinclairs.” From left: Heather, Janet, Lin, me, Betsy.
5. Juliet to Romeo at the National Library costume ball in Ottawa, on October 31, 1969.
6. Taking Pierre up to Roberts Creek on the ferry to meet my grandmother Rose Bernard, in the summer of 1970, just after we got engaged.
7. On my wedding day with flowers in my hair. I still have the dress.
8. Signing our vows on March 4, 1971, the first time I signed my name as Margaret Trudeau (with Father John Schwinkles, who performed the ceremony).
9. Being pelted with rice, leaving my parents’ house for our honeymoon.
10. Both athletes, we chose to spend our first day of marriage skiing at Whistler.
11. Dancing with Pierre in a cabane à sucre (sugar shack) in a village near Montreal, spring 1971.
12. Justin’s first official portrait.
13. Pierre with Justin, then about 18 months.
14. Caught barefoot at the Sparks Street Mall—my first encounter with a photojournalist (later my friend Peter Bregg).
15. Indira Gandhi, prime minister of India, and me, at 24 Sussex Drive.
16. In my role as prime minister’s wife, I often hosted luncheons at 24 Sussex. In this photo, the wives of the prime ministers of the Commonwealth gather in front of the porch.
17. My first meeting with the queen, in Ottawa. I was so nervous I was wobbling on my high heels; her firm hand held me up as I dipped into my curtsey. From left: Prince Philip, Governor General Right Honourable Daniel Roland Michener, Queen Elizabeth II, Norah Willis Michener, Pierre, me.
18. Was Prince Philip as bored as I was?
19. Visiting the Buddhist Longmen caves, south of Loyang, in autumn 1973. I spent a lot of time with Chou En-lai (far left)—he was wonderful. In this photo, I’m 7 1/2 months pregnant with Sacha, but I found a Chinese jacket-and-pants suit to wear.
20. Visiting a maternity hospital in China, with my entourage.
21. We had the most magnificent day visiting the Great Wall. It was a joy to be a part of history.
22. Bringing Sacha home from the hospital in December 1973.
23. Zulfikar Ali Bhutto and his wife, Nusrat, in the library at 24 Sussex Drive. Our young sons were constantly being photographed. They soon learned not to fidget!
24. Pierre and I agreed that time outdoors was crucial; we wanted our boys to have a connection with nature. Here we are hiking at Sunshine Mountain in the Canadian Rockies in the spring of 1974.
25. Making a speech on the Toronto Islands at the end of the 1974 election campaign. I did a lot of public speaking during that campaign and discovered that I had a natural talent for it.
26. I’ve always loved to garden and was proud of the fruit and vegetables we grew at Harrington Lake. Here we are showing off my produce in the summer of 1975.
27. Michel and me.
28. Michel’s christening in early December, 1975, in Vancouver. He was about two months old.
29. With my Michel and my grandmother Rose Bernard.
30. Little Sacha with the conductor’s hat he always wore. He definitely had his own style.
31. Picking up daddy at the office.
32. With Fidel Castro in Cuba, in January 1976. Fidel carried Michel everywhere.
33. At the 1976 Olympics in Montreal with Prince Charles and Prince Andrew.
34. Queen Alia (right) was a close friend. On our holiday in Jordan, King Hussein (left) made sure we saw the country.
35. Halloween with the kids (from left: Nadine, the daughter of one of the staff, Justin, Michel and Sacha). Like so many Canadian families, we took our Unicef boxes with us when we went out.
36. Our 1976 family Christmas card, taken at Harrington Lake. My last Christmas card with the family.
37. At the White House in 1977, wearing the “scandalous” dress. From left: Pierre, Jimmy Carter, me, Rosalynn Carter.
38. Here I am photographing my favourite photographer, Canadian Peter Bregg, in Washington.
39. Here I am at 24 Sussex, just before leaving for New York in 1977. Years later, my friends had this picture signed and framed for me.
40. Going off to seek fame and fortune.
41. On a beach with Michel, near my sister’s house in West Vancouver, 1978.
42. Saying goodbye to my boys. Leaving them was always so hard.
43. Dancing with tennis champion Vitas Gerulaitis at Studio 54 in New York.
44. Andy Warhol and me at
Studio 54. He and I often stood at the edge of the crowd, in awe of the spectacle before us.
45. Sophia Loren in Montreal, where she was making a film. I visited her on set and took photos all day.
46. On the set of NBC’s Today Show with Jane Pauley, when I wouldn’t answer her questions.
47. My friend Heather Gillin, who was second mummy to my boys, with Sacha and Michel.
48. Celebrating my sister Betsy’s wedding. Sacha’s not in the picture because he objected to the itchyness of his grey flannels.
49. Michel and Sacha on a summer day.
50. In front of my new house at 95 Victoria Street, Ottawa, 1980. My own house, at last.
51. In the backyard of my house in Ottawa. Refusing to conform, Sacha wouldn’t wear his stylish matching sweater.
52. The boys being free, playing in the driveway of 24 Sussex.
53. In Jamaica in 1980, with my great friends Mary-Jean Green and Lady Mary Mitchell.
54. Taken in my home, when I was working in television.
55. In Ottawa with Bill Luxton, my co-host on the talk show Morning Magazine. I loved the research and preparation before the on-air interviews. I was always curious about people and made natural connections with the guests.
56. My initiation into comedy, on Big City Comedy Hour, with John Candy. He was a wonderful, kind man. A great Canadian. The highlight: John pied me during the introduction.
57. A book signing for Consequences.
58. With Fried on our wedding day, April 18, 1984. I wore a navy blue coat dress from Saint Laurent.
59. At home with baby Kyle. He was the first baby who was all mine, no nannies.
60. Mother and child, November 27, 1984.
61. Fried could not have been a better stepfather to my boys.
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